Two,

 

Two enlightened people were talking about how much enlightenment has changed for them, since they first came to know about it, because of their discovery and exploration of Embodied Language (EL). One of them – you could say – was more of a rational, masculine type and the other was more of a feminine, poetic type. Actually, the former was a man, whose Language Enlightenment (LE) had made him capable of talking freely about, how great it actually is, to be in touch with his feelings and the latter was a woman, whose LE made her recognize, her verbalizations mattered more and more to her, now that her EL was about her LE. In effect, emotion as well as reason created a dynamic conversation, with a lot of laughter. This is what they said.

 

How have you been doing? I’m not doing anything, life just happens by itself. Where is everybody? They don’t want to be here. They don’t want to be with a nobody. With two nobody’s. It’s too much for them, too overwhelming for their egos. I guess, their Disembodied Language (DL) is more important to them? Yeah, they want to be somebody and they can’t stand being a nobody. It isn’t my problem. It isn’t my problem either. They don’t know, but it is their problem. It is, but, since only we know, that it is their problem, it tends to become our problem. No way. Let them have it. It’s good for them.

 

I suck at problems. Me too, I keep forgetting what the problem was about. It used to be DL. Seems like such a long time ago. It used to piss me off. Actually you were funny, when you are angry. Thank you for reminding me, I always loved my anger. Yes, and I loved my sob-story better than others. You have no problem with it. No, but others do. Knowing what we know is a problem for others, but not for us.

 

I used to feel so bad, that others considered me to be the problem, but now I enjoy being a problem for them. So nice to leave the problem unresolved. Yes, ignoring it really works for me. Talking about problems never solved anything. Well, in our case, we got somewhere, as EL made us realize, we didn’t get anything out of DL. Amazing how our failure has  become our success. Nobody wants to hear that, but it is true. Everybody gets it upside down and inside out. Funny, how things are not what people believe them to be. Yes, people believe, if they try harder, things will improve, but they only get worse. Ain’t that the truth. Hallelujah, I gave up trying.

 

We agree, but nobody agrees with us, because they don’t notice, they aren’t objective. They are biased because they believe to be somebody. Only nobody can be impartial. Correct, to be scientific, you must leave your subjective shit out of it. Yes, don’t be such a hot-shot, to know, you have to be humble and admit, sometimes, you just stumble or mumble. Love it, when you do that, you are at your best. Always so great to see you and hear you. Same here, finally someone who gets it. Self-knowledge isn’t about listening to us, but to yourself. Such a taboo, because if you do, you will disappear. That’s what happens. Nothing can stop that. Not even the false belief of who people believe to be. It is such a tragedy. Yes, there’s no joy in that, no melody.

 

They always change the subject. That is what they do, these subjectivity-admirers. They suck all the energy out of the room and they have bad breath. It is so suffocating, to talk with any of them. They are all the same. Yes, they all want attention and when they get it, they don’t know what to do with it. Yes, they don’t want to talk about themselves. It would show how impossible it is, to keep their pretentious act together. We don’t have that problem. No, we don’t. Our act is a hard act to follow, as we can’t be followed, because we aren’t acting. And they are caught in the act of trying to be someone they are not. Regardless who they try to be, they are not it.

 

It is so reasonable to be a nobody. Yes, it doesn’t depend on me or you, that one and one is two. We only agree if, we are one, by being nobody. Nobody  seems to have any problem with being a nobody in their sleep. We can also be nobody while awake and while we talk, otherwise we cannot live without any problems. Yes, being somebody or being supposedly awake, you have nothing but problems. We need to go asleep while we speak. It’s such a big drag to be somebody. These drama queens always turn out to be emperors without clothes. Innocence is known only by someone, who is mature and balanced.

 

Was there anything else? Yes, nothingness is the ultimate source of knowledge and people keep believing, they can acquire it by studying, praying or meditating. It has nothing to do with that, we know because we talk out loud with ourselves. Yes, no one home, when you’re alone. That’s what coming home is all about and having the whole house to yourself. Let your language do some spring cleaning.         

 

Return,

 

Only when you return to your language, will you be able to be yourself, to be who you are and, yes, to be free. However, you can’t return to yourself, as long as you still, unknowingly, continue with your  Disembodied Language (DL). You would only be able to return to your authentic self and to a meaningful,  satisfying, worthwhile life with your language, if you had ongoing Embodied Language (EL). This is the reason why, millions of people – and, probably, you are one of them – engage, unconsciously, in DL and  live meaninglessness, inauthentic, conflicted lives. It never occurs to them, everything depends on how they use language and, thus, they are stuck with their language or, as they usually say, in their mind.

 

There is nothing to return to with EL. Once you have EL, you have returned, you have come back to your senses, to who you have always been, but who you have never expressed accurately with language. You know it, because everything you do, has positive consequences. You don’t need to change and you simply continue with what you are doing with EL, because life just keeps on getting better and better. Moreover, with ongoing EL, you know for sure that you express your Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

You could use many different names for it, but for clarity’s sake, I stick with DL, EL and LE. Of course, it is totally up to you, to call DL, EL or LE anything you want to, but you will find, when certain words are used, DL is triggered and when these words aren’t used, your EL continues beautifully and coherently. Perhaps, you feel more inclined to call your dull DL Doom Language, Disgusting Language, Disruptive Language, Dismissive Language or Dissociative Language? The abbreviation DL would still work.

 

I encourage you to find your own words, to describe  the empowering effects of EL. May be, you call it Effective Language, Expressive Language, Effortless Language, Energizing Language, Engagement Language or Enthusiastic Language? Surely, the abbreviation would still work. It doesn’t matter how you describe it. Language plays a key role in your life, but you have never really paid any attention to it, because your language simply wouldn’t let you.

 

All kinds of idiots are paid big dollars for pretending to have EL. As far as I am concerned, only the best liars get the attention and dominate the so-called conversation or narrative. I have no interest in this competition for the attention of others. I don’t even want your attention, which is inextricably related to your DL and, therefore, the wrong kind of attention. If you don’t care about my views about language, I am glad not to meet you and your absence is much appreciated. For a long time, I felt bad about why people were always rejecting, avoiding and ignoring me, but nowadays, I feel so fortunate and grateful, I have left behind the DL, everyone is involved in.

 

You don’t even realize – whenever you are on your phone, when you watch TV, when you are on social media, when you read a book or a newspaper, when you see a movie, when you listen to a professor in college or university, when you vote for a politician, when you acquire information from some expert or authority – you are 99.99% of the time, listening to  or reading about someone’s DL. Most likely, you’ve never even heard anyone with ongoing EL, because those who, occasionally, as we say, strike a chord with us, don’t do anything else besides that, since they don’t know how to accomplish more than that.

 

Except me, nobody speaks clearly – with EL – about the DL-factor of the Bud-Light fiasco. Nobody is able to even acknowledge, it is becoming increasingly more difficult for companies to sell their products, because – regardless of how much we endlessly continue to pretend to have EL – we are all stuck with DL and experience the consequences of that. Unlike what hordes of people, to their own great detriment, believe – because they were taught this stupid nonsense in their colleges and universities –  genuine interaction is not about selling a message.

 

Since I am the only one, who knows about and who is able to have ongoing EL, I am absolutely unique, as with me, anyone can experience what I’m talking about. Anyone who talks with me, will find, they can have – without any exercise – ongoing EL as well. Talking with me will show you, that everything I say is true. You will feel that you have always wanted to have EL and this is really what is happening. People have no idea, they experience a great yearning for real communication. This isn’t some superficial itch which can be scratched. During DL, our longing for genuine interaction is dismissed, as if something is wrong with you, but when you talk with me – or with anyone who has ongoing EL – you conclude,  something was right about you all along, that you wanted another way of dealing with language than DL. You may not have understood, but the conflict you experience, isn’t caused by DL, but by the fact that you already sense, there is something better.

 

Unknowingly, you are constantly questioning your DL, but you can never get to your EL, as long as you don’t talk out loud alone and listen to the sound of your voice while you speak. Once you have EL with me, you’ll be able to comprehend, why you were always restless, dissatisfied, distracted, reactive and full of doubt. When you talk with me, you will know, why talking with yourself is much more important than talking with others, who, as I was saying, for the most part, have DL. By talking with yourself, you get a sense of what EL is and you’ll be very sure, you can have only it with someone else, who also values talking with him or herself more than talking with others. When we will be talking together, we will be talking with ourselves and sharing our LE, because we will have finally returned to our wellbeing.

 

 

WisWord,

 

Actually, I have nothing to say. Of course, I could always come up with something, but there is, at this moment, nothing I urgently wish to express. I have already done that. I have spoken with great passion,  great tension, great determination, great ambition, great despair, but also with great success. However, I am happy to realize, I’m not doing that anymore.

 

I don’t even like being the center of attention of an audience, because, generally speaking, people are  insensitive and disrespectful to me and incapable of knowing who I am. It is a fact of my life, I’ve come to terms with. People aren’t interested, in what I can  verbalize about my Embodied Language (EL). I have lost any hope, that this will ever change. It gives me peace, not to want to have EL with others anymore.

 

Don’t get me wrong, I would love to have EL with you, but I don’t want to put any effort in anyone anymore. Yes, I can say this, because I have been there and done that and now, I’m done with that. I am so glad, all my involvement with others is behind me, as it never did me any good. It makes me happy, to be in charge of my own language, to create my own reality and to be satisfied, to live my life as I do.

 

Each day, each moment, my life is getting better and better, as words matter less and less to me. I like my re-wording of what I previously called Disembodied Language (DL), with NoWord and EL, with NeWord. I also want to re-word this fuddy-duddy old word Language Enlightenment (LE). From now on, I will call LE, WisWord, because our NeWord allows us to speak our own words of wisdom. Isn’t it interesting, that except for some very honest, open, courageous and humoristic people, nobody who wants to have anything to do with someone like me, whose NeWord unrepentantly celebrates his WisWord? 

 

It is absurd, hilarious and egregious, that everyone, is, obviously, unconscious about what is right and good and, therefore, insisting on NoWord. Surely, we keep saying nothing, while pretending to be saying something. Only someone like me, can put his finger on the dreadful, unresolved, ancient Babylonian speech confusion, which is likely to bring on another nuclear war. I have no happy tidings for  stupid, fanatic, arrogant NoWord-believers. They are doomed and there can be no salvation for them, other than remorseless conversion into NeWord.

 

The beauty about what we commonly describe as our real selves, our true nature or what I now call, our WisWord, is that the dreadful burden of our history of conditioning will melt like snow in the sun. Yes, our NeWord flows like a clear mountain stream and its freshness is invigorating. Indeed, our WisWords are always spoken and written with majestic greatness, loving truthfulness and natural splendor.

 

As a kid, I used to love flying kites. We would spend hours, making and flying our kites. Mine was always blue, as the sky.  Also, I loved these little wooden model airplanes, which are thrown up in the air and glide down so gracefully. Today, I was reminded of this, as I saw three eagles circling in the clouded sky. I was such a marvelous sight. It’s such a joy, to see them fly so effortlessly. I was once again watching my old kites and planes, but without all the hassle. Tragedy happened. My line broke or got knotted up. My kite landed in a tree or on a house and my plane flew behind a high barbed wire fence or it broke apart.

 

My NeWord honors these awesome eagles and my WisWord shares with them the open space, which is our reality. NeWord is not some poetic, idealistic, spiritual pipe-dream, but something, which can only be appreciated, by being true to ourselves and by acknowledging, our WisWords have always been waiting for us, to be spoken, to be written, to be heard and to be read. If you read these words out loud, you will know, you speak and hear NeWord and be aware, you can write your WisWords too. This is not like writing in a journal, because all your attention is going to your language, rather than to your dreadful experiences, which distract you from your language, into inevitable NoWord victim-hood. 

 

With NoWord you, mechanically, verbally, go one and on, about everything, but you never embody your own language. The only way for you to do that, would be, paradoxically, to be as angry, as confused, as frustrated, as lost, as depressed, as sick, as stuck, as violent, as vulgar, as unnatural as you really are. It is painful, your NoWord leaves you no other option, than to suffer and create more suffering, until you literally say and finally can hear: enough is enough. Unless you hear yourself say it, your NoWord does not stop. Such is the inescapable reality of how your language determines everything else in your life. I didn’t make this up, yet, I started out by saying, that I had nothing to say and then I said all of this, as my NeWord always reveal my WisWord. 

 

WijsTaal,

 

Eigenlijk heb ik niets te zeggen. Ik kan natuurlijk altijd wel wat woorden produceren, maar er is op dit moment niets dat ik dringend wil uiten. Dat heb ik al gedaan. Ik heb gesproken met grote passie, met grote spanning, met grote vastberadenheid, met grote ambitie, met grote wanhoop, maar ook met grote vreugde en groot succes. Ik ben blij om nu te beseffen, dat ik dat niet meer doe of hoef te doen.

 

Ik hou er niet eens van om in het middelpunt van de publieke belangstelling te staan, omdat mensen over het algemeen ongevoelig en respectloos naar  mij zijn en niet in staat zijn, om te weten wie ik ben. Het is een feit in mijn leven, waar ik eindelijk mee in het reine ben gekomen. Mensen zijn eenvoudigweg niet geïnteresseerd in wat ik kan verwoorden over mijn Belichaamde Taal (BT). Ik heb echt alle hoop opgegeven, dat dit ooit nog zal veranderen. Het geeft me rust, om geen BT meer met anderen te willen.

 

Begrijp me niet verkeerd, ik zou heel graag BT met je willen hebben, maar ik wil voor niemand meer moeite doen. Ja, ik kan dit zeggen, want ik heb dat natuurlijk wel eerst gedaan, ik weet maar al te goed hoe dat is en ik wil dat niet meer. Ik ben zo blij, dat nu mijn betrokkenheid bij anderen achter me ligt, want het heeft me nooit goed gedaan. Het maakt me gelukkig, om de baas te zijn over mijn eigen taal, om mijn eigen realiteit te creëren en om tevreden te zijn, om te leven, zoals ik dat doe, vanuit mijn BT.

 

Iedere dag, elk moment, wordt mijn leven 

beter,  omdat woorden steeds minder 

belangrijk voor me zijn. Ik hou van

 mijn nieuwe formulering van wat

 ik eerder Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) noemde. 

OT werd NooiTaal en EL werd NuTaal. 

Ik wil ook dat ouwe afgezaagde woord

 Taal Verlichting (TV) vervangen met

 WijsTaal, omdat het ons woorden van

 wijsheid doet spreken. Is het niet 

interessant, dat behalve een paar 

oprechte, open, moedige en 

humoristische mensen er helemaal 

niemand is, die iets te maken wil 

hebben met iemand zoals ik, wiens 

NuTaal zo jubelent en onverschrokken

zijn WijsTaal viert?

 

Het is absurd, hilarisch en flagrant, dat iedereen zich onbewust is, van wat juist en goed is en daarom maar blijft aandringen op het hebben van NooiTaal.  Natuurlijk zeggen we allemaal eigenlijk helemaal niets, zo lang we maar blijven doen alsof we iets zeggen. Alleen iemand zoals ik kan zijn vinger op de zere wond leggen en precies aangeven waar het in de zogenaamde Babylonische spraak-verwarring om gaat. Ik heb geen blijde tijding voor domme, fanatieke, arrogante NooiTaal-aanhangers. Ze richten zichzelf ten gronde, want er is voor hen geen enkele andere redding mogelijk, dan de meedogenloze, onvermijdelijke, noodzakelijke bekering tot NuTaal.

 

Het mooie van wat gewoonlijk wordt omschreven als ons unieke zelf, onze ware aard of wat ik nu mijn  WijsTaal noem, is dat de vreselijke last van onze tragische conditionering’s geschiedenis smelt als sneeuw voor de zon. Ja, onze NuTaal stroomt als een heldere sprankelende beek en de frisheid is heerlijk verkwikkend. WijsTaal wordt altijd gesproken en geschreven met majestueuze grootsheid, liefdevolle waarachtigheid en moeiteloze aandacht.

 

Als kind was ik dol op vliegeren. We besteedden vele uren met het maken van onze vliegers en met het oplaten en in de lucht houden van onze vliegers. De mijne was altijd blauw, net als de lucht. Ik hield ook van deze kleine houten modelvliegtuigjes, die in de lucht worden gegooid en zo gracieus neerdalen.  Vandaag werd ik hieraan herinnerd, toen ik drie adelaars zag cirkelen, in de gedeeltelijk bewolkte lucht. Ik was zo’n geweldig gezicht, om die vogels door de lucht te zien glijden. Ik zat ineens weer naar mijn oude vliegers en vliegtuigjes te kijken, maar dan zonder de romp-slomp. Er was een tragedie gebeurd. Mijn lijn was gebroken of helemaal in de knoop geraakt. Mijn vlieger was ver weg gewaaid en in een boom beland of op het dak van een huis en mijn vliegtuigje vloog achter een onneembaar hoog hek met prikkeldraad of het brak aan stukken.

 

Mijn NuTaal eert deze ontzagwekkende adelaars en  mijn WijsWoord deelt met hen de open ruimte, die onze realiteit is. Onze NuTaal is niet een oud-bollige, poëtische, idealistische, spirituele illusie, maar iets dat alleen door ons kan worden gewaardeerd, door trouw te blijven aan onszelf en door te erkennen, dat ons WijsWoord altijd heeft gewacht, om door ons te worden uitgesproken, neergeschreven, om te worden gehoord, begrepen en gelezen. En, als je deze woorden hardop aan jezelf voorleest, dan weet je, dan voel je, dan spreek je en dan hoor je jou NuTaal en dan besef je, dat ook jij heel wat WijsTaal te schrijven hebt. Dit is niet zoals het mijmerend schrijven in een dagboek, want al je aandacht gaat nu naar je eigen taal, in plaats van naar je negatieve ervaringen, die je afleiden van je NuTaal, naar het alomtegenwoordige NooiTaal-slachtofferschap.

 

Met NooiTaal ga je, onwillekeurig, maar door, om verbaal over van alles en nog wat te emmeren, maar je belichaamt nooit je eigen taal. De enige manier om dat echt te doen, is, paradoxaal genoeg, door net zo boos, net zo verward, net zo gefrustreerd, net zo verloren, net zo depressief, net zo ziek, net zo vastgelopen, net zo gewelddadig, net zo vulgair en net zo onnatuurlijk te zijn als dat je werkelijk bent. Het is pijnlijk, maar je NooiTaal laat je geen andere keuze, dan te lijden en nog meer lijden te creëren, totdat je eindelijk letterlijk zegt en dus kunt horen: genoeg is genoeg. Tenzij je het jezelf hoort zeggen, stopt je NooiTaal nooit. Dat is de onontkoombare realiteit, van hoe jou taal al het andere in je leven blijft bepalen. Ik heb dit niet verzonnen. Ik begon met zeggen, dat ik niets te zeggen had en toen zei ik dit, omdat mijn NuTaal altijd mijn WijsTaal onthuld.

 

 

Read,

 

Everyone, who reads my blog, should understand, there is no need at all to respond to my writing. From the looks of it, most people get it. If you get what I’m talking about, you’ll be exploring your own Embodied Language (EL) and when you would be doing that, you might as well talk with me and get a sense of how truly delightful and fascinating it is, to engage in ongoing EL with someone, who is capable.

 

As you give yourself the opportunity, to express and  to respond to your own EL, you’ll be amazed by the irrefutable, astonishing fact, that nobody is having it, therefore, you will be one of the pioneers, in this new phase of human interaction. EL has been a long time coming. Our Disembodied Language (DL) has no future and the sooner we realize this, the better.

 

Surely, we are talking here about deconditioning and reconditioning, where deconditioning equals becoming aware about the difference between DL and EL, which sets the stage for the reversal of our previous conditioned behavior (DL) and where reconditioning means, to restore back to a good condition, where our language becomes once again grounded in positive rather than negative emotions.

 

When the switch from DL to EL happens, you know it happens. If you don’t, it didn’t happen. Moreover,  in EL everything (deconditioning and reconditioning) happens at once, you’ll be surprised. The moment  DL has stopped, EL begins and there is no doubt about how good this feels, because your EL is the expression of your Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

I discovered my EL and LE many years ago, after I found a gong in a box. I struck it with a small stick with a ball on it and when I heard that resonant sound, I said softly to myself: that sounds good. This was the first time, I accidentally, was listening to myself, while I was speaking. I suddenly heard my voice sounding like that gong and felt, I had always wanted to speak with that sound. So I did and have been doing, ever since my early twenties. My life radically changed, as I began to withdraw from DL.  

 

At this point in my life, I only want to speak with those, who immediately can have EL with me, as I have no interest anymore in teaching anyone about it. I have tried to teach it to others for many years, but realized, it prevented me from attending to my own EL and LE. I’m certain anyone can engage in EL immediately, even though everyone, unknowingly, believes it is impossible. My words are neither to convince nor to make anyone doubt, as I like to express to myself in writing what I have come know.  

 

Anyone, who sincerely verbalizes, in their own way, what they know – and what they don’t know – will find, EL is possible. If you can speak and if you have ears, which aren’t defective, you can hear yourself, even if you read this text out loud. There is no time to lose with DL. As you identify your EL, you can’t help, but wonder: why is everyone wasting so much time and energy on DL? I’m not putting any words in your mouth, but predict what will happen when you engage in EL. Although I don’t know if you consider yourself to be ready, I consider you to be ready.

 

Recently, I began to describe DL as NoWord, as there are really no words spoken or written with our DL, which keep us focused on our language. To the contrary, everything distracts us from how we actually use our language. This writing is unique, in that it is the first writing, which is based on ongoing EL. All other writing is based on DL and nobody even realizes this, as we are all still completely ignorant about the great difference between DL and EL.

 

Ever since they became verbal, human beings, have been arguing and fighting and, consequently, using their language ineffectively. Of course, we already possess the words, to describe our EL, but we need to talk in a different way, with a different sound, to be able to embody our voice. I recently also have reworded EL to NeWord, to express that words are new, if spoken with an embodied sound. This is not some psychological, philosophical, spiritual or scientific issue, although we are inclined to interpret it that way and be distracted again from what it really is. If anything, I would suggest, we view it as a biological issue, since our EL can only happen in the absence of aversive stimuli. Stated differently, we can only come to our senses, when our body feels safe and when we perceive and hear no threat. We all, unconsciously, perceive DL as a threat and, constantly, autonomically experience involuntary mobilization or immobilization, that is, we either fight and flee or we freeze. Our body just does what it does and, consequently, we react by arguing, manipulating, distracting, avoiding, escaping and dissociating. Only when these innate survival mechanisms aren’t triggered, can we have EL.

 

We are all born with the ability to learn how to walk, but, initially, we can’t walk. Likewise, we have the ability to become verbal and acquire language, but we were born without language. Our history of conditioning is such, that we get lost in language, we get carried away by words and, thus, words lose their meaning, as we don’t embody what we say. We all hear and agree on the difference between NoWord and NeWord. We say what is true for us with NeWord, but with NoWord, we seem to be incapable of being benefitted from our language.

 

With NoWord, our language works against us, but once we hear this, it stops and we begin to speak and write about our NeWord. Of course, there is neither any reason to respond to my writing nor is anyone expected to call or talk with me. With our NeWord, we are on our own and we want to remain on our own with our own EL – as in DL everyone is disturbing and interfering with everyone else – as that signifies, what we have always described as our freedom or enlightenment. Since having EL involves the expression of our LE, if you would feel inclined to explore your NeWord in a conversation together with me, it is going to be a communion between two enlightened or conscious human beings.

 

NoWord is merely the assumption or pretention of interaction, as only a few speakers are always – yes always – trying to dominate the listener. In DL, we only act as if we speak or listen. If you believe you still want that, you don’t know what you’re talking about, as you are using your language according to your conditioning, but not according to how you would like to use it. As long as you didn’t listen to yourself while you speak, you have remained unconscious about your language. If you have understood this text, you must be experiencing many positive feelings, because your future with NeWord is ahead of you and your miserable history with NoWord has come to an abrupt end.     

 

Brilliant,

 

I am not supposed to say this, but I am absolutely brilliant. Nobody with Disembodied Language (DL) can recognize me and those very few people, who, occasionally, have some Embodied Language (EL) with me, are still too unfamiliar with it, to be able to fully acknowledge, that EL is their own wisdom.

 

At best, people continue to sit on the fence, even while they give EL a shot, but, basically, they short shrift themselves, as they are holding back. They never fully immerse themselves into their Language Enlightenment (LE) with EL. I looked up the antique phrase, short shrift, and found, that a priest, in a confession, often when a confessor was near to death, would shrive him or her, by imposing a penance, called a shrift, in order to provide absolution. The presumed importance of someone’s final words, in some weird way signifies, that in spite of a whole life being wasted on unconscious DL, one can supposedly still atone or repair oneself, at the very last moment. However, this is, of course,  religious nonsense, as it is too little and too late.

 

I am suddenly reminded of the aphorism: there are no atheists in fox holes, which suggests, that times of extreme stress or fear can prompt a belief in a higher power. Fearing his death, a soldier – in a hole, with bullets flying over his head – prays, regardless of whether he believes in God or not. However, this is not how EL works. First of all, EL is not a belief. Secondly, it only occurs under the right non-threatening circumstances. Thirdly, our verbal violence, our DL, must be stopped by us, ourselves.      

 

People are afraid for the irreversible transformation and the sense of responsibility and commitment to themselves, which occurs, once they transition from DL to EL, as it is just too confronting, too strange and, yes, too new. The challenge – to hear where our EL will be taking us – remains and the longer it takes for anyone to supposedly get ready, to make up their so-called mind, about what EL really means, the less likely, they will ever get truly involved in it.

 

Postponement is not merely a defense against the irrefutable power and brilliance of our own EL, but also an excuse or justification for our mechanical DL as well as a tendency to remain complacent about our horrific history of conditioning. Due to some  common cause – always defined by our language – we believe we have as a group, we lazily abscond our responsibility, by verbally hiding who we are.

 

I have never used that word, abscond, although I have known it for years. It means: to leave hurriedly and secretively, typically to avoid detection of or arrest for an unlawful action such as theft. This terms perfectly fits with DL – our usual way of talking – which we try to escape from, as fast and as soon as we can, if it begins to become clear to us, we are stealing each other’s attention and energy.

 

Once we only dare to suspect as much, the great difference between our DL and EL, we know what we have always known, but never admitted: in the name of our so-called interaction with each other, we have endlessly committed immoral, abusive acts. Since immoral behavior is considered as acts, which are in conflict with generally or traditionally held principles, we view DL as moral, because everyone does it. Moreover, EL seems like an extreme or an outlier, as it completely refutes what we believed in.

 

There is no middle ground between DL and EL, we either have one or the other. People keep saying, there are no absolutes, because there are absolutes and they are too unwilling, too superstitious and too ignorant to acknowledge them. While we keep busy with DL, we reject EL as immoral, self-centered, evil, sinful, unethical and unsavory, as it debunks our apparent agreement – due to the way in which we deal with our language – to remain unconscious about ourselves and our so-called true potential.  

 

Another aspect of not being allowed to relish in our own intellectual abilities, is, of course, the fact that we are not allowed to love ourselves and, therefore, deeply care about who we are, what we are doing,  why we are doing what we are doing and express this to ourselves. In DL, we do the opposite, we only pretend to love ourselves and that is why we keep imposing our language on ourselves. In other words, we always try to fit in and use language, to acquire social reinforcement, but remain judgmental about self-reinforcement, about stuff we prefer, because it comes natural to us. In DL, we get verbally bend out of shape and all worked up, as we fixate on what we say, but experience of language is not getting any of our attention and, consequently, that is why it is so tempting to believe, we have thoughts or a mind.  

 

Probably, nobody has ever said this, but to me, it is morally offensive, to falsely assume we have a mind. Everything goes downhill from that religiously held conviction. How do I view what others keep calling their mind? In DL, we don’t speak, in order to be able to hear what we have to say to ourselves. I see  memory as my use of language and, yes, only what is expressed by my EL, can get my full attention, as in DL, we are scattered, distracted and conflicted.

 

Language, which could be expressed, but isn’t used, because of DL’s self-imposed restrictions, becomes a form of clutter, obsession or hoarding, as there is no opportunity to make use of our intelligence. We say that our mind is a complex set of elements, which supposedly contains what we feel, perceive, will or reason, but there are only these words, there is only our language, which absolutely, with 100% certainty, cannot be found inside of us, in our brains. Without language, there are no experiences to talk about.

 

What is my intention other than these audible or visible words? How can anyone change his or her mind, without letting someone know, by saying or writing it. What is your priority, your opinion or your feeling, without having words for it? Why do we have laws or a constitution? Isn’t that, to somehow, however imperfect, assure that we can be on the same page? When you find my writings or what I talk about too difficult, as it presumably makes you think and use your mind, when you don’t care about what I say or write, you don’t want to talk with me or read what I have written. It is as simple as that.

 

If I say, I don’t mind staying home, I say it. When I tell you to mind your head, to avoid bumping into a low hanging branch, I say it. When I say, I hope you don’t mind having a real conversation with me, I say we can have EL instead of DL, we can talk with our EL about our DL, because we can never talk with our DL about our EL. In DL, our so-called mind, our attention, is never with our language, because we don’t listen to ourselves while we speak. Our EL is brilliant, marvelous, radiant and enlightening.                       

 

Finally,

 

When people are finally beginning to talk out loud with themselves – instead of with some imaginary higher power, spirit, angel or alien or with someone, who, presumably, is superior or inferior to them – chances are – because of their long, confusing, numbing history of conditioning with Disembodied Language (DL) – they will still go on fantasizing about their version of what I simply call Embodied Language (EL), rather than actually really having it.

 

When I left Holland and immigrated to the United States in 1999, I myself was still dreaming of – as they say – making it big and giving many workshops and individual sessions about listening to yourself while you speak. Although I already discovered the difference between DL and EL in my mid-twenties, it took me many years, to adjust to EL and to convince myself, that it is really true. My quest for validation or my ambition, kept rearing its end. Consequently,  soon after arriving in this different culture, I went back to college to study psychology. However, to my great disappointment, nobody was interested in EL. Meanwhile, many years, I worked in mental health.

 

It was so frustrating, that I gave up studying for my PhD at Palo Alto University, in the final face, while writing my dissertation, which wasn’t – as they had promised – about the topic I had wanted to study, but about what I was told by my arrogant, sloppy, incompetent, disgusting supervisor, a guy by the name Dr. Russell. I don’t regret having spoken out against this sick individual and withdrew from my academic odyssey, with a Master of Science in Clinical Psychology and enjoyed being a Psychology Instructor at Butte College for almost nine years.   

 

When, due to the Covid pandemic, Online-Teaching became required, I completely lost all my interest in being a teacher. I became a courtesy clerk at the supermarket, then, a delivery driver for landscaping supplies. I love my current job, because it is physical work, which has nothing to do with Psychology. I am so glad, I have permanently left that field. Yet, I kept on exploring EL, with just one person, who recently told me, she no longer needed to talk with me. It is beautiful and necessary for us to be on our own.  

 

Instead of just enjoying my own ongoing EL, which is the expression of my Language Enlightenment (LE), I was, obviously, still tempted, to tell myself stories about how great it would be, if others also knew about it. I now look back and see how I got to where I am from where I have been, but I don’t idealize my so-called steps, as things just happened, as they did.

 

There is no former life or an after-life. Talking with myself never was a conversation between who I was and who I am now, today. There are many versions of being thrown out of the Garden of Eden, about our so-called former, innocent, child-like, original selves, before we became who we now, apparently,  don’t like or want to be, but there is, of course, no such thing, as talking with yourself and having a dialogue with a part of you, which, presumably, got split off. It never happened, yet people remain busy with it for many years, most likely, their whole life.

 

A while ago, I was at a party of someone, who had a big house with a swimming pool. It was great fun, as many people were singing their songs and playing their music at a little stage, going in and out of the pool and there was plenty of food and drinks. As I was getting myself a beer, I asked the owner, if I could get him one too. As if stung by a bee, he said in an unfriendly, but bragging manner – as if I was supposed to already know about this – he was a recovering alcoholic and hadn’t had any alcoholic drink for twenty-five years. It reminded me of a neighbor, a Jehova-witness, who is not allowed to celebrate her birthday. I didn’t know and had asked her, when it was her birthday, so I could buy her a present, because she sometimes takes care of our cat, but she reacted, as if I had insulted her religion. When I said to this man: I am glad you recovered, he showed me some medal and stated in a stern manner: no one is ever fully recovered. He still sees himself as a recovering alcoholic, since quitting drinking was such a huge turning-point in his life and, thus, became a central aspect of his identity. I felt, it would be better, not to ask any further and, actually, I have never spoken with him since, even though I see him almost every week, at the Open Mike evenings. Also, a former colleague of mine, who showed some interest in EL, grew up with an alcoholic father, but couldn’t stop talking about her fanatic religious dedication to her Al-Anon (Alcohol Anonymous) group. We stop limiting ourselves by any DL stories, because our EL is not about that.

 

My discovery of EL in my twenties, didn’t imply the end of my conditioning history with DL and so I still, inadvertently, kept telling myself as well as others stories about EL. All of these stories have become irrelevant today. The whole notion of talking with myself is wrong, because there is no me, who talks with me, there is just talking, but no me. Somehow, with everything we do or have done, we assume a doer, an inner behavior-coordinating agent, who, presumably, decides what we do. There is no such an entity. There is nobody, who has an experience, as there is only experience. We never see or say this clearly, as with our DL, we cannot comprehend it.

 

The major change in our perception, once we can engage in EL, is absolutely the end of DL – although we may not immediately notice this – even if EL is only temporarily achieved. Of course, permanently leaving our DL is our LE, but, as long as we go back and forth between EL and DL, our LE remains out of sight or rather, out of our hearing range. The sound of our wellbeing – the missing frequency in our way of talking, which sets the stage for how we deal with our language and everything else we do – is filtered out in DL. Therefore, only our EL can reveal our LE.

 

The logic of EL is undeniable, but whenever we engage in DL, we deny that we have DL. Then, our so-called logic is based on the abandonment of our  subjectivity in the name of objectivity or our ability to supposedly reason or think always happens at the expense of our ability to feel and experience something. Lying is the very nature of DL, but it isn’t we, who lie or pretend, but it simply happens. No one does it, it happens, it is the only thing which can happen, because of our history of conditioning.

 

There is no me, who tells stories to him or herself, which aren’t true, but there certainly are a lot of stories, which aren’t true. People usually call it their mind, but that is why they keep the illusion going, that they live their lives in their own way, according to what they supposedly believe. There is no one, who does that, literally and figuratively. Another way of saying the aforementioned is, we disappear in everything we do, but even then, there is no one, who was, who disappeared, for if there still is this idea, this belief, this verbally described construct of our true, real selves, it inevitably reappears and then we, presumably, go back and forth between EL and DL, while in fact, we were having DL all along, while imagining that we were having EL. Of course, there is no one, who has EL or DL, as there is only EL or DL, but, the moment, this can be the case, our DL stops and our EL continues. Although achievement of ongoing EL happens only if talking with ourselves becomes more important than talking with others, in talking with ourselves, our dissociative tendency to fantasize, is much higher then when we talk with others. Whether we like or not, accept it or not or are aware of it or not, with others we are painfully reminded of our DL, because there are practically no others to have EL with. I don’t claim to always have EL, but I know, I will always go on with it.