Satisfied,

 

I am very satisfied with everything I have said and written. Usually, I only listen to what I have said, directly after I have recorded it, and, I only read back the stuff I have written, immediately after I have written it. I do this, because I like to continue to say or write something new. With  Embodied Language (EL), the fact that we enjoy it, while we say or while we write it, makes us want to continue with it. There is a beautiful internal coherence to our ongoing EL, which stands in stark contrast to the unnatural, phony, problematic, energy-draining Disembodied Language (DL), which is going on everywhere.

 

During our common DL, once our fleeting fit of curiosity is satisfied, we go on with something else, but once we discover the great difference between DL and EL, we want to go on with EL, even if it is a challenge to stop DL, so that it will be possible for us to go on with EL. In DL, we can never be satisfied, as our language ignores our needs. In EL, we aren’t telling ourselves stories, and, consequently, we step out of DL, in which we are stuck with our language. Reality is referred to with our language, but language is not the reality. Only in EL we acknowledge this.

 

Our discovery of the difference between our EL and DL is such a delight, because during EL we are no longer feeling imprisoned by what we – in DL – believed to be our mind or thoughts. We are certain – in EL – there is no language inside of us, and by reiterating this truth to ourselves, as often as we like, we behave accordingly, that is, we continue with our EL and we experience and celebrate our Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

We can only be satisfied, if all our doubts have been expressed and dissolved. In EL, we talk out loud with ourselves and hear, in the sound of our voice, if what we say has been properly addressed. We can hear, if we are satisfied, as our breathing slows down, becomes deeper and our voice resonates. We can’t fake our own relaxation and wellbeing. Our doubt continues as long as we are still trying to move away from the issue which is asking our attention. During EL, we pay and give attention to that which asks attention and by talking with ourselves about it, we can hear and feel, that we get clear, we dissolve our doubt, and we feel very satisfied.

 

By now, I must have said or written what I am addressing today in hundreds of different ways and, yet, I never get tired of saying or writing it. While it certainly is the guiding principle of my life, I wouldn’t call my preference for EL a belief, because it is not a matter of believing in it. I can experience my EL and to me, experiencing has nothing to do with believing. When people say: seeing is believing, they are unknowingly trying to say: experiencing is the end of all believing, but they can’t say that, because the proverbial picture – which speaks a thousand words – is, in DL, always more important to us, than what we can and do hear. In other words, in DL, written language is considered to be more important to us than spoken language, and, as a result, what we say, is more important that how we say it.

 

What we say becomes more or less important, because of how we say it. If what we say evokes the willingness to listen to it, we want to hear it and understand it, but we if it doesn’t sound good to us, we don’t want to know about it. Thus, whether we like it or not or are willing to admit it or not, in DL – which is our common way of dealing with language – we are almost permanently listening to things, we don’t want to hear. Yes, we are constantly saying things and doing things, due to DL, which we don’t want to say or do. We begin to discover this once we start to have EL, in which we listen to ourselves.

 

With our DL, we are underperforming. We can only be satisfied with a job well done. Instead of being truly satisfied, we brag and pontificate, but all of this signifies our own dissatisfaction. Once we know how to have EL, we realize that to be satisfied about our EL, we must give up on our tendency to want to have it with others. EL can only be shared with those who are willing to listen to themselves and are ready to hear it.

 

These descriptions, which are written here, by me, have already been said and listened to, by me, and that is why, I can write about it and you can read about it. Nobody else has articulated the value of the DL/EL distinction as elaborately and as clearly as I did. I deserve praise from those who claim to be academic or scientific for my extra-ordinary unique accomplishment. 

I have a request for anyone with the power, to make things happen. Get me a serious committee together of at least seven sincere, courageous, established, experienced, educated, scientific people, who allow me to verbally present my case. I predict, everyone will be amazed, that it is true, they, day in, day out, unconsciously, unwillingly engage in DL.

 

DL – our usual insensitive way of talking, which gave rise to how we deal with our language, to how we view ourselves and each other and sets the stage for all behavior – is anti-intellectual, outdated and problematic. I am sure, everyone will agree, that our DL can be stopped, so that we can finally have EL – the two are mutually exclusive – and explore the self-knowledge, which pertains to our own individual behavior.

 

With EL, we will continue to be satisfied. Our LE is just another word for the bliss, which is felt due to our deep satisfaction with ourselves. The more EL we are able to have, the more we will feel liberated from our history of conditioning with DL. This process of deconditioning as well as reconditioning relieves us from the burden of so-called self-knowledge, which wasn’t working for us, since it was completely unrelated, the general scientific knowledge, we have studied and learned about in our schools, colleges and universities. 

By becoming familiar with our EL, we become scientific about our own behavior and our relationships. This will truly make the world into a better place. Moreover, giving me an honorary degree, would be a major step in promoting what, more than ever before, the world needs today. I already have what I want, but recognizing me will be beneficial to anyone who comes to know their LE with their EL.

 

In closing, I would like to say something about dissatisfaction. We are constantly told, with DL, we must be satisfied with what we have. It is considered to be a bad thing to be dissatisfied, but how can we be satisfied, if we deny that we are dissatisfied? DL is the language of dissatisfaction and unless we stop it ourselves, we keep being dissatisfied. We can’t believe it, that stopping our DL, will make us satisfied, but, as I have said, stopping DL isn’t make-belief. We will only be able to have EL – and be satisfied – after our DL has been properly addressed and stopped. The moment that this happens, our satisfaction begins, and it will continue to the extent that we are able to continue with our EL.                               

 

Judgement,

 

Our judgement is off, due to the way in which we talk. We engage, almost permanently, unknowingly,  in Disembodied Language (DL). This is why we consider DL as normal and find Embodied Language (EL) abnormal. Our so-called conversation is viewed as a battle or competition for attention, rather than a process, in which we let things happen, naturally.

 

Regardless of what we claim about our judgments, we are in DL not in touch with ourselves, because we don’t listen to ourselves while we speak. As a result of our DL, we remain busy with others, but not with ourselves. Consequently, we all trust the judgment of others more than our own judgement.

 

Our own judgement is based on our self-knowledge, but in DL, we never acquire self-knowledge. In DL, we are driven by negative emotions, and we defend, pretend, manipulate, fight, flee or freeze. We can only acquire self-knowledge in EL, because in EL we can express our emotions and experiences correctly.

 

General knowledge – such as physics, chemistry, biology or mathematics – which is taught in schools, colleges and universities and learned mostly from books, is in DL, considered to be more important than self-knowledge. Thus, it is no exaggeration to say, that general knowledge is the stand-in-the-way to self-knowledge. In absence of self-knowledge, we use our general knowledge to make ourselves look important, but our knowledge takes us further and further away from ourselves. Only to the extent that our general knowledge can be applied positively to ourselves, is it of any use to us. In other words, only when there is a connection between the two, does our general knowledge enhance our self-knowledge.

 

In EL, we find talking with ourselves more important than talking with others, and as a result, we have no judgement about our self-knowledge, which works for us. In DL, on the other hand, we feel troubled by our self-knowledge, because talking with others is seen as more important than talking with ourselves and then we judge our self-knowledge as anti-social.

 

Having faith in your own judgement is the same as having self-knowledge. Actually, self-knowledge has nothing to do with faith. In general knowledge, the scientist never does anything on faith. Likewise, the person with self-knowledge, knows what he or she is doing. In self-knowledge, the issue of confidence never arises, because the immediate consequences of EL are positive and the long-term consequences are even better than how it was before. The person with EL, knows whether he or she, him or herself, has EL or DL or whether someone else has DL or EL.

 

In DL, everyone, in one way or another, tries to control or dominate the conversation, as only that will get them attention. In DL, only those get to speak, who win the battle for attention. They get to speak and others are listening, because they are in power. However, the reality is, they are not really speaking, as they are not listening to themselves and those who are listening, there aren’t listening either, as listening to someone who doesn’t listen to him or herself, isn’t really listening, but obeying, being intimidated, afraid or overwhelmed, by those who, supposedly, are more important than them.

 

The court weighs all the facts of a case and decides. This judgement is based on evidence. The facts of our self-knowledge are our own experiences, but always expressed by our EL, not by our DL. With DL, we can’t get to the facts, as we are simply making things up. We can lie to others, but not to ourselves, as we can hear exactly, when we switch from in DL to EL or from EL to DL. Thus, in DL, we are our own worst enemy, due to hash self-judgement, but in EL, we comfort ourselves and acquire self-knowledge.

 

In DL, we act as if we speak, we act as if we listen, but we basically behave out of fear, out of how we were conditioned to behave, which means, we talk or listen according to our status in the social-power-hierarchy. Those who are presumably better than us, because they have more power than us, are treated by us with respect and civility, while those who are below us are disrespected, ignored or mistreated. In DL, we don’t tolerate equals and we battle extra hard with anyone, who is similar to us. We put them down, so that we can put ourselves above them.

 

In EL, we don’t battle, as we are at peace with ourselves. We feel so confident we are right with our EL, that we don’t get into any unnecessary discussion, which is uninteresting DL to us. We acquire self-knowledge with EL, which makes us assert our truth. Our self-knowledge isn’t shared with everyone but is cherished and only made available to those who have also acquired their own self-knowledge. Anyone who reads this or listens to my You Tube videos, knows where this is going.

 

Our EL goes into silence, blissfulness, our wellbeing or Language Enlightenment (LE). EL always takes us beyond language, to the reality, here and now. Who we are is not defined by our words. Our ability to have EL allows us to be and remain undefined. This means, there is no behavior-causing entity, no self, no center, but only an undefined presence. In EL, we speak a powerful language, because we don’t talk with others, but with ourselves. Stated differently, we know that the other, is always our own experience, our own memory, our own perception, our own judgement and our ability to be and express who we are. Therefore, if we ourselves can be who we are with our EL, we can let others be who they are and, yes, we can also say when this isn’t the case, as we always feel that. 

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Nihilism,

 

Since we don’t know anything about the great difference between Disembodied Language (DL) and Embodied Language (EL), we are incapable of viewing nihilism, as deriving from our usual way of talking, DL, which sets the stage for how we deal with language and view reality. Surely, nihilism is defined – by our DL, which has never been properly addressed – as the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated. Only if our insensitive DL is stopped – so we can have ongoing EL – can we truly communicate and agree on values.

 

Nihilism comes from Latin, nothing at all; nil is a contraction of nihil or nihilum, nothing, not at all; ni, not + hilum, small thing, triffle; the Latin phrase nil desperandum, loosely, never give up, literally means, nothing is to be despaired of. In current times, however, it is mostly associated with extreme pessimism or radical skepticism, which basically condemns everything. Nihilistic philosophy is a family of views, that inevitably derives from our common, dissociative DL, which, sooner or later, makes us ignore and abandon, generally accepted or fundamental aspects about human existence, such as knowledge, morality and meaning. Thus, in DL, we never put our money where our mouth is.

 

Friedrich Nietzsche spoke and wrote elaborately about the crisis in nihilism, in Western culture. Although he didn’t know about the difference between DL and EL, he pointed out two central concepts: 1) the destruction of higher values, and 2) opposition to the affirmation of life. It is interesting, how these two concepts relate to the DL/EL distinction. We don’t want to know, that all our so-called higher values are based on our almost permanent involvement in DL. We can only have EL, once our DL – which isn’t life affirming – is stopped, that is, if we suspend these higher values. DL and EL are mutually exclusive. Certainly, Nietzsche was not a nihilist, as he was, like the ancient Greeks, celebrating the beauty of life, in spite of all the tragedies. I am sure, he would have loved to engage in EL.

 

Nietzsche’s views are in line with EL. He wrote in his famous book Will to Power: “Suppose that we said yes to a single moment, then we have not only said yes to ourselves, but to the whole of existence. For nothing stands alone, either in ourselves or in things; and if our soul did but once vibrate and resound with a chord of happiness, then all of eternity was necessary to bring forth this one occurrence—and in this single moment when we said yes, all of eternity was embraced, redeemed, justified and affirmed.” This quote illustrates how our EL reveals our Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

Like Nietzsche, I am not a nay-sayer of life, a harmful, a coward nihilist, who supports self-denial and negation. Left-Wing oriented people are more imprisoned by their DL than Right-Wing oriented people. To my knowledge, it hasn’t been stated by anyone, anywhere, because the difference between DL and EL isn’t known, but I say it emphatically: the infatuation, of Left-Wing Western politics, with Buddhism, Eastern or collectivistic thought or globalism, is outright nihilistic. While more and more people don’t attend church anymore, they give up on their own culture, but they unknowingly continue to believe in spiritual, idealistic nonsense, with an Eastern, communistic flavor.

 

Due to the overflow of my ongoing EL and my glorious LE, I am the ultimate yes-sayer. Only Right-Wing politics is pro-life and truly on the side of our freedom and happiness. Anyone who is trying to transcend their ego, by means of what is known as meditation, is, inadvertently, negating all language and communication – which, due to our DL, is wrongly referred to as mind – and is accepting a depressing, nihilistic, escapist’ view of life. The doctrine of nihilism has people believe, that holier-than-thou-mystical absorption is to be preferred over the presumed unreality of the seeming world, so that, the sense of worth of human personality is completely lost in some superstitious group-behavior.

 

Ultimately, nihilism always comes down to the power-trip of those, who try to change language, to make it serve their purpose. However, DL never serves any individual, as it doesn’t allow us our own authentic and unique self-expression. To the contrary, in DL, we all talk and behave the same, out of fear of being caught and punished, for not following the prescribed narrative. Yes, our DL is strictly scripted, repetitive and boring.

 

As long as we haven’t stopped our DL – so that we can have ongoing EL – we haven’t really looked into the abyss of nihilism. Of course, every reasonable human being can understand, that all of religion and politics is a big scam. DL has continued, because we have always competed with each other for power and access to resources. However, just as the earth is round and not flat, so too is EL genuine communication, but DL isn’t and never was. Nevertheless, our language of nihilism – DL – is catching up with us, as our technology shows our horrible behavior.

 

EL is a joyous affirmation of the importance of the conversations we have every day. It is the innocence and peacefulness of letting language take its course, by having faith in the sound of our own wellbeing. A new way of reasoning, emerges from ongoing EL, in which everything that was described by our DL, is reinterpreted and given a different meaning. Far from being nihilistic, this is a creative, blissful and knowledgeable act.

 

Nietzsche talked about the nihilism, which occurred due to disintegration of traditional morality in predominantly Christian Western  cultures. He correctly stated “God is dead”, but due to his own DL, he was never able to address and dissolve our tenacious belief in our inner deity, our self. His concept of Will to Power (1886) – the driving force of human behavior – still continued the fallacy and all catastrophic problems of our fanatic belief in a behavior-causing inner agent.

 

It is now 128 years later, and I write today, with my EL: our unintelligent, superstitious, disastrous belief in a non-existent inner entity, will certainly come to an end, once we stop our own DL. Of course, Nietzsche was right about the life-denying, nihilistic aspects of Christianity, but I should be praised more than him, for describing my  LE with my EL and letting the world know,  there never was any language inside of us.                      

 

Hear,  

 

You don’t hear anything, when you read these words. Unless you say them out loud, there is nothing to hear. This is a fact. When you speak about the tone of someone’s writing, you are not talking about sound, but about feelings that written words elicit. If someone claims, he or she hears voices, in his or her head, he or she is also, of course, not hearing anything, but only imagining that they are hearing something.

 

I wish you could hear yourself talking, because if you did, you would be engaging in Embodied Language (EL). You may not believe me, that is fine, but you are not listening to yourself while speak, that is why you, unconsciously, engage in Disembodied Language (DL) every day. DL isn’t working for you, because you are not in touch with yourself. How can anyone be in touch with him or herself, if he or she is not listening to him or herself? You cannot be yourself with DL.

 

Just hear me out. Even if I would talk with you, so that you could hear me, you still wouldn’t be able to listen to me, as you are not in the habit of listening to yourself while you speak. You are used to DL, and you don’t even know it. Reading my writing nor listening to me is going to make any difference. The only thing, which is going to make a difference, is when you speak out loud with yourself, so you can begin to hear yourself.

 

It is often said that people only see what they want to see, only remember what they want to remember and only hear what they want to hear. However, this isn’t true. If it was true, they would have EL instead of DL. This judgement, that we, as individuals, of course, have our own way of perceiving the reality – but, supposedly, shouldn’t – always indicates our adherence the idiotic, automatic, coercive group-behavior, which is our usual DL, we engage in every day.

 

The saying, seeing is believing, isn’t true either. With DL, we can’t even believe our own eyes and we remain blind for what is right in front of our nose. Moreover, we can’t believe in – and, therefore, we disconnect from and forget about – our own experience. DL keeps us unhappy, stressed, anxious and frustrated, because we never take time to speak with ourselves. And, even if we did, we are so used to listening to others – to authority outside of ourselves – and to finding that more important, that we don’t trust what we say to ourselves, with our own voice and what we can hear with our own ears.

 

If you, occasionally, accidentally, momentarily, briefly, produced some EL, because you were fortunate enough to be with people, who made you feel safe, welcome, relaxed and open, this never resulted in the continuation of your EL. To the contrary, you almost had a full-blown panic attack, after this short-lived instance of joy was gone again. No matter how hard you have tried, you couldn’t find it back, as you never realized, it had anything to do with how you used your language, that is, with what you actually heard.

 

Many people tell themselves, they hear what is really going on, as they detect the DL of others. Although this may be true, they still can’t admit their own DL, which remains their problem. The DL of others is never our problem, but our own way of using our language is self-defeating. Our DL only stops if we let ourselves know, that we are tired of listening to ourselves. However, to come to that point, we have to produce sound, so that we can hear the tone of our own voice. We must talk long enough with ourselves, so we can come to the necessary conclusion about our own dumb DL: I don’t want to hear that!!

 

In that beautiful moment, in which our DL stops and effortlessly and naturally changes in EL, you can hear a pin drop, as you are fully aware and awake. You experience, you feel, you hear, and you say, when this change happens. If there is any doubt about it, you are still engaging in DL. In DL, we are always straining ourselves to hear the conversation. It isn’t a real dialogue, just because a listener is still somewhat allowed to also sometimes say something. Whoever is in charge of the so-called communication in DL, he or she is always giving a lecture, a monologue.

 

We are all unknowingly, unwillingly engaging in DL. Nobody wants to listen to anyone and that is why we have so many problems with each other. Surely, we have to communicate to get things done. If talking is a big drag, listening is an even bigger drag. The bottom-line is, it is perfectly okay, we don’t want to hear any DL speakers. Understandingly, we hate to hear our own DL even more, than the DL of others. This is a good thing. How else would we ever get rid of it, if we didn’t experience our own tense voice as an aversive stimulus, which creates a negative contingency wherever we go?  

 

Many so-called conversations go on secretively behind closed doors. People literally don’t want their adversaries to hear what they are saying. This is a clear example of DL, in which we don’t talk with each other, but basically are just trying to force our way. During EL, we are never trying to convince, persuade or coax each other and there is no need to be secretive, competitive, argumentative or manipulative. In the name of DL, we are gas-lighting each other. Only when we know the difference between DL and EL, do we know longer fall victim to insidious DL, as we hear the difference and steer away from it.

 

Persuasion always deals with a belief or a set of beliefs, usually political or religious ones. If we look at the similarities for this word, which is at the core of our DL, we find: group, sect, party, denomination, faction, camp, cult or school of thought. Thus, DL is always about the group, as there no need in EL, to let others know what is real, because we are real with ourselves. I write this, as I can hear this. Anyone could hear this, if they speak the language of individualism: EL.

 

You will be so relieved, when you finally hear your own EL, as it informs you about who you really are and have always been. With your EL, you hear your Language Enlightenment (LE). We hear of certain treatments, which only work some percent of the time, or we hear, some people are not responding to the treatment at all, but with EL, we treat ourselves and it works all the time, because we say it and we hear it.       

 

Soms,

 

In onze gebruikelijke manier van praten is het niet zo, dat onze emotie het slechts soms over neemt van ons zogenaamde denken, want wij zijn, ongemerkt, vanwege onze Ontlichaamde Taal (OT), eigenlijk voortdurend bezig met de negatieve emoties, die door onze alledaagse wijze van spreken worden opgeroepen en in stand worden gehouden. Dat logisch kunnen  redeneren over wat er met ons aan de hand is, omdat wij nagenoeg bijna nooit luisteren naar onszelf – maar altijd naar anderen – , kan alleen  plaatsvinden, als we onze OT stoppen, zodat we eindelijk Belichaamde Taal (BT) kunnen hebben.

 

Er wordt verondersteld, dat bekende experts, die door iedereen worden beschouwd alsof zij het allemaal wel zouden weten, aangezien zij het voor het zeggen hebben – therapeuten, psychiaters, leiders, regisseurs, machthebbers, auteurs, politici,  psychologen, etc. – toch ook soms wel eens een steekje laten vallen. Zij zijn immers, net als iedereen, ook maar gewone mensen, met hun beperkingen en neigingen en dan wordt daarover geroddeld en druk gepraat.

 

Iedereen is wel eens teleurgesteld geweest over de ongevoelige, helaas gangbare wijze, waarop wij gewend zijn om met elkaar te praten. Soms dan valt het ons ineens heel even op, dat wij die OT – die door iedereen overal als normaal wordt beschouwt – eigenlijk helemaal niet zien zitten, maar die momenten zijn van zeer korte duur, omdat er, zo lijkt het, niets aan te doen is.

 

Wij zijn allemaal – of we het nou weten of niet, of we het nou toegeven of niet, of we het nou bewust zijn of niet – voortdurend de draad met onszelf kwijt, en naarmate wij ouder worden, duurt het, vanwege onze verstarde gewoontes, steeds langer, alvorens wij weer eens opnieuw met onszelf werkelijk in contact zijn. Soms dan gebeurd dat door een schokkende gebeurtenis, zoals het overlijden van iemand die ons dierbaar is.

 

Omdat het soms lijkt alsof het door iedereen vergeten is, doen wij, als individu, geen enkele moeite meer, om toch datgene te ervaren, wat schijnbaar met anderen nauwelijks mogelijk is. Als wij echter de tijd nemen, om met onszelf te spreken en om naar onszelf te luisteren en om onze BT te onderzoeken, dan blijkt tot onze grote verbazing, dat wij niet langer – soms – bij wijze van uitzondering, het bij het rechte eind blijken te hebben, maar dat het ons elke keer lukt, om onze OT te stoppen en BT te hebben.

 

Soms dan is er niets te schrijven en toch ga ik verder met schrijven. Dit is zo’n moment met mezelf, zonder taal. Ik vind het heel aangenaam om het daarover te hebben, want ik ben hierin zo stil. Herhaaldelijk schrijven en praten over mijn BT heeft tot gevolg gehad, dat dit mogelijk is. Het is vanwege het overlijden van mijn moeder, dat ik hierover in het Nederlands wil schrijven. Ik heb haar rouw kaart, samen met een foto van haar, op een tafeltje naast me staan en ik voel me, na al die jaren van geen contact meer te hebben gehad, toch heel dichtbij haar. Het is een vredig gevoel, zonder verdriet, alsof ze nu pas echt bij me is.

 

Misschien beeld ik mij dit in? Ik heb dit nooit eerder ervaren bij andere overledenen. Haar heengaan heeft iets afgerond met mijn familie. Ik voel nu enkel liefdevolle aandacht voor mijn vader, die waarschijnlijk ook niet lang meer te gaan heeft, nu zijn geliefde is overleden. Ik ervaar ineens zo’n waardering voor hem, omdat hij zo trouw ons gezin heeft onderhouden en zijn zes kinderen een start heeft gegeven, waar ikzelf – ondanks alle conflicten – toch heel gelukkig mee verder heb kunnen gaan.

 

Ik heb ook een foto van het afscheid van mijn ouders op Schiphol, toen Bonnie en ik naar Amerika emigreerden. Mijn vader, die lange tijd voor mijn moeder zorgde, woonde niet meer bij haar, omdat zij zo’n intensieve verzorging nodig had, die hij haar niet kon geven. Ik weet, dat hij,  niet erg geliefd is in de familie – en daar zijn redenen voor – maar op dit punt aangekomen is ook hij ineens dichterbij dan ooit tevoren.

 

Ofschoon ik begaan ben met mijn ouders, heb ik nauwelijks gevoelens voor mijn broers of zussen, ook al heb ik onlangs met drie van hen email contact gehad. Gek genoeg, lijkt het alsof ik, meer hou van mijn vader dan wie dan ook en terwijl ik dit schrijf, keert mijn aandacht weer terug naar mijn moeder, die mij goedkeurend laat weten, dat ze van haar man hield en samen met hem heeft gedaan wat ze kon, om haar grote gezin tot een zo’n liefdevolle ervaring te maken, als maar mogelijk was. Ik weet dat zij zich zeer bezorgd om mij hebben gemaakt en ben blij, dat mijn leven in deze fase is, waarin alles helemaal tot rust is gekomen. Het voelt alsof ik dit schrijf als een dankbetuiging.

 

Er zijn voor mij geen negatieve gevoelens meer naar mijn broers en zussen, met wie ik nooit echt een band heb gevoeld. Mijn levens-weg, die mij naar BT en naar mijn Taal Verlichting (TV) heeft gebracht, gaat samen met Bonnie, die ook nooit contact heeft gehad met mijn familie leden. Waarschijnlijk is dat omdat wij geen kinderen hebben. Toen ik nog probeerde, om keer op keer, toch weer het diepere contact met mijn familie te creeren, liet Bonnie mij vaak weten, dat zij het niet waard zijn. Ik kon het niet laten. Waar ik naar verlangde is nooit met mijn familie tot stand gekomen. Mijn leven begon pas rustig te worden, toen ik, na veel vijven en zessen, eindelijk had besloten om geen contact meer met hen te hebben, omdat ik er elke keer weer zo onder leed. Ja, ik deed dit alles mezelf aan, maar was toen tot niets anders in staat. Het opgeven van het contact met mijn familie heeft dus vele jaren in beslag genomen. Ook al was het heel moeilijk en pijnlijk, om mij aan mijn besluit te houden – ik kwam er nog vaak op terug – toch hield ik mij uiteindelijk aan mijn besluit en ben ik blij dat ik dat gedaan heb.  

 

Er is een stabiliteit in mijn leven gekomen, die ik nog niet eerder kon beleven. Het heeft ook zeer zeker te maken met het feit dat ik momenteel niet meer werk en daardoor veel tijd alleen met mezelf doorbreng. Al ben ik in de gelegenheid om allerlei dingen te doen of om mensen op te zoeken, ik doe maar heel weinig, omdat ik mij zo aangenaam voel op mezelf. Ook kijk ik nog maar nauwelijks naar het nieuws en houd ik mij nergens anders mee bezig dan met mezelf. Ik weet wel, dat anderen hierover een andere mening hebben dan ik, maar dat kan mij niet schelen.

 

Voor mij is en blijft het belangrijk, om allerlei invloeden van anderen, zoveel mogelijk buiten beschouwing te kunnen laten. Ik geef dezer dagen helemaal toe aan mijn grote behoefte hieraan, die ik altijd gehad heb en ben zogezegd nog steeds aan het thuiskomen bij mezelf. Toch is mijn relatie met mijn vrouw Bonnie niet iets waarvoor ik mij afsluit. Integendeel, ik ben zo blij dat mijn leven met haar zo goed is. Ook ben hemels blij met mijn dierbare vriendschap met AnnaMieke, met wie ik zo heerlijk kan praten over onze BT en TV. Het is zoiets prachtigs, om met deze twee vrouwen samen deze helderheid mee te maken, die ons zo gelukkig doet zijn.

 

Vannacht gebeurde er iets opmerkelijks. Ik was al ongebruikelijk vroeg naar bed gegaan – om zes uur – en werd om twee uur wakker. Nadat ik naar het toilet was geweest, ging ik even zitten in kleer-makers-zit, om deze tekst te schrijven. Buddy, kwam mijn kamer ingelopen en gaf me een kopje. Onze kat was er nog niet eerder toe gekomen, om bij ons te komen zitten en zich te laten aaien. Allerlei pogingen waren tevergeefs, telkens holde hij weg. Hij bleef een lief, maar afstandelijk beestje. We hadden het zo’n beetje opgegeven, dat hij ooit bij nog ons zou komen zitten, maar vannacht sprong hij ineens op mijn schoot en liet hij zich aaien en begon hij te snorren.

 

Soms is er ineens, even, slechts een moment,  waarop iets mogelijk is. Toen Buddy naar mij toe kwam lopen, voelde ik dat hij eindelijk bij mij zou komen zitten en ik had gelijk. Soms dan kan iemand die dit leest ineens beseffen, dat het allemaal echt waar is wat ik zeg, en dat BT dus ook voor hem of haar mogelijk zou zijn. Soms dan krijgt zo iemand ineens de impuls, om toch eens de stoute schoenen aan te trekken en om eens, via skype – limbicease – contact met mij te zoeken, om met mij over BT te spreken. Ik reken erop dat dit gebeurt. Ook al is het natuurlijk prima, om soms eens naar een van mijn twee You Tube kanalen te kijken en te luisteren (type in Maximus Peperkamp of maximuspeperkamp-hw8sw), OT begint pas in BT te veranderen, als soms steeds vaker wordt.        

 

Succinct,

 

The word succinct comes from Latin, succinctus, which means, contracted, short, concise; but also, prepared, ready, from succingere, to tuck up, to gird from below; and, in transferred use, to equip, to provide or furnish. Succingere, comes from sub + cingere, sub, meaning up from under and cingere, cinch, meaning, gird about, with armor, to be armed, prepared and tuck up loose clothes or tighten one’s belt for action. In later English form succinctly, means brevity of something said, concise language, compressed in a small compass or few words.

 

In their journals, scientists write, in principle, about their theories, as succinctly as possible. They go by Occam’s Razor, also known as the Principle of Parsimony, which is the idea, that more straightforward explanations are, in general, better. Novacula Occami, also Latin, is the problem-solving principle – Lex Parsimoniae – that recommends searching for explanations constructed with the smallest set of elements. There is also the Latin phrase, Entia non sunt multiplicanda praeter necessitatem, which can be translated as, entities must not be multiplied beyond necessity, or, in more popular language, the simplest explanation is usually the best one.

 

Although I can be – as my blog writings and my many You Tube videos (Maximus Peperkamp or maximuspeperkamp-hw8sw) show – and like to be elaborate about the distinction between Disembodied Language (DL) – our unconscious, usual, ineffective way of dealing with language – and Embodied Language (EL), we can’t get any more succinct, than by stating: DL-speakers don’t listen to themselves, while EL-speakers always listen to themselves while they speak.  

 

Anyone with knowledge about science as well as the right, inquisitive, open attitude, should be able to acknowledge, that, EL is a succinct and, therefore, scientific way of speaking, while DL – in which speakers do not pay any attention to how they sound, because they are carried away by what they say; I call it verbal fixation – is not parsimonious, is biased, and, consequently, unscientific, although all scientists talk this way.  

 

Intelligence is the beauty, which is found and felt in the simplicity of our language, when we listen to ourselves while we speak and engage in EL. Our EL is based on the irrefutable simple fact, that we can all produce a sound, while we speak, which we like to and want to hear. The voice which we have during ongoing EL, makes us feel good. We keep expressing the sound of our wellbeing regardless of what we are saying.  

 

The previous paragraph reminds me of the One Note Samba, a beautiful Brazilian melody, that  was composed by Antonio Carlos Jobim and made famous by Frank Sinatra. There is a similarity – I would say a connection – between the musical simplicity or the succinctness of Bossa Nova and EL. In this genre, particularly in this marvelous song, just one single melodic line is followed. Thus, the entire melody can be played by one note, in the same way. Similarly, the most wonderful conversation will unfold, if we keep following the healing sound of our EL.

 

Here are the lyrics of One Note Samba. You can also listen to this song if you use this link:

Frank Sinatra With Antonio Carlos Jobim – One Note Samba (Samba De Uma Nota So) (youtube.com)

This is just a little samba, built upon a single note
Other notes are bound to follow but the root is still that note
Now this new one is the consequence of the one we've just been through
As I'm bound to be the unavoidable consequence of you

 

There's so many people who can talk, and talk, and talk
And just say nothing or nearly nothing
I have used up all the scale I know
And at the end I've come to nothing or nearly nothing

 

So I come back to my first note as I must come back to you
I will pour into that one note, all the love I feel for you
Anyone who wants the whole show, re-mi-fa-so-la-si-do
He will find himself with no show, better play the note you know

 

There's so many people who can talk and talk, and talk
And just say nothing or nearly nothing
I have used up all the scale I know
And at the end I've come to nothing, I mean nothing

 

So I come back to my first note, as I must come back to you
I will pour into that one note all the love I feel for you
Anyone who wants the whole show, re-mi-fa-so-la-si-do
He will find himself with no show, better play the note you know

 

Songwriters: Newton Ferreira De Mendonca, Antonio Carlos Brasileiro De Almeida Jobim.

 

I listened to Frank Sinatra, but didn’t like it. I like Joao Gilberto’s version with Herbie Mann much better. Best Of Vintage Brazilian Songs (youtube.com)  There is nothing minimalistic about this relaxing music, but since people are used to DL, they call it that, because it diffuses noisy complexity. It makes us feel. In that sense, it is to the point. It takes us back to the basics. It exposes the meaningless chaos we are used to, which is expected to continue with our DL. In DL we manipulate, distract, obfuscate and fabricate, but we aren’t talking straight…

 

We only begin to make sense of what we say, if we listen to ourselves, while we speak, so that we can finally recognize the huge difference in the sound of our own voice, the difference in our energy or our vibration, during our DL or EL.

To put it, once more, very succinctly, in DL we remain fearful, but in EL, we talk without having any fear. Our intelligence is only expressed in EL, but since we are – due to our conditioning history – used to DL, we totally misunderstand what is our own intelligence. It is interesting to note – pun intended – in this famous song, the lyrics further enhance the meaning of this tune.

 

As in so many other songs, the words describe a longing for love, which seems unattainable and unreachable. However, amazingly, the beauty and simplicity of this music, tells us a different story. By juxtaposing the easiness of this calm melody with the complex emotions conveyed by the lyrics, we can sense Jobim’s genius. After all, isn’t it love, what it’s all about? And when will we take note (!) of that message? Yes, you probably guessed it correctly: when we have ongoing EL.

 

With DL we can’t express love, therefore, we remain in the dark about the most important experience of our life. This has had – and will continue to have – catastrophic consequences. With EL, however, we can speak with love and, thus, attain our Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

When I say --- WE --- I mean, the listeners, who, instead of listening to the music from someone else, are listening to their own music, which is the sound of their voice. Only the EL-speakers are able to capture this universal feeling of love, which is desired, but which is not embodied, as long as DL is going on. 

The bittersweet flavor of love songs, of course, could only capture our attention for a limited amount of time, before we go on again with, presumably, other more important matters. We may occasionally still listen to the expression of our intelligence, but our daily involvement in DL determines, that we forget about love and at best fantasize about it.

 

Art, in its many forms, supposedly, reminds us again of beauty, love, purity, tranquility, truth and meaning, however, anyone with EL knows, we are just fooling ourselves with the belief, for a brief moment, we pay attention, to who we really are. Bossa Nova combines Samba and elements of Jazz with a laid-back musical style. The soothing quality of the One Note Samba is the result of a range of emotions, which emerge because of the honesty of what we can feel.

 

We would all like to experience, our longing for love would be fulfilled, but unless our language creates and maintains a serene way of life, we will remain trapped by our unfulfilled longings. The Buddhists say that all life is suffering, and they try to end suffering by meditating, but I say, life is suffering because of DL. Only if we can have ongoing EL, will there be an end to our suffering and will we attain our LE, which is, to put it succinctly, the understanding, that there is and never was language inside of us. DL is the attention-demanding, unnatural, unintelligent language of our unfulfilled longings, a sense of sentimental nostalgia for something that never was there in the first place. As the lyrics of One Note Samba illustrate, our usual way of talking, DL, is always about the other, the object of our love, but in EL, we return to ourselves when we speak, and we hear and act on our intelligence. I hope this writing was succinct enough for you.      

 

Spade,

 

To be able to call a spade a spade, we need to have ongoing Embodied Language (EL), as with our unconscious, insensitive Disembodied Language (DL), we keep changing the meaning of words, and, consequently, our language and live become meaningless. You could argue, the spade has a need to be called what he or she is, but once you start talking about the so-called, she-spade or the he-spade, to supposedly, refer to the spade, who identifies as a female or as a  male, you are no longer calling a spade a spade.

 

Simply stated, a spade is a genderless garden tool, with a handle and a flat blade for digging, while a hoe is an equally non-binary agricultural tool consisting of a long handle with a flat blade fixed perpendicular to it at the end, for digging rows. We can only effectively use these words – spade or hoe – to refer to these different tools, because they are used for different purposes. It is, therefore, not a matter of comparing a spade with a hoe – or apples with oranges – because each word identifies something very different.

 

If you know what you are doing, you will use the right tool for the job, but you will never be using a hoe, when, in fact, you should be using a spade or vice versa. Angled blades of hoes make them great for weeding, edging, hilling, while flat blades of spades make them ideal for digging, moving earth or transplanting. Using a tool that is not designed for a particular job, can result in accidents, injury, or damage to the tool itself. Using the right tools for a job is essential for improving your work’s precision and quality.

 

It is obvious to anyone, who used these tools, a spade is better than a hoe for digging holes and for easily moving scoops of soil, while hoes are more useful, when breaking hard ground or new ground with a grub hoe or a garden pick or mattock. The latter is good for chopping tough sods, that are more difficult to handle with a spade. A spade is not a better tool than a hoe, but a different tool, necessary for another job.

 

Calling a spade a spade, is considered offensive by those who engage in DL. EL instantaneously exposes the ignorance of those, who mistake a hoe for a spade, as EL always illustrates, in DL, our words are not embodied. DL never refers to the individual, who is using the language. Thus, the hoe is called a spade, as the hoe demands to be called a spade, and this is how ridiculous our common way of talking is. There is nothing new, however, about DL, which has been going on since human beings became verbal. Yes, we haven’t acknowledged the difference between DL and EL, so we never called a spade a spade!

 

To me, it doesn’t matter, what anyone says, as long as they still engage in DL. I continue with my EL, as the DL of everyone is of no concern to me anymore. I leave all the arguing, fighting, hurting and suffering to others, because their way of talking is in essence a violent, abusive, and above all, stupid act. I literally have better things to do. I have no shame, when I say, with my EL: I am better than everyone with DL. It is the truth. Those who are offended, feel hurt because I don’t recognize their phony authority.  

 

Those, who are simply jealous or who try put themselves above others, always take offense to anyone with EL, who has a better life, than all the fools with DL. My joy in my EL isn’t about putting anyone down or putting myself above others, but it is about stating my own truth. I say what I am capable of saying, because I have nothing to prove. What I write is true for me. I know it and don’t doubt it. My EL is so clear, so peaceful and down to earth. I don’t postpone my wellbeing with any involvement in DL, as that would be a waste of my time and energy.

 

I have slept so nicely and just got up. It is still early in the morning. The window is a little bit open and the fresh morning air is coming into my room. The crisp coolness embraces me from top to toe. I have the whole day to myself, and I feel so wealthy, accomplished and grateful. My possession is my language. I do with it what I want. What I do, is not what anyone with DL imagines, they want to do with their language.

 

I do not imagine anything. EL is the expression of my being. I am someone magnificent and blissful. I call this my Language Enlightenment (LE), because it is articulated with my EL. My LE could never be uttered with the dull DL, which everyone is so incredibly busy with. I don’t have any involvement with DL, otherwise I couldn’t be myself. Being myself isn’t something I want, as it is something I am. I believed I wanted to be myself, as long as I was preoccupied with DL.

 

I never try to be myself with EL, as EL allows me to be who I am. It was such a big trip, I’ve been on, but I’ve returned home to myself. I too was, like everyone else, unknowingly, mechanically, involved in DL, and busy with so many things, which distracted me from my own language. Right now, it doesn’t seem to matter anymore, as it is no more important, but back then, my goal felt like a case of life and death. With EL, I don’t do anything else than enjoy who I am. My happiness is of no use to anyone with DL. They thrive on conflict and drama. I was like that too.  

 

I used to feel so sad, I wasn’t part of any kind of group. If I participated in group-activity, I always felt like an outsider. Looking back, on what was for so long the theme of my life – rejection – I now realize, that being on my own, isn’t matter of being rejected or not being accepted, but it is the inevitable consequence of using language to my own advantage, instead of against me.  

 

When people say that they need to be alone, to, supposedly, think or take a break from their involvement with others, they try to create a situation, in which they can have EL instead of DL. However, if they don’t speak out loud with themselves, they are unable to hear, what they would say, if they did. They don’t hear, what they would only be able to hear, if they would calmly tell themselves, what they really wanted to say to themselves. They can’t hear what they have never said to themselves and can’t feel or experience, what their DL distracts them from.

 

Even if our DL – in the absence of others – is somewhat decreased or, perhaps, temporarily stopped, it would still soon continue, because of our conditioning history. Those, who feel the most bothered by DL, are the most sensitive and intelligent people. They not only avoid DL, but they naturally find their way to EL. Stated differently, knowing what we don’t want – with our language – reveals what we want, and are already capable of. Therefore, as soon as our DL has been stopped, our EL begins and as it keeps going, things are just getting better and better. We are on our path of wellbeing, as there is no reason, why we would be doing anything else.  If you go to my You Tube channel maximuspeperkamp-hw8sw, you can hear me read this writing and provide some additional comments.