Said,
During
Disembodied Language (DL), everyone keeps busy with what someone else has said
or written, but no one pays attention, to how they themselves deal with their own
language. How do you actually use your language? You have probably never even wondered
about that? Most likely, you often feel as if your language is using you. It is
more common than we are willing to admit, that we basically feel possessed by our
own language. In effect, we have many imaginary problems with what we call our thinking.
It may seem as if thinking never stops and all you can do, is distract yourself,
by watching TV, social media or by listening to some podcast of a supposedly
knowledgeable, funny, holy, beautiful, famous speaker, who is more important than you.
When was the
last time, you said, what you really felt? Of course, it is not true, that you cannot
talk about your feelings, but you are certainly not used to it, as doing so,
would require you to engage in Embodied Language (EL). You may believe, you can
talk about your so-called feelings or thoughts, but once you are able to have steady
EL and not just a fleeting, occasional, accidental moment of it, it is very
clear, that what you used to talk about, what you used to consider as your
feelings, has nothing to do with what you truly feel. Whenever you speak about
your so-called feelings, it is always negative. Although it is doubtful, you are
able to have them, even if you did have
some positive feelings, with DL, you simply cannot speak about them. Moreover,
you are much more stupid, than you believe to be, because of your inability, to
talk with yourself and with others about genuinely felt positive emotions.
I have studied
psychology, I have given therapy and I have taught psychology classes for many
years and I have consistently found, with all the people I have met, they have no
idea about what they feel. When people, because of my explanations and hints
finally have some ongoing EL, they are baffled by the fact, that they are expressing
what they have always felt, but were never able to express in their own words. And,
even in the best possible scenario, even if they shortly acknowledge the overwhelmingly sad and
profoundly problematic truth of what I am saying, they go right back to their childishly-demanding,
stupid, mechanical, DL, by making it seem, as if they have always known, what
they are briefly saying, as they compare it, to what they already supposedly
know. Instead of really being able to say what they feel, they can only talk about
what it felt like, to say what they feel. They lack the skill and awareness to verbally,
accurately, joyfully, express their feelings.
Someone like
me, who knows about the difference between DL and EL, who possesses the necessary
skill-set, to be able to talk about positive feelings, is treated as the enemy,
by those who lack this ability. Nobody acquires the skill I have accidentally. I
didn’t learn about EL because I studied psychology, but I acquired it, because
I came to the realization that my DL has never worked for me. Moreover, since I
have withdrawn from my own DL and from the DL of others, because I only wanted
to continue with my own EL, I had to come to terms with the difficult fact,
that, although everyone is against me, I am not against anyone. I managed to become
bullet-proof against the denial of EL and stopped fighting DL.
I am not
going to lie about it: you are my adversary, because whether you know it or
not, admit it or not or are aware of it or not, you always try to stop my EL. Ignore
me, reject me, ridicule me or in one way or another put yourself above me, I don’t
get into your face anymore about this, as I rather do what I can, to
permanently stay away from you. I am not into what is known as Non-Violent Communication.
Such a phony way of talking, I consider as DL and I don’t care about it,
because I have the real deal, as I know, I have EL. I am well-aware, people have
made many failed attempts at EL, but never succeeded. If they had succeeded,
they would want to talk with me, but anyone with some kind of angle, on how we
supposedly should talk, never likes to talk with me.
I find it
very interesting, that those with DL always overpower those with EL, but would
never get into a real conversation with them, as that would expose their
trickery. While those with DL dominate every aspect of social life, in every
society, they are not, as I have previously mentioned, in touch with their
feelings and, therefore, they are always struggling with who they really are. It
is, of course, irrational, that one part
of them is fighting with another part and that, presumably, their thoughts are
in conflict with their feelings. However, this is the complicated reality everyone creates and lives in every
day, with their DL. If they would ever take the time to listen to themselves,
it would become effortlessly clear, that this conflict is self-imposed and
imaginary.
Indeed, it
would be a tremendous relief, to have EL, for those who are used to DL. Yet, I have
given up on providing this possibility, as all I can do is write like this. As
someone, who knows very well how his EL continues, I don’t get close anymore,
as I used to, to anyone with DL, as that would get me involved in DL again. I’m
being realistic, as I have gone through that process many times. It was always excruciating
disturbing to me, but I have, at long last, come to understand, I cannot afford
to speak with anyone with DL anymore. It is only in recent days, that I find
myself capable of doing that, as for many years, I tried to change others, while
overlooking myself.
Usually, we
overlook the beam in our own eyes, as we are, so to speak, trying to remove the
splinter from someone else’s eye. Hypocritically, we only see the flaws of
others, but we don’t see our own, what Christians have called, sins. Usually, when
we say that we ignore our own problems, we refer to the fact that something is
wrong with us. We rather remain busy with the bad behavior of others, than
admit our own mistakes. However, nothing like that is the case with me. I am
talking about over-hearing, but not about over-looking. In DL, we never listen
to ourselves, as we are constantly manipulated into listening to others.
Therefore, what we miss out on in DL, is not what is wrong with us, but what is
right, that is, we always miss out on our positive feelings.
In EL, we
can’t miss the fact that we are expressing our natural, happy, authentic self. As
long as I was still trying to preach the gospel of EL, to those with DL, I was missing
out on enjoying my own Language Enlightenment (LE). Stated differently, each time
I was entertaining the idle hope of changing your DL into EL, I threw away my
own LE, as I again ended up having DL with you. I feel happy I can recognize this
and that is why, I no longer try to change the fact about my life, that I have
many enemies. I am proud about it. I am not some fool screaming in the desert,
as I have EL only with those with whom I can enjoy my LE. They are there, but
you, who want me to have negative DL with you, are not one of them.