Clearly,

 

There is nothing like having my own language, because this is the only way for me to get something clear. My Embodied Language (EL) is, of course, also proof that your Disembodied Language (DL) is destructive. If you took the trouble to talk to me about the difference between your DL and my EL, you'll find that your DL turns into EL, and that now that you finally have that choice, you prefer, like me, your EL over your DL.

 

You can join the conversation about EL free of charge on skype every Sunday morning at 4:30 am Pacific Standard Time. My skype name is limbicease and you are most welcome. You can then hear me and my Dutch friend AnnaMieke and draw your own conclusion whether EL is something you want to be involved with. AnnaMieke and I have been talking about this for quite some time and so both of us know quite a lot about it, which we like to share with others. You only talk to us to have EL, however, because we are not waiting for your or anyone’s DL.  Surely, we believe what we say is true for everyone. Since nobody knows the difference between DL and EL, it never really becomes clear that we all really only want to have EL.

 

Of course, many people have already tried to speak more clearly about their feelings. However, when you come to talk about your experiences with yourself – and therefore simultaneously with others – in EL, you’ll immediately notice, you have never done this before, in this way, and, yes, you have never really truly spoken your feelings. This staggering experience only comes about in EL, because we can only face this fact in EL. This occurs because what we feel and experience – while we are  speaking – is something quite different, when we continue to listen to the sound of our own voice. The so-called seeing of what is going on is therefore determined by our hearing of ourselves talking.

 

In fact, everyone tries in vain 

to get to their own language 

and yet no one realizes that 

getting to EL is what getting 

to your own language is really 

about. There is no clarity about 

what real communication is. 

You hear a lot lately about 

whistle blowers, people who

 broadcast important information

 that should have been kept secret. 

Supposedly, their morals are of 

the highest order, for they 

sacrifice themselves as martyrs. 

It is always about someone who

 has a conscientious objection, 

because he or she possesses knowledge,

 which is extremely burdensome for

 him or her, because they disagree 

with something or consider it a 

great injustice. They even take

 the risk of committing a criminal 

offense, because according to them 

it is absolutely necessary that they

 speak out publicly about this abuse. 

As mentioned, their organization 

or government has no desire to listen 

to them, because they go against the

established order. So, they are looking 

for another audience that has an ear

 and attention for what they have 

to say, so that they can finally be

 recognized – in what they fight 

for – with what they claim and believe.

 

Communication everywhere, again and again, degenerates into deafening blaring, exhausting bullshit and energy-consuming bla-bla, because expensive lawyers and power-hungry so-called champions of the truth, never, with a word, have said anything about EL. Under the guise of truth, officially recognized, famous experts have only continued old-timers DL, as they never stopped fighting. In EL, however, there is no struggle and not a single suffering that still affects us.

 

Although AnnaMieke and I can still experience the effect of our old, problematic language habits, the influence of our conditioning with DL has almost completely diminished. We may, every now and then, experience something that seems like a struggle, but we don't fight anymore, because our fight, every time, was resolved in our EL. And, even if it sometimes seems as if we are still apparently experiencing some suffering again, we are no longer suffering, because all of our problems were just a storm in a cup of tea. In other words, we no longer identify with what we used to believe in. As time passes, all sorts of things – which turned out to be insignificant – fall away by themselves. We both still feel the need to keep repeating to ourselves what our EL is like, as each time we do that, it adds something new and becomes even more complete.

Our Language Enlightenment (LE) is 

becoming more and more interesting, 

clearer, simpler and more fun. Because

 we really have come to find our 

own language to be much more

 important than the language of 

others, we feel chosen, as we 

don't let anyone impose anything

 on us with DL. Anyone who 

reads, that for me and AnnaMieke,

 talking to ourselves is more 

important than talking to others,

 probably immediately thinks, 

we are crazy. This is how, in

 general, people with DL reason

 about someone with EL. Only 

we have our own truth, for 

which we do not depend on 

anyone, since we are not martyrs

 or moral knights. We laugh our

 asses off at the great nonsense 

that is spoken in your DL.

 

When someone supposedly has found their own audience, with the way they handle their language, artificially, superficially and automatically – with a book, song, poem, lecture, video, course, podcast, publication, interview, TV program, play, or memoir—they have become but the banner-bearers of DL. It's just ridiculous how fake intellectuals everywhere, always demand attention and how the stupid public, willingly gives attention, only to lose themselves once again. Real intelligence is never audible in any social, political, scientific, public, philosophical discussions or debates. I know my intelligence speaks in EL. I don't feel misunderstood because I recognize myself. Others, however, feel misunderstood and judged by me, because I do not participate in their DL. They always notice this.

 

Although I no longer feel the need 

to throw away my pearls before 

the swine, because I know very 

well, without speaking to me or 

to AnnaMieke, people are simply

 unable to do it - not for us, but 

for themselves – to recognize that

 DL must be stopped,  somewhere

 people do experience that everything 

is completely different for us. 

Whether they know it or acknowledge

 it or not, they are taking something

 from us, that they, apparently, had 

to resist at first.  I'm all too familiar

 with that resistance, having studied 

psychology and behavioral science

 for years, worked in psychiatry 

and being a psychology teacher 

at Butte College. Despite my

 unusual demeanor, perceived 

by many as clumsy, there is a kind

 of influence that produces irrefutable

 change. I have always been a catalyst

 and I can let the dust fly,  because I

 have a long breath and I blow well.

 

With my EL, I named and identified everything that demanded my attention. My biggest fear, my deepest hatred, my morbid disgust and my vilest lies, have all been heard and released by me. It is precisely because of this, that I have gained access to my sense of wonder, love, gratitude and have no reservation whatsoever about what I have already said, heard and experienced about myself, because it is clear, my intelligence continues to add to this as long as I live. According to me, anyone who cannot allow this, is in deep trouble. If you would talk to me and AnnaMieke, it would become clear fast that all your dramas and problems are related to your DL. So, I don't care whether you're going to join our conversation next Sunday or not, because I've already written this and said this to myself. We don't concern ourselves with the suffering and struggles of others, because we know, there clearly is a completely different way to deal with that.     

 

Duidelijk,

 

Er gaat niets boven het hebben van mijn eigen taal, want dit is voor mij de enige manier waarop er iets duidelijk kan worden. Mijn Belichaamde Taal (BT) is natuurlijk eveneens een bewijs van het feit, dat jou Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) destructief is. Als je eens de moeite nam, om met mij over het verschil tussen jou OT en mijn BT te spreken, dan zal je merken, dat jou OT in BT verandert, en dat je – nu je eindelijk die keuze hebt – net als ik, jou BT boven jou OT verkiest.

 

Je kan vrijblijvend en gratis aan het gesprek over BT deel nemen op skype, iedere Zondag ochtend, om 4:30 am Pacific Standard Time. Mijn skype naam is limbicease en je bent van harte welkom. Je kunt mij en mijn Nederlandse vriendin AnnaMieke dan horen en de conclusive trekken of BT iets is, waar je je mee bezig wilt houden. AnnaMieke en ik hebben hier al geruime tijd met elkaar over gesproken en weten er dus beiden behoorlijk veel van af, wat wij graag met anderen zouden delen. Je gaat alleen met ons in gesprek om BT te hebben, want wij zitten niet op jou OT te wachten. Wat wij zeggen is volgens ons voor iedereen waar. Omdat niemand het verschil kent tussen OT en BT, wordt het nooit echt duidelijk, dat wij eigenlijk allemaal alleen BT willen hebben.

 

Uiteraard hebben vele mensen al geprobeerd om duidelijker over hun gevoelens te kunnen spreken. Wanneer je echter in BT, met jezelf – en daardoor dus tegelijkertijd met anderen – over je gevoelens komt te praten, dan weet je meteen, dat je dit nog nooit eerder, op deze manier, hebt gedaan en dat jij dus eigenlijk nog nooit echt over je gevoelens hebt gesproken. Deze onthutsende ervaring komt alleen tot stand in BT, omdat wij dit feit alleen in BT onder ogen kunnen zien. Dit doet zich zo voor, omdat, wat wij – tijdens het spreken – voelen, iets heel anders is, wanneer wij blijven luisteren naar de klank van onze eigen stem. Het zogenaamde zien van wat er  aan de hand is, wordt dus bepaald door ons gehoor.

 

Eigenlijk wil iedereen aan zijn eigen taal toekomen en toch heeft nog steeds helemaal niemand in de gaten, dat het daar werkelijk om gaat. Er is geen duidelijkheid over wat echte communicatie is. Je hoort de laatste tijd heel veel over die zogenaamde whistle blowers, dat zijn mensen, die allerlei belangrijke informatie aan de grote klok hangen, die eigenlijk geheim had moeten blijven. Hun moraal is van de hoogste orde, want zij offeren zich op als martelaar. Het gaat altijd om iemand, die gewetens bezwaren heeft, omdat hij of zij kennis bezit, die voor hem of haar enorm belastend is, omdat ze het ergens mee oneens zijn of het een groot onrecht vinden. Ze nemen zelfs het risiko, om hierbij een strafbaar feit te plegen, want volgens hen is het absoluut noodzakelijk, dat zij zich publiekelijke over deze misstand uitspreken. Zoals gezegd, heeft hun organisatie of regering er geen trek in, om naar hen te luisteren, want ze gaan in tegen de gevestigde orde. Ze zoeken dus naar een ander publiek, dat oor en aandacht heeft voor wat zij te vertellen hebben, zodat zij eindelijk erkent kunnen worden – in waar zij voor vechten – met wat zij beweren en geloven.  

 

Communicatie ontaard, overal, telkens opnieuw, in oorverdovend geschetter, dood-vermoeiend gelul en energie-verslindende poe-ha, omdat peper-dure advocaten en andere macht-beluste zogenaamde voor-vechters van de waarheid, nog nooit, met een woord, over BT hebben gesproken. Onder het mom van waarheid, hebben officieel erkende, beroemde experts enkel oud-bakken OT voortgezet, want ze bleven altijd maar strijden. In BT is er echter geen enkele strijd en geen enkel leed, dat ons nog deert.

 

Ofschoon AnnaMieke en ik nog wel de werking van onze oude, problematische taal-gewoontes kunnen beleven, heeft de invloed van onze conditionering met OT zo goed als geheel afgenomen. Wij ervaren misschien, zo af en toe nog wel eens iets, dat even lijkt op strijd, maar wij strijden niet meer, want ons gevecht, was elke keer weer opgelost in onze BT. En, ook al lijkt het er soms even op, alsof wij schijnbaar weer wat leed ervaren, wij lijden allang niet meer, want al onze problemen waren slechts een storm in een kop thee. Anders gezegd, wij identificeren ons niet meer met waar wij voorheen in geloofden. Met het verstrijken van de tijd, vallen allerlei zaken – die onbelangrijk bleken te zijn – vanzelf weg. Wij beiden voelen nog steeds de behoefte, om voor onszelf te blijven herhalen wat BT is, omdat het elke keer iets nieuws bijdraagt en daardoor nog vollediger wordt.

 

Onze Taal Verlichting (TV) wordt steeds boeiender, duidelijker, simpeler en leuker. Omdat wij echt onze eigen taal veel belangrijker zijn gaan vinden, dan de taal van anderen, voelen wij ons uitverkoren, omdat wij ons door niemand iets laten opleggen met OT. Iedereen die leest, dat voor mij en AnnaMieke het praten met onszelf belangrijker is, dan het praten met anderen, vindt waarschijnlijk meteen, dat wij gek zijn. Zo wordt er, over het algemeen, door mensen met OT geredeneerd over iemand met BT. Alleen wij hebben onze eigen waarheid, waarvoor wij van niemand afhankelijk zijn, want wij zijn geen martelaren of moraal-ridders en we lachen ons rot, om al de grote onzin, die in OT wordt uitgekraamd.

 

Wanneer iemand zogenaamd zijn eigen publiek lijkt te hebben gevonden, met de wijze waarop ze, heel gekunsteld, oppervlakkig en automatisch, met hun taal omgaan – met een boek, lied, gedicht, lezing, video, publicatie, cursus, podcast, interview, TV programma, toneelstuk of memoir – dan zijn zij  slechts de vaandel-dragers van OT geworden. Het is ronduit belachelijk, hoe nep-intellektuelen overal, altijd de aandacht blijven eisen en hoe het domme publiek, gewillig aandacht geeft, om zichzelf weer  te kunnen verliezen. Intelligentie is nooit hoorbaar in maatschappelijke, politieke, wetenschappelijk, openbare, filosofische discussies. Ik weet dat mijn intelligentie spreekt in mijn BT en ik voel mij niet miskend, omdat ik mezelf erken. Anderen voelen zich echter door mij miskend en veroordeeld, omdat ik niet mee doe met hun OT. Ze merken dat altijd.  

 

Ofschoon ik allang en breed de behoefte niet meer heb, om mijn BT te grabbel te gooien, omdat ik wel weet, dat men, zonder met mij of met AnnaMieke te spreken, niet in staat is, om het – niet voor ons, maar voor zichzelf – te erkennen, toch ervaart men ergens wel, dat alles voor ons totaal anders is. Of ze het nou weten of erkennen of niet, ze pakken toch iets van ons op, waar zij zich eerst, schijnbaar, tegen hebben moeten verzetten. Ik ben maar al te bekend met die weerstand, omdat ik jaren psychologie en gedragswetenschap heb gestudeerd, in psychiatrie heb gewerkt en psychologie-leraar ben geweest, bij Butte College. Ondanks mijn ongebruikelijke manier van doen, die door velen als klunzig wordt opgevat, is er toch een soort van invloed, die onweerlegbare verandering veroorzaakt. Ik ben altijd een catalyst geweest, die heel wat stof heeft doen opwaaien, omdat ik een lange adem heb en goed kan blazen.  

 

Met mijn BT benoemde en vereenzelfigde ik mij met alles wat mijn aandacht vroeg. Mijn grootste angst, mijn diepste haat, mijn ziekelijke walging en mijn  gemene leugens, zijn allemaal door mij gehoord en losgelaten. Ik heb juist daardoor toegang gekregen tot mijn verwondering, liefde, dankbaarheid en heb geen enkele terughoudendheid ten aanzien van wat ik al over mijzelf heb gezegd, gehoord en ervaren, omdat het duidelijk is, dat mijn intelligentie hieraan zal blijven toevoegen, zolang ik leef. Iedereen die dit niet kan toelaten, zit diep in de problemen. Als je met mij en AnnaMieke zou praten, werd duidelijk, dat al je dramas en problemen samenhangen met je OT. Het kan me dus niet schelen of jij de komende Zondag gaat deelnemen aan ons gesprek of niet, want ik heb dit al geschreven en aan mijzelf gezegd. Het leed en de strijd van de ander, daar houden wij ons niet mee bezig, want wij weten, dat er echt een heel andere manier is om ermee om te gaan.            

 

Hierarchy,

 

I suddenly want to write something in Dutch again. It is, of course, about my conditioning with my Disembodied Language (DL), which has its origins in the Dutch Language. As I talked out loud with  myself this morning, it dawned on me that the language of others - contrary to what is often claimed - does not really give any security, to live without fear. Only our own language, Embodied Language (EL), can reassure and protect us.

 

The DL of others has always distracted, confused and disturbed us from ourselves, as we have never spoken to anyone who found their EL. In EL there is no longer any lying about the undeniable fact that we have always spoken exclusively and only to those who, in turn, have merely imitated others. There is something going on that no one has ever been able to speak clearly about. Only he or she, who has EL is reporting on this for the first time.

  

To find out what really happens to us as individuals - even though, as social beings, we are constantly focused on each other and therefore hardly have the opportunity to express ourselves with our own sound, energy and wording, to let ourselves know how we feel about things - it is very important not so much to leave the other, but rather to leave the language of the other - DL - behind us. Of course, only with the help of our own EL are we able to gain the self-knowledge that remains of lasting value.

 

When we have finally been able to listen carefully to what we have to say to ourselves, it turns out that we are in complete agreement with ourselves and therefore have no conflict whatsoever about the incontrovertible fact that we have something to say, which, apparently, no one else seems to do or want to do: by speaking aloud, alone, to ourselves about anything and everything and listening to the sound of our own voice, we are able to effortlessly break out of the hierarchical conditioning with DL.

 

The individual, who can have EL with him or herself knows and acknowledges that he or she knows something which others do not know - and cannot know because of their DL - but this knowing is very different from the other knowing, because it is about self-knowledge. Knowledge gained through the study of other people's books and texts results in specialization, which places us in the hierarchy of society. Those who, so to speak, are more knowledgeable and more responsible than others, are higher on the ladder than those who are ignorant or less irresponsible.

 

With EL, we take great responsibility for ourselves. This means, we don’t care at all about the so-called rank or status that people occupy because of their knowledge, skill, profession, education, ambition, origin, money, violence or power. In other words, no one is higher or lower, better or worse, conscious or unconscious, because EL lets us know that we, as individuals, really cannot be compared to anyone. EL is so transformative because we really only talk to ourselves and, therefore, we don't listen to or see ourselves from within the hierarchy, but from who we are authentically.

 

While EL allows us to remain unaffected by whatever everyone, everywhere in the world, is dragging their feet on, there's a process taking place in which everyone, the servants of those who were in charge, can have their say, so to speak. If you really want to know the ins and outs, then there is nothing to learn from those who, so to speak, have it all figured out. They lie that it is printed and they write best-selling books.

 

With EL, we make all listeners feel that what they have to say is very important. With EL we realize all too well that with DL, a hierarchy is created again, always, everywhere. Rich or poor, criminal or addicted, insane or homeless, everywhere there are people who take control and others are subservient. Nobody has any interest in listening to speakers from below their station. The lower you go in the hierarchy, the less those people have something to say, because everyone feels too good to really listen.

 

In EL we continue to listen to what we have to tell ourselves and the whole of humanity is reviewed. It is obvious that, from top to bottom, everyone is forcing each other to speak as, according to that layer, should be spoken and to listen, as, according to that rank, should be obeyed. Everyone knows their place and for those who do not recognize this, there is no justice, for they are heartlessly and mercilessly punished everywhere, without any discussion. It's not fun, but it's true.

 

It is impossible to speak with DL about hierarchy. Those who do this – involuntarily, unconsciously, also with their DL – are in enormous danger, both literally and figuratively. So we all just keep acting as if nothing is happening at all. The well-known proverb, see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil, says it very well, with those three monkeys, who of course represent people. Those who have climbed the highest on the social ladder are expected to lie most convincingly, but those who live at the bottom of society, shamelessly expose everything that is wrong with man. We can imagine what we are about to learn – about ourselves – even if we don’t speak with them directly. I am not saying they are the solution to the world's problems, but there is simply no getting around the fact, the unheard man everywhere is desperate, criminal, chaotic, anti-social, mad, addicted, hopeless, unreasonable, helpless and unconscious. I'm not talking about listening to others, but about listening to ourselves. It is a form of protection and self-nurturing.

 

 

Hierarchie,

 

Ik wil ineens weer iets in het Nederlands schrijven. Het gaat natuurlijk over mijn conditionering met mijn Ontlichaamde Taal (OT), die zijn oorsprong heeft in de Nederlandse Taal. Toen ik vanmorgen met mezelf sprak, drong het tot me door, dat de taal van anderen – in tegenstelling tot wat vaak wordt beweerd – eigenlijk geen enkele geborgenheid geeft, om zonder angst te leven. Alleen onze eigen taal, Belichaamde Taal (BT), kan ons gerust stellen.

 

De OT van anderen heeft ons altijd van onszelf afgeleid, verward en verstoord, aangezien we nog nooit met iemand hebben gesproken, die zijn BT had gevonden. In BT valt niet langer meer te liegen over het onmiskenbare feit, dat we altijd uitsluitend en alleen met hen hebben gesproken, die, ook op hun beurt weer, anderen hebben nagepraat. Er is iets aan de hand, waarover niemand ooit helder heeft kunnen spreken en waarvan alleen hij of zij, die BT heeft, dus voor het eerst melding maakt.  

 

Om aan de weet te komen, wat er echt met ons, als individu, gebeurd – ook al zijn wij, als sociale wezens, voortdurend op elkaar gericht en daardoor nauwelijks in de gelegenheid, om met onze eigen klank, energie en bewoording, aan onszelf te laten weten, wat wij er zelf van vinden – is het van groot belang, om niet zozeer, de ander, maar juist de taal van de ander – OT – achter ons te laten. Uiteraard zijn wij alleen met behulp van onze eigen BT in staat, om de zelf-kennis op te doen, die voor ons van blijvende waarde blijft en die dus beklijft.

 

Wanneer wij ons eindelijk wat hebben kunnen bezig houden, met het aandachtig beluisteren, naar wat wij aan onszelf te zeggen hebben, dan blijkt, dat wij het volledig met onszelf eens zijn en dus geen enkel conflict hebben, over het onomstotelijke feit, dat wij iets doen, wat schijnbaar niemand doet of wil doen: door hardop, alleen, met onszelf over van alles en nog wat te spreken en te luisteren naar de klank van onze eigen stem, zijn wij in staat, om moeiteloos uit de hierarchische conditionering met OT te stappen.

 

De enkeling, die BT met zichzelf kan hebben, weet en erkent, dat hij of zij iets weet, wat anderen niet weten – en vanwege OT niet kunnen weten – maar dit weten, is heel anders dan het andere weten, omdat het om werkelijke zelf-kennis gaat. De kennis, die wordt opgedaan, door de studie van boeken en teksten van anderen, heeft specializatie tot gevolg, die ons een plaats doet innemen in de hierarchie van de maatschappij. Zij die, zogezegd, meer kennis van zaken hebben en grotere verantwoordelijkheid hebben dan anderen, staan hoger op de ladder, dan zij, die onwetend of minder onverantwoordelijk zijn.

 

Met BT nemen wij grote verantwoordelijkheid voor onszelf. Dit betekent, dat wij ons helemaal niets aantrekken van de zogenaamde rang of stand, die mensen vanwege hun kennis, vaardigheid, beroep, opleiding, ambitie, komaf, geld, geweld of macht innemen. Anders gezegd, niemand is hoger of lager, beter of slechter, bewuster of onbewuster, want BT laat ons weten, dat wij, als individu, werkelijk met niemand zijn te vergelijken. BT is zo transformerend, omdat wij echt alleen maar met onszelf spreken en onszelf daardoor niet beluisteren of bezien vanuit de hierarchie, maar vanuit wie wij authentiek zijn.

 

Ofschoon BT ons in staat stelt, om onaangetast te blijven, over alles wat iedereen, overal ter wereld, op sleep-touw neemt, vindt er in ons een proces plaats, waarin wij, als het ware, iedereen aan het woord gaan laten, die de dienaren zijn of waren, van hen, die het voor het zeggen hadden of hebben. Als je echt het naadje van de kous wilt weten, dan valt er niets te leren van hen, die het zogezegd helemaal voor elkaar hebben. Zij liegen dat het gedrukt staat.

 

Met BT, geven we alle dienaren, alle luisteraars, het gevoel, dat wat zij te zeggen hebben heel belangrijk is. Wij beseffen met BT maar al te goed, dat er met OT, altijd, overal, weer een hierarchie tot stand komt. Arm of rijk, crimineel of verslaafd, krankzinnig of dakloos, overal zijn er weer mensen, die zogezegd de touwtjes in handen nemen en anderen zijn dan weer ondergeschikt. Niemand heeft enige interesse, om te luisteren naar sprekers van beneden hun stand. Hoe lager je komt in de hierarchie, des te minder die mensen iets te vertellen hebben, want iedereen voelt zich te goed, om echt te luisteren.  

 

In BT blijven we luisteren naar wat wij aan onszelf te vertellen hebben en de gehele mensheid passeert de revue. Het is overduidelijk, dat, van boven naar beneden, iedereen elkaar dwingt om te spreken, zoals er, volgens die laag, gesproken dient te worden en te luisteren, zoals er, volgens die rang, gehoorzaamd dient te worden. Iedereen weet zijn plaats en voor hen die dit niet erkennen, is er geen rechtvaardigheid, want ze worden overal, zonder enige vorm van discussie, harteloos en genadeloos afgestrafd. Het is niet leuk, maar wel waar.

 

Er valt met OT niet over deze hierachie te spreken. Zij die dit – onwillekeurig, onbewust, eveneens met OT – doen, lopen enorm gevaar, zowel letterlijk en figuurlijk. We doen dus allemaal maar voortdurend alsof er helemaal niets aan de hand is. Het bekende spreek-woord, zie geen kwaad, hoor geen kwaad en spreek geen kwaad, zegt het heel goed, met die drie aapjes, die natuurlijk mensen voorstellen. Van hen die het hoogst op de maatschappelijke ladder zijn geklommen, wordt altijd verwacht, dat ze het meest overtuigend kunnen liegen, maar zij die leven aan de onderkant van de samenleving, vertonen schaamteloos alles wat fout is aan de mens. Wij kunnen ons best wel voorstellen, wat wij aan de weet gaan komen – over onszelf –  ook al spreken wij niet met hen. Ik zeg niet, dat zij de oplossing zijn voor de problemen van de wereld, maar er valt eenvoudigweg niet meer omheen te gaan, dat de mens, die niet gehoord word, waanzinnig, a-sociaal, verslaafd, crimineel, chaotisch, hopeloos, redeloos, gewetenloos is. Ik heb het niet over het luisteren naar anderen, maar over het luisteren naar onszelf.  Het is een vorm van bescherming en zelf-koestering.   

 

Reading,

 

Just acknowledge, that you are simply reading and understanding this. If you know English language, these words are not alien to you and you know what they mean. Why did I write this? To let myself know, I understand my own language. Why do you read this? To understand what I’ve written. Why would it be of any importance to you, to understand what I understand and to understand your own language? Only you could answer that question, but I can answer it for myself. I want to understand my language, because I somehow got distracted from it.

 

If I understand, that a bread is a bread and a book is a book, there is no need for me to understand my language, but when I call a book a bread, there is a problem and I need to understand, I got it wrong. It isn’t immediately clear to me, why or how, I got into this odd belief, a bread is a book, but I didn’t switch these meanings around, because these words both start with the letter b. Also, didn’t read any book in which they were talking about bread and reading a book isn’t anything like eating bread. However, I can imagine, as a metaphor, that digesting bread, is like understanding what is in the book, but that seems like quite a stretch, as to me, a book and a bread are unrelated. You could say, that I was, at some point, hungry for knowledge and the bread I ate, was some book, but why did I keep feeling hungry for more knowledge? Why didn’t the bread satiate?

 

I grew up in a Catholic family and probably because of that, I remember an old idiom from the Bible. The phrase “man cannot live by bread alone” means that people need not just food, but also poetry, art, music, etc. to live happily. I looked it up and the full saying comes from Matthew 4:4, who was one of the twelve apostles. He wrote that Jesus said “Man does not live on bread alone, but every word that comes from the mouth of God”, which is commonly understood as: people need more than material things to truly live. Surely, it is interesting that God, presumably, created man in his own image, that is, with a mouth. It is very unlikely, that the religious infatuation with God, is ever going to remind us of the importance of the words coming from the only real mouth: our own mouth. God’s mouth isn’t real and neither is yours. I was distracted from my own language, because of someone else’s way of talking.

 

I got distracted by what someone said, so quickly and so unnoticeably. It caused me many problems, as it happened so often. I was puzzled, why this was happening and I had to find out. When, in my early twenties, for the first time, I listened to my own voice, while I spoke with myself, I felt, I had finally found out, why I kept being so easily distracted: in what I now call Disembodied Language (DL), I was never listening to myself, but in Embodied Language (EL), I am always listening to myself, while I speak.

 

While it was an epiphany, to discover the difference between DL and EL, it didn’t mean, I was cured from being distracted. To the contrary, it became more apparent to me, how distracted I had always been by the DL of others. In effect, I kept losing myself in my own DL, again and again, but, as I had already found out about the difference between DL and EL, I was, quicker and, increasingly, more skillfully, able to return again to my EL, which I viewed as my own language. Moreover, returning to EL, meant, I could attend to and achieve my own priorities and goals.

 

I know from experience, what it is like, to have lost my own language. It is a very scary, uncomfortable feeling. I absolutely don’t like it, when some alien language takes possession of me, because I have no control over it. My own language, I can control and although I wasn’t always able to control my own language, I have become capable of it, because I noticed, how magnificent it is, to have control of my own language, but also, how frightening it is, to be overtaken by a language, which isn’t mine, which, therefore, I cannot control. My own language gives me control. Each time, I was not paying attention to my EL, I was feeling lost, conflicted and troubled.  

 

When I say, I am in control of my own language, I literally mean, I am the master of my own language. This doesn’t, in any way relate to what people mean by control, because they are used to DL and have no idea at all, what ongoing EL could be like. For those, like you, who, unknowingly, every day, engage in DL, control means: trying to deal with your fear. In other words, the issue of control only comes up, because you – justifiably – fear not being in control. Control in EL, by contrast, means: the absence of fear. Thus, our way of dealing with language, in DL, results in control out of fear, but in EL, in control without fear.

 

Of course, you too have your own language – your EL – , but you have only had it shortly, sporadically and unreliably. In effect, you’ve lost it immediately, the moment you’ve had it. You’ve lost it so fast, that you don’t even know what happened, because you don’t acknowledge and know, you actually really have your own language. It’s paradoxical, because, supposedly, at some level, you know, you must have your own way and, therefore, your must have your own language, to have your own way, to be able to live a happy and satisfying life, but you also know very well, that what you want – your language – is continuously under attack and overwhelmed, by the language of others. In DL, speakers always compete with each, to get the attention. Surely, the language others have, to dominate your language or anyone else’s language, is not their language. The fact, that people, everywhere, try to force their language on each other, signifies they are not in touch with or aware of their own language. When we have our own language, we know: nobody can force their language on us. EL inoculates us against this evil.

 

When parents teach their children their language, children do with this language – and everything they were taught with this language – what they want. If what the parents taught, was truly to the benefit of the child, the child would recognize that, feel that,  acknowledge that and know that, but if, claiming it is for your own good, parents only wanted their child to be how they wanted them to be, the child will feel conflicted about how he or she was taught.  Even under the best of circumstances, when one grows up and becomes independent, one inevitably has to sort through the many conflicting messages, received from father, mother or other care-takers.

 

As we, presumably, mature, the question becomes: how do we deal with our own language? How could I have written this blog, if I hadn’t dealt satisfactorily with my own language? For a long time, I wondered why my insistence on language, isn’t recognized and rewarded, but – although I found this very hard to accept and didn’t even want to believe it – nobody has their own language. It was baffling to realize, that – although, for many years, I myself was barely capable of continuing with my own EL – apparently, I was the only one who knew how to do it. Stopping my DL, was and is like waking up from a bad dream.  I fully admit, I sometimes still briefly engage in DL.  

 

When you wake up from your sleep, you may be able to remember, you had some dream. No matter what it was, it was merely a dream and since you have woken up, whatever you dreamed about fades away. People have made all sorts of assumptions about their dreams, because they tried, in vain, to make sense of the strange events, they believed to have experienced in their sleep. They were just lying in their bed and everything was, happening only in their head and their imagination was running amok. Surely, dreams have a relationship to how we deal with our language. Their very presence, basically, indicates, we have lost our own language and their absence signifies, our language is properly used.

 

We are as enthralled with our dreams, as we are obsessed about our death, as we cannot have any language about it. You could say both, in sleep as well as in death, language ends. Since we haven’t had our own language and were always having DL, we, unconsciously, want our dreams and deaths to make up for this incredible loss. We project, as we say, our language on dreams and on death, in the same way as when we find fault in others, because we refuse to admit our own faults. Certainly, we use our language incorrectly, as we attempt to put our language to work when it comes to others, but we remain mute, when it comes to ourselves. Stated differently, dreams are always expressions of our fears, which we have never properly spoken about with EL. In the exact same way, that we fear death, we fear our dreams, as we can feel, we are not in control, but our language isn’t catching up with this.

 

As stated, in EL, we are in control of our language, because we truly have our own language, but in DL, although we pretend to be in control, we are not in control of our language, as we don’t know what it is like to have our own language. Indeed, DL, our usual way of talking, which sets the stage for how we deal with our language, is the language of fear. Unless we discover our own language, we never overcome our biggest fear, which is: fear of our own language.    

 

Although everyone in DL tries to be somebody, who they are not, no one succeeds in not being fearful of the language, which contradicts their superstitious beliefs. Only those, who have EL successfully deal with their fears of language, as they talk with their EL about their DL. What they previously – in DL – feared others might say about them, they have already said about themselves. Moreover, they know for sure, their fear was never about their own language, but of DL, the language of others. In EL, we have faith in our language, as it tells us what we need to live a peaceful, successful and healthy life. Our own language, like our breathing,  heart-beat or  digestion, goes by itself. There is no one, who says this, no one who writes this and, therefore, there is no one to fabricate or imagine any nonsense. And, remember, you are not reading this either, as there is no you, who reads. Talking would make it very clear: you are not, who you believed to be with DL.     

 

              

 

Subtle,

 

Subtle, real humor comes from a place of feeling totally at ease. What you keep hearing from those, who are trying to be funny, is nothing but anxiety, stress, frustration and fear. God – who, of course, does not exist – forbid, you don’t laugh about their  antics, as that would be devastating for these already messed up individuals, who, compulsively put themselves in front of a crowd, since they have absolutely no boundaries. There is, also no such thing, as a friendly crowd, because the demand for distracting entertainment itself is always brutal.

 

My peaceful humor is incredibly rare, as it requires the ongoing Embodied Language (LE) of me as well as you. Luckily, against all odds, I have acquired the skill to have continuous EL, but to catch my humor, you have yet to become as sensitive as I am. Most likely, you don’t get what I’m talking about, as you still want the old-fashioned, canned-laughter of the stupid jokes with a punch-line.  The problem with your unaddressed lack of receptivity, is that you can never let anything emerge organically, naturally and effortlessly, by itself. Your forceful, ugly, unconscious tendency, with your Disembodied Language (DL), is that you want to push it, but genuine laughter can’t be pushed. The cramp, the noise, the humiliation and the deprivation, you have endured in the name of so-called humor, was always because you have allowed some creepy moron, to cover you with his or her word-salad and to slam you with his or her carefully-scripted, aggressive, fake speech, which is supposed to be funny and expecting you to laugh.

 

Authentic laughter isn’t occurring because someone  says or does something funny, but because you are open to experiencing something new. It is a delicate matter, but you keep interfering with what presents itself in the moment, which is always delightful and interesting. Your new perspective on laughter, which derives from your EL, will reveal many aspects about humor, you have never considered. For instance, why is there so little laughter in your life, to begin with? Why do you even have a need – I don’t – for those presumed experts, to make you laugh? It is absurd, to have fun, you go to some show or turn on some program. It is like going to church on Sunday, to salvage your sense of religion, by listening to some guilt-tripping preacher. Why is always someone else, presumably, the guide to your source of happiness?

 

The sickening, nonsensical, demeaning, competitive trickery, accepted and praised as humor, goes on in spite of the fact, you have probably been educated. Science teaches, that your imaginary higher power doesn’t exist. So, why bother listening to someone, why believe in someone, who, supposedly, knows the way to your enlightenment, while you could be having the time of your life – like I do – just speaking with, listening to and laughing only about yourself?  

 

I can’t laugh about you, but I can and will never stop laughing about myself. What has gone on, in blunt, painful, sad, disgusting humor, is it always distracted you and made you more unaware about yourself, as you kept being busy with someone else’s words, instead of your own. The misunderstood connection between humor and consciousness has continued, because you have been fooled into believing, that you can’t be conscious, while you laugh. You must, so to speak, surrender to the laughter and forget about everything else, which is all your troubles and problems. However, only by being verbal about your own drama and your own failures, can you begin to really laugh. Moreover, your own disasters are  funnier than those of others, as they will go away, if you laugh about them, but your catastrophes don’t  subside, if you only laugh at the flops of others.

 

Our amusement, spiritual, political, economic and  philosophic –  entertainment business, is a racket. EL puts a permanent end to our idiotic infatuation with deceitful special people, who appear to give us something, but who, in reality, only take something away from us, which belongs to us. Our attention and energy must go to ourselves, only then can we laugh about ourselves and realize, our Language Enlightenment (LE) was already the case. What we call attention or consciousness is our language and our own ability to tell ourselves what is funny. We know what is funny, but with DL, we were never able to tell ourselves and become familiar with it. Therefore, our own fun was always postponed and forgotten, due to our dull, coercive, self-effacing DL.

 

In EL, we can laugh so much, because we finally get it right, what we were getting so wrong, for so long, with our DL. Thus, there is forgiveness – which was never there before – in our laughter. We have been endlessly beating ourselves up over all our mistakes, but with EL, there’s no holding back anymore, as we tell ourselves how it really is with us, regardless of what others might say about it. They can’t say much about it, as we learn to keep it to ourselves, after all, it is our own sense of humor. We don’t mind having fun on our own, as we understand very keenly, why others don’t and can’t appreciate what we have in such abundance. Moreover, our laughter wants us to be on our own, so that we can have more of it.

 

The only ones who can laugh with us, are those who have also embraced their lonely laughter. Together with them, we experience the ecstatic waves of our laughter-energy, which blesses each conversation we are having. Surely, our laughter is the celebration of our subtle LE with our subtle EL. There couldn’t be any other way and we are fully at peace with what we say. With DL, there is always a hangover about what was said, but in EL, we forget, as we no longer believe that we have thoughts in our head.