Nobody,

 

I know, it sounds ridiculous and crazy to say that I am a nobody, but I really am a nobody. Although I fully admit, I’m still getting used to it, my presence feels like an absence, because nobody is interested in me, noticing me or talking with me. Strangely enough, I’m doing just fine, although in the past, I have made a big deal about trying to be somebody.

 

Somehow, I have always been a nobody, although I was – like everyone else – raised to suffer and to be a somebody. For a long time, I was uncertain about myself and imagining to be on some sort of spiritual path of searching and, one day, finding my true self. I didn’t find anything, which would make me say: I am that. Yes, I write and sing songs or play on my ukulele and – since I find nothing more interesting to do – I write about my Language Enlightenment (LE), which gave rise to my Embodied Language (EL), but I wouldn’t say: I am my song, I am my writing or I am my language. To say that wouldn’t sound right.

 

Each night, in my sleep or when, during my lunch, I take a short nap, I don’t do anything. Although I live a very active life, everything I do is experienced as emerging from this nothingness. You could say, that my nothingness is a work in progress. I was shocked to notice it for the first time, somewhere during my early twenties. I couldn’t believe it, I didn’t want to believe it, but it was not a belief and believing it or not just didn’t matter, as something irreversible had happened. Only today, I seem to be able to verbalize it and, thus, fully realize, what it was and still is.

 

When I started to listen to myself, while I was saying something, I was still very much involved in trying to be someone, but I instantly knew – that I had always known – that I was and would always be a nobody. It is strange to write this, as I have never expressed myself in writing about this. I seem to have lost my hesitation to express my LE and let others know, this is not merely some esoteric talk, that I am a nobody. I am a nobody and if you want to talk with me, you will have to accept that you are a nobody too.  

 

While being a nobody was mentioned by me on some occasions, it was never front and center, since my exploration of my DL and EL kept me so busy, that it distracted from my LE. However, this is not the case anymore. For me, it is easy and natural to be a nobody, but for those, who haven’t had, like me, ongoing EL, it is impossible. In DL, everybody is always somebody, regardless whether they consider themselves to be inferior or superior, losers or winners, victims or victimizers. I am a nobody and my LE is only known to me. This morning, in my car, on my way to my work, I was talking with myself about this and having a big outburst of laughter.

 

I am having great fun being a nobody and feel happy to address this easy topic. Not trying to fulfill any requirement and not comparing what I say to others or to what I myself have said before, is pure delight. The unfolding of EL isn’t anything reactionary, yet, this doesn’t mean, I have to go slow or can’t go fast. When people talk about silence or peacefulness, they often associate it with slowing down, as they, unknowingly, ignorantly and fearfully believe that liveliness and especially talking prevents their bliss. EL, however, illustrates to us, that we can be very much alive and be completely still. Actually, unless we are totally, verbally, alive, we can’t be still.  

 

The flow of our language has never been clear to us, due to our habitual involvement in DL. Basically, we have endlessly been stopping ourselves and each other from experiencing our own creation. Yes, with our language, we create our own reality. The fact, that we generally don’t experience this and remain unaware we are doing this, means that we create our own prison. Indeed, a somebody will always produce his or her own living hell, as only a nobody is able to use language properly. I can write like this, not because I try to write like this, but because there is nobody, who tries anything. I express, so to speak, what nobody wants to say. Of course, we are only one with one another – we can only experience oneness – when we are nobody. Our idiotic idea of  being ourselves, which doesn’t involve exploring the immense difference between DL and EL, inevitably, is about being somebody. Moreover, there is no way in which a somebody ever becomes a nobody, that is, in DL, we are grandiosely, perpetually denying our mortality, but in EL, we don’t become a nobody, but we realize, we have always been a nobody.

 

With ongoing EL, we realize our LE and feel at home in eternity. This means, we are not fantasizing about immortality, but by embodying our language, we realize – while vibrantly alive, actively involved in our language and communicating – what we were, before we were born and what we will be, after we die. There are no trials and tribulations anymore of being a somebody, for someone, who knows how to engage in ongoing EL, who expresses and realizes his or her LE. Everything happens in our language now, effortlessly and consciously and our ability to say it, to hear, to write it and to read it, is such, that we are always new. This beautiful, intelligent, generative aspect of language – which determines that we never repeat what we have expressed – can only be appreciated by a nobody. In other words, we can only become objective about our language, if we stop biasing it, by being a somebody. Unlike DL, in EL we tremendously enjoy our language.                     

 

Eternity,

 

As I have often stated, nobody with Disembodied Language (DL) wants to talk with anyone, who has Embodied Language (EL). No matter how hard I have tried, to reach out to those with DL, with my EL, it never really worked and it took me many years, to let myself know, it is actually the other way around, because those with EL, don’t want to talk with those with DL. I can now admit, my tenacious tendency, to want to have EL with others, was an indication of my immaturity. Although I wanted to have EL with others, it slowly became clear to me, I was hurting myself as well as others, if I kept wanting that.

 

I no longer want to have EL with others, as I used to. Something has shifted for me, once I recognized, that DL and EL are incompatible. Initially, upon discovering EL, it felt, as if nobody wanted to have EL with me and only wanted to continue with DL. However, I no longer see it that way. It now seems to me, because I have EL, I don’t want to have anything to do anymore with anyone, who has DL. Instead of feeling rejected by others, I reject them, as this feels so much better. I feel fully justified in having this stern approach to anyone’s DL. If anyone ever wants to talk with me, they will have to let me know, they want to stop DL and make no big deal about my ability to ridicule their inability to do so.

 

I’m not here to hold anyone’s hand. Each person, from the beginning, must stand on his or her own two feet. EL is not about me making you feel good, but about you making yourself feel good. If you can’t feel good about me feeling good about myself, why should I care about you? I would like you to feel good and that’s why I don’t claim to make you feel good. You need to make yourself feel good and unless you succeed in that, you will never feel good.

 

I don’t try to have EL with anyone with DL anymore. You are either ready to talk with me or not. I am a happy nobody. It doesn’t matter to me,  no one wants to talk with me, as I can understand why this is the case. I don’t feel rejected anymore, but free from all the trouble that is involved in your DL. There is a need for each of us, to come to terms with our childish demands, defined as our identity. We are not whatever we believe ourselves to be. Only EL can reveal this to us. I remember, when I, for the first time, in my mid-twenties, realized this. It made me cry so much, it never seemed to stop, as I had begun to mourn the loss of my verbal self.

 

I still, unconsciously, tried to be who I was before my realization, but I could never be anymore, who I had been up till that unusual moment, in which, for the first time, I really heard myself speak. I neither was the speaker nor the listener and – although for years I still went back and forth between DL and EL – my language began to disappear in silence. Only recently have I started talking and writing about my Language Enlightenment (LE), as I wasn’t able to do this before. Being a nobody requires a lot of adjustments in language. I no longer try to remind myself, I am me, as am whatever I can afford to be.

 

These words are now arranged in this way, since I have nothing to say. Of course, I believed what I said and wrote was very important, but it wasn’t and it isn’t and I am so glad it was and is that way. People have spoken and written about transcending your mind and I have also spoken and written about that, because others did. However, in talking with myself, everything became very different from how I used to talk with others. As far as I am concerned, there never was a mind to transcend, as there was only my way of using language, which either included or excluded death. In EL, we include the irrefutable fact, that all these words will eventually disappear, but in DL, we stupidly pretend to be immortal.

 

To engage in EL, is to accept death as a verbal fact, which isn’t going to happen later, when you blow out your last breath, but which is happening when you listen to yourself while you speak. The speaker dissolves into the listener and the listener dissolves into the speaker and what is being said deepens the silence. All talk with DL about silence was false, as people assume, that language has to be stopped, to be silent, but it will stop by itself, whether we let it or not. In EL, we let it, but in DL, we can’t let it, as we hang on to everything that hasn’t been said.

 

Upon discovering the great difference between DL and EL, our struggle – with our language – will be over, yet our old habit of dealing with our language, will still manifest itself, even while we are having EL. Although EL is wonderful, we cannot continue with it forever and the fact that nobody wants to have EL with us, sets the stage for our verbal dissolvement in talking with or writing to ourselves. Inevitably, our LE has the last word, that is, only if we continue to talk with and write to ourselves, only if we speak and write every sentence, we are able to produce to its very end, so that – by including eternity – we have used our language to its fullest.                         

 

Fascism,

 

The word fascism is thrown around a lot these days. If people don’t agree with each other, they call each other fascist or racist. People go out of their way, to avoid being called such names and yet, such terms  and accusations keep going back and forth. What is going on here? Who are all these supposedly good  people, who are cussing out all these presumably bad people? Are you the pot – in the saying: the pot who called the kettle black – or are you the kettle?

 

I heard a joke. So, my scatterbrained friend accused me of misquoting cliches. Isn’t that the pot calling the kettle racist? Here’s another one. There was a water fight at our park today and I won. Nobody is a match for my kettle. How about this one? My friend said: your jokes can get really racist sometimes. I gave him a long and hard look and said: Really, coming from you? That’s like the pot calling the kettle a thief. One more. I heard about this man who died due to his obsession of taking photos of himself next to a boiling kettle. He had serious selfie steam issues. Although you are still pretending, that it is better to be the kettle than the pot – or the other way around – in Disembodied Language (DL), you never really talk with anyone, who doesn’t agree with you and it doesn’t even matter whether you are black or white. The joke itself is racist and must have been invented by white people.

 

You – not someone else – keep your ugly DL going, in which you set yourself apart from everyone else. Moreover, your whole so-called special and unique identity, is based on this imaginary notion, that you are this separate person, who is having his or her own equally superior, extraordinary experiences. However, there is no one inside of you, who has these wonderful, special experiences, as this is merely the way in which we are used to talk about ourselves. That we are all used to it, doesn’t make it true. To the contrary, it creates only more problems.

 

The way in which you deal with language – which derives from how others have talked with you and from how you have come to talk with yourself and others – creates nothing but chaos and conflict and yet, you religiously believe, this to be your sacred reality. You don’t like to admit this, but your denial only makes things worse and this is why you live a superficial life of fear, frustration, stress, anxiety, anger and futility. Your negative emotions can only be quelled by having multiple addictions. You keep your sleezy, mechanical behavioral repertoire going, because you are unconscious about who you are.

 

To be conscious, your language must change, but such change can only occur, if your current verbal manners are stopped. Only once that has been accomplished will it be evident to you, that your DL determined everything else you did or didn’t do. A whole new set of priorities will reveal itself, once you have stopped your DL and engage in Embodied Language (EL). I know many of these truths, as I reap the beneficial consequences of my EL, but you only get to find out about the results of your DL, since you have never engaged in prolonged EL. Furthermore, you keep making it seem as if you already have EL, but you don’t know what it is, as you have never talked with me or with anyone, who is capable of having ongoing EL. Although you read this writing, the next step – to talk with me and to seriously consider what I convey – most likely, is not going to be taken, as you, unknowingly, still wish to continue with stupid, forceful, effortful, phony DL.

 

My descriptions of your DL, are not the same the  usual dressing down and telling off of other people, as what I say is not my opinion, but an absolute fact.  Anyone with EL, will say what I say about DL and the only reason – after all your unhappy and dissatisfied years of living with fake self-knowledge – you still haven’t taken notice of this magnificent agreement, is because you have only known DL. Yes, you really don’t want to talk about the facts of your own life, as you are afraid, to be exposed for all the nonsense and cruelty you have proclaimed and justified. It has never occurred to you, that your way of dealing with language, in and of itself, is destructive and harmful.

 

I don’t take part in your so-called reality, as I create and live in my own reality. You may go on believing in and lying about your reality, but I or anyone with EL – it could be you – can hear what you are doing, that’s why you don’t want to talk with me. Nobody with DL wants to talk with anyone who has EL. This has been the case since the human beings became verbal. Astonishingly, we find ourselves at this point in history, where – whether you know it or not, are aware of it or not, believe it or not or are willing to admit it or not – your DL is on its deathbed and the only positive way forward is with my EL. I say my EL, because, unlike you, I am in charge of how I use my language. Surely, EL could also be yours, but this will only be the case, if you have the humility, honesty and courage to acknowledge your total ignorance about this aspect of your life. With DL, you have neglected to pay attention to how you sound and, thus, you speak with a sound, you don’t like to hear. Yes, it isn’t me you don’t want to hear, but yourself.

 

EL is in favor of humor and, perhaps, it is better to say that humor is in favor of EL, because, why did the kettle get so hot? It needed to blow off steam. And, what do you call Hitler when he gets angry? Fuhrer-ious. What do you call a non-binary fascist? A Not-she. Your DL is morbid, as it prevents laughter. A fascist, liberal, and communist start arguing who’s got a better ideology. To settle their argument, they decide to see whose ideology can make a cat eat mustard. Fascist takes a spoonful of mustard and forcefully shoves it down the cat’s throat. Liberal puts mustard between two pieces of tasty meat and thus tricks the cat into eating it. Communist smears mustard below the cat’s tail. Poor animal starts meowing and tries to lick it off. Communists says: Note, it’s eating mustard voluntarily and with a cheerful song. It's a well-known fact that Hitler often consulted astrologists and people involved in the occult to get direction while Germany fought in World War II. One day he decided to thank his chief astrologer and called him into his office to say: we've done really well in the war and I'm grateful for your advice. I'm wondering something though, how come you never told me something that would be important to me  like when will I die?
The astrologer said: mein Fuhrer, you never asked.
Hitler says: I'm asking you now, do you know the day I'm going to die? The astrologer says: as a matter of fact I do know the day. You're going to die on a Jewish holiday. Hitler is shocked: that's a horrible thing - a Jewish holiday! What Jewish holiday am I going to die on? The man says: any day you die will be a Jewish holiday. Likewise, I know  when your DL dies, it will be a celebration, as the root cause of fascism has finally been addressed.  

 

Meaning,

 

Everything has meaning, every experience, whether good or bad, pleasant or unpleasant. What it means is what you tell yourself about it. You give meaning to your experience with your language. If something seems meaningless or useless, then that is all the more reason to pay some extra attention to it.

 

Of course you can also rely on the religious, political, commercial, philosophical, psychological or cultural explanations for how entire populations have continued to behave for centuries. You can fool yourself, with both your own explanation and the explanation of others. Chances are, however, that you have been fooled by the explanation of others, which is so ingrained that you have come to regard it as your own explanation. Whether that so-called explanation was given to you by others or by yourself does not really matter much, because the two always – yes always – go together.

 

You miss out on the opportunity of a lifetime if you don't engage in Embodied Language (EL) and follow your own path. Your life has only the meaning you give it, and if you continue to be in trouble, it is because you can no longer sustain the lies of your verbal delusion. When you have finally, bravely and responsibly assigned the correct meaning to what you are experiencing - whether it was a positive or negative experience - then each experience will be a transformation of your previous history, in which similar experiences were misinterpreted.

 

Giving your own meaning or translation to 

your life makes you happy or unhappy. It 

also has to do with asking the right question,

 to yourself. Usually most people remain 

busy with questions that they have never 

had themselves, but which, due to upbringing 

and culture, have come to determine their 

lives. Also the answer to questions about

 moral life issues was never produced by

 themselves and if inevitable doubt arose, 

about the belief determined by their 

conditioning, their own answer was 

always – yes always – overruled again,

 by the pre-existing belief . In short, 

because we are used to Disembodied 

Language (DL), we have never even 

bothered with our own questions and

 our own answers.

 

In EL, it turns out, to our great surprise, we have very few questions, because our own answer is the correct answer. In fact, the insignificance of the many questions we were burdened with is such that the whole issue, which those questions were about, disappears, as no answer is even needed for that ridiculous question. This is the case, for example, with questions about our so-called mind, which doesn’t appear to exist from our reasoning with EL.

 

The realization of what is valuable or important to us, comes from giving verbal attention to anything that demands our attention. We can describe and listen to the shift of our attention, in such a way – in our own way, with our own words – that what we say and hear coincides with what we experience and that speaker and listener is experienced as one.

 

Honesty, authenticity, liveliness, awareness, intelligence, wisdom, love, creativity are nice words, but they don't describe what actually happens when we give meaning to all our experiences. Because in EL, we listen while we speak, we articulate and find our own unique meaning. Probably, what you will do with EL is something completely different from what I do and have done so far. This is because EL puts all other experiences in a different light. In my case, many of my previous experiences have become unimportant, as I became mainly concerned with speaking, listening, writing and reading.

 

I realize – because everyone is busy with DL and I  continue with EL anyway – I no longer make any more effort, with talking, to bring EL to anyone’s  attention. As a result, the emphasis of my EL has come to lie on writing to myself and speaking to myself. In other words, because I speak, I can listen and go along with what matters to me, and because I write, I can read and therefore act on what is always – yes always – good for me. So, I am never concerned with just listening or just reading, because that, without speaking and without writing, is meaningless as far as I am concerned. Nor do I feel the need to hear or read anything about DL. For me, DL is a done deal.

 

The appropriation of language is a good 

description of EL,  I only recently started 

using. Repeatedly dealing with the same 

subject and describing and considering

 everything connected with it from all sides, 

calmly and comprehensively, is something

 that not only gives me great joy, but also

 bears many fruits. The consequences of 

my EL are truly phenomenal. This is 

vastly different from DL, from which 

we inadvertently, endlessly engage in 

all sorts of distracting behaviors, that 

don't suit us and therefore undermine and impair us.

 

Today, I only listen to myself and my actions come from what I have described. That's how I live and that's how I want to live. The remarkable thing is that I can live like this and that I can afford all this. Most people are not themselves and have no idea what it means to be yourself. I know someone who earns a lot of money as a lawyer and who owns a lot, but who complains bitterly, because he never does what he really wants, because he doesn’t know what he really wants.  

 

I've spent a long time trying to figure out who I really am and what I really want, because I was confused about that from how I grew up. My always – yes always – pre-existing ability to have EL and therefore to talk to myself was always overpowered by the busy hustle and bustle of the family, in which everyone was involved in a battle for attention. Talking to and listening to others - which is the essence of DL - was so overwhelming that, many years later, I am still amazed at how, despite that, I have become one with my EL because I began to write about my Language Enlightenment (LE).

   

 

Betekenis,

 

Alles heeft betekenis, iedere ervaring, ongeacht of het nou een goeie of een slechte, een aangename of een onaangename ervaring is. Wat het betekent, is wat jij erover verteld aan jezelf. Jij geeft betekenis aan jou ervaring met jou taal. Als iets betekenisloos of zinloos schijnt te zijn, dan is dat des te meer een reden, om er eens meer aandacht aan te geven.

 

Uiteraard kun je je ook verlaten op de religieuze, politieke, commerciele, filosofische, psychologische of culturele uitleg, voor hoe hele volksstammen zich eeuwenlang zijn blijven gedragen. Je kunt jezelf voor de gek houden, met zowel je eigen uitleg, als de uitleg van anderen. De kans is echter het grootste, dat je je in de luren hebt laten leggen door de uitleg van anderen, die echter zo zit ingebakken, dat jij het als je eigen uitleg bent gaan beschouwen. Of die zogenaamde uitleg je door anderen of door jezelf werd aangepraat, doet er eigenlijk niet eens veel toe, want die twee gaan altijd – ja altijd – samen.

 

Je loopt de kans van je leven mis, indien je je niet met Belichaamde Taal (BT) gaat bezighouden en zodoende je eigen weg kunt volgen. Jou leven heeft uitsluitend en alleen de betekenis, die jij eraan geeft en als jij in de problemen blijft zitten, dan is dat, omdat je niet langer de leugens kunt volhouden van je verbale zins-begoocheling. Wanneer je de juiste betekenis hebt toegekend aan wat jij ervaart – ongeacht of het een positieve of negatieve ervaring was – dan is iedere ervaring een transformatie van je voorgeschiedenis, waarin soortgelijke ervaringen verkeerd waren geinterpreteerd.

 

Het geven van betekenis of vertaling aan je eigen leven, maakt je gelukkig of ongelukkig. Het heeft ook te maken met het stellen van de juiste vraag, aan jezelf. Meestal zijn en blijven mensen bezig met vragen, die ze nooit zelf hebben gehad, maar die, vanwege opvoeding en cultuur, hun leven zijn gaan bepalen. Ook het antwoord op vragen over vele morele levens kwesties werd nooit door henzelf geproduceerd en indien er onvermijdelijke twijfel ontstond, aan het door de conditionering bepaalde geloof, dan werd het eigen antwoord uiteindelijk altijd – ja altijd – weer overstemd, door het al reeds bestaande geloof. Kortom, we hebben, omdat we Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) gewend zijn, ons nog nooit met onze eigen vragen en onze eigen antwoorden bezig gehouden.

 

In BT blijkt tot grote verbazing, dat wij maar heel weinig vragen hebben, omdat ons eigen antwoord het juiste antwoord is. De onbelangrijkheid van de vele vragen, waarmee we waren opgezadeld, is zelfs zo, dat de hele kwestie als zodanig, waarover al die vragen gingen, verdwijnt, omdat er niet eens een antwoord nodig meer is op die belachelijke vraag. Dit is bijvoorbeeld het geval met vragen over onze zogenaamde mind, die vanuit onze redenatie met BT niet eens blijkt te bestaan.

 

Het besef van wat waardevol of belangrijk voor ons is, komt voort uit het geven van verbale aandacht aan alles was onze aandacht vraagt. Wij kunnen het verspringen van onze aandacht heel aandachtig en op zodanige wijze beschrijven en beluisteren – op onze eigen manier, met onze eigen woorden – dat wat wij zeggen en horen precies samenvalt met wat wij beleven en dat de spreker en luisteraar een is.

 

Eerlijkheid, authenticiteit, levendigheid, bewustzijn,  intelligentie, wijsheid, liefde, creativiteit zijn mooie woorden, maar beschrijven niet wat er eigenlijk precies gebeurd, als wij betekenis gaan geven aan al onze eigen ervaringen. Omdat wij in BT luisterend spreken, verwoorden en vinden wij dus onze eigen unieke betekenis. Waarschijnlijk is wat jij ermee gaat doen iets heel anders, als wat ik ermee doe en tot dusver heb gedaan. Dit komt, omdat BT alle andere ervaringen in een ander daglicht stelt. In mijn geval zijn heel veel ervaringen onbelangrijk geworden en houd ik me dus hoofdzakelijk bezig met het spreken, luisteren, schrijven en lezen.

 

Ik realiseer me – omdat iedereen met OT bezig is en ik desondanks met BT verder ga – dat ik geen enkele  moeite meer wil doen, om, al pratende, BT onder de aandacht te brengen. Hierdoor is het accent komen te liggen op het schrijven naar mezelf en spreken met mijzelf. Met andere woorden, omdat ik spreek, kan ik luisteren en mee blijven gaan, met wat ik belangrijk vind en omdat ik schrijf, kan ik lezen en daardoor handelen, vanuit wat altijd – ja altijd – goed is voor mij. Ik ben dus nooit bezig met alleen maar het luisteren of alleen maar het lezen, omdat dat, zonder het spreken en zonder het schrijven, wat mij betrefd, volslagen zinloos is. Ook heb ik geen enkele behoefte, om nog iets te horen of te lezen over OT. Voor mij is OT een afgedane zaak.

 

Het toe-eigenen van taal is een beschrijving van BT, die ik nog maar onlangs ben gaan gebruiken. Het herhaaldelijk bezig zijn met hetzelfde onderwerp en het van alle kanten, rustig en uitvoerig beschrijven en beschouwen van alles wat daarmee samenhangt, is iets wat mij niet alleen grote vreugde geeft, maar wat eveneens vele vruchten afwerpt. De gevolgen van BT zijn zonder meer fenomenaal. Dit is enorm anders dan in OT, vanwaaruit we eindeloos bezig blijven met allerlei verstrooiende gedragingen, die niet bij ons passen en die ons daarom ondermijnen.

 

Vandaag, luister ik alleen nog naar mijzelf en komt mijn handelen voort uit wat ik heb beschreven. Zo leef ik en zo wil ik leven. Het opmerkelijke is ook, dat ik zo kan leven en dat ik mij dit dus allemaal kan permiteren. De meeste mensen zijn niet zichzelf en hebben geen flauw idee, wat het inhoud, om jezelf te zijn. Ik ken iemand, die veel geld verdiend, als advocaat en die veel bezit, maar die steen en been klaagt, omdat hij nooit doet wat hij echt wil.

 

Ik ben lange tijd bezig geweest, om uit te vinden, wie ik nou echt ben en wat ik echt wil, omdat ik daar vanuit hoe ik was opgegroeid verward over was. Mijn altijd – ja altijd – al bestaande vermogen, om BT te hebben en om dus met mijzelf te praten, werd telkens weer overstemd door de drukte in de veeltalige familie, waarin iedereen was verwikkeld in een strijd om aandacht. Het praten met en luisteren naar anderen – wat dus de essentie is van OT – was zo overweldigend, dat ik zelfs vele jaren later, nog steeds verbaast sta, over hoe ik ondanks dat, een ben geworden met mijn BT, omdat ik ben gaan schrijven vanuit mijn Taal Verlichting (TV).       

 

Natural,

 

I write about my Embodied Language (EL) every day and you read my writing. Things are getting crazier and crazier, in your world, because, unknowingly, you engage in Disembodied Language (DL). If you want sanity, you would favor EL, which would make you speak with the natural sound of your wellbeing. You not only produce this wonderful vibration, but you also hear it and you are positively affected by your resonant voice. This is not some technique.

 

Although my writing is very important, it is even more important, how you respond to this writing. Sadly, for you, you don’t respond. You only read it and that’s it, but you don’t talk with me and get a real sense of what EL is like. It is necessary for you to talk with me, as I am the only one, who knows about EL. I know, you don’t believe me, but that is okay. I am not trying to convince, because my EL has made me realize my Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

This writing is not to explain anything to anyone, but to challenge you. It is up to you, to find out as much as you can about EL and, of course, talking with me is the best way. Why don’t you like to have EL instead of DL already? Of course, you want to, but you don’t know how. I know how to have EL. You could have it too and it would be as good for you, as it is for me. Moreover, we would laugh so much about all the drama involved in DL.

 

Your verbal paralysis is clear to me, but for you, it is hard to admit: you are stuck. My language works for me, but with you, language works against you. You wrongly call that your mind and you have all sorts of false beliefs about language. How tenacious you are, by repeating your troublesome convictions, because you are on the receiving end of how you deal with   language. You keep creating consequences you hate.

 

Am I supposed to feel sorry for you? Well, I don’t. It  puts you off, but, perhaps, it illustrates something of the workings of DL to you? Am I too upfront and too much in your face, for you, to take anything of what I say serious? It is easy to dismiss me, but it doesn’t matter to me. You are too full of yourself to be open with me. My diagnosis is correct and I’m not making this up: you’ve got your head up your ass and since you’ve got your foot in your mouth, you can’t get it out. There’s a profound reason, why you need to have a taste of your own shit, as you are so full of it.

 

Don’t whine about me being judgmental, I know what DL sounds and smells like. It stinks and it is disgusting and I am not going to lie about it, here in my writing. Your DL is worthless, but it is important to recognize that as a fact. You probably got more important things to do, than to consider my writing. Certainly, why should anyone want to talk with me, if I expose that they are phony, superficial, cruel and superstitious? Well, the question answers itself.

 

Let there be no doubt about it: my way of dealing with language isn’t yours. I use my language only for me, but you seem to want to use your language only for others. I don’t believe you. You are lying. You are not generous, honest or truthful, but you would be, if you stopped your manipulative DL. Although you are an egoist, always on the defense, coercing and manipulating others, to do as you want them to, you don’t get anything out of it, that has any meaning.

 

You can’t admit, that your words, the sentences you produce, that your involvement in language really harms you. Even if you did, you are merely acting as if you are the person, who you believe yourself to be. I don’t believe myself to be this or that, that’s why I write what I’m able to produce this moment. To me, every sentence is a new phase in my life and,  my words create and maintain a reality, only for me, which makes me happy and capable of realizing that I am the only person, who is doing this deliberately, skillfully and effortlessly. My originality derives from the fact that I hear myself while I speak. You can’t do this, as it goes against your conditioning, which compels you to listen to others or to get others to listen to you. In each case, you focus on others.

 

Your problem is not listening, but the way of talking which brings about listening. You are so insensitive, ignorant and dumb, because you engage in DL, but seldom, if ever in EL. Of course, it is exhausting to be you, as you are all over the map, fragmented and conflicted. Of course, you are frustrated and fearful things will get worse than they already are. You are angry and dissatisfied, as your needs are never met, I get it, but you create your own problems. Why the hell should I or anyone care about you, if all you do is burden others with your tragedies and disasters?

 

You are responsible for how you use your language, but you keep trying – in vain – to cop out of this  responsibility. All I can do, is shrug my shoulders and laugh about your misery. It wouldn’t do anyone any good, if I would be miserable too. You sound so tense, stressed, anxious, upset and confused. No, I don’t feel sorry for you, I already told you. Actually, I have fun hating you. I know, you believe that hate is a negative state, but you don’t know anything about hating DL, which is very delightful and exquisite.

 

Anything which reminds you of being sincere, open and humble is immediately covered up or distracted from, but I don’t let you take away my EL. Although I can’t do anything for you, as you will have to face the pathetic reality of your own DL by yourself, you neither can do anything for me nor against me. My ability to have EL, is mine alone, it is unmovable, like a mountain. I recognize your sick, twisted DL from miles away and continue to avoid it like the plague.

 

I have no use for you, other than to mock you, to ridicule you and to put you, verbally, in your place. Your DL is not my cup of tea and I’ll let you have it.  

 

Only if you can accept, I know something, which you have been too arrogant to pay attention to, can you begin to acknowledge what it is, that you have been trying to escape. I’m not going to make you listen to me or to yourself, but I write these words, to let you know where I stand. Unless, you hear your own DL, it isn’t going to stop and you won’t be able to have any EL. Unless you do that, I keep my distance and laugh at your idiotic,  insidious, but tragic antics, which are all too familiar to me. And, I can do all of this, because it comes natural to have EL.

          

 

Parting,

 

Embodied Language (EL) is making yourself audible – to yourself – in your own language. You can hear exactly whether you feel positive or negative. In both cases, you just allow it. When you feel positive, you sound like this and when you feel negative, you sound different. Because of our habitual way of handling our language, which I therefore call Disembodied Language (DL), we say that we are not really ourselves as long as we still feel negative and are only ourselves when we feel positive. Of course we are ourselves in DL as well as in EL, but the big difference is that we can only talk about this with EL and are therefore stuck in DL with a totally wrong verbal self-image.

 

Whether we can verbalize it, admit it and know it or not, everyone unconsciously tries to be and stay positive, when we actually experience negativity. This is a main characteristic of DL. However, from our EL, we are able to represent our emotional experience, our feelings, in a sincere and therefore correct way. So if you feel negative, you just say that to yourself and then, you can really hear it and then there is basically nothing wrong with that, because that's simply how you feel. You don't try to change it while you talk with yourself about it and you just let it be. You know because of EL when it changes. It is not because of a decision, but because you are aware of what you are actually experiencing.

 

Your ability to realize whether your experience is positive or negative has absolutely nothing to do with wanting to be positive or trying not to be negative. You are who you are and you sound the way you sound. You don't do anything to sound different than how you sound, that's why you can really feel the way you feel. In EL, whether you feel positive or negative, you know you really are you. Because you can allow all your feelings, everything transforms and everything becomes positive.

  

I too was busy with anything and everything.

I admit, that despite all my well-intentioned 

efforts, nothing came of what I wanted and 

pursued. Still, I feel positive, because all of

 this is now behind me and I will never have

 to worry about it again. I hear something 

has changed, but can't say exactly what it is 

yet. Have I suddenly become older and wiser? 

Is it because I quit DL forever? I don't care 

what kind of explanation I give and that feels

 very pleasant. My connection with the Dutch

 language is, of course, because of my 

emigration to the Americas in 1999, mainly

 an increasingly vague memory, because 

here I speak, read, hear and write in English. 

These words are a grateful farewell to the 

Dutch language, which could not have 

happened before with my EL.

 

It's been great, but I'll probably continue in English from now on, because there's no reason to say anything in Dutch anymore. There is no one left in the Netherlands with whom I am still in contact. As I write this, I also realize that apart from my wife Bonnie, there is no one here I can talk to about EL. It's not sad or negative, because it is what it is. I feel excited about what is to come, now that the past has been resolved with my language. I know that my  emphasis has shifted from being focused on EL to my Language Enlightenment (LE). It's amazing how that started to manifest itself. The realization that it was always my LE that made me want to have EL, is unimaginable.

 

LE is beyond our imagination, because it implies the end of language. So beautiful that, like everything else in life, we only borrow our language for a while and then, when we die, we give it back to those who live with it. Also that whole learning process of being born without language, experiencing EL, in the form of love, attention and care, but also the harsh reality, that soulful, innocent, felt, sincere, living language was just a childhood memory, which became more and more painful with adulthood, because the major difference between EL and DL was not yet clear. It was only when DL came to an end that EL could continue and that impermanence, did not come into the picture, but – inevitably – into my ears. It is because of DL, that we focus more on written than on spoken language and thus give more attention to visual than auditory stimuli.

 

During DL we are not only obsessed with, fixated on and seemingly imprisoned by the verbal aspect of our language, but we have also hung almost all of our belongings on what we can see. The old adage, seeing is believing, has taken us by the nose, as the real meaning of language cannot be written, read, and seen, since it can only be spoken and heard.

 

When we finally hear what we say and by listening to ourselves can begin to say what could not have come to our attention before, it turns out, there is nothing to say about death than that disembodying has already taken place during EL. This is EL's most amazing conclusion: although DL's suffering has lost its grip and we were happily able to continue with EL, what we were, before we acquired language and what we will have disappeared into, after we die, has come above the table because of our LE. It is so wonderful to be able to say this and to say goodbye to language as such. Only now my LE fully reveals itself, now that I have said and heard it.