Verschil,

 

Het verschil tussen mijn schrijven en het schrijven van anderen, is dat mijn text, deze text, voortkomt uit mijn vermogen om Belichaamde Taal (BT) te hebben, terwijl anderen enkel vanuit Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) kunnen schrijven, omdat zij het verschil nog niet kennen tussen OT en BT. In OT wil iedereen gelijk hebben, maar in BT heb je altijd gelijk. Dit komt, omdat we gedurende BT met onszelf praten.

 

In OT doen we net alsof wij met elkaar praten, maar zowel het praten als het luisteren is geacteerd. OT is, zonder dat iemand daar erg in lijkt te hebben, de wijze waarop wij gewend zijn om met elkaar en met onszelf om te gaan. Uiteraard gaat dat gepaard met allerlei problemen. Wat een enorm verschil is het, om BT te hebben. Het is zo interessant, aangenaam en natuurlijk, omdat iedereen altijd gelijk heeft.

 

Vanwege onze onbewuste OT, blijven we eindeloos vastlopen in het conflict, over wie er, zogenaamd, gelijk heeft. Het komt er, in die competitie, altijd, uitsluitend en alleen, weer op aan, wie het voor het zeggen heeft, wie er de macht heeft of wie er het sterkste, rijkste, sluwste en onmenselijkste is. En, we blijven eveneens gevangen zitten, in het zelf-beeld, in het waan-idee, dat anderen van ons en dat wij, vervolgens, met OT, van onszelf hebben gecreerd.

 

Ik zit niet vast aan mijn woorden. Het grote verschil tussen jou taal en mijn taal is, dat mijn stem-klank de woorden voortbrengt, die, aan mij, altijd mijn vrijheid tonen, ook al wil iedereen die vrijheid ontkennen of ongedaan maken. Merkwaardig, dat zoveel mensen er zo op gebrand zijn, om de vrijheid van anderen af te nemen. Maar, de hulpeloosheid van hen, die zich door anderen laten leiden – en dat is, in OT, dus iedereen – heeft met vrijheid niets te maken. Ja, wat betreft onze OT zitten we, of we het nou geloven of niet, allemaal in hetzelfde schuitje.  

 

Of je nou een onderdrukker van anderen bent of een slachtoffer van de onderdrukking van anderen, jullie zijn beiden altijd alleen maar bezig, om OT in stand te houden. Simpel gezegd is OT de taal waarin de spreker de luisteraar onderdrukt, zelfs al is die luisteraar zelf de spreker. Wij zijn dus in OT – of we het nou willen toegeven of niet – zogezegd allemaal  voortdurend in conflict met onszelf. Het hebben van  macht, legers, aanzien, roem, geld, huizen, jachten, vliegtuigen, luisteraars, volgelingen, bewonderaars en text-schrijvers, wat hand in hand gaat met de onderdrukking van anderen, heeft nooit tot gevolg, dat we, zonder angst, vanuit onze vrijheid leven.  

 

Vanwege onze automatische deelname aan OT, die werd bepaald door onze conditionering, blijven we ons hele leven lang paranoide, omdat er altijd wel  weer kapers op de kust liggen, die ons datgene af proberen te nemen, wat wij met veel pijn en moeite hebben kunnen bemachtigen. Iedereen houdt, met OT, krampachtig vast aan het schamele rotzooitje, wat men bezit of geloofd te bezitten. Men gelooft  fanatiek in van alles en nog wat, omdat men nog nooit het verschil heeft onderkend tussen OT en BT.

 

Eigenlijk is het hele leven een conversatie. Omdat we nog geen BT hebben gehad, zien we het niet zo, maar, alles hangt af van of we erover kunnen praten en natuurlijk, hoe we erover praten. Met andere woorden, alles draait om hoe wij met taal omgaan. Met OT kunnen wij onszelf niet relativeren, daarom zijn wij altijd weer ons gelijk aan het bewijzen, aan anderen. Aan onszelf valt er niets te bewijzen en dus is het praten met onszelf – wat de basis is voor BT – het enige begin van oprechte communicatie.

 

Ik was vanmorgen, toen het net licht begon te worden, in Upper Bidwell aan het joggen, op het slingerende, rotsachtige pad. Het is eindelijk weer eens heerlijk koel vandaag. Ik luisterde naar mijn gehijg. Het was ineens alsof mijn adem met mezelf sprak. Ik zei echter helemaal niets, maar toch vertelde ik, aan mezelf, dat ik, dan weer, stijl omhoog ging en dan weer omlaag rendde en dan weer even over wat vlakker terrein. Ook moest soms weer even bijkomen van alle inspanning en weer wat langzamer gaan en op andere momenten, leek het erop alsof ik door de wind werd gedragen.

 

Ik beluisterde ook het afwisselende geluid van mijn voetstappen. Vanwege het telkens veranderende terrein, vertelde mijn stappen een eeuwen oude geschiedenis. Tijdens het springen over de rotsen, hoorde ik het wonderlijke verhaal van dit prachtige pad, waarin alles leek te zijn vervat. Ook al ken ik dat pad, omdat ik er vaker heb gejogd, toch is het elke keer weer anders. Soms is het moeilijk, soms is het makkelijk, soms is het onverwacht en soms is het zoals ik het me herinnerde. Ik jog altijd naar de grote basalt rotsen, waar ik dan ga zwemmen. Dat laatste stuk, voordat ik daar aankom, gaat alsmaar omlaag. Het is zoiets fijns, om omlaag te joggen en om jezelf tegen te houden, dat je niet te snel gaat.

 

Het was ook anders vandaag, omdat er wat muggen waren, die schijnbaar mijn niet zo snelle tempo bij konden houden. Ik voelde de beten, sloeg wat om me heen en versnelde mijn pas, maar ze bleven me volgen. Ik was pas bevrijd, toen ik in het heerlijke water dook. Ik zwom wat rond en liet het water over me heen spoelen, bij de kleine watervalletjes. Mijn  lichaam gleed langs de rotsen, terwijl ik zwom naar mijn favoriete plek. Mijn taal is zo puur in de natuur. Het is zo’n verademing, om daar te zijn. Ik deed ook nog wat Qi-Gong oefeningen en maakte langzame, grote circles, met mijn handen en armen en deze heilige plek zei me, dat ik het ben, die dit beleef.

 

Inmiddels ben ik thuis en zit ik in de tuin. We deden wat boodschappen en eten zodadelijk pizza. Het is Zaterdag en ik heb verder niets om handen. De wind blaast zachtjes en koerende duif laat me weten, dat ik het rustig aan zal gaan doen vandaag. Ik hoor de wind-chimes in de tuin van de buren, maar weet dat ik niets te maken heb met wat anderen geloven of hoe zij leven. Toen ik jong was, was ik daanaar nog heel benieuwd. Ik wilde graag weten, hoe mensen in andere landen en culturen, leven. Zo kwam ik er achter, dat we, ondanks alle verschillen, eigenlijk allemaal hetzelfde willen. Iedereen wil BT, want dat betekent veiligheid, stabiliteit en rechtvaardigheid. BT maakt zo’n groot verschil. Het is onbegrijpelijk, dat wij ons nog steeds niet met onze taal zijn gaan bezighouden, want alleen dat kon ons redden van de ondergang, die wij met onze OT tegemoet gaan.                          

 

Ha-Ha,

 

You can’t laugh, you aren’t going to laugh, it isn’t possible for you to laugh, with your Disembodied Language (DL). If you want to laugh – of course, you want to laugh – you’ve got to stop your DL. How do you do that? You’ve got to admit, you have it. Yes, you have a language, that doesn’t, that can’t make you laugh. Why do you want to laugh? It’s because you know, there is another language, which makes you laugh. Do you have that language? Obviously, you don’t. Not somebody else, but you must have that laughter language. I have Embodied Language (EL) and, ha-ha, I’m having such fun writing this.

 

You too, need to have EL, to be able to laugh. Why do you want me, to have that funny language for you? Ha-ha, with your dull DL, you can’t even laugh with me, about my EL. It’s sad, for you, but for me, it’s hilarious. You always want me or someone else to be funny, because you don’t have that enjoyable language yourself. You can’t enjoy yourself. Neither can those, who claim to have that elusive language of humor. They merely pretend to be funny and you play along with them, because it is enough for you, to be distracted, by anyone, from your own boring,  miserable, pitiful, troubling, confusing language.

 

I don’t laugh at any comedian, because they aren’t funny. I don’t have any burdensome DL, from which I need to be distracted. However, it isn’t fun, to be entertained or distracted, as you will be back to square one, after the so-called fun is done. Ha-ha, it wasn’t funny anyway, as you haven’t changed at all. Real fun changes you, yes, but, if it didn’t change you, what was it? The language, that has always overwhelmed you – which caught you off guard, which you, sheepishly and unconsciously, allowed to be forced on you, push you around, to turn things upside-down and inside-out – didn’t affect how you use your own language. To the contrary, it made you even deeper entrenched in your shallow, dumb DL.  

 

In one way or another, the comedian – but also, of course, the politician, the priest, the philosopher, the actor or the writer – is basically always saying: ha-ha, my language is more important than yours, is better than yours, is more meaningful than yours, is more truthful than yours. Ha-ha, I am funny, but you are not. What is accepted and revered, with DL, as humor, is arrogant and abusive. The language that is truly funny, is never better than yours, as it is yours. And, unless you have that language, you can’t laugh.

 

Ha-ha, you didn’t laugh, you couldn’t laugh, because you didn’t have the language – and the guts to have that language – to do it, but you believed others had that very special language, that elixir of happiness, that could make you laugh. Now that you read my words, you should know, you do have that language yourself. Moreover, you must have that language, as you don’t want to waste any more time, listening to someone, who is, supposedly, funny, because you now want to hear your own damn-funny words.

 

Start by saying something to yourself and if it isn’t funny, be upfront and honest about it. Why should you laugh, if it isn’t funny? Ha-ha, you can’t. You should reject it immediately. Why do you keep busy with something which isn’t funny? You get rid of it by saying, you don’t like it, you don’t want it, you don’t enjoy it, you don’t need it and you will not give up, until you have heard something, which pleases you and tickles your so-called funny-bone.  

 

You will hear it, you will feel it and anyone will can hear it. Ha-ha, you are funny. You’re really having fun with your own language and you’re not even saying anything funny. This has never happened, as nobody ever told you about this, but the funny thing is, you never told yourself about it either. Your EL is so funny to you, because it expresses your Language Enlightenment (LE). You could never express your LE with DL, because in DL, you keep listening to and condoning your own humorless words. Ha-ha, it had to be stopped, by you. You had to call yourself on it, by saying: wait a minute, this isn’t funny at all, this is not how I want to use my language. They say, the child got thrown out with the bathwater, but it’s humor, which – in DL – gets thrown out every time you open your mouth. You’ve lost your sense of humor because of how you talk. Ha-ha, you want it back and you need it. Without humor your language is dead and, although you use your language every day, you know it is getting in the way of what you really wanted to say. If you don’t abandon it, DL is going to continue and making you more depressed.

 

There is nothing to laugh about with your usual, heavy, deadening, effortful, horrible-sounding DL. Ha-ha, you’re really killing it. You may not actually commit suicide, but all your self-defeating behaviors are, in essence, suicidal. Why not just be practical and get rid of your negative language? Of course, you can do that, but you haven’t, that’s why you can’t laugh. Of course, you can laugh, after you have thrown away your DL. Considering this possibility, is already making you feel lighter, than stubbornly pretending, it isn’t necessary and that you don’t even have any say in it. Ha-ha, you don’t need to be become less, but more judgmental about yourself, because you are not funny and you know it.                     

 

Always,

 

I've always wanted to talk about Embodied Language (EL), even when I wasn't aware of the difference between Disembodied Language (DL) and EL. I believe this is the same for everyone. The impulse to have EL comes from our Language Enlightenment (LE), which – likewise – is already the case, even though we could not yet have EL. The sporadic, fleeting, amazing moments when, despite our conditioning with DL, we could have EL for a little while, without actually really knowing it, are confusing, frustrating, and frightening, because we have no idea how we could fit it in our lives. In other words, the enormous importance of our natural handling of language has never fully dawned on us.

 

Even if no one reads this or comes to talk with me, with his or her EL, about his or her LE, this is always possible. If I've managed to break through my own conditioning with DL, anyone can do it. I am living proof anyone can have EL. I've never really cared that everyone always seems to be stuck with their DL, because I've always known this isn't true at all.

 

As soon as the right circumstances arise - which are created by someone like me, who knows the great difference between DL and EL - suddenly everyone has EL, effortlessly and naturally, even though one has always had DL.  All conflicts, chaos and misery evoked, repeated and maintained by DL disappear like snow in the sun when it is possible to have EL.

 

Verbalizing, making expressive, 

saying, writing, admitting 

and knowing our true nature,

 is something that always 

happens immediately and 

thus never gradually. Even

 though we were totally 

oblivious for a long time 

– having been talked into,

 literally, with compulsive 

DL, that it was of no 

consequence – the possibility

 of discussing our LE with 

EL has always challenged 

and haunted us.

 

Since we – without realizing this and without ever investigating or clarifying this ourselves – day after day, we put up with imposed language, we have continued to suppress our nature. Consequently, accepting and acting on what is true for us, is an insurmountable problem. Although we make many frantic efforts to do so, we never succeed in having EL, until we have stopped our own DL. So everyone always gives up talking with EL, because we've been overtaken by our conditioning history with DL.

 

I'm reminded of an old saying: Though the lie is swift, the truth catches up with it. Of course, the lie has always been something that had to do with our  use of language. It has nothing to do, of course, with whether the lie is narrowly feminine or masculine, for the lie, like the two mutually exclusive ways in which we deal with our language, is universal.

 

The truth only emerges with EL and that so-called finding out of the lie, is the realization that DL is something completely different from EL. It is true that the realization of this difference immediately characterizes the switch from DL to EL. It is and remains an undeniable fact for the time being that people, everywhere around the world, continue to engage in DL unconsciously and are ignorant of the difference between DL and EL. Discovering the lies which are perpetuated by DL, is the most important subject of all mankind, because this and this alone determines whether we will live in peace and truth.

 

Another remarkable saying is: honesty the lasts the longest. Lying is short term, so to speak, to get something done quickly, but trust and sustainability are – so it is believed – more long term. Uprightness, is always postponed to later and the truth, open communication - or EL - is being put on the back burner, because, supposedly, it takes more time to build such sincere, authentic relationship. However, trustworthiness has nothing to do with time, of course, because people have been struggling with DL for centuries. So, with DL, the truth never comes to light and we endlessly avoid the great challenge to find out for ourselves how things really work.

 

 

Altijd,

 

Ik heb het eigenlijk altijd al over Belichaamde Taal (BT) willen hebben, ook toen ik me nog niet bewust was van het verschil tussen Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) en BT. Volgens mij is dit voor iedereen hetzelfde. De impuls, om BT te hebben, komt voort uit onze Taal Verlichting (TV), die – eveneens – al het geval is, ook al konden wij nog geen BT hebben. De sporadische, vluchtige, verbazingwekkende momenten, dat wij, ondanks onze conditionering met OT, toch eventjes, zonder dat we het wisten, BT konden hebben, zijn verwarrend, frustrerend en beangstigend, omdat wij er geen flauw benul van hebben, hoe wij dit in ons leven zouden kunnen passen. Anders gezegd, het gigantische belang van onze natuurlijke omgang met taal, is nog nooit volledig tot ons doorgedrongen.

 

Ook al leest niemand dit, ook al komt niemand naar mij toe, om met mij, met zijn of haar BT, over zijn of haar TV te praten, toch is dit altijd mogelijk. Als het mij is gelukt, om mijn eigen conditionering met OT te doorbreken, dan kan iedereen het. Ik ben het levende bewijs, dat iedereen BT kan hebben. Het heeft mij eigenlijk nooit iets kunnen schelen, dat iedereen altijd vast lijkt te zitten aan hun OT, want ik heb altijd geweten, dat dit helemaal niet waar is.

 

Zodra zich de juiste omstandigheden voordoen – die  evenwel door iemand zoals ik, die het grote verschil tussen OT en BT kent, worden gecreerd – dan heeft iedereen ineens moeiteloos en vanzelf-sprekend BT, ook al heeft men altijd OT. Alle conflicten, chaos en ellende, die door OT worden opgeroepen, herhaald en in stand gehouden, verdwijnen als sneeuw voor de zon, wanneer het mogelijk is om BT te hebben.

 

Het verbalizeren, het expressief maken, het zeggen, het schrijven, het toelaten en het kennen van onze ware natuur, is iets dat altijd direct gebeurd en dus nooit gaande weg. Ook al waren we lange tijd totaal  onbewust – omdat ons, letterlijk, met dwangmatige OT, was aangepraat, dat het van geen enkel belang was – de mogelijkheid, om het alsnog met BT over onze TV te hebben, is ons altijd blijven uitdagen.

 

Aangezien wij – zonder dat in de gaten te hebben en zonder dit ooit voor onszelf te onderzoeken en dus helder te krijgen – dag in dag uit, met de opgelegde wijze, waarop wij met onze taal omgaan, onze ware natuur zijn blijven onderdrukken, is het accepteren en het handelen, vanuit wat voor ons waar is, een enorm, onoverkoombaar probleem. Ook al doen wij daartoe vele verwoede pogingen, wij slagen er nooit in, om BT te hebben, zolang wij nog niet onze eigen OT hebben gestopt. Iedereen geeft dus altijd weer op, om het nog over BT te hebben, omdat we weer zijn overgenomen door onze conditionering met OT.

 

Ik ben ineens herinnerd aan een oud gezegde: Al is de leugen nog zo snel, de waarheid achterhaald haar wel. Uiteraard is de leugen altijd iets geweest, dat met een bepaald taal-gebruik te maken had. Het heeft natuurlijk helemaal niets van doen, met of de leugen nauw vrouwelijk of mannelijk zou zijn, want de leugen is – net als de twee elkaar-uitsluitende wijzes, waarop wij met taal omgaan – universeel.

 

De waarheid komt alleen met BT boven de tafel en dat zogenaamde achterhalen van de leugen, is het besef, dat OT iets heel anders is dan BT. Het is zo, dat de realizatie van dit verschil meteen de omslag kenmerkt van OT naar BT. Het is en blijft vooralsnog  een onmiskenbaar feit, dat men, overal ter wereld, onbewust met OT bezig blijft en onwetend is over het verschil tussen OT en BT. Het achterhalen van de door OT-geponeerde leugens, is het belangrijkste onderwerp van de gehele mensheid, omdat het bepaalt of wij in vrede en waarheid kunnen leven.   

 

Een ander opmerkelijk gezegde is: eerlijkheid duurt het langst. Liegen is zogezegd voor de korte termijn, om snel iets voor elkaar te krijgen, maar vertrouwen en duurzaamheid is – zo geloofd men – meer iets voor de lange termijn. Het gaat altijd om later en de waarheid, open communicatie – of BT – wordt op de lange baan geschoven, want het kost zogenaamd meer tijd, om zo’n relatie op te bouwen. Het heeft echter natuurlijk met tijd helemaal niets te maken, want men sukkeld al eeuwen door met OT. Met OT komt de waarheid dus nooit aan het licht en stellen we eindeloos de uitdaging uit, om er zelf achter te komen, hoe de dingen werkelijk in elkaar steken.         

 

Don’t,

 

As I have said and written all along: this writing is for myself. I don’t do this to express what I think, because I don’t believe, I think – you would have to read another one of my writings, to find out why that is so – but, I say or write stuff like this, to make use of the words that I have, in the way that I want.

 

Surely, I don’t preach to any choir, but I’m talking with myself, I am listening to myself and, since I fully agree with my own words, I always do as I say. And, I don’t say this, to threaten anyone, but I certainly continue with my Embodied Language (EL), which expresses my happiness, freedom and intelligence.

 

You don’t and can’t have a long attention span with your Disembodied Language (DL), as you are always in a hurry, to jump on the bandwagon of the next big lie. You don’t talk with me, as that would mean, you begin to talk with yourself and find out, you don’t delude me, but yourself, with your own DL.  

 

There is nothing extreme about this, as I don’t need your or anyone else’s approval for what I put out. What I say and write is true, not because I believe it, but because I continue with it. Unlike other people, I have EL. I don’t roll over and accept your automatic, blunt DL, which always takes you into extremes.

 

There’s no difference between your DL and the DL of others. You don’t have – as you imagine – special DL. Your DL is just as stupid as anyone else’s DL. As long as your DL continues, you can’t have any EL. I don’t decide this, but I know that it is so, because I have stopped my DL, so that you can read my EL.

 

DL is divisive. My EL continues, because I know the difference between DL and EL. Anyone who knows that difference, continues, like me, with EL and stays away from all hyped-up DL extremes. What I say and write, is my own knowledge about the difference between DL and EL. Such self-knowledge can only be appreciated by someone, who has explored the great difference between DL and EL themselves.

 

Self-knowledge, which can only be acquired by the continuation of your EL, is completely different from so-called scientific knowledge, which is – how could it be otherwise? – always acquired with coercive DL. The latter is overrated, while the former, is unknown to you. Without EL, your identity, which presumably represents your self-knowledge, is totally bogus.

 

Don’t start whining, because I don’t believe in any of your dogma’s, theories, ideologies, religions, policies or motivations, because I know, they are all based on your conditioning with DL. You don’t want to acknowledge, your lack of self-knowledge, is the real reason, why you so tenaciously hang on to what you supposedly know. As long as you don’t have any real self-knowledge, you appropriate knowledge.

 

The pathetic claim, that you only know what you know, derives from your miserable DL. However, in EL, there is no problem with the inherent limitation of all knowledge. It is a fact, that you don’t become an expert in anything, without endless hairsplitting. The ancient pipe-dream of all-knowingness, which is usually represented by some religious fountainhead, is based on the evisceration of all self-knowledge.

 

The reason why anyone would want to do anything to be able to have EL – by avoiding and abandoning DL – is because EL makes us acknowledge, we are enlightened. One will only have ongoing EL, as one must be enlightened, and, therefore, it is Language Enlightenment (LE), which determines, we have EL and permanently turn against DL. It is a great taboo, to say or to write, that we are enlightened, as we don’t accept any authority other than ourselves.

 

With EL, we rely on our self-knowledge and we are no longer enthralled by the authority purported by scientists, scholars, professors, sales-people, priests,  leaders, psychiatrists, psychologist, actors or writers. And, with EL, we don’t accept anything pushed on us by culture, tradition, entertainment, commerce or politics, thus, we stop being consumers, as we are no longer sold on the millions of propagandic lies, spread, maintained and exploited by our DL.

 

When we explore our own EL, our energy changes, because with DL, our life was drained out of us by everything, which demanded our attention. With EL, our attention goes to our experiences, which we keep describing in our own words. We don’t make any decision to do this, as it happens by itself, that in EL, we acquire the ability to stay with ourselves and to know, we are in charge of our own language.  

 

Although EL happens by itself, we make it possible, as we do all the right things to make it happen and we keep doing that, as we verbalize and express the immediate outcomes of this process. Simply stated, EL is based on instant gratification. We are instantly happy, the moment we engage in EL. However, this happiness is also immediately gone, if we engage in DL again. We were raised to have DL, not EL. To have EL, is to go against everything we were once taught.

 

You are conditioned to only have DL. The little bit of EL, you believe to have experienced, was actually more of the same DL, as it made you obedient and kept you ignorant about EL, which always expresses the power of your LE. As long as you are stuck with DL, you don’t realize, EL is possible and necessary.

 

For a long time, I wanted to have EL with others, but this has changed, as I became aware that this wish, always made me engage in DL again. While I would love to have EL with you, I can’t afford to talk with you, as that would squander my EL. This has been a real conundrum for me to figure out, but I’m proud, that these words can now come out of my mouth.

 

I can finally truly say, I no longer try to have EL with anyone, who still has DL. Yes, you are on your own and so am I. Although you still believe, with DL, in being together or in being on the same page, I don’t subscribe to your fantasy language. I’m happy to be alone with my language – although, at times, I may still feel profoundly sad about this – as this allows me to say and write, what I want to say or write.

 

Apparently, saying and writing what I want to say or write, is what my LE wants me to do. I am who I can be, with my own language. Everywhere I go and whatever I do, I feel on track with myself, because of how I use language. People who speak about being conscious, being mindful, being yourself, don’t know what the hell they are saying, as for them, there’s no difference between DL and EL. For them, there is only DL pretending to be EL, but it is only more DL.

 

I don’t believe in any of your spiritual, political, scientific, philosophical, sociological, cultural versions of EL. To me, it is all more of the same DL and I don’t want any part of it. Stated differently, I reject your DL, because I know how to consciously, skillfully and deliberately have EL and I don’t give a damn for merely a few, brief, haphazard, accidental moments of it. I don’t and can’t talk with anyone who has DL and admitting that to myself is a relief. I don’t have to or want to talk with you and this writing is only for me, but, if you happen to read even this very last sentence of this piece, you certainly must have some interest in EL, that you let me do all the talking, so you could feel what it is like to have it.      

 

Supposedly,

 

Supposedly, my writing is only read by two people, but I don’t believe shit of that. I have approached the local newspaper, the Chico News & Review or  CN&R, but received a meager response, that they are not interested in the importance of language. Also, I emailed many people, I have been in touch with in the past, but I haven’t heard from them.  

 

Supposedly, I am very angry, because I happen to believe, that people, who write newspapers, who teach classes at Butte College, California State University Chico (CSUC) or Palo Alto University (PAU), who don’t show any interest in Embodied Language (EL), are a burden on society. I don’t agree with the fact that Disembodied Language (DL) is the common way of dealing with language, but I enjoy exposing these, supposedly, considerate, sensitive, well-meaning people, for the disingenuous mother fuckers they really are. Let’s make no mistake, DL is ruining our lives and only EL is going to help us.

 

Supposedly, I need to write a book, I must make a video, a podcast, give a lecture, a seminar, create my own church or run for office, but I’m not into any of that bullshit. Surely, I should be more conscious,  compassionate, accepting and appreciative, but the fact is, I hate DL, regardless whether it is happening on the left or on the right. However, my hatred isn’t  ordinary hatred, as it derives from EL. Moreover, my EL is the expression of my Language Enlightenment (LE) and I am disgusted with your DL, due to my LE.  

 

Supposedly, I should be inclusive to stupid DL and, I should even agree, that equity or whatever the hell that may mean, will finally be achieved with your moronic, contradictory, draining, coercive DL and, of course, diversity or that people can be who they really are, demands, we must have DL instead of EL? Yet, I am able to continue with my EL, in spite of the fact, that you are too much of a coward, to have EL with me. I am not angry, but certain about my EL.

 

Supposedly, I should be kind to all those sickos, who are determined to screw everyone, with their mean and ugly narrative. I know what your DL is and I tell you: it is devastating. I don’t care if you hear me, if you read me, if you agree with me, if you talk with me, as I know, my EL is better than your DL. Yes, I am better than you and it has nothing to do with my skin-color, my politics, my religion, my gender or my so-called identity. Is it hate-speech, because I don’t believe in your aggressive, forceful, repetitive DL?

 

Supposedly, what I say doesn’t matter, as no one is really listening. However, I am listening. It matters to me, because I hear myself and I always act on what I tell myself. I always do as I say, therefore, I expose the hypocrisy of those, who engage in DL, who say one thing, but who do something different. This incongruence is despicable, criminal and immoral.

 

Supposedly, according to you, who only knows DL, I am just one lonely, powerless voice, screaming in the desert, but this is not how I perceive my voice. I am not screaming. You accuse of me of screaming because I persist, but I am speaking very calmly and patiently. Moreover, I say exactly what I want to say and what I am capable of saying. And, my words are always getting to you, even if you don’t admit it.   

 

Supposedly, you are more important than me,  because I am just trying to convince you and you don’t give a damn. Fact is, however, I couldn’t care less, if you get what I’m talking about or not and because of this, I get through to you. Your ability to reject me is because I am so rejectable. I make you feel good, by giving you the chance to reject me.

 

Supposedly, you don’t owe me anything, but, of course, you owe me an apology for spouting off your idiotic DL towards me and everyone. Indeed, you owe it to everyone, to say you are sorry, you have always prevented EL with your coercive DL. Perhaps, apologizing to everyone is the only way for you, to get to your EL and to apologize to yourself.

 

Supposedly, you don’t know you are forcing your way, but I don’t believe it. You know very well, you always demand to have your way. I say this with absolute certainty, because EL is not like that. Just because you can shut down my EL, doesn’t mean, you know what it is. To the contrary, you are against EL, because you have no clue and you fear what it is.  

 

Supposedly, I am hurting you, by having EL, but this is not what is happening. You are hurting yourself, by not having EL and by unconsciously acting out your history of conditioning with DL. Supposedly, I should do something to make you stop, but my EL tells me, that you need to stop yourself and that I can’t do it for you. Stop blaming me for not helping you, as you need to help yourself. Supposedly, it is not loving, to remind you of your own responsibility, but my EL is has its own mysterious ways, which has nothing to do with your expectations and beliefs.

 

Supposedly, reading this doesn’t mean much to you, but if you read it out loud and listen to the sound of your voice, it means something quite different than reading it out quietly. By expressing your voice to these words, you do something with my EL, which awakens your EL. This synchronizing is done by you and that is why it works. Supposedly, you don’t care about your LE, but your EL tells you otherwise.

 

Supposedly, other things are more important than your EL, but I remind you, you are fooling yourself. EL is more important than politics, religion, science,  psychology, philosophy, culture, art, gender, race, nationality, sports, fashion, entertainment, economy food or literature. Supposedly, it doesn’t matter that your life is confined by the miserable echo-chamber which fits with your conditioning, but your freedom requires you to go against your own conditioning.

 

Supposedly, you don’t like to question yourself, but you have to be sceptic about anything you say. With DL, you remain cynical, distrustful, contemptuous and pessimistic, but with EL, you are full of positive energy and optimistic questions. Your optimism derives from the beneficial outcomes resulting from your doubts, which were said, out loud, by you and listened to. Supposedly, listening to others is more important to you in DL than listening to yourself, but once you get to have EL, you know, you are right, to say that listening to yourself is the most important.      

 Follow,

 

If you follow, where your Embodied Language (EL) can take you, you will feel satisfied and happy, because your EL always reveals your Language Enlightenment (LE). The reason most people stay busy with Disembodied Language (DL) – and never get to express their LE – is because they haven’t given their EL the chance to grow and to blossom.

 

Initially, after we first discover the great difference between DL and EL, we are very excited about EL, but this high wears off, after we are faced with our conditioning history with DL, that keeps overtaking us. For the most part, our DL determines, that we remain preoccupied with others and, thus, we can’t bring our full attention to our language. Instead of  following where our EL leads us, we want to have EL with others, but we only just started to have EL with ourselves. In our longing to be able to continue with our own EL, we lose touch with it, as we keep trying to have EL with others, rather than with ourselves.

 

The only way to continue with our EL, is to follow it and to keep having it with ourselves and this is only going to happen, if we talk out loud with ourselves and listen to ourselves and act on what we say to ourselves. Moreover, speaking with and listening to ourselves, produces new interpretations of events, which we weren’t able to comprehend when we were still involved with DL. These novel perceptions of who we are and how we want to live our life, only begin to stick, if we write about them and read our own writing. You could say, with EL we diagnose our own situation and we prescribe our own treatment.

 

The path we follow, once we are guided by our EL, is only travelled by us and, therefore, nobody can go on – or even be in – our way. Whenever we have EL with others, we are reassured, each person, who expresses his or her EL, is solely responsible for his or her own actions and no one can tell anyone else, where their EL is going to take them. At best, others, with EL, reinforce that we each go our own way and this is our LE, but what this entails, is only known to us, individually, as we explore our language with our speaking, listening, writing and reading. Following or going our own way, is determined by how we use our language and this has nothing to do with what we – in DL – have called our mind, our thoughts or what we, supposedly, covertly, say to ourselves.

 

Since what we say to ourselves can and will be heard – by us – and since what we write about speaking with and listening to ourselves, can and will be read – by us – no is energy lost with the common fantasy, that our language deals with some mysterious inner self, inside of us. Furthermore, because we are in charge of our language, we are not missing out on anything we heard ourselves say or anything we have written to ourselves. To the contrary, everything we have said to ourselves, was listened to and everything we wrote to ourselves, was read, acknowledged, understood, followed and implemented. Nothing of what anyone else has ever said or written, has such an enormous effect on us, as what we have said and written to ourselves.

 

Once we have ongoing EL – rather than only a few miserly moments of it – we are really going to do everything we say to ourselves and everything we have written to ourselves. And, since this is the inevitable consequence of our involvement in EL, we are going to experience the marvelous results of these actions. These outcomes are predicted with our EL, which paves the way for a natural way of life.

 

Besides our language, we are also involved in other behaviors, but all these behaviors are coordinated by our EL. Previously, due to our ignorance about EL, our other behaviors were based on our involvement in DL, but our new understanding with EL, makes us want to change our ways. We can’t postpone it, as that would mean, we follow DL again. Our faith in EL has nothing to do with feeling, but with reasoning, in which we let ourselves know, what will or what will not happen, if we do or don’t do certain things.

 

When we conclude what works for us, we always speak from our past experience. We have endlessly gone through the same behaviors, but have never trusted our own language enough, to let ourselves know about why this is happening. We have never followed through on our own self-instructions, as the verbal prompt, to do so, simply wasn’t strong enough, as it didn’t reach the threshold required for behavioral change. When our behavior doesn’t change for the better, it bothers and keeps nagging us, as there is always a sense, that we are harming ourselves. When, due to EL, our attention can finally go to how we use our language, we stop any kind of self-defeating behavior and we will do what is right.  

 

With EL, we stop following our dreams, because we become realistic. This whole business of making the impossible possible, is a DL-concept, because in EL we do only what is possible. However, we are not used to following and acting on what is possible, as with DL we keep trying to do the impossible. Doing what is right, is doing what is possible, as that is the natural way. With DL, we keep telling ourselves, that what is actually possible, is impossible, but once we have EL, we realize that it is possible and needed.