Somber,

 

Het is zonder meer heel somber, dat iedereen alleen maar schijnt te weten, hoe ze Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) kunnen hebben, dat we allemaal, zo'n beetje levenslang, verkracht en genaaid worden en dat de hele verdomde wereld (ja want, we blijven steeds maar meer mensen creëren) naar de klote gaat. Sinds ik Belichaamde Taal (BT) heb en af weet van mijn Taal Verlichting (TV), kan ik gelukkig lachen om deze droevige, ellendige vertoning. Misschien stimuleert mijn grote gevoel voor humor je, om je hete hoofd eens eindelijk uit je reet te halen en met jezelf te gaan praten, in plaats van met anderen.

 

Feit is, zolang je anderen wilt overtuigen van jou waarheid, jou mening, jou humor, jou moraal of jou  politiek, dan praat je nooit met jezelf. Met lachen wordt dit pas goed duidelijk, want het is altijd iemand anders, die zogenaamd grappig voor jou doet, maar jij lacht nooit om jezelf. Als de optelsom niet klopt, dan zeggen we: de berekening klopt niet, maar dit is een verkeerde uitdrukking, want alles de afrekening klopt precies, waarom je zo ongelukkig bent en waarom je oppervlakkige, krampachtige leven zo’n sombere, saaie, rampzalige puinhoop is.

 

Naar mijn mening is het immoreel, om te lachen, om je hopeloos ontoereikende en onvermijdelijk frustrerende manier van communiceren, die alleen nog maar meer problemen veroorzaakt. Verwacht geen grappen van mij. Ik heb iets heel anders voor je, dat het vloerkleed onder je voeten vandaan zal trekken. Deze woorden zijn namelijk verweven tot een metaforisch tapijt. Door somige weg te laten en anderen naar voren te halen en te mengen en door ze aan elkaar aan te passen, kan ik, zoals ze zeggen, een beetje aan je verstand peuteren. Ik zou het geen hersenspoeling noemen, maar een verklanking en een uitdrukking, van alles waarvan jij belachelijk  bleef geloven, dat het in je hoofd zat. Als je met me zou praten, zou je het letterlijk kunnen horen, maar aangezien je alleen mijn schrijven leest, zul je me op mijn woord moeten geloven. Je moet natuurlijk helemaal niets, maar omdat je hopelijk moet lachen, kun je er misschien toch niet helemaal omheen.

 

Ik geloof niet, dat deze woorden ergens anders zijn dan waar jij ze kunt lezen of horen. Ze komen naar je toe, omdat ze dat nou eenmaal kunnen en ik wil dat ze dat doen. Tot jou komen, betekent simpelweg dat jij ze begrijpt en dat een andere manier van leven mogelijk wordt. Ik ben ervan overtuigd, dat ik heb meer plezier heb dan jij. Mijn humor heeft de potentie, om van jou iemand te maken, die echt om zichzelf gaat lachen. Ja, je zult jezelf moeten zijn, om om jezelf te kunnen lachen. Je lijkt geen gevoel voor humor te hebben, omdat je eraan gewend bent, om niet jezelf en dus onecht te zijn. Telkens wanneer je iets doet, zegt of begint, wat ook maar enigszins in overeenstemming is met wie werkelijk bent, begin je meteen zenuwachtig en verontschuldigend te lachen, want je weet het heel goed, dat je niet mag  lachen, om je eigen dwaasheid. Je toont zogezegd, dat je heel braaf bent, door niet om jezelf te lachen.

 

Vermoedelijk moet je jezelf nog serieuzer gaan nemen en berouw gaan hebben voor je al enorme zonden, want lachen om je mislukte idiote onzin, je verkeerde waanvoorstellingen en je onuitvoerbare zielige grandioze plannen wordt als gek beschouwd. Maar, wacht eens? Je zult de eerste, de laatste, maar waarschijnlijk ook de enige zijn die lacht, als je stopt om jezelf ervan langs te geven, over alles wat er zogenaamd mis met je is. Bovendien kun je altijd zelf heel goed horen of wat je zegt grappig is of niet. Zo niet, ga dan gewoon eens door, wees eens niet zo laf, miezerig en bekrompen, geef eens niet zo snel op. Je zult uiteindelijk iets lachwekkends zeggen, maar je moet het natuurlijk wel bij jezelf houden. Ga niet voor dat goedkope vermaak van anderen, die je alleen maar duffe voorgekauwde moppen kunnen tappen, waarin je jezelf zogenaamd kunt herkennen. Dat is allemaal zo’n stomme, bijgelovige leugen.

 

Humor, zoals je het kent, heeft nog nooit echt de bevrijdende eigenschappen gehad, die je altijd dacht dat het had, omdat jij jezelf er alleen maar even mee kon vergeten. Als je eindelijk om jezelf begint te lachen, weet je, hoe vol met stront je werkelijk zit en dat je die shit toch op de een of andere manier kwijt moet. En ik ben niet degene die dit zegt, maar je zult dit tegen jezelf gaan zeggen, omdat jij je eigen zinloze drama en problemen beu bent geworden.

 

Ik doe al wat ik beschrijf. Ik doe het elke dag en ik hoef niet lang te wachten, tot er iets grappigs voor mij langskomt. Ik lach meteen om alles wat ik zeg. Ik vind mezelf erg grappig en jouw onvermogen, om mijn triomphantelijke humor te begrijpen, maakt mijn plezier nog groter. Eerlijk gezegd kan het me geen ene moer schelen, dat je mij niet snapt. Dat is de enige manier, om verder te gaan. Jij komt door mij wellicht aan de weet, dat jij helemaal geen ene zak van je eigen leven snapt, snap je? Je bent nog niet eens begonnen met lachen om jezelf. Je eis, dat iemand of iets jou zou moeten komen opvrolijken, betekent, dat je het plezier met jezelf eindeloos uitstelt. Jezelf zijn, daar zit de lol in, dus ja, je zult eerst volledig moeten erkennen, dat je echt niet om jezelf kunt gaan lachen, zolang je maar blijft janken,  zeiken, schreeuwen, beschuldigen en klagen.

              

 

Dismal,

 

It is dismal, that everyone only knows how to have Disembodied Language (DL), that we are all, pretty much, screwed for life and that the whole fucking world (because, yes, we keep creating more and more people) is going to hell in a hand basket. Since I have Embodied Language (EL) and know about my Language Enlightenment (LE), I can laugh about this shit-show. Perhaps, my great sense of humor might stimulate you to get your head out of your ass and start talking with yourself, instead of with others.

 

The fact is, that as long as you want to convince others about your truth, your view, your humor,  your morals or your so-called intelligence, you never talk with yourself. With laughter, this gets very clear, because it is always someone else who supposedly is funny, but you never laugh about yourself. When things aren’t right, people say: it doesn’t add up, but, this is a wrong expression, because everything adds up exactly, about why you are unhappy and why your life is a gloomy, dreary, disastrous mess. 

 

In my opinion, it is immoral, to laugh about your hopelessly, inadequate and inevitably frustrating way of communicating, which creates nothing but problems. Don’t expect any jokes from me. I have something else for you, that will pull the rug from under your feet. You see, these words are woven into a metaphorical carpet. By tweaking some of them, I am able, as they say, to mess with your brain. I wouldn’t call it brain-washing, but rather brain-sounding, as I express what you ridiculously believe to be in your brain. If you would talk with me, you could hear it, but since you are only reading my writing, you’ve got to take my word for it.  

 

I don’t believe these words are anywhere else, then where you can read them or hear them. They get to you, because they can and I want them to. Getting to you, simply means, that you understand them and that another way of life becomes possible. I am convinced, I have more fun than you. My humor has the potential to transform you into someone, who can laugh about him or herself. Yes, you will have to be yourself, to be able to laugh about yourself. You don’t seem to have a sense of humor, because you are used to not being yourself. Whenever you do or say something, which is remotely in line with who really are, you immediately start laughing nervously and apologetically, because you know, you are not allowed to laugh about your own foolishness.  

 

Presumably, you need to take yourself more serious and repent for your evil sins, as laughing about your failed, idiotic nonsense, your, mistaken, delusional catastrophes and your pathetic, grandiose schemes is considered crazy. Guess what? You’ll be laughing all the way to the bank, if you stop beating yourself up over whatever is supposedly wrong with you. Moreover, you can tell for yourself, if what you say is funny or not. If it is not, just continue, don’t be such a coward, don’t give up so easily. You will eventually say something hilarious, but you’ve got to stick it out with yourself. Don’t go for cheap entertainment provided by others, who only tell you jokes, in which you supposedly recognize yourself. All that is a lie.

 

Humor, as you have known it, never really had the liberating qualities, you always believed it had, as it only allowed you to forget about yourself, for a few moments. When you finally begin to laugh about yourself, you’ve come to know how full of shit you really are. And, I’m not the one who is saying, but you’ll be saying this to yourself, as you’ve become tired of your own meaningless drama and problems.

 

I do what I describe. I do it every day and I don’t need to wait long for something funny to come along. I laugh right away at about anything I say. I find myself very funny and your inability to get my humor, is making my fun even better. Frankly, I don’t care if you don’t get it. That is the only way to move on. You need to know, that you’re not getting it, don’t you get it? You haven’t even started laughing about yourself and your demand for someone or something to lift your spirits, means you endlessly postpone having fun with yourself. Being yourself, that’s where the fun is, so yes, you first will have to fully acknowledge, you can’t laugh, as long as you’re still crying, screaming, blaming and complaining.                  

 Indeed,

 

I talk with myself and what you read here, is the writing of someone, who has dissolved in his Language Enlightenment (LE). Although I can share with you my written Embodied Language (EL), you cannot have my LE, which stays with me. These words are all I have, to convey to you, what has happened. I am no longer putting any effort in trying to find you or come to you. You’ll have to come to me, if you are ready, but most likely, you’re not ready and that is why you stay away.

 

Naturally, you too can arrive at your LE with your EL, but to do that, you’ll have to stop your Disembodied Language (DL). DL represents not only your history of conditioning with language, but with your entire behavioral repertoire. Therefore, to stop your DL, is to step out of your whole conditioning history. This means, you must forget about your culture, religion, country, upbringing, education and your trauma of not being able, to be who you really are. Perhaps, this last one is the biggest reason, why you don’t listen to yourself and acknowledge, the struggle, confusion and chaos, you experience, every day.

 

Indeed, with DL, you have never truly been yourself, as your language took you for a ride. I don’t want you to listen to me. I don’t make you listen to me, as that would be a waste of my and your time. You need to listen to yourself and the only way you are going to be able to do that, is if you speak out loud with yourself, about whatever you want to and need to talk about. You’ll listen, once you say to yourself what matters to you, once you stop playing games and express what is really going on. Yes, there are things you need to know and your only way to come to know them, is to say them and to listen to them.

 

You need time, to be away from others, so you can speak alone with yourself. This is not some stupid prayer, like a child crying for its parent, but mature, healthy, intelligent, necessary conversation, about everything you cannot talk about with others. Of course, you can, in principle, talk about it with others, but, only with those, who have done the same as you have been doing. Obviously, I have already done what I’m writing about and when you talk with me, there is no possibility to deny that. In fact, I only talk with those, who do as I do, who face the great challenge of taking care of their own needs, by listening to themselves, while they speak. 

 

Although I have a regular job and interact with folks at work, I never talk with them about EL of my LE. It took me sixty-four years to acknowledge, I need to have this incognito life-style, to be able to not get involved in anyone’s DL. To me, too much time and energy has already been wasted, on the common, superficial, dumb way in which people deal with their language. However, I am who I am, because of what I have done. Talking with myself is much more important to me than talking with you. I don’t crave, as I used to, your attention, as your attention isn’t any good to me. I get right attention from myself.

 

Once people talk out loud with themselves, they’ll suddenly hear something new, which isn’t part of their repetitive habit. This is also when, at long last, they give, as well as receive, themselves the right kind of attention. However, as long we don’t listen to ourselves while we speak, we are out of touch with ourselves, as our attention is always busy with others. Furthermore, in DL, we deal with ourselves, as if we are someone else. Indeed, there is always some conflict going on between what we say, we think or feel or who we are and were meant to be.

 

You weren’t meant to be anything and all the things you’ve told yourself to be, were totally false. They weren’t true, as you gave yourself the wrong kind of attention, in which your fragmentation, your chaos, your forcefulness and your superstitious, superficial  nonsense continued, which made you part of some group, race, culture, ethnicity, politics or country.

 

When you die, you are none of the things, you have been talking about your whole life, so the right kind of attention, is to die, while you are still alive, which simply means, to let go of your words and to listen to your own voice. Only then something new can be said, only then will what you say be done, only then is there congruence and harmony, between what you say and how you say it. You are going to die, this is absolutely certain. Your denial of your own death and your idiotic belief in some sort of after-life or in reincarnation, indicates that you are not really alive, as you hang on to everything, even though you can’t and shouldn’t. With DL, you live like a zombie, but with EL, you come alive, as you have raised yourself from the death, from your involvement in DL. And,  you do this for yourself, but not for someone else.    

 Inderdaad,

 

Ik praat met mezelf en wat je hier leest, is het schrijven van iemand, die is opgelost in zijn Taal Verlichting (TV). Hoewel ik mijn geschreven Belichaamde Taal (BT) met je kan delen, kun je mijn TV niet hebben, die blijft bij mij. Deze woorden zijn alles wat ik heb om je te vertellen wat er is gebeurd. Ik doe geen moeite meer om je te vinden of naar je toe te komen. Je zult naar mij moeten komen als je er klaar voor bent, maar hoogstwaarschijnlijk ben je er niet klaar voor en blijf je daarom weg.

 

Natuurlijk kun jij ook met je BT bij je TV aankomen, maar daarvoor moet je eerst je Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) stoppen. OT vertegenwoordigt niet alleen je geschiedenis van conditionering met taal, maar met je gehele gedragsrepertoire. Daarom is het stoppen van je OT eigenlijk een kwestie van in een keer uit je gehele conditioneringsgeschiedenis stappen. Dit betekent dat je je cultuur, religie, land, opvoeding, opleiding en je trauma van het niet kunnen zijn wie je werkelijk bent moet vergeten. Misschien is dit laatste wel de grootste reden, waarom je niet naar jezelf luistert en de zinloze strijd, verwarring en chaos erkent, die je wel degelijk elke dag ervaart.

 

Inderdaad, met OT ben je nooit echt jezelf geweest, omdat je taal je voor de gek hield. Ik wil niet dat je naar mij luistert. Ik dwing jou niet, ik manipuleer jou niet, om naar me te luisteren, want dat zou zonde zijn van mijn en jouw tijd. Je moet naar jezelf luisteren en de enige manier waarop je dat kunt doen, is door hardop met jezelf te praten, over alles waar je over wilt en moet praten. Je zult luisteren, zodra je tegen jezelf zegt wat belangrijk voor je is, zodra je stopt met het spelen van woord spelletjes  en eindelijk uitdrukt wat er echt met je aan de hand is. Ja, er zijn dingen die je moet weten en de enige manier om ze te leren kennen, is door ze te zeggen en door ernaar te luisteren.

 

Je hebt tijd nodig, om weg te zijn van anderen, 

zodat je alleen met jezelf kunt praten. Dit is 

niet een of ander stom gebed, zoals een kind

 dat huilt om zijn ouder, maar een volwassen, 

gezond, intelligent, noodzakelijk gesprek, over 

alles waarover je niet met anderen kon praten. 

Natuurlijk kun je er in principe met anderen 

over praten, maar alleen met degenen die 

hetzelfde hebben gedaan als jij. Het is duidelijk,

 dat ik al heb gedaan waar ik over schrijf en 

als je met me praat, is er geen mogelijkheid 

om dat te ontkennen. In feite praat ik alleen 

nog met degenen, die doen zoals ik en die 

dus de uitdaging aanvaarden, ​​om in hun 

eigen behoeften te voorzien door naar zichzelf

 te luisteren terwijl ze spreken.

 

Hoewel ik een vaste baan heb en met mensen op het werk omga, praat ik nooit met hen over BT of mijn TV. Het kostte me vierenzestig jaar om te erkennen dat ik deze incognito levensstijl nodig heb, om niet meer betrokken te raken bij iemands OT. Voor mij is er al te veel tijd en energie verspild aan de gewone, oppervlakkige, domme manier waarop mensen met hun taal omgaan. Ik ben echter wie ik ben en zijn kan, door wat ik heb gedaan. Praten met mezelf is veel belangrijker voor mij dan praten met jou. Ik hunker niet, zoals vroeger, naar jou aandacht, omdat jou aandacht niet goed voor me is. Ik krijg de juiste aandacht alleen van mezelf.

 

Zodra mensen hardop met zichzelf praten, horen ze plotseling iets nieuws, wat geen deel uitmaakt van hun repetitieve gewoonte. Dit valt samen met het moment, waarop ze zichzelf eindelijk de juiste aandacht geven en ontvangen. Zolang we echter niet naar onszelf luisteren terwijl we praten, hebben we geen contact met onszelf, omdat onze aandacht altijd met anderen bezig is. Bovendien gaan we in OT met onszelf om, alsof we iemand anders zijn. Er is inderdaad altijd een conflict gaande tussen wat we zeggen te denken of te voelen of tussen wie we zijn en wie we zogenaamd bedoeld waren te zijn.

 

Jij was nooit voorbestemd om te zijn wie je zei dat je was. Al die dingen, die jij jezelf hebt aangepraat zijn totaal onwaar. Ze waren niet waar, omdat jij jezelf de verkeerde aandacht gaf, waarin je fragmentatie,  chaos, dwang en bijgelovige, oppervlakkige onzin doorging en je geloofde deel uit te maken van een groep, ras, cultuur, etniciteit, politiek of land.

 

Als je dood gaat, ben je geen van de dingen, waar je al je hele leven over praat. De juiste aandacht is dus om te sterven terwijl je nog leeft, wat simpelweg betekent, dat je je woorden loslaat en luistert naar je eigen stem. Alleen dan kan er iets nieuws worden gezegd, alleen dan wordt er echt gedaan wat je zegt, want alleen dan is er congruentie en harmonie tussen wat je zegt en hoe je het zegt. Je gaat dood, dit is absoluut zeker. Je ontkenning van je eigen dood en je idiote geloof in een soort hiernamaals of  reïncarnatie, geeft aan dat je niet echt leeft, omdat je aan alles vasthoudt, ook al kan dat niet en zou je dat niet hoeven te doen. Met OT leef je als een zombie, maar met BT kom je tot leven, omdat jij opstaat uit de dood van je betrokkenheid bij OT. En, dat doe je geheel voor jezelf, maar niet voor een ander.

 

Sure,

 

I am not supposed to be so incredibly sure about myself, but the fact is, I am very sure Embodied Language (EL) is the only thing that makes me happy, while your dull, unintelligent, disgusting Disembodied Language (DL) means absolutely  nothing to me. I am sure my EL is the only way of dealing with language, which would make you happy too, but since you don’t want to talk with me, I write to scold you, because you miss out on what is the quintessential issue of your life. You listen to idiots, journalists, athletes, politicians, musicians, movie stars, but you never talk with me about EL. If you read my blog, you are going to get it, for sure.

 

It is often said, the only way to reach people, is to share your personal experience, because that is the only thing people can relate to. I don’t agree with this bullshit at all and I claim, that the only thing people can relate to, is something which scares the shit out of them. Although I am not trying to scare you, I know you are scared as hell already, even without me scaring you. I let you know how afraid you are, that you don’t dare to talk with me. Surely, I know my EL always reveals your phony DL. My EL shows how meaningless, violent, disconnected, coercive, creepy and depressing your usual way of talking is.

 

What you read here, is the most direct and honest account of your DL. You don’t say what you want to say and you can’t say what you want to say, as you don’t even know how to do that. Your ignorance about talking is astonishing. How can you say what you want to say, if you yourself don’t listen to what you say? You simply can’t. And, if you don’t listen to yourself, how is someone else supposed to listen to you? Reality is, you may make others listen to you, but I don’t listen to you, as I dislike how you sound.

 

Surely, if you would begin to pay attention to your sound, you would go to the edge, from where you take the jump. These are, of course, just words, but you have to cross your own boundaries, to be able to achieve EL. If you don’t do this and stay fearful of what you might say to yourself, nothing significant is achieved. Your boundaries are distractions, which protect your mediocrity and superstition. To have EL is to transcend your so-called small-mindedness.

 

I am sure, the glorified, overrated principle of free speech, which erroneously is still considered the foundation of a free society, keeps your DL going. Adherence to this principle implies, we are not concerned about the content of what someone says, as we are allowed to express all ideas, good ones as well as bad ones. It also means, that we have to put up with being offended, so that we can presumably agree to disagree and continue to differ on basic truths. I don’t put up with your DL, that is why I write like this. However, the First Amendment, which specifically protects expression of offensive speech, is based on the flawed reasoning, that inoffensive speech needs no protection. Although it is often said, the antidote for bad speech is more speech, we keep shutting each other up with DL, therefore, more speech, simply means more DL.

 

A society cannot be free, if individuals, who make up that society, commonly, unknowingly, stupidly, adhere to DL, the way of talking, which is essentially hate speech. Although educated human beings are able to recognize and adhere to various scientific laws, there is in 2023 still no universal definition of hate speech under international human rights law. We are endlessly bickering and arguing about what is supposedly offensive discourse, but we are never going to have EL together, as long as it is not our goal to stop our own DL, in the name of our own freedom of speech. Moreover, in the name of that so-called freedom of speech, we are stuck in what is best described as group-think, which is another basic characteristic of our dreadfully pervasive DL.

 

I am very sure that your EL needs protection, while your mechanical DL needs to be ridiculed and put in  its place. There can be no freedom without EL, as there is no individual honesty or accountability with DL, which makes you hate yourself. You can’t love yourself with DL, which constantly crushes your own ability to have EL. Your usual way of talking is hate speech, as it makes you unconscious about yourself. You may wonder, how can I be so sure? You know the answer already: I have EL, but you have DL.         

 

Lying,

 

The reason, you do not want to engage in Embodied Language (EL), but – seemingly – want to continue with your mechanical, boring, stupid Disembodied Language (DL), is because your EL would reveal all the terrible things you do and have always done: you have, with your DL, endlessly lied to yourself. It isn’t a pretty picture. You would engage in EL, once you would have stopped lying, but, as I have stated  many times, stopping DL requires, that you become aware about your whole sad conditioning history.

 

I am the living proof, that it is possible, to step out of DL, to have ongoing EL and to be conscious of who I am. I know why your still DL continues, even if  you would make serious attempts to stop it. Trying to stop your DL, keeps your DL going and once you have EL, you will know, you are not trying to have it, because you have it. Moreover, as you have EL, you realize, you were able to stop your DL without trying to stop it too. It stopped, since you were speaking with and listening to yourself and bringing your language back to yourself. In DL, your language is ineffective and problematic, as it always seems to be about others, but not about you. In DL, you only consider yourself in comparison to others, but in EL, you no longer put yourself above or below others.

 

When you consider yourself better than others, you put yourself higher than others and you are, as they say, holier-than-thou. If, however, you view others as superior to you, then you are the underdog, the victim, the oppressed or the loser. In EL, on the other hand, you will feel love, you will experience beauty, you will have clarity about your life, as you are totally natural and completely at ease. Thus, in EL, the comparison with others, never even arises.

 

In EL, you can be on your own, you appreciate being alone and undisturbed with yourself and this is why your Language Enlightenment (LE) is instantly clear to you. You don’t become this way, but you have always been this way and, in effect, you don’t stop your DL either, as you never were what you believed yourself to be. Therefore, there is no you, who was having DL, who stopped DL and who then went on to have EL. All this stuff is finished, the moment you engage in EL. You know it, when LE happens, as you realize your true self, which is neither dependent on the opinion of others, nor on your own opinion.

 

Please, stop reading for a moment and ask yourself: how is it possible, that someone, that anyone, can write anything like this? You could write it or say it. You can understand it and embody it. To turn away from your language, is a tragedy that has happened and that continues to happen, as long as you don’t take time, to listen to yourself and experience what you say. You have always abandoned yourself with your DL and your so-called identity – that you are someone special or that you are someone inferior, who doesn’t matter – was fabricated by your phony DL. Who you believed yourself to be, is based on your fear of death, as you will not be able to take anything with you, when you eventually return to where you were, before you were born. Of course, this notion of this returning is a metaphor, to signify the end of your language. Sure enough, you can talk  about eternity only as long as you are still alive.

 

Fantasies about heaven or hell, are the inevitable result of your inability to acknowledge, that you are the only one, who creates and lives in the reality of your own making. Your fear of death is, in fact, your fear of being alone, with your own language. It is evident from this realization, that what you call your consciousness, is actually your fear of others and not your fear of yourself. If you speak with yourself and hear your own reasoning with EL, you don’t hear any fear, because you are here. This business, which has been described as meditation, is always about trying to fit a square peg in a round hole, but in EL, you will be the master of your own language.

 

We keep lying, because we can deceive others, but we cannot deceive ourselves. We never consider ourselves to be the master over our breathing, our walking or our sleeping, as these behaviors come natural to us, but when it comes to our language, we make it seem, as if suddenly something different is going on. With EL, we come to know, that being verbal or literate – in retrospect – is as natural to us as our breathing, our walking or our sleeping. This demystification of our language is our LE, as we are only able to use our language, in the way that we were told or taught. Nobody taught us to have EL and that is why we don’t have it. However, EL isn’t something which is taught to us by others. I didn’t learn my it from someone else, as I discovered it myself. When we stop lying and engage in ongoing EL, we find, this is the only way to live: we have to do our own breathing and our own sleeping and we must stand on our own legs. To go our own way, we must speak for ourselves, with our own language.     

 

Mind,

 

Due to our Disembodied Language (DL) – which we have never talked about in a clear manner, that is, with Embodied Language (EL) – we are unknowingly, completely and inevitably, in the dark about who we really are. In what is known as the philosophy of mind, people attempt to identify the nature of the mind and its relationship with the body. Since we can’t help, but start our reasoning from DL – our usual way of talking – everything that follows, gets us more and more in trouble. We ask ourselves all sorts of, supposedly, deep, profound, philosophical or spiritual questions and come up with all sorts of answers, but the reality of every human beings is, that they are going around in circles, as long as the distinction between DL and EL hasn’t been made.

 

You will never hear me speak about the so-called mind-body problem, because I don’t have such an imaginary problem. Although it sounds unbelievable to those, who only know how to have DL, anyone with EL doesn’t have any problem. Moreover, for someone like me, who knows how to have ongoing EL, being without problems, is not a state of mind, as it simply describes my Language Enlightenment (LE). I don’t belong to any school of thought, since thought itself has absolutely no meaning for me. To me or to anyone, who is capable of having ongoing EL, it is joyfully, sensitively, but also, intellectually,  apparent, that our language – instead of a product of our language – is the source of our experiences, we call consciousness, thoughts, feelings or desires.    

 

If the nature of our language would be conceived as EL – rather than the DL, we mechanically engage in each day – we would be able to view our existing language, rather than, our non-existing mind, a true marvel. Interestingly, today, I write in English, but yesterday, I wrote in Dutch. At any given moment, I still have the urge to speak with myself in my native language, although I have lived in the United States since 1999 and have never been back to Holland, the country in which I grew up. With my English, I have literally distanced myself from everything I was  or believed to be, in Dutch. It has been so useful for me to be bilingual, as speaking and writing in two languages, has resulted in and greatly contributed to, my discovery and exploration of DL as well as EL.

 

There was a time, I still believed in having a mind, when my focus on language, began to emerge and sometimes just burst out, as it had not yet been fully articulated. It was a turbulent period of writing and reciting my poems, which, like the songs I sing today, were all about my love for language and my relationship. My wife Bonnie, is Chinese-American. She knows Dutch and has lived in the Netherlands for 13 years, but we have always mainly spoken in English with each other. At first, I had written some  poems in Dutch, but I wasn’t quite satisfied with them. When I tried to translate them in English, I instantly felt very pleased with the results. It was, as if, all of a sudden, my language made more sense.  

 

I was intrigued that I appreciated my English poems more than my Dutch poems and can still remember them, as they turned out to be the blue print of my life. What I used to consider as my inner voice, was actually my real voice, which I could speak and hear. Later, as I became capable of having ongoing EL, my LE was revealed to me. I have often heard people talk about the need to find your voice, but you don’t need to search. Just listen and hear yourself speak.

 

If you don’t say anything, there is nothing to hear. It is, of course, entirely different, to not say and not hear anything, after you have had DL or EL. Silence after DL is troublesome and uncomfortable. This is why people generally speaking – which is DL – can’t stand silence and try to do what they can, to escape from it, either with more DL or with other neurotic behavior. People believe, they are in their mind, but what they are saying is, they couldn’t say what they had actually wanted to say. Their so-called mind, is their defense against acknowledging, to themselves, they don’t even know what they had wanted to say.  

 

Everywhere we go, we engage in DL, because we are ill at ease.  Our stress, anxiety, fear, tension, worries and chaos never resolves with DL and so, it is always felt after the so-called talking is done. After we have had EL, by contrast, there is only wellbeing and this is making the silence – after we have spoken aloud with ourselves – very enjoyable. Moreover, once we are more familiar with EL, there is no need to speak, as we can move into our silence easily, instantly and effortlessly, even without saying a word. Silence is the result, the outcome, the consequence of having EL, but after we’ve had DL, we are restless, ruthless and reckless. You feel awful, whenever your DL has stopped, but it is relaxing, natural and spacious, to let go of everything, in the wordless experience of pure delight, after you’ve had a few moments of EL.

 

With EL it is like this: you can simply wait and there it is: you are full of bliss. As long as we still believe in having a mind, we continue to talk about what we,  supposedly, are thinking. When we say of someone, that he or she is out of his or her mind, this is not a good thing, because they are, presumably, losing their mind, while, obviously, in this case, being in your mind – presumably in the right state of mind – means being in control, which is the opposite of being crazy. Yet, those who believe to be on some spiritual path of supposedly becoming conscious of themselves, would probably say, that being in your mind and, presumably, having control, is a negative thing, as getting out of your mind or going beyond your mind, is their goal, because they experience being in their mind, as being imprisoned by words.

 

Someone with EL doesn’t believe in having thoughts anymore and, therefore, this whole issue of being in control of ourselves dissolves and being in or out of our mind is totally irrelevant. LE is unusual, because it isn’t anything like the enlightened gurus from East Asia for centuries have been talking about. Surely, LE and EL go hand in hand and you recognize your own enlightenment immediately, the moment you engage in EL. English language has made this clearer to me than my Dutch language, as it rationally and logically follows through on who I have always been.