Hole,

 

I am not an expert in astronomy, but I have read, that a black hole is a region in space time, where gravity is so strong, that nothing including light and other electromagnetic waves has enough energy to escape it. Black holes are formed by gravitational collapses of massive objects, such as stars or galaxies. I don’t find use of metaphors productive, but in the case of a black hole, I make an exception.

 

In this writing, I will refer to our habitual, unnatural,  unconscious way of talking – in which we produce what I call Disembodied Language (DL), in which we, as speakers, do not listen to ourselves – as a black hole. Black holes are often personified and talked about in terms of human actions, such as eating, devouring, and spewing matter. Often, black holes are depicted as predators, beasts or monsters.

 

Although a black hole is not really a hole, but just a metaphor, we are not very sophisticated about our use of language and this is why, many view a black hole as some mysterious space entity, which is up to no good. Perhaps, it helps to reflect on the meaning of a metaphor, as a writing or communication tool. It gets messy really quickly with metaphors, because the entire notion, that there is language inside of us and that we think, is – in and of itself – a metaphor.

To be clear, here are a couple of common metaphors, so that everyone knows why thinking is also a metaphor. Time is money. No man is an island. He had a heart of stone. Laughter is the best medicine. He was a late bloomer. Age is a state of mind. She was living in her own bubble. So, a metaphor is a figure of speech that describes an object or action in a way that isn't literally true but helps explain an idea or make a comparison. Likewise, I think therefore I am, is also a metaphor. 

 

We never talk about the metaphor, that we think, because our dull, insensitive DL simply doesn’t allow us to do that. We need Embodied Language (EL), to get clear about the undeniable fact, that so-called private speech – that, we can have a quiet, inner conversation, inside our head with ourselves and we are thinking about our thinking – isn’t the same as talking out loud with ourselves. In other words, metaphors, will only help us to learn, by making useful associations, as long as we are not getting completely carried away by our fantasy language.

 

Our DL is a black hole, because we never even talk about the immense difference between our EL and our DL, between real human interaction and the pretention or the assumption of communication. We need to have EL, to be able to talk about the great difference between DL and EL. Indeed, we have to lighten up, to get out of our dark hole of DL.

 

I can only laugh, if there is EL. All the amusement that is based on DL, I find utterly boring. Yes, you cannot laugh with me, because of your automatic DL, but I continue to have fun with my EL, without you. My humor doesn’t depend on your humorless way of dealing with language. Actually, I am quite comfortable laughing by myself and talking out loud with myself. While you may regard this as a sign of madness, I consider my EL as the basis of sanity.  

 

Make no mistake, it is you, who can’t laugh and who is insane. It is you, not me, who needs someone else to make you laugh, who is a demanding, fanatic, miserable, dissatisfied, angry problem-maker. It is you, who keeps claiming to have the solution for all the troubles, which you keep creating. Your silver bullets never hit the target they were supposed to hit. Such a great wild-west-cowboy metaphor. You are not a straight shooter and you aim at the wrong target anyway. Shooting from the hip with your DL and taking pot-shots, isn’t working, when your goal is to live a happy, fulfilling, peaceful, meaningful life.

 

You need to hit rock-bottom, with your inability to laugh. I will verbally do whatever I can, to help you achieve that deep level of profound understanding. I know, my humor is for me and not for you and that is why I keep rubbing it in, because it feels so good, to get this off my chest. I have no problem with you down there. By all means, be yourself and remain as you are: stupid, distracted, arrogant, superstitious, ignorant and phony. I will continue to do my thing and let you know how much fun I have, up here.

 

During our horrible DL, everybody always pretends to be better than or above someone else, but once we finally can have our EL, we realize, we are truly better off, than those zealous morons, who imagine themselves to be superior to others. I am not in any kind of hole, financially or psychologically. My life is a thorn in your eye and my scornful voice hurts your ears, as I am not bound by your rules of seriousness and denial. I can say what I want to say, that is why I say what makes me laugh, as I can see, you are still trying to run away, while you are already in a hole.

 

You are not as special as you believe yourself to be, and you are afraid of being exposed for your lies. It is funny, to hear you tremble. You know as well as I do, you can’t even keep up with any of your own tragic, repetitive sob-stories. I’m not listening to you, so you have the chance to listen to yourself, but I also just don’t want to hear your DL. I don’t look at you, as I don’t like to look at you. I don’t talk with you, because I have much better things to do.  

 

You are deserving of my rejection. I have such great fun condemning you, while I am moving further and further away from you. I am out of reach. You are on your own – without me – inevitably lost, unhinged and confused. You have never acknowledged, when I was still around you, I gave you comfort, I accepted you, I didn’t force anything on you, but now that I’m gone, you must admit, you are a mess, as you are no longer able to put me down. How is it going for you, down there? Having any fun yet? Yes, I am up here.

 

You put yourself above me, a million times, because I was open to you and honest with you. You put me down so often, but how do you feel now, that I am laughing at you? Your deceitfulness is hilarious and isn’t getting you anywhere. I feel so vindicated where I am, because my EL guides every step I take, but you keep digging yourself deeper and deeper into the hole, you are in, because of your forceful DL. Go ahead. You are doing great, keep on digging, you are getting deep now. How could I write or say this, if I wasn’t standing – metaphorically – next to your dark hole and giving you my loud instructions?

 

You need encouragement, to finish the job. You’ve got to go so deep, that when you look up, you can see the bottom. Hahaha, stop complaining, get on with it. This is what you wanted. This is what you are good at. This is who you are. This is your life’s purpose and you are almost there. Don’t slow down, don’t give up and dig this grave, you feel so entitled to. You have put so much effort and time into it. Nobody could stop you. You have definitely made your point, somewhere, down there. Bye.  

 

Self-knowledge,

 

When you have found your own truth, because you have acquired self-knowledge – with your Embodied Language (EL) – of course, you are right. Moreover, you want to be right, even if no one believes you. It is total nonsense, that self-realized or enlightened people don’t want to be right or, that for them, being right, presumably doesn’t matter. I say with 100% certainty, that anyone who speaks or writes about the truth, consciousness, meditation or self-knowledge, but can’t even explain the difference between Disembodied Language (DL) and EL, is always someone, who is verbally coercing others into accepting, he or she is right. They don’t know what the hell they are talking about, as they can’t handle the real self-knowledge, which can only be acquired with their ongoing EL.

 

Anyone who has ever talked with me, knows very well, that I am right. The fact, that they don’t want to admit it, is their problem. They rather go to fake people, who tell them what to do, so that they can go on imagining, they are living in la-la-land. You are damn right, that I am right, and that I am not hiding my truth. However, I don’t speak truth to power, as that would be a waste of my time. I speak my truth to myself and that is all I do. I am my own authority.

 

I’ve heard and read so often, that if a person wants to be right, or insists, that he or she is right, this is a sure sign, they are ignorant, because – according to all the wise and well-meaning gurus – someone who claims to be enlightened, cannot be enlightened. It is so incredibly stupid, as all of these creepy, holy people, sneakily keep asserting their own, presumably, humble, but always boring, lifeless verbiage. Only someone like me – who is so convinced, he is right, that he audaciously accuses all the world’s religious leaders, their so-called religions, and their psychologically sleepy, fanatic followers of being full of shit – who is never ever allowed to be right. Someone like me, with real self-knowledge, is always ignored and refused.  This is why we engage, as we have done since time memorial, in DL and create more chaos and conflict.

 

I have discovered the difference between DL and EL, but my self-knowledge is taboo for anyone who has DL. Nothing changes the fact that I am right, as I deal with my language correctly, while everyone with DL, unknowingly, engages incorrectly with their language. I always have positive consequences of my EL, but with DL, we always experience negative consequences. The fact that everyone with their DL always keeps denying this, only makes things worse.

 

It is very easy to ignore me and, most likely, even if you read and understand this or listen to and watch you my You Tube videos, you will still continue to do what you have always done. I know this, because I have found out about my Language Enlightenment (LE) with my ongoing EL. I want everyone who reads this to know, I am right. Everyone who continues with DL is completely in the dark about themselves, because of how they deal with their language. My being right, is not about convincing anyone, but about my being. There is no need to convince anyone, as you are here with me, right now, whether you like it or not. You read this and you understand these words.

 

You need to convince yourself, you can – and you should – stop your own problematic DL and engage in intelligent EL. I am right, you must do for yourself, what no one can do for someone else. I am right, being busy with someone else, is a waste of your time and energy. You have your family, your social network of friends and colleagues, your community you imagine belonging to or being obliged to, your team, your religion, your professional and political affiliation, but you are never just verbally busy only with yourself. You cannot be, because your dull DL wouldn’t let you. You are not free and when you talk about freedom, you get stuck in your DL, which is a group-behavior, that denigrates your individuality.

 

It has been said, many times – one wonders why? Oh, I get it, it was always said with DL – man exists for and in himself alone and that his highest end is self-knowledge and self-realization in conformity with the dictates of his reason, apart altogether from the state and society. Yes, yes, yes, bla, bla, bla, and, Plato said, in 399 BC, an unobserved life isn’t worth living, yet millions of people have kept on living like that, with automatic, unconscious DL.

 

The absence of self-knowledge and of the absolute certainty that we are right, underlies many of our weaknesses and problems. We have endlessly tried to fix or improve on our so-called blind-spots, but the difference between DL and EL isn’t a matter of observing something that is visible, but of hearing something that we didn’t listen to. We have never listened to ourselves, as we were all conditioned, to listen to others or to make others listen to us. During DL, listening, means listening to someone else, and, therefore, we continue to lack any self-knowledge.

 

Anyone who, like me, can have ongoing EL, is not only against DL, but he or she is also against all the group-behavior, which was created and maintained by our unaddressed involvement in DL. So, yes, I am right, because I am conscious of the self-defeating behavior everyone is involved in. I am not trying to get people involved in EL – I admit, I have done that, but I no longer do that – but everyone with their DL, keeps trying to get me involved in their DL. I hate DL and I despise everyone, who is pushing their agenda on me and on others. I don’t have any agenda and my EL shows what matters, each time I engage in it.

 

When I don’t engage in EL, I am nowhere or rather, I am now-here, without language. This absence of my language is my presence. I’m as fine without my EL as with it. I like to go wherever my EL takes me and my silence isn’t some future ideal, but my everyday reality of how I deal with my language. I am proud of what I’ve achieved, as I’ve abandoned everything and everyone that relates to idiotic DL. Surely, it is very significant that hardly anybody reads my blog, watches my videos or talks with me about the importance of EL, the language of self-knowledge, which, whether we are willing to admit it or not or conscious or not, of course, applies to everyone.

 

Many people talk these days about nonduality and have latched onto what is known in India as Advaita. This ancient philosophy identifies the individual self or atman, with the ground of reality or brahman. Supposedly, we gain self-knowledge, by studying this rotten old doctrine, which is said to take us from duality into unity. Nothing is further from the truth, as the difference between our DL and EL is never talked about. Therefore, these overrated, mystical, Vedic scriptures, like any other writing, are of course, a product of our cross-cultural, dumb DL. Indeed, all writing, which is considered to be more important than speaking, is a stand-in-the-way to our EL. In EL, duality is not an issue and neither is our listening. We make a big deal of these matters, due to our DL.

 

Our lack of attention for our own spoken language – by listening to ourselves while we speak – shows us,  how constantly distracted we are, by everything that is competing for our attention. Luckily, I gave up on this dreadful struggle, to get anyone’s attention for EL. I am no longer sad or disappointed about it, that almost nobody cares about their EL. Actually, I am very happy and relieved, that I no longer care whether you will ever be able to have EL with me. It was a great burden, I have carried for very long. Yet, I still like to be more emphatic about the undeniable fact, that I know something nobody knows or even wants to know. Go ahead and quote me on that. I write and speak about my own self-knowledge, which could only be acquired with my own ongoing EL.

 

You waste your time, energy and money on people, who don’t know themselves, let alone others. You can only acquire self-knowledge, if you speak with yourself and tell yourself, what is going on with you. I don’t tell you what you need to tell yourself. I am not into any debates, discussions or even so-called dialogues. I have found, to my own astonishment and great disbelief, that none of our well-intended efforts, to really communicate with one another, have ever resulted in our ongoing EL.

 

You either stop your own DL and, then, you can talk with me and have EL with me or you continue doing what you have been doing and things will – as they always do with DL – get worse and worse, although you will try to do everything you can, to prove to yourself and to others, that you are doing fantastic. Perhaps, you even succeed in fooling others, but if you read this, you will have to admit, that you have  never succeeded in fooling yourself. There really is this possibility of genuine self-knowledge, but you haven’t discovered, experienced or explored it yet. You still have a chance, as long as you are alive. You can do it right now and acknowledge that I am right. However, the great difference between your DL and your EL has nothing to do with working on yourself. You will only continue with your EL, if you enjoy it.

 

If you weren’t seeking self-knowledge, you wouldn’t be reading this. Yet, this text or what I or someone else is saying, cannot give you self-knowledge, as you need to tell yourself – with your EL – what you know and what you don’t know. Self-knowledge is like EL, you either have it or you don’t. When you have it, you know that you have it and if believe that you don’t have self-knowledge or that you only have limited self-knowledge, this simply means, that you are still engaging in DL. In EL, your self-knowledge is unlimited and constantly renewing itself. There is no such thing as wrong self-knowledge. You were never having any self-knowledge in the first place, if your self-knowledge turned out to be completely bogus. And, this is the situation you are in, due to your DL.

 

When you have had EL, you will have expressed your self-knowledge and, then – only then – can you sit in contentment and be empty. As I have stated in my other writings, this has nothing to do with meditation – which is an outdated construct – as this is an entirely different process of, first, having been busy with language and, then, being without any language. The immaculate silence and peace, we are experiencing, is a product of our EL. As we stabilize in EL, we are aware of our LE, our presence, which is there, while we are having EL and which continues, after we are we are done with our EL.  

 

Expectation,

 

During our habitual, unconscious Disembodied Language (DL), we are constantly acting out our own as well as each other’s conditioning history. In other words, we expect ourselves and each other, to have DL. Due to that expectation, our DL never really stops, because we remain fearful of what happens, when we don’t do as we were told and have learned to instruct ourselves. The word expectation has its origin in Latin, ex-spectare, to await, look out for, desire, hope, long for or anticipate; look for with anticipation; from ex, thoroughly, + spectare, to look; specere, to look at; the root, spek, to observe.

 

A big belly shows that a woman is expecting a baby. However, in hierarchical DL, domineering speakers expect much more, than only something to see, as they demand to hear the listener’s subservience. In the case of a stand-up comedian, a speaker expects an audience to laugh; in the case of an adulterating prince, who got promoted to be king, people must bow, and say, your highness; and, in the case of the perverted, child-licking – yak – oh so very kind Dalai Lama, humble, meditative people say, your holiness.

 

In a previous awkward attempt, to pander to the black vote, Biden said something, I find hilariously cringeworthy and racist, in an interview with Lenard Larry McKelvey, who is a radio host, TV personality and comedian, who professionally calls himself Charlamagne tha God. I guess that ridiculous name is meant to demand respect and you are supposed to feel really impressed. However, not fuddy-duddy Biden. Nobody on the left has ever called him out on his bullshit, but Biden condescendingly said: I’ll tell you, if you have a problem figuring out whether you are for me or for Trump, then you ain’t black. I hope his expectation, to get more votes fails, as his horrible administration finds illegal migrants more important than any minority group, blacks included. The American people have the expectation of their president, to close the border and keep us safe. It is my expectation, that Biden is going to be voted out.      

 

During DL, we can never say to other people what we want to say and, therefore, everyone constantly talks behind each other’s back. People still talk, but not with those, who are supposedly more important than them. Shit always rolls downhill, so we only talk with those, who tolerate us, so-called friends, our family, those we expect not to betray us. We all know – even though we don’t know about the difference between DL and Embodied Language (EL) – even those who are close to us, put themselves above us and try to get away with their pretentions, intimidations and defensiveness. Basically, in DL, we are all at war with each other and ourselves and we are not having any expectation, it will ever change.

 

Once you have tasted the difference between your DL and your EL, you have a different expectation. In DL, all your expectations were frustrating, because you were never correctly predicting your happiness, but during EL, your expectation comes through. You experience more and more positive consequences of all the behavior which is under control of your EL. In other words, in DL expectation is a bad thing, but in EL, it is the name of the game and things just keep getting better. Surely, EL defies all expectation.

 

When you know, that you can have EL, you will have a very different expectation, than everyone who has DL. You expect others to have EL with you, because you don’t want to have any DL anymore. In other words, you want an audience, who is like you and who responds to your verbal behavior, in the same way, that you respond to it yourself. Ideally, this is the case, that is why – generally speaking – when we speak the same language, we understand each other. Although we speak the same language, we still don’t understand each other, because we don’t know, we engage in DL. Actually, in DL, we pretend to understand each other and know our place, but the underlying expectation is, to do as we are told.

 

When people say to each other, that you shouldn’t have any expectations, they basically mean to say, that in DL, you only get what you, supposedly, really want, if you demand it. Only those speakers, who impress, and, therefore, dominate their audience – which, obviously, isn’t allowed to speak – will win the battle for attention. This is why, during our usual way of talking, only a few speakers, do the talking, because there is no turn-taking in DL. In EL, on the other hand, speakers become listeners and listeners become speakers fluidly and without any rules.

 

I used to be sad, frustrated and dissatisfied about the fact that nobody would have EL with me, but my understanding about the difference between DL and EL has continued to evolve. There is nothing wrong with the expectation of others, to have EL with me – and, I would even say, it is necessary – but, similarly to speaking the same language, such an expectation only works with those, who know the same EL, but it doesn’t work for those, who only know about DL. I expect them to have their stupid, insensitive, phony, sentimental, competitive, mechanical DL. Surely, my expectation now doesn’t bother me, as I am correct, because with DL, people will always continue with their attention-demanding, needy, superficial crap.

 

I was at the Open Mike last night and played a peaceful melody on my recorder. Since I had not been there for many months, people seemed to have noticed my absence. In the past, I shared with others, I write this blog about EL and my Language Enlightenment (LE) and I post videos on You Tube, but this time, I didn’t even try to talk with anyone. Although I was kindly welcomed back, nobody came to talk with me about EL, because they are all stuck in pretentious DL. Luckily, I was one of the first to perform. While I was playing my tune, I felt aware, I would like to have an audience, who hears, like I can hear myself and for a brief moment, it even seemed as if this audience was present, but then, disturbing noises were heard, as people couldn’t listen. Only those who have listened to themselves, can listen to others. Those who engage in DL, don’t listen to themselves and their so-called listening to others is, from my perspective, a form of lying and disrespect. Everything was exactly as I had expected it to be. I realized, why I hadn’t gone there anymore. I felt so relieved, to leave that crowd and to go home early.  

 

While I was young, I travelled to Italy, Greece, Israel and Egypt. My expectation was to find something meaningful about the root of Western civilization, but all I found, was a bunch of ruins and museums, which upon visiting, didn’t interest me very much. While I met many friendly people, the majority was hopelessly stuck in their cultural identity and unable to comprehend, there exists a reality beyond what they were used to. I searched for my true self, but also this expectation went up in smoke. With my DL, I was never able to find what I was looking for, but with EL, I’ve stopped looking, as everything became clear. Expectation is such loaded word, because it is true for everyone with DL, that our childish wishes don’t come true. When we grow up and can finally engage in ongoing EL, we laugh about our LE, which makes us always expect and achieve the very best.     

 

Talking,

 

Whenever we are talking about what we are supposedly thinking, we are, without realizing this, always only just talking about our way of talking. This is not some word game, but this is a very serious issue. Since there are no thoughts, words, sentences, concepts, theories, pictures, narratives or ideas, inside of our heads, but only, approximately, 86 billion neurons and 40 different kinds of neurotransmitters, it should be clear to anyone – who has a rudimentary notion of neuroscience – that whatever we say about our so-called mind, is merely just that: talk. Thus, when we stop talking about our mind, there simply is no mind.

 

In the same way, that we can all agree, the world is round, not flat, and 2+2=4, not 5 or 3, we should all  be able to agree with each other, it is due to our usual, accepted, unconscious, effortful, negative, unnatural Disembodied Language (DL), we never talk about the far-reaching, profoundly problematic implications and consequences of the irrefutable fact, that our language doesn’t exist inside of us.

 

When someone is cancelled from a social media platform, it is not because of what that person is thinking, but because of what he or she was saying and what other people don’t want us to hear or because of what he or she was writing and what others don’t want us to read. I read somewhere, that Kevin Newsome, the governor of California, was saying that Trump is dominating the narrative, but aren’t all politicians always trying to do exactly the same? Newsome urged his fellow Democrats to become more aggressive and he even insisted, that the Democrats are justified to do so, as they have all the facts on their side. What is described here is the battle for attention, which is the main characteristic of DL, our adversarial way of talking, which creates and exploits the illusion of thinking, inner language, so-called private speech or our overrated mind.

 

Only when someone is talking, can we hear what someone is saying and only when something is written, can we read what someone has written. Moreover, only when we say something ourselves, can we hear ourselves and only if we have written something – to or for ourselves – can we read and understand what we have written about ourselves. Certainly, we can also write and read about what we as well as others have said or written and, thus, we can instruct ourselves or each other, about how our language – that is, how our way of talking – either sets the stage for desirable or undesirable behavior.

 

Due to our almost permanent, automatic, reactive, unintelligent involvement in DL, our way of talking is such, that the gigantic difference between our DL and our Embodied Language (EL) is never properly addressed. Surely, we have tried to address it, but we never succeeded, as it was impossible for us to talk with DL about our DL. Whenever we did that, as the example of the windbag Kevin Newsom illustrates, our DL got even more insidious, and, obviously, this led to all the chaos and conflict in our world today. Certainly, we have created the reality as it is, with the way in which we are talking with each other.

 

There is only going to be any significant progress in human relationship, when we begin to talk with EL about our DL, as only such a way of talking will allow us to stop our DL, because we can finally recognize and fully acknowledge, how terribly destructive and problematic our DL is. However, as of yet, we cannot and do not stop our DL, as we haven’t acquired the EL, that is necessary to address it, let alone, stop it.

 

I am the only one, who can talk about DL, because I have the EL to do it. When you listen to my You Tube videos – just type my name Maximus Peperkamp and you will find it – you can’t miss the undeniable truth, that my lively, sensitive, funny, energizing, insightful, positive, knowledgeable, surprising way of talking is completely different from your boring, draining, demanding, scripted, dominating, dumb, bombastic, coercive, pretentious way of talking.

 

Whenever you are truly excited about something, you just can’t stop talking about it. This is why I talk about my EL every day. Anyone, who would know about the enormous difference between their own DL and their EL, would also be as excited as I am and they wouldn’t want stop talking about their EL either, because it is so valuable and so meaningful.

 

I want the reader to know, with this writing, it is crucially important to stop doing what you consider to be your duty and to start talking. However, you need to talk with yourself, instead of with others. It is only when you listen to yourself, while you speak, that you realize, you were forcing yourself to do all sort of things, which you didn’t even want to do, but you did them anyway, as you are used to acting out of your conditioning with DL. In DL, we are told to stop talking and to do our duty, but in EL, begin to talk with ourselves and we begin to realize, that we want to do something else than what we were told.

 

When you will have EL instead of DL, you will say to yourself: now you are talking. In EL, you will be able to say things, which you were never able to say to others. Furthermore, you can say whatever you want to say and are capable of saying, to yourself. Your EL makes you quiet, peaceful and joyful. Whatever confused, worried, stressed, depressing, frustrated, irritable or distracting thoughts you believed to be having, will be totally gone. As your EL continues, talking with yourself makes you happy and, of course, you want to talk with others in the way you talk with yourself.

 

If you have read my text this far and you still seem to be thinking, that you are thinking, I want you to say it out loud, to yourself and to listen to how you sound. Now ask yourself, do you like to hear that? I bet you don’t like it and you shouldn’t, because you are listening to your dreadful, distrustful, defensive, fearful, arrogant, repetitive, hostile, miserable DL. I am not making this up and neither are you. If you can agree with me – just for this once – your DL will stop and then, your EL will be possible. If you let your EL continue, you will begin to sense your Language Enlightenment (LE), which is expressed by your EL.

 

You will be joking and having so much fun talking out loud with yourself, because you’re finally talking sense to yourself. Yes, this is more important than talking with others and again being stuck in your DL, because this is how you will acquire your EL. It is because you stop listening to what others are saying and it is because you are speaking – with yourself – that you can hear, experience and enjoy yourself talking. It isn’t weird to talk out loud with yourself, but it is the very basis of your sanity. And, you need to say it, to hear it: that’s why I’m talking to you.        

 

Rust,

 

Toen ik voor het eerst mijn Belichaamde Taal (BT) ontdekte, had een gedicht geschreven over rust.

 

Er komt een einde aan verdriet

Ik voel me door liefdeskracht gedreven

Die mij alles doet doorleven

Ik zing ontroerd mijn levenslied

 

Ik kon niet krijgen wat ik hebben wilde

Maar ben dankbaar verbaast over wat ik kreeg

Ik huilde uit en mijn hart verstilde

In een zalige rust waarin alles zweeg

 

Er komt een einde aan alle verdriet

Ik je hart zingt liefdeskracht

Laat het toe verzet je niet

En luister goed het klinkt heel zacht

 

Deze poetische uiting voorspelde wat er zou gaan gebeuren en zou blijven gebeuren, want ik ben mij blijven verbazen over de zalige rust waarin ik zwijg. Ook voel ik mij niet zozeer door liefdeskracht, maar door mij BT gedreven. Eigenlijk ben ik inmiddels niet meer zo gedreven. Mijn gedrevenheid is afgenomen en ik ben daardoor juist veel rustiger geworden. Ik zou echter niet zeggen, dat ik meer doordacht ben, want het denken, dat ik dacht te doen, bleek niet waar te zijn. Ik denk niet, want er is geen taal in mij.

 

Er is een einde gekomen aan het grote verdriet, dat ik lange tijd voelde – voordat, en in toenemende mate, nadat, ik mijn BT had ontdekt – omdat ik niet langer probeer, om het te delen met hen, die toch weer met Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) verder gaan. Ik ga hoofdzakelijk alleen met mijn BT verder en heb daar vrede mee, omdat het mijn manier van leven is.

 

Uiteraard hing mijn verdriet eveneens samen met mijn eigen neiging, om nog steeds, keer op keer, OT te hebben, terwijl ik eigenlijk al had begrepen, dat ik BT kon hebben, als ik het maar aan mezelf toestond. Ik wilde het dus zo graag van anderen en ik bleef er met hen over spreken, maar hierdoor kwam ik elke keer weer in de OT terecht. Toen ik, een jaar nadat de Covid epidimie was uitgebroken, geen zin meer had, om online – via zoom – les te geven, heb ik mijn leraarschap in de psychologie achter me had gelaten. Ik leerde ook, tijdens al dat thuis zitten, op de ukulele spelen en mijn eigen liedjes begeleiden.

 

Er begon eigenlijk pas echt rust in de tent te komen, nadat ik onlangs werd ontslagen, omdat mijn krengige baas het niet kon uitstaan, dat ik niet de ambitie had, om een verkoper te zijn. Ofschoon ik twee jaar lang heb genoten van het bestelwerk van allerlei landbouw en tuin producten, dat ik –  op haar uitnodiging –  had gedaan, was het duidelijk, dat ze mij eruit heeft gewerkt, omdat haar zaak iemand nodig had, die meer tot commerciele handelingen in staat was, dan een vrolijke fliere-fluiter, die evenwel van aanpakken wist.  

 

Ook al heb ik nog geen nieuw werk kunnen vinden,  dat ik nog zo’n twee jaar wil doen – voordat ik met pensioen ga – geniet ik al volop van het zalige niets doen dezer dagen. Ik kom er nu ook pas achter, dat ik eigenlijk altijd al een geboren niksnut ben geweest.

 

Ik heb het verbazingwekkende vermogen, om echt blij te zijn met niks en dit heeft mij al 65 jaar lang in staat gesteld, om allerlei ellende te overkomen en voorgoed achter me te laten. Ik leef, vanwege mijn BT, een totaal ander leven dan iedereen die OT heeft. De rust, die ik momenteel in mij voel, is blijvend en ik weet heel goed, hoe die vrede in mezelf is ontstaan vanwege mijn taal. Het zou op geen enkele andere manier tot stand hebben kunnen komen. Mijn voortgaande BT toont mij iedere dag mijn Taal Verlichting (TV).

 

Er zijn maar een paar mensen, die mijn geschreven teksten op mijn blog lezen. Ook mijn videos, op You Tube, zijn niet echt razend populair. Mijn dierbare Nederlandse vriendin AnnaMieke, is de enige, met wie ik regelmatig levendige skype-gesprekken heb, over onze BT en onze TV. Zo zit het dus in elkaar met onze BT. Mijn BT kwam voort uit mijn huwelijk met mij lieve Chinees-Amerikaanse vrouw Bonnie, met wie ik een heel rustig, ordelijk, eenvoudig en gelukkig leven leid.

 

Ook al is er niets mis aan poezie, er zingt natuurlijk geen liefdeskracht in mijn hart, want in BT gaat het niet om taal, die binnenin je zit en die vervolgens zogenaamd naar buiten komt. Het toelaten van BT, is niet het uiten van wat wij als denken hebben beschouwd. BT is de absolute zekerheid, dat er zich echt geen taal in ons lichaam bevindt. Dit is dus geen emotioneel of spiritueel gebeuren, maar juist iets rationeels en pragmatisch.

 

Je zou ook kunnen zeggen, dat ons besef van onze TV, dat vanwege onze voortgaande BT tot stand is gekomen, volwassenheid betekend, omdat wij eindelijk zijn uitgeraast, uitgejammerd en uitgeklaagd. De rust, ontspanning, helderheid en weldadige energie, die wij nu kunnen ervaren, is het het onvermijdelijke gevolg van onze volledige aandacht voor onze eigen taal.

 

Wanneer wij BT - in plaats van OT - hebben, dan vindt er ontegenzegglijk een verstilling plaats, maar toch betekent dat niet, dat wij daardoor alleen maar heel zachtjes gaan praten. Integendeel, wij praten honderd uit en we lachen ons te helemaal te barsten, want wij hebben alle problemen overwonnen, waar iedereen die niet met ons wil praten mee is blijven zitten. Wij zijn bevrijd, terwijl iedereen in OT gevangen zit, in hun illusie van het denken. Het maakt ons niet uit, want wij willen niets met OT te maken hebben en dus zijn wij geheel tevreden met hoe het leven voor ons is.

 

Manner, 

 

The time has come to discuss Disembodied Language (DL) in the manner it could only be discussed, if you can have Embodied Language (EL). People talk – in DL – about so-called spiritual or mental health, but of course there is no such thing.

 

As long as we still continue to have DL, all this fuss about the presumed importance of religion, psychiatry, psychology, philosophy, education or culture makes no sense at all. Regardless of who we claim or believe to be, we are all, because of our conditioning with DL, stuck in all kinds of concepts that are not true and therefore only cause problems.

 

It is quite an humungous undertaking, to untangle the ridiculous nonsense of our own DL, which was pushed down our throats. If we really acknowledge, there is no language anywhere inside of our bodies, then, there is no other option, than to also admit, that everything – yes, everything – that has emerged from our mechanical DL must be revised, repaired, revoked, rewritten, reopened and rediscovered. Yet our EL has nothing to do with rethinking, repeating or rehashing our DL, as it comes to an end, simply, in one fell swoop, in one moment of our action.

 

When we talk – with our usual DL – about a person, who believes, he or she has psychological problems, who assumes, that he or she has obsessive, dark, confused thoughts, who complains about depressed feelings, because he or she has experienced many horrible, painful situations, we no longer refer to it as depression, trauma, psychoses, hallucinations, lack of self-confidence, but we immediately know, that this person is talking about DL, which has influenced and gravely impaired him or her.

 

Any negativity, experienced by us an individual, is due to our involuntary participation in DL. When we deal with all of our problems – that we say or seem to have – in this way, we take the bull by the horns, because we immediately express the real cause and we can experience it, listen to it and understand it.  

 

In telling - to ourselves - what is going on, we are not searching for why things are going the way they are in our lives, but we are immediately aware, that we are in trouble because of our DL. We are trapped by our DL. Every problem is yet another reason, to stop our own DL and to admit, to ourselves, again that our, considered normal, habitual DL, could not previously be regarded as the evil, it truly is.

 

With DL, we always pretend to accept, it is okay, we feel bad about ourselves. Of course, this is not the case at all, but that does not alter the fact, that in DL we constantly act as if, all the struggle, conflict and chaos, does not bother us and is even valuable or meaningful. In other words, DL always prevented us from truly being ourselves. All that is needed, is to let ourselves know this – with our EL – which can only take place after we have stopped our DL.

 

We step out of our conditioning at once, because of our new language use. Even though this does not suddenly eliminate our tendency to engage in DL for good, we are immediately convinced, that we can, at any time, with our EL, free ourselves from our sad and troublesome past. By the way, EL is not a choice, as it is our only option. Being who we are is not a choice. 

 

As long as we muddle through with our DL, we are still occupied with the illusion, that we make or have to make choices, because it is always an involuntary thing, that, supposedly, we must choose between a rock and a hard place, but we can never get to the optimal situation. 

 

With DL, without being aware of it, we are always avoiding, distracting from, fighting with, debating with, confronting, getting hyped up about, getting carried away by and being in denial of danger. Only when we have our own EL, will this fearful disaster finally come to an end. With our EL, we speak in a totally different manner, as it the language of our safety, relaxation and wellbeing.

 

Stopping our own DL is only possible because we have already taken note - even if only temporarily - of our own EL. However, this has nothing to do with consciousness, self-confidence or self-knowledge, but with the simple ability to accurately distinguish between our own DL and our own EL.

 

All our nice words, our beliefs and our previous knowledge mean nothing, because it comes down to whether we can identify the immense difference between our own DL and our own EL. This ability does not depend on whether we have read books, prayed or meditated, did rituals, taken courses, attended lectures or workshops, listened to authorities or had any preparatory experiences.

 

Anyone can make the transition from DL to EL as he or she is, right now. Denying that possibility was the only reason we could not experience this before. So, in EL, there is no obstacle in the way of any belief, ideology, theory or perception, because everything has changed in one fell swoop, because of our new manner of dealing with language. Our EL is the only way to express our true nature, which was always already the case, but which we – with DL – could not explain and, therefore, could not respond to.

 

There is no denying, that our ongoing EL is the realization of our Language Enlightenment (LE), which is now being revealed to us, because we talk about it, listen to it, write about it – to ourselves – and, therefore, we also read what we tell ourselves and have written about our LE. Our attention for our own EL means our freedom as an individual. A new era dawns on us with this psychosonic manner.               

 

Manier,

 

De tijd is aangebroken, om Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) te bespreken, op de manier zoals het alleen zou kunnen worden besproken, indien je Belichaamde Taal (BT) kunt hebben. Men heeft het – in OT – dan wel over geestlijke of mentale gezondheid, maar er bestaat natuurlijk niet eens zoiets.

 

Zolang als dat wij nog OT hebben, slaat al die ophef over het zogenaamde belang van religie, psychiatrie, psychologie, filosofie, opvoeding of cultuur nergens op. Ongeacht wie wij beweren en geloven te zijn, we zitten allemaal, vanwege onze conditionering met OT, moervast in allerlei concepten, die niet waar zijn en die dus alleen problemen veroorzaken.

 

Het is een hele kluif, om de belachelijke onzin van onze eigen OT, die ons letterlijk werd aangepraat, te ontwarren. Wanneer wij werkelijk erkennen, dat er zich echt geen taal in ons lichaam bevind, dan zit er eigenlijk niets anders op, dan eveneens toe te geven, dat alles – ja, alles – wat uit mechanische OT is voortgekomen, moet worden, herzien, hersteld, herroepen, herschreven, heropend en herondekt. Toch heeft onze BT helemaal niets te maken met het herdenken, herhalen of herkauwen van onze OT, omdat die, eenvoudigweg, in een klap, in een moment, in een handeling tot een einde komt.

 

Als wij – met OT – praten over een persoon, die zogezegd psychische problemen meent te hebben, die verondersteld, dat hij of zij obsessievelijke, duistere, verwarde gedachtes heeft, die steen en been klaagt over zwaarmoedige gevoelens, omdat hij of zij tal van pijnlijke situaties heeft meegemaakt, dan benoemen wij dat niet langer als depressiviteit, trauma, psychoses, gebrek aan zelfvertrouwen, maar dan weten wij meteen, dat deze persoon het heeft over OT, die hem or haar heeft beinvloed.   

 

Iedere vorm van negativiteit is te wijten aan onze onvrijwillige deelname aan OT. Wanneer wij op deze manier omgaan met al onze problemen, die wij zeggen of schijnen te hebben, dan vatten wij de koe bij de horens, omdat wij aldus de werkelijke oorzaak meteen uitspreken en daar dan dus naar kunnen luisteren.

 

In het vertellen – aan onszelf – wat er aan de hand is, zijn wij niet aan het onderzoeken, waarom de dingen zo gaan in ons leven zoals ze gaan, maar zijn wij ons er direct van bewust, dat wij vanwege onze OT in de problemen zijn komen te zitten. Iedere problematiek is wederom een reden, om alsnog onze eigen OT te stoppen en om weer aan onszelf toe te geven, dat onze, als normaal beschouwde, gewoonte-getrouwe OT, nog niet eerder kon worden beschouwd als het kwaad, wat het werkelijk is.

 

Met OT doen wij altijd alsof wij het accepteren, dat wij ons slecht voelen over onszelf. Uiteraard is dit helemaal niet zo, maar dat neemt niet weg, dat wij toch constant in OT doen alsof alle strijd, conflict en chaos ons niet deert. Met andere woorden OT heeft ons er altijd van weerhouden, om echt onszelf te zijn. Het enige wat dus nodig is, is om dit aan onszelf te laten weten – met BT – die alleen plaats kan vinden, nadat wij onze OT hebben kunnen stoppen.  

 

Wij stappen, vanwege ons nieuwe taalgebruik, in een keer, uit onze conditionering. Ook al is hiermee niet ineens voorgoed onze neiging om OT te hebben uitgeschakeld, toch zijn wij er meteen van overtuigt, dat wij, ten alle tijden, met onze BT, onszelf kunnen bevrijden van ons verdrietige verleden. Overigens is BT niet een keuze, maar is het enige wat erop zit.

 

Zolang als dat wij nog door blijven modderen met onze OT, zijn wij nog bezig met de illusie, dat wij keuzes maken of moeten maken, want het is altijd een onvrijwillig iets, dat wij enkel de mogelijkheid zouden hebben, om alleen de minst slecht situatie te kiezen, maar schijnbaar nooit de optimale situate.

 

Met OT blijven wij, zonder daarvan bewust te zijn, altijd bezig met het ontlopen, ontwijken, afleiden, bevechten, confronteren, bespreken, ervaren, het opgefokt raken over, gevangen zitten in of het ontkennen van gevaar. Alleen als wij onze eigen BT hebben, is deze rampspoed eindelijk ten einde gekomen. Met BT spreken wij op een andere manier, het is de taal van ontspanning.

 

Uiteraard is het stopzetten van onze OT alleen mogelijk, omdat wij al kennis – ook al was dit maar tijdelijk – hebben genomen van onze BT. Dit heeft  niets te maken met bewustzijn, zelfvertrouwen of zelf-kennis, maar met het simpele vermogen, om onze eigen OT van onze eigen BT te onderscheiden.

 

Allerlei mooie woorden stellen helemaal niets voor, want het komt erop aan of wij het verschil hebben benoemd, tussen onze OT en onze BT. Dit vermogen hangt niet af van of wij boeken hebben gelezen, of wij hebben gebeden of gemediteerd, cursussen hebben gevolgd, lezingen of workshops hebben bijwoond, naar authoriteiten hebben geluisterd of voorbereidende ervaringen hebben meegemaakt.

 

Iedereen kan, zoals hij of zij nu, op dit moment, is de overgang van OT naar BT maken. Het ontkennen van die mogelijkheid, was de enige oorzaak, dat wij dit nog niet eerder konden meemaken. Er staat dus geen enkel geloof, ideologie, theorie of perceptie in de weg, want alles is in een klap veranderd vanwege onze BT, die de enige manier is, om uiting te geven aan onze ware natuur, die dus altijd al het geval was, maar waaraan wij met OT geen uitleg konden geven en dus ook geen gehoor aan konden geven.

 

Er valt niet omheen te gaan, dat onze doorgaande BT de realizatie is van onze Taal Verlichting (TV), die wordt uiteengezet, omdat wij er nu over spreken, ernaar luisteren, erover schrijven aan onszelf en dus ook lezen, wat wij aan onszelf, over onze TV hebben geschreven. Dit bezig zijn met eigen BT betekent onze vrijheid als individu. Een geheel nieuw tijdperk breekt aan met deze psychosonische manier.