Hierarchy,

 

I suddenly want to write something in Dutch again. It is, of course, about my conditioning with my Disembodied Language (DL), which has its origins in the Dutch Language. As I talked out loud with  myself this morning, it dawned on me that the language of others - contrary to what is often claimed - does not really give any security, to live without fear. Only our own language, Embodied Language (EL), can reassure and protect us.

 

The DL of others has always distracted, confused and disturbed us from ourselves, as we have never spoken to anyone who found their EL. In EL there is no longer any lying about the undeniable fact that we have always spoken exclusively and only to those who, in turn, have merely imitated others. There is something going on that no one has ever been able to speak clearly about. Only he or she, who has EL is reporting on this for the first time.

  

To find out what really happens to us as individuals - even though, as social beings, we are constantly focused on each other and therefore hardly have the opportunity to express ourselves with our own sound, energy and wording, to let ourselves know how we feel about things - it is very important not so much to leave the other, but rather to leave the language of the other - DL - behind us. Of course, only with the help of our own EL are we able to gain the self-knowledge that remains of lasting value.

 

When we have finally been able to listen carefully to what we have to say to ourselves, it turns out that we are in complete agreement with ourselves and therefore have no conflict whatsoever about the incontrovertible fact that we have something to say, which, apparently, no one else seems to do or want to do: by speaking aloud, alone, to ourselves about anything and everything and listening to the sound of our own voice, we are able to effortlessly break out of the hierarchical conditioning with DL.

 

The individual, who can have EL with him or herself knows and acknowledges that he or she knows something which others do not know - and cannot know because of their DL - but this knowing is very different from the other knowing, because it is about self-knowledge. Knowledge gained through the study of other people's books and texts results in specialization, which places us in the hierarchy of society. Those who, so to speak, are more knowledgeable and more responsible than others, are higher on the ladder than those who are ignorant or less irresponsible.

 

With EL, we take great responsibility for ourselves. This means, we don’t care at all about the so-called rank or status that people occupy because of their knowledge, skill, profession, education, ambition, origin, money, violence or power. In other words, no one is higher or lower, better or worse, conscious or unconscious, because EL lets us know that we, as individuals, really cannot be compared to anyone. EL is so transformative because we really only talk to ourselves and, therefore, we don't listen to or see ourselves from within the hierarchy, but from who we are authentically.

 

While EL allows us to remain unaffected by whatever everyone, everywhere in the world, is dragging their feet on, there's a process taking place in which everyone, the servants of those who were in charge, can have their say, so to speak. If you really want to know the ins and outs, then there is nothing to learn from those who, so to speak, have it all figured out. They lie that it is printed and they write best-selling books.

 

With EL, we make all listeners feel that what they have to say is very important. With EL we realize all too well that with DL, a hierarchy is created again, always, everywhere. Rich or poor, criminal or addicted, insane or homeless, everywhere there are people who take control and others are subservient. Nobody has any interest in listening to speakers from below their station. The lower you go in the hierarchy, the less those people have something to say, because everyone feels too good to really listen.

 

In EL we continue to listen to what we have to tell ourselves and the whole of humanity is reviewed. It is obvious that, from top to bottom, everyone is forcing each other to speak as, according to that layer, should be spoken and to listen, as, according to that rank, should be obeyed. Everyone knows their place and for those who do not recognize this, there is no justice, for they are heartlessly and mercilessly punished everywhere, without any discussion. It's not fun, but it's true.

 

It is impossible to speak with DL about hierarchy. Those who do this – involuntarily, unconsciously, also with their DL – are in enormous danger, both literally and figuratively. So we all just keep acting as if nothing is happening at all. The well-known proverb, see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil, says it very well, with those three monkeys, who of course represent people. Those who have climbed the highest on the social ladder are expected to lie most convincingly, but those who live at the bottom of society, shamelessly expose everything that is wrong with man. We can imagine what we are about to learn – about ourselves – even if we don’t speak with them directly. I am not saying they are the solution to the world's problems, but there is simply no getting around the fact, the unheard man everywhere is desperate, criminal, chaotic, anti-social, mad, addicted, hopeless, unreasonable, helpless and unconscious. I'm not talking about listening to others, but about listening to ourselves. It is a form of protection and self-nurturing.

 

 

Hierarchie,

 

Ik wil ineens weer iets in het Nederlands schrijven. Het gaat natuurlijk over mijn conditionering met mijn Ontlichaamde Taal (OT), die zijn oorsprong heeft in de Nederlandse Taal. Toen ik vanmorgen met mezelf sprak, drong het tot me door, dat de taal van anderen – in tegenstelling tot wat vaak wordt beweerd – eigenlijk geen enkele geborgenheid geeft, om zonder angst te leven. Alleen onze eigen taal, Belichaamde Taal (BT), kan ons gerust stellen.

 

De OT van anderen heeft ons altijd van onszelf afgeleid, verward en verstoord, aangezien we nog nooit met iemand hebben gesproken, die zijn BT had gevonden. In BT valt niet langer meer te liegen over het onmiskenbare feit, dat we altijd uitsluitend en alleen met hen hebben gesproken, die, ook op hun beurt weer, anderen hebben nagepraat. Er is iets aan de hand, waarover niemand ooit helder heeft kunnen spreken en waarvan alleen hij of zij, die BT heeft, dus voor het eerst melding maakt.  

 

Om aan de weet te komen, wat er echt met ons, als individu, gebeurd – ook al zijn wij, als sociale wezens, voortdurend op elkaar gericht en daardoor nauwelijks in de gelegenheid, om met onze eigen klank, energie en bewoording, aan onszelf te laten weten, wat wij er zelf van vinden – is het van groot belang, om niet zozeer, de ander, maar juist de taal van de ander – OT – achter ons te laten. Uiteraard zijn wij alleen met behulp van onze eigen BT in staat, om de zelf-kennis op te doen, die voor ons van blijvende waarde blijft en die dus beklijft.

 

Wanneer wij ons eindelijk wat hebben kunnen bezig houden, met het aandachtig beluisteren, naar wat wij aan onszelf te zeggen hebben, dan blijkt, dat wij het volledig met onszelf eens zijn en dus geen enkel conflict hebben, over het onomstotelijke feit, dat wij iets doen, wat schijnbaar niemand doet of wil doen: door hardop, alleen, met onszelf over van alles en nog wat te spreken en te luisteren naar de klank van onze eigen stem, zijn wij in staat, om moeiteloos uit de hierarchische conditionering met OT te stappen.

 

De enkeling, die BT met zichzelf kan hebben, weet en erkent, dat hij of zij iets weet, wat anderen niet weten – en vanwege OT niet kunnen weten – maar dit weten, is heel anders dan het andere weten, omdat het om werkelijke zelf-kennis gaat. De kennis, die wordt opgedaan, door de studie van boeken en teksten van anderen, heeft specializatie tot gevolg, die ons een plaats doet innemen in de hierarchie van de maatschappij. Zij die, zogezegd, meer kennis van zaken hebben en grotere verantwoordelijkheid hebben dan anderen, staan hoger op de ladder, dan zij, die onwetend of minder onverantwoordelijk zijn.

 

Met BT nemen wij grote verantwoordelijkheid voor onszelf. Dit betekent, dat wij ons helemaal niets aantrekken van de zogenaamde rang of stand, die mensen vanwege hun kennis, vaardigheid, beroep, opleiding, ambitie, komaf, geld, geweld of macht innemen. Anders gezegd, niemand is hoger of lager, beter of slechter, bewuster of onbewuster, want BT laat ons weten, dat wij, als individu, werkelijk met niemand zijn te vergelijken. BT is zo transformerend, omdat wij echt alleen maar met onszelf spreken en onszelf daardoor niet beluisteren of bezien vanuit de hierarchie, maar vanuit wie wij authentiek zijn.

 

Ofschoon BT ons in staat stelt, om onaangetast te blijven, over alles wat iedereen, overal ter wereld, op sleep-touw neemt, vindt er in ons een proces plaats, waarin wij, als het ware, iedereen aan het woord gaan laten, die de dienaren zijn of waren, van hen, die het voor het zeggen hadden of hebben. Als je echt het naadje van de kous wilt weten, dan valt er niets te leren van hen, die het zogezegd helemaal voor elkaar hebben. Zij liegen dat het gedrukt staat.

 

Met BT, geven we alle dienaren, alle luisteraars, het gevoel, dat wat zij te zeggen hebben heel belangrijk is. Wij beseffen met BT maar al te goed, dat er met OT, altijd, overal, weer een hierarchie tot stand komt. Arm of rijk, crimineel of verslaafd, krankzinnig of dakloos, overal zijn er weer mensen, die zogezegd de touwtjes in handen nemen en anderen zijn dan weer ondergeschikt. Niemand heeft enige interesse, om te luisteren naar sprekers van beneden hun stand. Hoe lager je komt in de hierarchie, des te minder die mensen iets te vertellen hebben, want iedereen voelt zich te goed, om echt te luisteren.  

 

In BT blijven we luisteren naar wat wij aan onszelf te vertellen hebben en de gehele mensheid passeert de revue. Het is overduidelijk, dat, van boven naar beneden, iedereen elkaar dwingt om te spreken, zoals er, volgens die laag, gesproken dient te worden en te luisteren, zoals er, volgens die rang, gehoorzaamd dient te worden. Iedereen weet zijn plaats en voor hen die dit niet erkennen, is er geen rechtvaardigheid, want ze worden overal, zonder enige vorm van discussie, harteloos en genadeloos afgestrafd. Het is niet leuk, maar wel waar.

 

Er valt met OT niet over deze hierachie te spreken. Zij die dit – onwillekeurig, onbewust, eveneens met OT – doen, lopen enorm gevaar, zowel letterlijk en figuurlijk. We doen dus allemaal maar voortdurend alsof er helemaal niets aan de hand is. Het bekende spreek-woord, zie geen kwaad, hoor geen kwaad en spreek geen kwaad, zegt het heel goed, met die drie aapjes, die natuurlijk mensen voorstellen. Van hen die het hoogst op de maatschappelijke ladder zijn geklommen, wordt altijd verwacht, dat ze het meest overtuigend kunnen liegen, maar zij die leven aan de onderkant van de samenleving, vertonen schaamteloos alles wat fout is aan de mens. Wij kunnen ons best wel voorstellen, wat wij aan de weet gaan komen – over onszelf –  ook al spreken wij niet met hen. Ik zeg niet, dat zij de oplossing zijn voor de problemen van de wereld, maar er valt eenvoudigweg niet meer omheen te gaan, dat de mens, die niet gehoord word, waanzinnig, a-sociaal, verslaafd, crimineel, chaotisch, hopeloos, redeloos, gewetenloos is. Ik heb het niet over het luisteren naar anderen, maar over het luisteren naar onszelf.  Het is een vorm van bescherming en zelf-koestering.   

 

Reading,

 

Just acknowledge, that you are simply reading and understanding this. If you know English language, these words are not alien to you and you know what they mean. Why did I write this? To let myself know, I understand my own language. Why do you read this? To understand what I’ve written. Why would it be of any importance to you, to understand what I understand and to understand your own language? Only you could answer that question, but I can answer it for myself. I want to understand my language, because I somehow got distracted from it.

 

If I understand, that a bread is a bread and a book is a book, there is no need for me to understand my language, but when I call a book a bread, there is a problem and I need to understand, I got it wrong. It isn’t immediately clear to me, why or how, I got into this odd belief, a bread is a book, but I didn’t switch these meanings around, because these words both start with the letter b. Also, didn’t read any book in which they were talking about bread and reading a book isn’t anything like eating bread. However, I can imagine, as a metaphor, that digesting bread, is like understanding what is in the book, but that seems like quite a stretch, as to me, a book and a bread are unrelated. You could say, that I was, at some point, hungry for knowledge and the bread I ate, was some book, but why did I keep feeling hungry for more knowledge? Why didn’t the bread satiate?

 

I grew up in a Catholic family and probably because of that, I remember an old idiom from the Bible. The phrase “man cannot live by bread alone” means that people need not just food, but also poetry, art, music, etc. to live happily. I looked it up and the full saying comes from Matthew 4:4, who was one of the twelve apostles. He wrote that Jesus said “Man does not live on bread alone, but every word that comes from the mouth of God”, which is commonly understood as: people need more than material things to truly live. Surely, it is interesting that God, presumably, created man in his own image, that is, with a mouth. It is very unlikely, that the religious infatuation with God, is ever going to remind us of the importance of the words coming from the only real mouth: our own mouth. God’s mouth isn’t real and neither is yours. I was distracted from my own language, because of someone else’s way of talking.

 

I got distracted by what someone said, so quickly and so unnoticeably. It caused me many problems, as it happened so often. I was puzzled, why this was happening and I had to find out. When, in my early twenties, for the first time, I listened to my own voice, while I spoke with myself, I felt, I had finally found out, why I kept being so easily distracted: in what I now call Disembodied Language (DL), I was never listening to myself, but in Embodied Language (EL), I am always listening to myself, while I speak.

 

While it was an epiphany, to discover the difference between DL and EL, it didn’t mean, I was cured from being distracted. To the contrary, it became more apparent to me, how distracted I had always been by the DL of others. In effect, I kept losing myself in my own DL, again and again, but, as I had already found out about the difference between DL and EL, I was, quicker and, increasingly, more skillfully, able to return again to my EL, which I viewed as my own language. Moreover, returning to EL, meant, I could attend to and achieve my own priorities and goals.

 

I know from experience, what it is like, to have lost my own language. It is a very scary, uncomfortable feeling. I absolutely don’t like it, when some alien language takes possession of me, because I have no control over it. My own language, I can control and although I wasn’t always able to control my own language, I have become capable of it, because I noticed, how magnificent it is, to have control of my own language, but also, how frightening it is, to be overtaken by a language, which isn’t mine, which, therefore, I cannot control. My own language gives me control. Each time, I was not paying attention to my EL, I was feeling lost, conflicted and troubled.  

 

When I say, I am in control of my own language, I literally mean, I am the master of my own language. This doesn’t, in any way relate to what people mean by control, because they are used to DL and have no idea at all, what ongoing EL could be like. For those, like you, who, unknowingly, every day, engage in DL, control means: trying to deal with your fear. In other words, the issue of control only comes up, because you – justifiably – fear not being in control. Control in EL, by contrast, means: the absence of fear. Thus, our way of dealing with language, in DL, results in control out of fear, but in EL, in control without fear.

 

Of course, you too have your own language – your EL – , but you have only had it shortly, sporadically and unreliably. In effect, you’ve lost it immediately, the moment you’ve had it. You’ve lost it so fast, that you don’t even know what happened, because you don’t acknowledge and know, you actually really have your own language. It’s paradoxical, because, supposedly, at some level, you know, you must have your own way and, therefore, your must have your own language, to have your own way, to be able to live a happy and satisfying life, but you also know very well, that what you want – your language – is continuously under attack and overwhelmed, by the language of others. In DL, speakers always compete with each, to get the attention. Surely, the language others have, to dominate your language or anyone else’s language, is not their language. The fact, that people, everywhere, try to force their language on each other, signifies they are not in touch with or aware of their own language. When we have our own language, we know: nobody can force their language on us. EL inoculates us against this evil.

 

When parents teach their children their language, children do with this language – and everything they were taught with this language – what they want. If what the parents taught, was truly to the benefit of the child, the child would recognize that, feel that,  acknowledge that and know that, but if, claiming it is for your own good, parents only wanted their child to be how they wanted them to be, the child will feel conflicted about how he or she was taught.  Even under the best of circumstances, when one grows up and becomes independent, one inevitably has to sort through the many conflicting messages, received from father, mother or other care-takers.

 

As we, presumably, mature, the question becomes: how do we deal with our own language? How could I have written this blog, if I hadn’t dealt satisfactorily with my own language? For a long time, I wondered why my insistence on language, isn’t recognized and rewarded, but – although I found this very hard to accept and didn’t even want to believe it – nobody has their own language. It was baffling to realize, that – although, for many years, I myself was barely capable of continuing with my own EL – apparently, I was the only one who knew how to do it. Stopping my DL, was and is like waking up from a bad dream.  I fully admit, I sometimes still briefly engage in DL.  

 

When you wake up from your sleep, you may be able to remember, you had some dream. No matter what it was, it was merely a dream and since you have woken up, whatever you dreamed about fades away. People have made all sorts of assumptions about their dreams, because they tried, in vain, to make sense of the strange events, they believed to have experienced in their sleep. They were just lying in their bed and everything was, happening only in their head and their imagination was running amok. Surely, dreams have a relationship to how we deal with our language. Their very presence, basically, indicates, we have lost our own language and their absence signifies, our language is properly used.

 

We are as enthralled with our dreams, as we are obsessed about our death, as we cannot have any language about it. You could say both, in sleep as well as in death, language ends. Since we haven’t had our own language and were always having DL, we, unconsciously, want our dreams and deaths to make up for this incredible loss. We project, as we say, our language on dreams and on death, in the same way as when we find fault in others, because we refuse to admit our own faults. Certainly, we use our language incorrectly, as we attempt to put our language to work when it comes to others, but we remain mute, when it comes to ourselves. Stated differently, dreams are always expressions of our fears, which we have never properly spoken about with EL. In the exact same way, that we fear death, we fear our dreams, as we can feel, we are not in control, but our language isn’t catching up with this.

 

As stated, in EL, we are in control of our language, because we truly have our own language, but in DL, although we pretend to be in control, we are not in control of our language, as we don’t know what it is like to have our own language. Indeed, DL, our usual way of talking, which sets the stage for how we deal with our language, is the language of fear. Unless we discover our own language, we never overcome our biggest fear, which is: fear of our own language.    

 

Although everyone in DL tries to be somebody, who they are not, no one succeeds in not being fearful of the language, which contradicts their superstitious beliefs. Only those, who have EL successfully deal with their fears of language, as they talk with their EL about their DL. What they previously – in DL – feared others might say about them, they have already said about themselves. Moreover, they know for sure, their fear was never about their own language, but of DL, the language of others. In EL, we have faith in our language, as it tells us what we need to live a peaceful, successful and healthy life. Our own language, like our breathing,  heart-beat or  digestion, goes by itself. There is no one, who says this, no one who writes this and, therefore, there is no one to fabricate or imagine any nonsense. And, remember, you are not reading this either, as there is no you, who reads. Talking would make it very clear: you are not, who you believed to be with DL.     

 

              

 

Subtle,

 

Subtle, real humor comes from a place of feeling totally at ease. What you keep hearing from those, who are trying to be funny, is nothing but anxiety, stress, frustration and fear. God – who, of course, does not exist – forbid, you don’t laugh about their  antics, as that would be devastating for these already messed up individuals, who, compulsively put themselves in front of a crowd, since they have absolutely no boundaries. There is, also no such thing, as a friendly crowd, because the demand for distracting entertainment itself is always brutal.

 

My peaceful humor is incredibly rare, as it requires the ongoing Embodied Language (LE) of me as well as you. Luckily, against all odds, I have acquired the skill to have continuous EL, but to catch my humor, you have yet to become as sensitive as I am. Most likely, you don’t get what I’m talking about, as you still want the old-fashioned, canned-laughter of the stupid jokes with a punch-line.  The problem with your unaddressed lack of receptivity, is that you can never let anything emerge organically, naturally and effortlessly, by itself. Your forceful, ugly, unconscious tendency, with your Disembodied Language (DL), is that you want to push it, but genuine laughter can’t be pushed. The cramp, the noise, the humiliation and the deprivation, you have endured in the name of so-called humor, was always because you have allowed some creepy moron, to cover you with his or her word-salad and to slam you with his or her carefully-scripted, aggressive, fake speech, which is supposed to be funny and expecting you to laugh.

 

Authentic laughter isn’t occurring because someone  says or does something funny, but because you are open to experiencing something new. It is a delicate matter, but you keep interfering with what presents itself in the moment, which is always delightful and interesting. Your new perspective on laughter, which derives from your EL, will reveal many aspects about humor, you have never considered. For instance, why is there so little laughter in your life, to begin with? Why do you even have a need – I don’t – for those presumed experts, to make you laugh? It is absurd, to have fun, you go to some show or turn on some program. It is like going to church on Sunday, to salvage your sense of religion, by listening to some guilt-tripping preacher. Why is always someone else, presumably, the guide to your source of happiness?

 

The sickening, nonsensical, demeaning, competitive trickery, accepted and praised as humor, goes on in spite of the fact, you have probably been educated. Science teaches, that your imaginary higher power doesn’t exist. So, why bother listening to someone, why believe in someone, who, supposedly, knows the way to your enlightenment, while you could be having the time of your life – like I do – just speaking with, listening to and laughing only about yourself?  

 

I can’t laugh about you, but I can and will never stop laughing about myself. What has gone on, in blunt, painful, sad, disgusting humor, is it always distracted you and made you more unaware about yourself, as you kept being busy with someone else’s words, instead of your own. The misunderstood connection between humor and consciousness has continued, because you have been fooled into believing, that you can’t be conscious, while you laugh. You must, so to speak, surrender to the laughter and forget about everything else, which is all your troubles and problems. However, only by being verbal about your own drama and your own failures, can you begin to really laugh. Moreover, your own disasters are  funnier than those of others, as they will go away, if you laugh about them, but your catastrophes don’t  subside, if you only laugh at the flops of others.

 

Our amusement, spiritual, political, economic and  philosophic –  entertainment business, is a racket. EL puts a permanent end to our idiotic infatuation with deceitful special people, who appear to give us something, but who, in reality, only take something away from us, which belongs to us. Our attention and energy must go to ourselves, only then can we laugh about ourselves and realize, our Language Enlightenment (LE) was already the case. What we call attention or consciousness is our language and our own ability to tell ourselves what is funny. We know what is funny, but with DL, we were never able to tell ourselves and become familiar with it. Therefore, our own fun was always postponed and forgotten, due to our dull, coercive, self-effacing DL.

 

In EL, we can laugh so much, because we finally get it right, what we were getting so wrong, for so long, with our DL. Thus, there is forgiveness – which was never there before – in our laughter. We have been endlessly beating ourselves up over all our mistakes, but with EL, there’s no holding back anymore, as we tell ourselves how it really is with us, regardless of what others might say about it. They can’t say much about it, as we learn to keep it to ourselves, after all, it is our own sense of humor. We don’t mind having fun on our own, as we understand very keenly, why others don’t and can’t appreciate what we have in such abundance. Moreover, our laughter wants us to be on our own, so that we can have more of it.

 

The only ones who can laugh with us, are those who have also embraced their lonely laughter. Together with them, we experience the ecstatic waves of our laughter-energy, which blesses each conversation we are having. Surely, our laughter is the celebration of our subtle LE with our subtle EL. There couldn’t be any other way and we are fully at peace with what we say. With DL, there is always a hangover about what was said, but in EL, we forget, as we no longer believe that we have thoughts in our head.     

 

Moeizaam,

 

Ik omschrijf mijn Belichaamde Taal (BT) vooral graag als een vorm van saaie humor. Iedereen probeert het te laten lijken alsof waar zij het altijd over hebben het belangrijkste is, maar waar ik het over heb, is echt het allerbelangrijkste. Echt waar, want niemand praat erover, behalve ik. Ik vind het niet moeizaam, maar aangenaam en ook nog leuk. 

 

Als je dit grappig vindt, is dat waarschijnlijk om de verkeerde reden. Je vindt het belachelijk, dat wat ik het allerbelangrijkste vind, door niemand wordt besproken, dus hoe kan het dan belangrijk zijn? Het is grappig, om de juiste reden, indien je herkent, dat ik plezier heb, terwijl jij dat niet hebt. Ik weet het, je geeft dat niet zo graag toe, maar het is echt waar en jou onvermogen om dit te erkennen, maakt dat je niet in staat bent om om de juiste redenen te lachen.

 

Doorgaans wordt door de zogenaamde stand-up comedianten aangenomen dat het publiek in principe in staat zou zijn, om te lachen en eigenlijk best wel wil lachen en dat ze dus gewoon maar iets moeten zeggen of doen, om hen te helpen, zodat ze gaan lachen. Ik geloof niet in de pure onzin van het aan het lachen maken van anderen. Naar mijn mening kan en wil het publiek – jij dus – helemaal niet lachen en daarom eis je altijd, alleen maar om om de verkeerde redenen te kunnen lachen. Je zult en wilt de gratificatie van de illusie van nep plezier. De sluwe ezels, die hun valse humor tot vervelends toe blijven balken, doen dit alleen, om jou akelige, plat-vloerse bereidheid uit te buiten, om nog weer een keer om de verkeerde redenen te lachen. Wat hebben we toch gelachen. Nou, nou, dat was lachen.  

 

Ik geloof niet in de illusie van plezier hebben, want ik ben in staat om echt plezier te hebben en om dus te lachen, om de juiste redenen. Waar ook in humor nooit over wordt gesproken, is het nieuwe, omdat we simpelweg niet weten hoe we het moeten doen. Praten over het nieuwe, zonder iets nieuws te zeggen, heeft geen zin, dus spreken we er liever niet over. Praten over het nieuwe heeft alleen maar zin, als we eindelijk eens het feit onder ogen gaan zien, dat we, keer op keer, onbewust, dezelfde, oude, saaie bullshit blijven herhalen en nooit echt lachen.  

 

Wat ik zeg, kan natuurlijk door jou als vervelend worden beschouwd, maar het is belangrijk, omdat het belangrijk voor mij is. Het feit dat anderen/jij dat niet belangrijk vinden, is omdat het hen/jou niet kan schelen, wat eigenlijk voor hen/jou belangrijk is.  Zij/jij/jullie geloven echter, dat zij/jij/jullie wel weten wat voor hen/jou/jullie belangrijk is, maar hun/jullie/jou taal creëert alleen maar de illusie, dat dat waar is. Hun/jouw Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) staat hen/jou niet toe, om zichzelf/jezelf te horen en dus, als het gaat om wat voor hen/jou belangrijk is, dan herhalen zij/jij, onbewust, zonder het te weten, alleen maar wat anderen hen/jou hebben verteld.

 

Als je voor het eerst BT hebt, ben je stomverbaasd, om te ontdekken, dat je voornamelijk alleen dingen doet, die je niet echt wilt doen. De enige manier om te beginnen met doen wat je wilt doen, is stoppen met doen wat je niet wilt doen. Tenzij je stopt met doen wat je niet wilt doen, zul je nooit kunnen aan de weet komen wat je echt wil. Dit stoppen van wat we niet willen, gebeurt dus zonder kennis over wat we willen. Wat we werkelijk willen kan eigenlijk als een totale verrassing voor ons komen, wanneer we eindelijk in staat zijn om doorlopende BT te hebben.

 

Toen ik, voor het eerst, mijn BT ontdektte, had ik me nooit kunnen voorstellen, dat ik zoveel mensen achter me zou gaan laten, om plezier te kunnen hebben en om door te kunnen gaan met mijn BT. Integendeel, ik wilde eigenlijk niets liever, dan voortdurend BT met anderen hebben, maar het bleek al gauw, dat dit nauwelijks mogelijk was. Hoewel het soms moeilijk voor me was, om dit toe te geven, het was toch nodig. Ik heb ook heel vaak getwijfeld of het wel juist was, om al mijn familie en mijn zogenaamde vrienden achter te laten, maar het was noodzakelijk. Ik moest het doen en ik ben nu blij en opgelucht, dat ik er niet meer over twijfel.

 

Ik vertaalde vandaag mijn Engelse schrijven in het Nederlands, als een saluut voor vaderdag. Toen ik hem, nadat ik al jarenlang getrouwd was, liet weten in antwoord op zijn plotselinge vraag, dat wij geen kinderen wilden, werd hij woedend en zei hij, dat alles wat mij betreft tevergeefs was geweest. Als zijn oudste zoon, was ik een volledige teleurstelling. En dat, terwijl ik niets liever zou hebben gewild, dan dat hij trots op mij zou zijn geweest, omdat ik met mijn Taal Verlichting (TV) mijn BT had ontdekt.   

 

De overtuiging, dat praten met anderen belangrijker is dan praten met onszelf, is een universele, zekere, zelf-vernietigende, zelf-vervullende profetie. BT heeft me, na veel vallen en opstaan, ​​geleerd, dat praten met mezelf daadwerkelijk belangrijker is dan praten met anderen. Hopelijk begrijp je – na het lezen van wat ik over mijn hemel-tergende gevoel voor humor heb geschreven – het is natuurlijk zo, ik heb meer plezier, om met mezelf te praten, dan om me met jou energie-verslindende OT in te laten.

 

Zelfs al zou ik, op de een of andere manier, besluiten om ineens een ​​briljante, grappige monoloog te produceren – ik heb daartoe geen enkele neiging, verlangen of motivatie – dan zou ik me nog steeds de wrede negativiteit op de hals gaan halen, van de droevige conditionering, van de stomme, domme, veroordelende, ongeïnteresseerde, defensieve en afleidende houding, van de niets-zeggende menigte, die ik – gedurende de vele jaren, die ik in mental health heb gewerkt en psychologie doceerde aan  Butte College – altijd heb gevoeld. Ook al ben ik zelf geen vader, ik heb, als geen ander, in al de mental health clienten en studenten, de afwezigheid van vaders waargenomen. Ik kon niets doen aan hun gemis. Stel je eens voor, dat ik zou hebben gezegd wat mij aan het lachen maakte? Het zou iedereen hebben beledigd, studenten en docenten, want wat ik zeg, druist in tegen wat iedereen gelooft.

 

Ik voel me nog steeds zo opgelucht, om niemand meer iets te leren, ook niet BT. Als je BT wil, dan lach je met mij mee of je moet zonder mij doorgaan met je slopende OT. Het is nooit bij je opgekomen, dat je  niet in staat bent om te lachen, vanwege de manier waarop je met je taal omgaat. Ik zie het niet als mijn probleem. Het is grappig, dat je zoveel ophef maakt over allerlei zaken en toch verschijnt het woord plezier niet eens onderaan je boodschappenlijstje.

 

Plezier hebben is voor mij het allerbelangrijkste. Daar moet je hopelijk om lachen, want ik geef echt volledig toe, dat ik niet zo'n grappig persoon ben. Je zou kunnen zeggen: ik ben grappig op mijn eigen manier en jij bent dat natuurlijk ook. Jij zou ook, net als ik, plezier kunnen hebben met jou eigen taal, als je wat speelser en ontspannener zou worden in wat je zegt en omdat je naar jezelf hebt geluisterd en hebt gevoeld, dat de manier waarop je zegt wat je zegt, op je lach-spier werkt. Het, in BT, voor de hand liggende feit, dat je niet kunt lachen om je eigen zware, krampachtige, moeizame woorden, is geweldig materiaal, het heeft alleen wat werk nodig.

 

Tedious,

 

I especially like to describe my Embodied Language (EL) as a form of tedious humor. Everybody is trying to make it seem, as if what they are talking about is the most important thing, but what I am talking about, is really the most important thing. It really is, because nobody is talking about it, except me.

 

If you find this funny, it is probably for the wrong reason. You find it ridiculous, that what I find most important, isn’t talked about by anyone, so, how can it be important? It is funny, for the right reason, if you recognize, that I’m having fun, while you are not. I know, you don’t like to admit that, but it is true and your inability to acknowledge this, makes you incapable of laughing for the right reason.

 

Usually, it is assumed by stand-up comedians, that the audience, in principle, is capable of laughing and wants to laugh and they just have to say or do something, to help them, by making them laugh. I don’t believe in this nonsense at all. In my opinion, the audience – you – can’t laugh and that’s why you always demand to laugh for the wrong reasons. You want the illusion of fun and dumb asses, who give it to you, enable your false humor, by exploiting your nasty willingness, to laugh for the wrong reason.

 

I don’t believe in the illusion of having fun, but in having real fun, in laughing for the right reasons. What isn’t talked about is the new, as we simply don’t know how to do it. Talking about the new, without saying anything new, doesn’t make any sense, so we never even address it. Talking about the new only makes sense, if we can address the fact, that we just keep, unconsciously, repeating the same, old, boring bullshit, over and over again.

 

What I say may be considered as tedious, but it is important, as it matters very much to me and the fact that others/you don’t find that important, is because they/you don’t care about what matters to them/you. They/you believe, they/you really care about what matters to them/you, but their/your language only creates the illusion as if they/you do. Their/your DL doesn’t allow them/you to hear themselves/yourself and so, when it comes to what matters to them/you, they/you, unknowingly, merely repeat what others have told them/you, but not what they/you have told themselves/yourself.

 

When you for the first time engage in EL, you are stunned to find out, you, predominantly, only do things you don’t really want to do. The only way to start doing what you want to do, is to stop doing what you don’t want to do. Unless you stop doing what you don’t want to do, you are never going to be able to figure out what you want. Thus, this stopping of what we don’t want, happens without having any real knowledge about what we want. It may actually come as a total surprise to us, what we really want, once we are able to have ongoing EL.

 

I never could have imagined, I would leave behind so many people, in order to be able to have fun and to continue with my EL. Although it was difficult for me, it was necessary. I doubted so many times, if it was the right thing to do – to leave all my family and my so-called friends – but it was and it is. I had to do it and I’m happy and relieved, I no longer doubt it.

 

The common belief, that talking with others is more important than talking with ourselves, is a universal self-defeating prophesy. My EL taught me, however, through many trials and errors, that talking with myself is more important than talking with others. As you may be able to understand, after reading what I have written about my sense of humor, it is, of course, true, I’m having more fun, talking with myself, than dealing with your energy-draining DL.  

 

Even if I would somehow decide, to give a brilliantly funny monologue – I have no inclination, desire or  motivation to do this – I would still experience the cruel negativity of the mute, dumb, judgmental, disinterested, distractable attitude of the crowd, I have felt during the many years that I was teaching psychology at Butte College. Imagine, I would have said anything, which made me laugh? It would have offended everyone, students and faculty, because what I say goes against what everyone believes.

 

I still feel so relieved, not to teach anyone anything anymore, also not EL. If you want EL, you either laugh with me or you will have to continue with your debilitating DL without me. It has never even occurred to you, you are incapable of laughing, because of how you deal with your language. I don’t see it as my problem. I find it funny, you make such a big deal about so many things, yet fun doesn’t even appear at the bottom of your shopping list.

 

To me, having fun is the most important thing. You should laugh about that, because I fully admit, I am not a very funny person. You could say, I’m funny in my own way and so could you. You too, could have fun with your language, if you became more playful and relaxed about what you say, because you’ve listened to yourself and felt, that how you say what you say, hits your funny bone. The, in EL, obvious fact, that you can’t laugh about your own heavy words, is great material, it just needs some work.       

 

  

 

Needed,

 

Many people have talked, written, listened to or read about the, presumed, importance of being or finding your true self, speaking with your authentic voice or becoming who you, supposedly, really are, but this return to our original, reliable selves didn’t and couldn’t result in our Embodied Language (EL). Such so-called spiritual quests – which, of course, nowadays, must also involve writing another boring book, to, supposedly, tell your sob-story, giving a well-worded, dramatic speech about all the traumas you went through and have overcome, and posting your writings, videos or podcasts on social media – have nothing whatsoever to do with discovering  your own language, which uniquely fits with you.  

 

Although others, who also have EL, can hear it and can enjoy it with you, they don’t need to have your EL, as your EL is just for you and that is why, you can never go wrong with it. You go wrong with your mechanical Disembodied Language (DL), which is how you were conditioned to deal with language. While you may be highly educated and affluent, your obsession with words, which you call your mind, doesn’t allow you to say what you want to say often enough – and repeatedly enough – to make you hear, experience and understand the difference between your own DL and EL. In EL, there’s no problem in saying or writing what you have already said or written, as you know, absolutely sure, you have never said or written, what you are saying or writing at any given moment. Indeed, in EL, you are always new and your newness is determined by the fact, that your language is as alive as you and free from fear, frustration, stress or anxiety, as you enjoy expressing, what only you are capable of expressing.

 

In EL, you produce an attuned sound, a voice, which not only fits with, but also nourishes and energizes your body. Consequently, your nervous system and your brain is very happy with the aural vibrations of your own language and this is tangible, by how you feel about yourself. In EL, you just feel great, for no apparent reason. However, you do speak out loud, alone, with yourself and you realize, your language is really only about you. Initially, this may strike you as strange and almost unbelievable, with EL, you don’t need to be heard by others anymore, since you are now listening to yourself. By discovering and exploring your EL, you acknowledge, there truly is a language, which is produced by you, because it is strictly meant for you. Up until that very moment of recognizing your EL, you had never believed, that you would find or could find your own language, but suddenly you know, with 100% certainty, it exists.

 

Once you begin to have some EL instead of DL, you know you can always speak and hear it. Each time you speak and hear it, you are again reminded, a new phase of your life has begun. The change which occurs when you replace your DL with EL is needed. When you get to it, you feel so happy and satisfied that you have really changed. Positive, enduring behavioral change is impossible with DL. Since you were mostly conditioned by DL, you are – whether you know it or not, are aware of it or not or accept it or not – stuck with a burdensome repertoire of negative behaviors, which somehow will have to be stopped, if you want to continue with your own EL.

 

The conflict, you seem to be having, with yourself, which gives rise to – what should be described as an auditory illusion – what you refer to as your mind, is  about the extent to which you have experienced EL and DL while growing up. While it is certainly true that some of us have experienced more or less EL or DL, none of us have experienced steady, stable, conscious, skillful, confident, intelligent EL. In other words, nobody really knows what it is actually like, to continue with EL, as we have only been able to have accidental, brief, haphazard moments of it.  

 

Since the distinction between DL and EL, was never clear – before my elaborations on it – nobody has ever been in the position, to be able to deliberately, increasingly, more skillfully, continue with their EL. I know this sounds awfully pretentious, but I have lived with and investigated this concept for more than 40 years. Either I am lying or I am right, but I assure you, I am right. You agree when you explore what I am talking about. Before your discovery of your ability to decrease your DL and increase your EL, you were simply acting, unconsciously, out of your conditioning history with DL. Those who have had the good fortune, to experience more EL than others, while growing up, experience more conflict in their lives, than those who experienced minimal amounts of it. This is the great paradox of life, that those who have experienced more love, tenderness, care, support, sensitivity, beauty and intelligence, are inevitably more aware of the gigantic lack of these positive behaviors in themselves and others.

 

Without actively seizing on the possibility of having ongoing EL and, thus, reaping the many fruits of our Language Enlightenment (LE), we are totally unable to address and solve the enormous problems, which were all caused by our DL. Regardless of how well we were raised, our DL keeps wreaking more havoc and ultimately destroys our lives, while our EL, if it was ever remotely addressed at all, has no chance to blossom. EL is our new way of dealing with our language --in which we do what we do, because we have repeatedly, trustingly, joyfully, told ourselves, to do it and in which we don’t do and, eventually, completely stop doing the self-defeating behaviors, as we told ourselves, to stop doing it -- which only has positive outcomes. Our very own language, EL, is only known to us and it can and should only be shared with others, once we assured ourselves, we can continue with it, in spite of the fact that others aren’t interested it all. Our LE, expressed by our EL, makes us brave enough, to let everyone with DL know, that their EL is needed. I may not be able to have EL with you, but I felt, I needed to write this.