Coming home,

 

The experience of coming home continues. The relaxation and the tranquility are getting deeper and more beautiful. These are, of course, merely just elated words or metaphorical descriptions, but they come from me. No one else writes or speaks like me, only I can, and, therefore, I do. I have Embodied Language (EL), and, therefore, I am. For all I care, Descartes may keep rolling around in his grave.

 

Why should I concern myself with the language of others, if I know instantly, it is again predictable, boring Disembodied Language (DL)? The person who can have EL with me, possesses the language, which I will continue to enjoy, talk or write about, because the rest simply no longer interests me.

 

Of course, with this writing, I let myself and others know, I have not forgotten anyone or anything. I am well-aware, we were all raised to accept DL as our , normal and expected way of communicating, but I will not let anyone prevent me from continuing on my own path, in my life, with EL. If people would take the trouble to understand me, they would discover something of utmost importance.

 

Presumably, you could say, I can speak meditatively and any listener can immediately be in meditation, because listening to me makes that possible. In my opinion, there is still a lot of confusion about what meditation actually is. In this writing, I do not want to leave any doubt that, even though it is spoken of everywhere very differently, meditation, of course, is always the result of how we handle our language.

 

What you call meditation, based on the rejection of your language, is – like the attempt to remarry after divorce – a form of self-denial. Surely, language and meditation are inextricably linked. In spite of what everyone else says, I would say, EL is the only real meditation, because language has the central place it ought to have. Any reference to meditation is superfluous, because it is totally self-evident in EL,  we are always actually talking about our Language Enlightenment (LE). This airy-fairy, languageless, illusive, mystical meditation, has such great appeal to us, because it is superficial, special and contrived.

 

Moments of meditation are precisely 

so incredibly rare, because we seem 

to have stopped – if only for a brief

 moment – to pretend that our language

 has nothing to do with it. Indeed, it 

is always about our own description

 of some blissful, all-encompassing,

 ephemeral state, which nevertheless

 is so important to us, that we keep 

wanting to talk or write about it.

 

Of course, everyone, especially when having an ecstatic, unique, spiritual experience, wants some kind of confirmation - in language - from others. Even if the intelligence-denying, but generally accepted, mindful meditation, is not about our language – because we keep ridiculously hearing, ad nauseam, quasi-meaningful, that it transcends and goes beyond words – we still need to give lectures, lessons, courses, satsangs or sessions, write books, Facebooks and blogs or make podcasts and videos.

 

The pervasive notion, that meditation should have nothing to do with language is stupid, hilarious as well as profoundly problematic. We cannot avoid or deny the great importance of our language and we should be concerned with language, in order to arrive at meditation. As I have said before, the term meditation itself is gratuitous, because only in EL, we do as we say. Consequently, we become aware of the best of what our language is capable of: our LE. In our common, daily, sloppy, stubborn, lazy, reactive DL, this is not the case.

 

Like Prayer, Nirvana, Tao, Qigong, His Holiness or any so-called Higher Power, the word Meditation also derives from DL. Simply stated, we are out of meditation, because of our mechanical, negative, rambunctious, compulsive and energy-consuming use of language, and in meditation, due to our ongoing EL, the natural expression of our LE.   

 

Since EL is ordinary, effortless and self-evident, and because we never deal – for any significant period of time, let alone, permanently – with our language in this magnificent way, we are burdened with all sorts of meaningless moral precepts and concepts and self-defeating theories, all of which, inevitably, have sprung from our punitive involvement in DL. In short, we are weighed down by our heavy, rigid language, which never expresses, who we really are.

 

We talk about awareness, knowledge,

acceptance, objectivity, respect, 

insight or patience, but this is just 

talking without walking, that is, 

we don’t listen to ourselves while

 speak and we don’t chew any 

gum either. However, when we

 consider not only our own drama, 

but the whole of human history 

and conclude, everything, that 

has happened, has led to the 

chaos of today, we must admit

 that the so-called human rights, 

world peace, brotherhood, equality,  

international cooperation, freedom

 of expression or religion, have 

not resulted in us being able 

to live peacefully, in a stable 

and viable social structure.

 

Division among different groups of people is greater than ever and this is explained by the fact, that we have never spoken – neither with ourselves, nor with each other - about the huge difference between DL and EL. People who are involved in meditation or spirituality pretend, their morals are better or higher than those who focus on earthly matters. Since technology has shown us that nothing was true about all our former religions, frantic attempts are made everywhere – of course, with language – to create conformity to new forms of togetherness or so-called group-think, which can be exploited.

 

We talk about thinking, believing, remembering, awareness, silence, meditation, oneness, knowledge, understanding or consciousness, but we fail to recognize, we always refer to our language. Because we are accustomed to and conditioned by DL, without even knowing or admitting it, we say, we are convinced, that a lot of things cannot be talked about. It is also said, one cannot talk about stillness, meditation or enlightenment, yet everyone wants to talk about it.

 

Certainly, there is something wrong with making so-called agreements about how we are going to talk about things. The so-called course in EL, for which you have to pay and buy and fill out some tedious work-book, never leads to EL, but only creates the illusion of EL. EL is not a course. Your LE does not come about, because I – or anyone else, who knows about it – want to share my LE with you.  Everyone would like it to be that way, but it isn't. I know what EL is and I guarantee, you will have it, if you talk with me after reading this. Coming home to yourself never ends, as you are going to start talking with yourself, while you talk with me. I don’t teach anybody anything. I don’t meet your expectations, all of which refer to your dreadful conditioning history with DL. When we have EL with each other, we leave behind what we believed to know. In EL, we are new and still, but with our language.

 

 

 

Thuiskomen,

 

Het thuiskomen duurt maar voort. De ontspanning en rust worden alsmaar dieper en mooier. Het zijn slechts prachtige woorden en omschrijvingen, maar ze komen wel van mij. Niemand schrijft of spreekt zoals ik, omdat alleen ik dit kan en daarom ook doe.

 

Waarom zou ik me met de taal van anderen inlaten, indien ik meteen weet, dat het Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) is? De persoon die Belichaamde Taal (BT) met mij wil en kan hebben, heeft de taal, die ik blijf hebben, omdat de rest me niet meer interesseert.   

 

Uiteraard laat ik met dit schrijven, aan mijzelf en aan anderen weten, dat ik niemand ben vergeten en dat ik mij door niemand ervan laat weerhouden, om mijn eigen levenspad te blijven volgen. Indien men de moeite zou nemen, om mij te begrijpen, dan zou blijken, dat het heel bijzonder is wat ik heb ontdekt.

 

Je zou kunnen zeggen, dat ik meditatief kan spreken en dat een eventuele luisteraar meteen in meditatie kan zijn, omdat het luisteren naar mij dat mogelijk maakt. Er is volgens mij nog steeds grote verwarring over wat meditatie nou eigenlijk is. In dit schrijven, wil ik er geen enkele twijfel over laten bestaan, dat, ook al wordt er anders over gesproken, meditatie altijd het gevolg is van hoe wij met taal omgaan.

 

Die zogenaamde meditatie, die gebaseerd is op het  verwerpen van onze taal, is – net als de poging om, nadat mensen zijn gescheiden, toch weer opnieuw te trouwen – een vorm van zelf-ontkenning. Taal en meditatie zijn onvermijdelijk met elkaar verbonden. BT is dus de enige echte meditatie, omdat taal een centrale plaats inneemt. Eigenlijk is de verwijzing naar meditatie geheel overbodig, omdat wat wij meditatie noemen vanzelf-sprekend is. Vluchtige, taalloze meditatie heeft zo’n aantrekkingskracht,   omdat het oppervlakkig, speciaal en gekunsteld is.

 

Meditatieve momenten zijn daarom zo zeldzaam, omdat wij schijnbaar eventjes ophouden, om te doen, alsof het met taal niets te maken zou hebben.   Het gaat hierbij altijd om onze eigen beschrijving van een gelukzalige, alomvattende, kortstondige toestand, die voor ons kennelijk zo belangrijk is, dat we er altijd over willen blijven praten of schrijven.

 

Uiteraard wil iedereen, juist bij het hebben van een extatische, bijzondere, spirituele ervaring, een soort van bevestiging – in taal – van anderen. Ook al gaat het in de intelligentie-ontkennende, maar algemeen geaccepteerde meditatie, zogenaamd niet over onze taal, omdat het – zoals men dat, tot vervelens toe, quasi-betekenisvol, herhaaldelijk, belachelijk, blijft beweren – verder gaat dan en geheel voorbij gaat aan woorden, toch worden er weer lezingen, lessen, cursussen, satsangs of sessies gegeven, boeken en blogs geschreven en podcasts en videos gemaakt.  

 

De opvatting, dat meditatie niets van doen heeft met taal is dom en problematisch. Ook al wordt het tegenovergestelde beweert, wij kunnen niet onze taal ontlopen en zouden ons juist met taal moeten bezig houden, om tot meditatie te komen. Zoals ik al  zei, is de term meditatie overbodig, aangezien we alleen met BT kunnen doen, waartoe onze taal in staat is. In onze alledaagse OT is dit niet het geval.

 

Net als gebed, is ook het woord meditatie van OT afkomstig. Wij zijn dus zogezegd uit onze meditatie, vanwege onze mechanische, onbesuisde, negatieve, dwangmatige en energie-verslindende omgang met taal en in meditatie vanwege de voortgang met BT.

 

Omdat BT natuurlijk, moeiteloos en vanzelfsprekend is en wij nooit of te nimmer, op deze wijze, blijvend, met onze taal omgaan, zitten wij met allerlei zinloze morele begrippen en zelf- ondermijnende theorien opgezadeld, die allemaal, onvermijdelijk, uit onze OT zijn voortgekomen. Kortom, we zijn beladen met zware taal, die nooit verwezelijkt, wie we echt zijn.

 

Men heeft het over bewustzijn, kennis, acceptatie, objectiviteit, respect, inzicht of geduld, maar dit zijn slechts praatjes, die geen gaatjes vullen. Wanneer wij echter niet alleen ons eigen drama, maar de gehele geschiedenis van de mens beschouwen en concluderen, dat alles wat er is gebeurd heeft geleid tot de gigantische chaos van vandaag de dag, dan kunnen wij toch niet anders dan toegeven, dat die zogenaamde rechten van de mens, wereld-vrede, internationale samenwerking, verbroedering of de vrijheid van menings-uiting of godsdienst, niet tot gevolg hebben gehad, dat wij nu kunnen leven in een stabiele en leefbare maatschappelijke structuur.

 

De verdeeldheid in de wereld is groter dan ooit tevoren en dat is verklaarbaar uit het feit, dat wij nog nooit hebben gesproken – met onszelf en met elkaar – over het enorme verschil tussen OT en BT. Mensen, die zich met meditatie of spiritualiteit bezighouden, doen zich graag voor alsof hun moraal  beter of hoger zou zijn, dan zij, die zich meer richten op aardse zaken. Omdat de technologie inmiddels wel heeft aangetoond dat er niets waar was van alle voormalige religie, worden er overal – natuurlijk met taal – pogingen ondernomen, om conformiteit en dus nieuwe vormen van samenzijn te creeren.

 

Ook al praten wij over denken, geloven, herinnering, gewaarzijn, stilte, meditatie, eenheid, kennis, weten of bewustzijn, we hebben het – ongemerkt – altijd over onze taal. Omdat we, zonder dit te weten of toe te geven, gewend zijn aan en geconditioneerd zijn door OT, zeggen we en zijn we ervan overtuigd, dat er over een heleboel zaken niet kan worden gesproken. Men zegt dat men niet over meditatie kan praten en toch wil iedereen erover praten.

 

Uiteraard is er altijd weer iets mis met het maken van afspraken, over hoe wij over de dingen zullen gaan praten. De cursus in BT, waarvoor je moet betalen en een of ander stom-vervelend werkboek moet door-worstelen, leidt nooit tot BT, maar tot de illusie van BT. BT is geen cursus en komt niet tot stand, omdat ik of iemand anders, die ervan weet, het zo graag met anderen wil delen. Iedereen zou wel willen dat het zo is, maar zo is het niet. Ik weet wat BT is en jij kunt het alleen aan de weet komen, als je, nadat je dit hebt gelezen, met mij in gesprek gaat. Thuiskomen in jezelf houdt nooit op. Ik geef geen cursus en voldoe niet aan jou gebruikelijke verwachtingen, die allemaal revereren aan jou conditionerings-geschiedenis met OT. Als wij BT met elkaar hebben, laten wij wat wij dachten te weten achter. In BT, zijn wij helemaal nieuw, met onze taal.     

 

Fear,

 

Today, I spoke with someone at the gym. We had a nice conversation a while ago, in which I mentioned,  she could read about what we had talked about in my blog. I asked her, if she had read my writings and she said yes. I then asked, if she liked it? She said, she was reading it very slowly and carefully. That’s good, I said and asked, but how did you like it? She said, she actually felt kind of afraid, while reading it.

 

I told her, it is very common for people, to fear the possibility of talking with themselves and listening to themselves, as it means, we begin to express, listen to and act upon, our own language. Moreover, once we discover and explore Embodied Language (EL), we take charge of our lives, because we realize, that Disembodied Language (DL) or, you could say, the language of others, always worked against us.

 

Each human being experiences the inescapable fear of going their own way, as this implies: going against their own conditioning. DL is omnipresent, because fear is at the core of every conversation, in which one person tries to convince someone else of their beliefs. In EL, there is absolutely no need to convert anyone, as we can experience it, regardless of the disapproval of everyone, because, unbelievable as it sounds, everyone really engages in DL, every day.

 

It is scary, but also exciting, to admit, that during EL, you are doing something, which almost no one else is doing. As you take your first steps in EL, you know, for sure, everyone is incapable of having EL, as long as they don’t bring their attention to their language, by listening to themselves while they speak. Surely, in principle, everyone who can speak and hear, can hear themselves speak, but, our DL perpetuates our fear of being here and acknowledging what we feel.  

 

While it is true, that we all experience moments of wellbeing, peace, safety or truth, we fear continuing with the language, which is indispensable for having  more than merely an occasional, accidental episode. Due to our fear of really going our own way, we have no idea, it is because of how we deal with our language, that we keep doing many things against our will. EL shows, we are much better off without our rampant repertoire of neurotic behaviors.

 

On Fourth of July it is Independence Day, which is the anniversary of the publication of the Declaration of Independence of the United States from Great Britain in 1776. This historic document was drafted by Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin and John Adams. However, it is going to be our own ability, to overcome our fear and speak and write – like I do, on this blog – about our EL, which will determine if we are going to be independent and free. Of course, the only real freedom, is freedom from our history of conditioning with DL. Freedom is only available for those, who will go against their own fear of it.  

 

When I immigrated to the United States in 1999, I did so, willingly, voluntarily and consciously. It is pure coincidence, that I was born and raised in the Netherlands, but it was my choice, to become a US citizen. I feel fortunate and grateful, I was able to make this decision. I have aligned myself with the Three Inalienable Rights of every American: Life, Liberty and The Pursuit of Happiness. Although I am well-aware, such a phrase is only paid lip-service to by most people, but for me, the right to Life, means to take full ownership of my own life and to be truly an individual. My Life depends on my behavior, not on the requirements of bureaucracy or the actions of legislators or jurists. My understanding of Liberty is not some self-centered, superficial, superstitious, angry notion of doing whatever the hell I want to, but my ability, intelligence and freedom to express my Language Enlightenment (LE) with my EL. Also, my Pursuit of Happiness, is my knowledge and skill to live a meaningful life. To be able to live a life of satisfaction, I have always faced and I will continue to face my own fears. My life is worth living, as I am proud of all the consequences of my behavior.

 

When I came to the US, I wrote this poem:

 

Now that I’m here

I know that for year after year

I’ve been avoiding my fear

 

Now that I see

What is inside of me

I let it come out and be free

 

Now that I know

My struggle was just a big show

I finally let it all go

 

Now that I feel

It is not a very big deal

I calmly step out of the wheel

 

Anger,

 

Can someone, like me, who has achieved – yes, I have achieved it – my Language Enlightenment (LE), still be angry? Sure enough, I am a human being and nothing human is alien to me. However, I consider it total nonsense, to believe, that every human being is sacred. Although I was conditioned in this way, I don’t see it as my duty, to treat everyone with love,  compassion, respect and dignity. I don’t make any assumptions about the supposed uniqueness and beauty of each human being, as I refuse to honor anything I can’t hear, see or experience. False hope is like a bad joke and I don’t give anyone any hope. I don’t need to remind myself of who I am and I am not responsible for reminding others either.  

 

The justified, intelligent, beneficial, enjoyable anger of someone like me – who is able to express his true nature with Embodied Language (EL) – is different from the destructive anger of people, who engage in Disembodied Language (DL) every day. It is common for people to have negative anger, which isn’t real anger. Real anger is positive, as it dispels ignorance, but the phony, scripted, acted anger of everyone, who, unknowingly, is stuck with their DL,  perpetuates their pathetic lack of self-knowledge. Of course, our real anger is a necessary force, to protect who we are and to stand our own ground.

 

My entire life, I have been misjudged, because of my anger – which, as I know, right now – always had to do with the irrefutable fact, that I wanted EL, but wasn’t capable of expressing myself clearly about it yet. Thus, unknowingly, I expressed my EL as DL, but, since I’ve achieved my LE, I started to speak and write about my DL with EL, which is the right way.

 

Appallingly, everyone is only capable of expressing fake emotions. Not only our anger is contaminated by many judgements and superstitions, but also our love is utterly superficial and our laughter is stupid. Furthermore, our so-called sincerity is always a form of holier-than-thou and our despised sadness is only a sentimental victimhood. Obviously, there is such a thing as real sadness, real honesty, real love and real laughter, but our coercive, mechanical, habitual DL doesn’t tolerate any real emotions. Thus, I’ve always been angry, that my real emotions were rejected and even considered crazy. However, it is the other way around: the fact, that people cannot deal with their emotions, drives them mad. It is funny, that madness, in this respect, is expressed as anger.

 

No one in the academic world of psychology and education – of which I have been a part for so many years – talks about the anger, which is at the core of the lack of learning and, therefore, the cause of our  so-called mental health problems. While everyone is – like I was – basically incapable of verbalizing their true feelings, these feelings are still there, but they are either expressed wrongly, complicating things even further or they are in all sorts of ways ignored or avoided. It is disgusting what people do and force others to do, to stick their head in the sand and to remain at all cost oblivious about their real feelings. Willful forgetfulness is everywhere. Since we don’t know about the difference between DL and EL, we engage in DL, as we simply don’t know any better.

 

While it appears as if our anger, generally speaking, is always directed at others, once we discover and explore our EL, we cannot deny, our anger is always directed to ourselves. Only when we get clear about our anger, can we stop all sorts of energy-draining neurotic behavior, which reflects our inability to be ourselves. Ultimately, everyone is very angry, that they do not even know how to be themselves and that in spite of all their efforts, nothing really works.  

 

There will be no remorse or shame about our anger anymore, when we feel, we are liberated from our failed attempts of dealing with and expressing our emotions. To the contrary, instead of regret, we feel confidence and pride, instead of destroying things, we have skillfully created, instead of fighting, we’ve done the right thing, which works and focuses our attention on doing whatever brings us good results.

 

I don’t need or want to change my behavior, as the outcomes are exactly what I want them to be, but you – who unconsciously engage in DL – constantly experience unintended consequences. You may be frustrated, you complain, worry and stress, but it is to no avail. Your conflicts can never subside, as long as you don’t turn to how you use your language. It is so dumb, you don’t listen to yourself, but you’ll do just about anything, to get others to listen to you.

 

People rather kill each other, than talk out loud with themselves and listen to themselves. They endlessly force their beliefs on others, but they can’t do this to themselves and their vicious rage, is about their own gloomy sense of failure. While they can’t talk about it with themselves, they either throw their shit on others or they let others tell them how to supposedly deal with it. Nobody is interested in hearing from me, because I am free from this blind anger, because I listen to my own feelings, which are always true. I don’t waste any time anymore with DL, as my wonderful anger allows me to cut through all the crap with great certainty and precision. My anger is funny too, because I really am always right.          

 

Back,  

 

In your usual way of dealing language, which I call Disembodied Language (DL), you are always holding back. You could say, write, express, address, become conscious about, understand and enjoy, much more of your own verbal behavior, than you currently do, if you stopped yourself from stopping yourself and if you gave yourself total permission, to say and write, what you want to say and write and are capable of saying or writing. If you did that, you would change your negative attitude about your own language and discover your own Embodied Language (EL). And, in effect, you would start using your own intelligence.  

 

Since you mechanically, unconsciously and stupidly engage in DL, every day, your language isn’t working for you, but against you. You can’t hear, what you haven’t said, because you don’t even know, that you don’t even like to listen to the sound of your own voice and, therefore, you never listen to your body or your own experience. Consequently, you can’t read, in your own words, about the results of your  actions, because they were so terrible, you were not inclined to write about them. The real meaning of having faith, is to have faith in your own language.

 

If you happen to read my words, which were written for myself, you feel, you get back something, which was missing in your life: attention for your language. The power of having and sharing your own language (EL), is awesome. I just heard, that Obama receives $400,000 for a speech, but neither he nor any other famous person has EL. He is paid this much, as what he says is assumed to be important, but what I say in this writing is of greater importance. It’s priceless.

 

It is so wonderful, to be who I am. I am enlightened. I like to say it and write it, because I love to hear myself and read about my Language Enlightenment (LE). If you find your way to my words, you will read about and feel your own LE too, because what I write and speak about, is for everyone. Our EL reveals our LE, which is our true nature. This is as true for me as it is for you. Of course, like you, I have also endlessly struggled, because my DL couldn’t express who I am or let me be who I am. My body dysphoria didn’t result in the absurd conclusion, I am a woman in a man’s body, but in the abnegation of my DL. In my DL, I tried to be how others wanted me to be, but it didn’t work. However, although I have often made the mistake to believe otherwise, my EL is not how I want to be with my language.

 

There is no me, who wants to or claims to have EL, as in EL, there is nobody who has it. Moreover, I also don’t want others, you, to have EL, because there is nobody to have EL with. In EL, we dissolve, that’s it. Your LE is expressed by your EL and all your drama ends. This is the most precious gift of my EL: I don’t want to have EL with anyone, who doesn’t want it. What a relief. My false sense of identity, of who I believed myself to be, was about being heard, being listened to, being respected, being welcomed, being celebrated, but now all that has dropped away and I can’t even imagine anymore, I wanted that for such a long time. Right now, I go with the flow and there is, of course, no I, who goes with the flow, because there’s just only the flow of this lovely language, which expresses itself so naturally and effortlessly.

 

Every time my language stops, there is space for new things to be said or written. I like those pauses, which announce a new revelation. Not everything I say or write is equally significant, but I couldn’t say or write what is significant, if I didn’t say or write what is unimportant. It is just as important to me, to say or write what is unimportant, as to say or write what is important. In DL, we slam each other with what is supposedly important, but we forget to pay attention to what is unimportant. What is important in DL, is blissfully unimportant in EL. Only someone like me – who has EL, who pays attention to what is important and what is unimportant – can write or say something, like this, which is truly important.               

 

How,

 

How is it possible, that I, my loving wife Bonnie and my dear Dutch friend AnnaMieke, are the only three individuals in the world, who recognize the beauty of having Embodied Language (EL)? It is because we know the great difference between dealing with our language, according to our conditioning history and using our own language to be free. Perhaps, I should say, we know the great secret, as nobody has a clue, it is, not the freedom of speech, which matters, but our own speech about our own freedom. Freedom isn’t some hypothetical concept, you either have it or you don’t. You can’t be free with Disembodied Language (DL). To be free, you must move beyond your conditioning history, which is always based on the language of others and, acknowledge, you have your own language, even if others, apparently, don’t want to know about it. Everyone, who mechanically,  unconsciously, unintelligently and cowardly engages in DL, still has the chance, to turn their life around.

 

How are you going to learn about your own EL? The only know-how you need, is in my writing. All you need to do, is speak out loud, alone, with yourself and listen to the sound of your voice. When you read and understand my blog, you are going to try it out and experiment with it. You can hear it in your own voice, if you have DL or EL. How can you keep denying, you keep having DL? This is our common way of dealing with our language. Everyone does it, as we were all conditioned to do this. We became literate due to others, but how we use language, depends on how we explain, to ourselves, our own experience of the consequences of our language.

 

How much longer can you afford to waste your time and energy on superficial crap? Your life, right now, is such a mess, because your own language doesn’t get any of your attention. It isn’t true, you suppress EL, as you don’t even know how to have it. If you knew how to have EL, you would already have it, because it gives you better outcomes than your usual DL. How can you accept that your life is a constant struggle? How can you expect happiness, health and satisfaction, if your language is always about conflict, negativity and stress? You are as confused and distracted as you are, because you religiously believe, that the psychological prison of your DL is your only choice. Basically, your way of dealing with language determines, you are not free.

 

So, you might ask yourself: how are you doing? I am not asking you to do this. You are asking yourself. Of course, you are going to say, I’m fine, everything is fine, but you are not fine, nothing is fine in your life and nothing can ever be fine with your stupid DL. If you say this to yourself, you hear your own dreadful sound of it. If you are really so fine, why don’t you sound fine? You don’t sound fine at all, admit it. You sound anxious, annoyed or depressed. You don’t like hearing yourself. How is it possible, that listening to yourself overwhelms you with self-loathing? Why are you so incredibly disgusted with and so viciously judgmental about yourself? If you start to talk with yourself, out loud, alone, about how you really feel about yourself, you can’t help, but recognize the nasty consequences of your daily involvement in DL.  

 

How do you sound, when you have what you want or when you are totally at ease? Why doesn’t it last? Although you believe, you are trying to get what you want, you never seem to really have it. You just keep running for something else. You never achieve a real sense of satisfaction. What you want is taken away from you. May be, briefly, you have it and then, it is gone again and you keep chasing the dragon. Yes, you are addicted to the drama and turmoil of your DL and unless you view your repeated participation in DL, as having a so-called high, you aren’t going to kick the habit. DL is about hype and you are a slave to it. You can’t turn off any of your many bad habits, because your sneaky DL causes and maintains them.

 

How can you have a loving, honest relationship, if your common way of talking disconnects you from your own experience? This is what happens in DL. Also, you falsely believe, you have thoughts in your head. You erroneously believe, you can have inner  conversations with yourself, in your so-called mind, while in reality, you never really talk with yourself, as you are only having some fantasy about what it is like to be yourself and to be free. All your so-called ideas about yourself aren’t true, as they reflect your almost permanent involvement in DL. When you, by chance, engage in a brief moment of EL, you don’t have any ideas about yourself, as your language just flows naturally. The newness, effortlessness and simplicity of your kind, meaningful, caring EL, stands in such a stark contrast to the rehearsed, boring, bombastic, self-defeating, grandiose bullshit, you force on yourself and others with your rigid DL.

 

How can our sense of wonder, innocence, creativity, wellbeing, spontaneity, aliveness and humanity, be restored in our lives, if our insensitive, habitual language makes it seem as if it isn’t important? Many people, these days, make a big deal about how they like others to talk with them. However, they fail to pay attention, to how they talk with themselves or rather, how they don’t talk with themselves, as they engage, like everyone else – albeit in the name of equity, diversity and inclusion – in DL. How we talk with and, therefore, deal with others, is only going to change, if we finally begin to talk with ourselves. The quintessential issue of our time is not how we communicate with each other – as that has been proven to be an utterly unproductive topic – but whether we will at long last talk with ourselves, because we truly find that talking with ourselves, is more important than talking with others. When we talk with ourselves, it doesn’t matter how we talk with ourselves, as we will find our own language.        

 

During EL, everything you say or write has meaning. It is like that and it can be like that, as there is no you, inside of you, who does what you do, who experiences what you do. In other words, there is just your language, which is your verbal behavior. The fact that you enjoy EL so much, is because there is no you, who enjoys anything, but there is only the experience of joy. The issue of identity is completely transformed in EL in which you are, so to speak, one with your own behavior. As stated, there absolutely is no one, to be one with one’s own behavior. This formulation of our Language Enlightenment (LE) is unavoidable. The bottom-line is: in DL, we suffer so much, because we use our language incorrectly.                 

 

 

Celebrate,

 

People have had all kinds of celebrations, but they have never celebrated their joy, at hearing their own sound, while they speak. Listening to your voice, while you speak, about anything you want to address, is very revealing. You will have a big sigh of relief, because it is instantly clear to you, that in your usual, habitual, mechanical way of talking, you don’t listen to yourself. So, when you listen to your voice, while you speak – with yourself – you realize and become aware, you had lost yourself, while you were speaking with others and that is why it was so  troublesome, tiring and upsetting. When you finally hear yourself again, you have returned to who you really are, as you can say what you want to say.

 

When you take time, to be alone and talk out loud with yourself, about stuff you couldn’t talk about with others – because you weren’t aware about it yourself, until you started to speak with yourself – your celebration begins, when you hear a peculiar change, in the sound of your voice. At that moment, you know, you are listening to yourself, because you produce no longer the sound of frustration, anxiety, stress, fear or distraction. In other words, you can hear and feel, your Disembodied Language (DL) has stopped and you greatly enjoy hearing the sound of your own Embodied Language (EL). You celebrate who you are, by continuing your EL, but you forget who you are, each time you engage again in DL.

 

When you keep speaking with yourself and listening to the sound of your natural voice, while you speak, you effortlessly continue with your EL, as you give yourself permission, to celebrate your own truth. It is remarkable, what you are able to say to yourself with the sound of your wellbeing. You are surprised  it is so easy, so meaningful, but also, so sad, as you know very well, you haven’t attended to your own EL. Initially, when you stop your DL and discover you are able to continue with EL, you can’t help feeling an enormous sense of loss, as you, inevitably, have to admit how much you short-changed yourself.

 

I cried and cried, each time I caught myself having DL again, as I felt so blessed, to have found a way to return again to my EL, by simply listening to myself while I speak. I am convinced, in principle, we all want to have EL instead of DL, but we don’t want to acknowledge and mourn the tremendous loss of having wasted so much time and energy with our own senseless DL. And, of course, it is even more deeply troubling to recognize, that all of mankind is hopelessly, unconsciously, stuck with DL. You are bound to feel alone, as nobody is interested in EL.

 

To celebrate our EL, our tears must flow, as human beings have been at war with each other and with themselves since the beginning of time. However, we are not crying any sentimental tears, as we are no longer experiencing the struggle and the conflict, which is our usual way of dealing with our language. We celebrate our aloneness and our tears, are tears of thankfulness, because in EL, we can be alone with ourselves and whole again. There’s no holding back on the great joy and self-knowledge of our own EL. Likewise, there’s a tremendous process of relief and unburdening, due to our permanent departure from DL. During DL, we, as speakers, always struggle to get the listener’s attention. In DL, our voice sounds demanding, that is, like children, we cry and throw temper-tantrums. However, in EL, we have stopped crying for or about others, as others, unconsciously, engage in DL and don’t recognize the importance of EL. Thus, in EL, we talk with and cry for ourselves, as we celebrate this opportunity to liberate ourselves.

 

To celebrate derives from Latin, celebrationem, numerous attendance, especially upon a festival celebration; celebratus: kept solemn, performance of a religious ceremony, repeated; celebrare means: assemble to honor, to sing praises of, to practice often; celeber means: to frequent in great numbers. Thus, to celebrate, is to commemorate or honor with demonstrations of joy. What a wonderful word. We celebrate our EL, which, of course, didn’t come out of the blue, because it is the verbal expression of who we are, when we are without any struggle. It is only when we celebrate everything our EL brings to our attention – and, by verbally giving attention to whatever asks our attention – we realize, it is of course, our true nature or Language Enlightenment (LE), which makes us want to have EL instead of DL.

 

While it is delightful, interesting and energizing, to engage in ongoing EL, it is, due to our long, dreadful history of conditioning with DL, that the enormous potential of our EL remains hidden. Obviously, with DL, sorrow is closer to our everyday experience than bliss. Religious texts have often addressed this issue, but it never resulted into the conceptualization of DL and EL, let alone, in LE. In spite of our so-called spirituality, our DL has continued unabated. Surely, if we are going to accept our LE, because our ongoing EL instructs and convinces us to do so, our EL is going to forever replace our misguided, superstitious, unintelligent infatuation with some sort of higher power, which, of course, was always the projection of our own need to have real communication or EL. Only in EL can we and do we celebrate our own language. Hilariously, we have to accept, we can only cry and laugh our way into it.