Myself,
With
Embodied Language (EL) there is no me, inside of me, who, supposedly, does what
I do. Funny-how, I am myself, I can be myself, because there is no self.
Moreover, I am happy with and confident in myself, because I don’t have a mind.
I speak, listen, write or read, but
there is no I, while I’m speaking, listening, writing or reading, as there is
only behavior. Surely, I am very alive, while there is no I, who behaves me. I
am happy, peaceful and full of energy, yet, there is no me, who has this
experience, it just so happens.
In
Disembodied Language (DL) I couldn’t be myself, no matter how hard I tried to
be myself or whatever I believed to be. Being myself is an experience of oneness,
which I call Language Enlightenment (LE). I can hear in the sound of my voice, if
I express this or not. Whenever I express my LE, I have EL, but when I express
my DL, I have lost touch with my LE. I was, like everyone, conditioned to have
DL, but with EL, my LE become revealed and being myself, is my LE.
Whenever
someone has EL with me, they will come to the same conclusion: there is no self
and there is no one, who let’s go of his or her identity. Perhaps, it is best
for the reader, who reads this, to consider a simple example. Let’s say, you make
yourself a sandwich. There is no self, just your handling of the knife, the
plate, the bread and the peanut-butter. In other words, you know what to do and
how to do it. You have great peanut-butter-sandwich-knowledge, but there really
is no you, who has this knowledge.
Whenever you
engage in EL, you will repeatedly say things like this: I am amazed at myself,
how clever I am. Also, you will often say: I am so happy with and proud of
myself, that I have stopped my DL, because I was feeling unhappy and
dissatisfied with myself, whenever I engaged in DL. I have made such a big deal
about myself, while I engaged DL, but with EL, being myself means, I have no
problems and have nothing to worry
about. Indeed, being myself, is to be free of the me, who I believed to be. With
my EL, my LE has instructed me, to stop believing in myself.
I still use
the same language, now that I can have EL, but I use it totally differently, from
when I was using DL. When I changed from DL to EL, I stopped being who I never
was and I became, who I have always been. While I was speaking with myself and
listening to myself, it happened, in a moment. I felt no longer negative, but
positive, since my language no longer drained my energy, but filled me with energy.
I say there is no me inside of me and that is why it is so.
Whenever you
engage in EL, you will become aware how often you unconsciously engage in DL.
Surely, there really is no you, who engages in DL or in EL, but in DL, you are
convinced to be there, while in EL, you have blissfully dissolved in your LE. And,
you will proudly say: I did all this by myself, because nobody could stop my DL
for me. Your DL stopped, as you realized it happened again, you were overtaken
by your conditioning. At some point – after you have explored your LE with your
EL – the you, who was, presumably, overtaken by DL, has disappeared, and,
therefore, you are no longer affected by DL. You have not stopped your DL, as
it stopped by itself.
Only with
DL, you keep asking yourself: why is this still happening to me, while I keep
telling myself, I deserve something better? Obviously, you are not really
listening to yourself, because you don’t take the time, to really speak with
yourself. Furthermore, who you believe to be, keeps you more busy about others
than about yourself. With EL, you will ask yourself the serious question: when
are you going to take care of yourself? I know your answer, because it is the
same for everyone with EL. Your answer will be: I only begin to care take of
myself, when talking with myself, becomes more important than talking with others.
With others, I keep having DL, but by talking with myself, I can step out of DL
and have EL.
By talking aloud
alone and by listening to ourselves, we easily step out of our DL and our
identity. Until now, this has been considered a spiritual matter, but it is actually
a language-skill. We instruct ourselves by disengaging from the DL with others
and we free ourselves, to be able to talk with ourselves and have EL. With EL, I
calmly say: I have to protect myself, in the way that has proven to be most
effective. In EL, we really listen to what we say to ourselves. We are our own
authority and we follow through on our own reasoning, our own intelligence, our
own LE.