End,

 

On the last day of this year, I would like to express,   – with tongue in my cheek – my eternal gratitude to all the superstitious, coward, stupid people, who have refused to talk with me, not only in the year which is about to come to its end, but in the many years that went by, since I became aware of and started talking about my Embodied Language (EL).

 

It is my unrelenting expectation, that you, upon reading this, contact me via skype (my name is: limbicease), to schedule an appointment, free of charge, in 2023, to explore, experience and know   the great difference between your Disembodied Language (DL), that is, your usual way of talking and EL. Yes, I expect you to swallow your phony pride, as I don’t want to search for you while you hide and I am not going to convince you, that there is nothing inside or that my EL is about being wrong or right.

 

I am thankful to anyone with DL, who still believes EL is impossible, unrealistic or unwanted, as this has made me find the way to continue with my own EL. Without leaving the DL of others, we cannot leave our own DL and begin to recognize, our own EL is always possible, as no one else is needed. We can  and should have EL alone and ascertain, why others cannot have and do not want to have EL with us.

 

When – at long last, out of pure frustration with the DL others, but mainly with our own DL – we begin to talk with and listen to ourselves, we find, there is no self, that is, there is no such an assumed entity as a speaker, inside of us, who, presumably, speaks with a listener, inside of us. There is no covert inner agent, deep inside of us, who can hold, cherish or repress a thought, as there is only overt language, which is spoken, heard, written or read – by us.

 

With our EL, we finally acknowledge our Language Enlightenment (LE) and become crystal clear on the irrefutable fact that everyone, who still engages in DL, believes in pure nonsense. The fact that millions of people, in every culture, talk in this way doesn’t make it true. To the contrary, that you behave like everyone else and, therefore, mainly engage in DL, makes you complicit, in creating and increasing the greatest problems mankind faces. When you talk with me and have EL, it will not be because I, but because you have stopped your DL. I am not in any way going to help you to stop your own DL, as I will only talk with you, after you have stopped your DL.

 

I just heard the news on TV, that the pope has died and the cardinals in the Vatican are now debating, if he should be put on the fast track to saint-hood. I guess, they can make that happen, but neither the pope nor any other so-called spiritual leader has ever properly addressed or engaged in EL. Surely, all  our elevated, celebrated authorities (i.e. teachers, priests, gurus, therapists or anyone, who has the power to demand, that people behave as they tell them to) have forever been pretending to have EL, while they have always only engaged in DL. This is  why DL has remained unaddressed and continues to fester, everywhere, twenty-four-seven, unabated.

 

I just came back from having breakfast with my wife downtown. As we were finishing up, someone I had once spoken with, recognized me and walked to our table. It had been a friendly and brief conversation, about our participation in the Open Mike evening, where we had enjoyed each other’s song. He had also shared that he was writing a lot and we agreed to read each other’s work and exchanged our email addresses. Per email, I expressed my appreciation for his writing and he also stated that he enjoyed reading my work. So, I suggested, we could meet, have a  coffee and talk about our writings. As if I had crossed a line, he declined in a stern manner and stated, he would never talk to anyone, who tries to convince him of their point of view.

 

Obviously, he had drawn that conclusion from reading my writing. However, I immediately felt that I really didn’t want to convince him, that I didn’t want to convince him and never responded to him again or heard from him again. I had seen him only once after that, in that very same place, but I ignored him, as I didn’t feel like talking to him anymore. Surprisingly, he greeted me, wished us a happy new year and expressed puzzlement, that I would still be willing to talk with him. I responded, I would always talk with anyone, who is willing to talk with me, to which he, argumentatively replied: but, how can we talk, if you stick to your way and I stick to my way? I acknowledged, he was right and that I  felt no urge to engage in DL with him. As if stung by a bee, his friendly demeanor immediately changed.

 

In a complaining, admonishing, accusatory, but also defeated, sad tone of voice, he stated: I guess, this is how this crazy old world of ours keeps twisting and turning. I shrugged my shoulders and said, I was feeling very happy to be able to tell him, that for me nothing is twisting or turning, as I create and live in my own reality. It felt good to see him back off, as he was, undoubtedly, trying to get me to react to him, so that he could reject me. However, I have become so settled in my own way of life, that I no longer get triggered by people like him, who are paranoia, defensive and arrogant. As I have stated in other writings, I feel vindicated, I no longer want something from someone and then, react to them

 

Unbelievable,

 

The sad reality of Disembodied Language (DL) – our common way of interacting – is that only a handful of speakers do all the talking, while the vast majority is reduced to being merely listeners. The inevitable consequence of our usual way of talking is that only those very few people get to speak, who know how to keep dominating the conversation.

 

A lot of talk is going on these days about equality, justice, inclusion, and diversity, but nobody is ever considering the undeniable reality, that something is fundamentally wrong with our accepted, normal, everyday way of speaking. Moreover, only someone who speaks with or writes to him or herself - and is able to engage in Embodied Language (EL) - can step out of the insidious struggle for attention, which is the very basis of virtually every human interaction.

 

The implications of our unconscious, involuntary, involvement in DL and our unaddressed inability of deliberately establishing, enjoying, maintaining, exploring and understanding our EL, are far-reaching. Only someone like me, who is able to continue with EL, in spite of the fact that everyone stupidly engages in DL, describes and knows what these implications are.

 

What you read in this writing, is a report, written by someone, who talks about, knows about and writes about, the great difference between DL and EL, who finds it unbelievable, unintelligent, and absolutely unacceptable, that nobody is even willing to talk about or acknowledge this quintessential issue. Yes, consider this for a moment. Neither psychologists, psychiatrists, therapists, teachers, doctors, scientist or philosophers are interested in exploring EL, by having a conversation. 

 

Now that I have become capable of continuing with my own EL, I no longer try to accept anyone’s DL. For a long time, I tried to do that, but it always backfired, as it got me involved again in DL and I never wanted to participate in DL, in the first place. Now that I have, not only understood, but also accepted, that my EL always expresses my Language Enlightenment (LE), I realize, there is so much I want to write about, since I can’t speak about it with you. This is not because I can’t speak about it, but because you don’t want or dare to.

 

My understanding of EL was, until quite recently, still without the full acceptance and the full expression of my LE. Although I had, many years ago, already discovered the possibility of ongoing EL, my interest in, my fascination with, my exploration of and my unrelenting passion for, the intricate workings of this unique process, took priority over my LE. In effect, without LE, my EL had remained sort of incomplete.

 

You will discover something new, each time you catch  and stop yourself from having DL and are then able to engage again in EL. Surely, EL is unbelievable and the only thing that will convince you, is by engaging in it yourself. However, the magnificent newness of your EL is the manifestation of your LE, of who you really are. Naturally, you cannot permanently have EL, as there will be always still be some moments in which you react and end up engaging in DL again. I sometimes react to the fact that nobody wants to have EL with me.

 

Today, I have started to consider my occasional tendency to still engage in DL, as part of my nature, that is, as part of my LE. Of course, I sometimes have DL, because I want to have EL with you and I simply can’t help being human. Moreover, I don’t believe in anyone, who pretends to always have EL. This idiotic, saintly lie has been promoted by creeps, who, supposedly, have the moral high-ground. These manipulative so-called wise,  spiritual, enlightened, self-realized ones perpetuated this patent nonsense and could never properly address EL.

 

I feel so grateful, I have, against all odds, always been able to continue with my EL, even though, like everyone else, I have a conditioning history with DL. You mainly mechanically act out your conditioning  history with DL, but you can still have some accidental, brief moments of EL. As a matter of fact, your natural behavior always presents itself as a problem to you, since your way of talking is not in sync with it. I have more EL than anyone else, because I can have it and I keep talking with, listening to and writing to myself.

 

Like millions of people unconsciously do, I always felt that DL never benefitted me or worked for me. There have been many moments in my life, where I said, fuck it, I just want to say what I want to say, as I felt hurt that people never listened to me, but yet accuse me of not listening to them. I felt burdened by what appeared to be the story of my life, but after considering the fact that nobody is actually listening to him or herself, I figured, my story is everyone’s story. People told me they really feel, I listen to them very differently than other people do, as I listen to myself, while other people don’t.  

 

Whenever I push back on anyone’s DL, even in the most gentle, careful, courteous manner, whenever I interrupt or de-escalate someone’s verbal tirades, they are mean and rejecting to me. Everyone who has had EL with me in the past – there must have been thousands – is still angry with me for pointing out their DL, as I would let them know, when they didn’t listen to themselves while they speak. It has never happened, that anyone of these cowardly people returned to me, to let me know: you were right, I wasn’t listening to myself, as I believed what I said, was more important than how I said it.

 

There was, however, one unique person, who, after many years of not having talked with me, realized, she had always, like me, in spite of all the DL everywhere, continued with what we had been talking about, back then. Together, we have explored and verified our EL and become established in our EL. It is unbelievable, but it is true,  we both have transcended our traumatic back-ground. This illustrates the great healing powers of EL for anyone who has mental health problems. This one person, affirmed for me: I was and I still am right and because of her feedback, I gave up teaching. We have such great fun, talking with each other about our LE, as we keep coming to the exact same conclusions.

 

It is a matter of protecting myself, that I have stopped teaching others about EL or trying to have EL with others, who, apparently, still want to continue with DL. My Dutch friend and I know, we are talking about a big taboo: we don’t accuse you of not listening to yourself, but we observe a simple fact about your DL, which you  could also hear, if you would listen to yourself while they speak. This writing is because I can’t speak with you. You don’t want to acknowledge that I am right and what I say is important. While quantitatively, my DL is much less than everyone else, it is much worse, than anyone else, qualitatively, as I never fail to hit the nail as hard as I can, in spite of the price I have to pay for this.                 

 

Understand,

 

Here I am, writing to you, but not speaking with you, about my Language Enlightenment (LE). It is no problem for me, that I can’t have any Embodied Language (EL) with you, as I continue to have it by myself, because I understand my situation. You can read about my EL, while you go on every day with your Disembodied Language (DL), since you don’t dare to speak with me about it. Of course, speaking with me would mean, that you would discover your EL and your LE. I don’t need to hear about your DL, but you do. After you have EL with me, you would begin to express, explore and understand your own DL with your own EL. So, your cowardice, ignorance, deceitfulness or insincerity, is your problem, not mine. Moreover, your talk about creating a better world is a superficial, cheap, tragic lie, because it is never about your LE, but about your unworthiness.

 

You read this and yet, you still don’t want to talk with me, because you are simply unwilling to face the miserable facts of your life. While it seems, as if you don’t want to talk with me, the reality is: you don’t want to talk about your own life with yourself. One of the many epiphanies everyone has, when they, for the first time, in EL, hear themselves, is that they enjoy listening to themselves and, thus, begin to acknowledge and understand, that in DL, they didn’t want to hear themselves, as they spoke with a sound, they never liked to hear. Nobody likes to listen to each other in DL, which remained our common way of talking, as everyone, unknowingly, speaks with an attention-demanding voice.

 

The fact that you don’t hear yourself, when you have DL with others, is that your only concern is, that you want others to listen to you. Presumably, you don’t need to listen to yourself, but others need to listen to you, so that you can dominate and force them to do as you say. In essence, your coercive, punitive, unintelligent DL is an ineffective of talking, as it can never result in a lasting sense of safety. To the contrary, you only create a phony, short-lived, disconnected sense of control, as you are always on guard, because you are struggling, to keep getting the attention of others, who supposedly listen to you, as long as they do as you say. As you too must already know – although in DL, people may know their place, speak only when spoken to and are only willing to listen to, praise and adore, the celebrity, famous, supposedly, well-respected, speakers, who have made it a profession to attract the listener’s attention – listening continues to be a big problem, which causes divorce and behavioral problems in children and adults, because you don’t understand that listening to others, involves listen to yourself.

 

Whether you like it or not, now you read about your DL, which has remained your biggest problem. With DL, you anxiously continue to have no clue about who you really are and that is why you do what you do, in the hope it will work, but it never does. I can say all of this, because I know it is very offensive to you, after all, who am I, to speak to you in this way? Well, first of all, I only write this to you, as you don’t let me talk with you. Secondly, make no mistake, no matter how much people write, they are never saying anything. Nowadays, everyone, who has a message, who, supposedly, has something to say, writes a book. I don’t write any book, as I don’t care enough whether you read these words or not. Yes, I write them for myself, to let myself know, that I can understand what apparently nobody understands.

 

I am going to sleep now and have enjoyed writing about this. I don’t have any hope that you will ever change your so-called mind, because I don’t even believe that you have a mind. You are merely stuck with your pretentious language. As you can read, I use my language very differently. This writing is not about me, speaking my mind, but about my ability to understand, that there is another way of talking than your usual way of talking. I have come into my LE, that is why I can come to you, in this writing.        

 

Raining,  

 

I keep experiencing again and again, moments of great victory. I am capable of not reacting, under circumstances, in which, in the past, I used to react. I do not know, when was the last time I reacted and I am surprised to notice, it was a long time ago, yet I clearly remember the negative feelings, I used to have. I am also still puzzled, that this could happen to me. Although, it was quite a while ago I have reacted, it seems, as if I have only just started, to not react, yesterday or minutes ago. The clarity of my language amazes me. It is such a contrast with the confusion, conflict, and chaos, I used to have whenever I reacted. I like to describe this space.

 

At the time of this writing, not reacting seems to be about having an evaporating memory of what used to happen, when I got upset. I used to get upset a lot, but, these days, that does not happen anymore. Moreover, I notice that something else happens, as it can happen. It seems as if I have won the grand price and I feel so happy, proud, and vindicated. I recognize myself and burst out in laughter about all the shit I have been going through, because I was carrying it with me for so long. I feel unburdened and certain that I will continue this way. I am free.

 

It is raining and that pleases me tremendously. It reminds me of Holland, my country of origin, where I used to ride my bicycle, every day, rain or shine. I was wearing a rain-suit, but it was always cold, wet and windy, yet, I got where I needed and wanted to be. In The Hague, my hometown, riding my bicycle, was my only means of transportation. Not reacting, to me, is as big as being in Holland, but not riding my bicycle anymore. In Chico, California, I no longer ride my bicycle, because I find it too dangerous and stressful. I still have an old one, but seldom ride it and do not really miss it. I ride my car and I get my exercise in the gym. However, I enjoy writing about the memory of riding my bicycle in Holland, before I emigrated to the United Stated in 1999 and can still picture myself riding around in the town where I was born.

 

One day, many years ago, something very unusual happened. It was a beautiful spring day and I was riding my bicycle along the canal, on my way down town, to some place, to have a coffee. However, I was feeling restless, bored, and aimless. I was only doing what I was doing, to have something to do. Actually, I didn’t even want to go to that place, as I had already been there so many times before. I knew the people, who were usually there and I felt frustrated, I couldn’t have a good conversation with any of them. Why was I even going there again? Why go through the same thing again and again?

 

I stopped pedaling my bicycle, as my body refused to do it and let my bicycle come a halt. And then, I was just standing there, with my bicycle in my hand, next to the water. I briefly considered throwing my bicycle in the water, but I began to walk back home, with my bicycle in my hand. What was I going to do? This was definitely an existential crisis. Was I going insane? For me, to just stop riding my bicycle, was something unbelievable. Yet, I had really done it and I had to wait in front of the open draw-bridge, near my house, until some large boats had slowly passed by. It seemed to take forever and the line of cars of people waiting became longer and longer.

 

I can still see myself standing there, with my bicycle in my hand, feeling somewhat relieved by the fact that there was nothing else for me to do then wait. Finally, the ships had passed and slowly the bridge came down. It felt as if it was a dream. As soon as the light turned green, all the traffic started moving fast past me, while I walked with uncertain steps to my house. When I arrived, I went up in the empty attic. I sat on the carpet and looked around in this recently vacated space, which was soon going to be rented out. The old, kind people, from who we rented the second floor, used to sleep here, but they had moved all their stuff to the ground floor, as they were no longer able to walk up the stairs.

 

My wife Bonnie was at work. She just graduated with her MBA and had an important job for the Rotterdam School of Management, while I was jobless and still trying to figure out, what I was going to do and who I really was. I remember this deep pit-feeling of dissatisfaction, not depression, but frustration, resentment and disappointment. There I sat in that attic, muttering to myself that the roof wouldn’t cave in. Low and behold, it didn’t. My eye caught sight of a small box, in the corner, which had been overlooked and was left behind. I crawled into that corner under the roof and pulled the box closer. I opened it, to see what was in it. Only old books. I took them out, one by one and put them aside. They didn’t interest me. Underneath these books, I found a gong. I took it in my hand, with the string that was attached to it and looked again in the box, to see if there was also a stick with a ball, to hit the gong? And, yes, there it was. I had the stick in one hand and the gong in the other hand.

 

I wanted to hear what the gong sounded like and softly struck it, just once. I enjoyed the sound and then I said calmly to myself: that sounds good. In that unforgettable moment, I heard my own voice, which sounded like that gong. I knew instantly: this is how I want to sound, while I talk and this is how I would like others to sound, when they talk with me. I began exploring what it is like, to talk with myself about everything that was going on, but with that sound. My heaviness and turmoil subsided, as I was effortlessly able to speak in a different tone, with a sound I liked, as it was really me. I was so excited, as I had discovered the language that creates space.

 

I spoke with myself only for a few minutes and was showered with many blessings and insights. It felt so right to say to myself what I had always wanted to say, but had never said before. The experience was so restful, relieving and energizing. I stretched out on my back and closed my eyes. The renewal was so moving. Our cat Lola, suddenly came in through the open roof window. She did something she had never done before: she situated herself on my chest and started purring. I was healing from my hurt and trauma and quiet tears ran down my neck. I felt so fortunate and certain that I had discovered a phenomenal treasure: I had heard and found my own voice. For the first time, I had stopped my own Disembodied Language (DL) and with my Embodied Language (EL), I had recognized and verbalized my Language Enlightenment (LE), which is my nature.                

 

Accountable,

 

I am not going to write, that everything is going to be all right, if you just do as I say. This is not how Embodied Language (EL) works. Besides, it is your life, which is in trouble, not mine. My life is fine and I am sure, it will continue to be, while you, most likely, will go on to live your vacuous, phony, pretentious life. I say this, because my life is rich, meaningful, and enjoyable.

 

I can hear and see that you do not have what I have. You do not want to know what I say or write, as my EL disrespects your illusions and falsehoods. I admit, I do not find anything respectable about your Disembodied Language (DL). You may believe, it is because of you, that you do not talk with me, but I abhor your way of talking so much, that I make sure, you stay away from me. I do not care about your DL, as I do not want it. Go and have your DL with those you can impress.

 

I am not your leader and certainly not your cheer-leader. I have no affiliation with anyone or anything, except with EL. I should say, except with my own EL, as you, if you ever get to it, will not affiliate with my EL, but with your own EL. Yes, EL requires total withdraw from the senseless conflict, which is inherent in your normal, accepted, every-day conversation. The fact that you cannot even admit the truth, that your interaction is an endless, exhausting struggle for attention, shows how powerless, ignorant, and superficial you are.  

 

I am in charge of my own life and I could only live as I do, because my language is the most important to me. However, you are careless about your language, as you believe there is nothing wrong with you. I continue to tell you, your DL is a waste of time and energy, as you cannot be happy without EL. I only write about my EL here, because I probably will never get to talk with you. Therefore, this writing is for me and not for you, as I can still state these truths for my own benefit. Everyone else is getting attention with more of the same DL and I am simply not part of it. I cannot get your attention with my EL, so I write in mock-DL to let you know, I know what DL is. Moreover, I hold you accountable for your stupid DL. The fact, that we do not engage in EL, is because nobody is even capable of holding anyone responsible for the consequences of their ugly DL.  

 

It is amazing, but also harsh, to tell the truth about EL, but this is my truth for you. I have studied psychology for many years, I have worked in mental health for many years and I have taught psychology at Butte College for many years. Even before that, I have given hundreds of seminars, presentations, workshops, and individual sessions, to let people know what I know about EL. There are thousands of people, who have heard, read, or experienced EL, who have felt what it is like, who have said that it is great, that it will change the world, that I should write a book, who have listened to themselves while they speak, who have become aware about the great importance of open communication, the missing frequency or the language that creates space, but, except only one or two, they have all left EL again. 

 

EL is rare, as there is nobody to remind us that it is possible. We go on with our religion, politics, science, or education, but we forget about EL and we engage in DL, by default. It is not my fault or my failure, that basically everyone who heard about EL from me, did not continue with it. To the contrary, I was successful, as I gave everyone an unforgettable taste, but they wasted it, as they did not have the courage to go on with EL on their own. Everyone with DL is coward. One can only go on with EL, if one can accept, that one is alone with oneself and talk and write about what that is like.

 

It is exquisite to hear or read about our own Language Enlightenment (LE). Presumably, we are all unique, but, apparently, we are not special enough to ourselves, that we can allow our LE to be expressed. In DL, we  make a big deal about ourselves, as we feel inferior and so, we claim to be superior. In EL, however, we are natural and simple and our own words are the proof in the pudding. People say, actions speak louder than words, but that is reasoned from DL. In EL, our words show, we can say what we want to say, in our own way.           

 Lost,

What do you have to lose? It is of course who you have always believed to be.

In Embodied Language (EL), you speak in a way that never repeats itself.

You will also write that you cannot be or remain yourself.

It really is that nothing remains of how you were, because you are new to your language.

Your language goes its own way and that is your freedom.

Constantly dropping what you have said or written is a huge relief.

EL is all yours, but you can only move forward with it, if you surrender to what you really want to say.

EL is the language that creates space, because it expresses your true nature.

There is no other way to express your Language Enlightenment (LE) than with the words you already have. 

You can only continue with your EL, if you speak and write about your LE.

 

Blossom,

 

I want everyone who reads this, to take my words dead-serious. I have not written any book and I will never write any book. What you happen to read here, you cannot read anywhere else. If you read this, you have found me. If you really consider what I am writing about, you have to acknowledge, that it is no coincidence, that you have stumbled on my words.

 

My objective with this writing, is to invite you, to have Embodied Language (EL) with me. I only care about those who are brave enough to do so. If you read on, but doubt, if you will talk with me, you might as well stop reading, as your fearful doubt always predicts, you will continue your usual, superficial Disembodied Language (DL). I am more important than any famous author or scholar, as I have the key, that can unlock your potential, which, due to your DL, was unable to blossom.

 

My insistence on my importance, is not in any way exaggerated, as what I write in this blog and would talk with you about, if you had the guts to contact me, is absolutely true. I know, that my words may make you feel offended, because I am certain about what I say. You just cannot stand someone, who not only lets you know what you do not know, but who is also incredibly upfront about it. Your resistance to what I convey, is part of your DL, which gives you nothing but trouble, although you believe it to be who you are. You are not what you believe to be, due to your usual, phony, and nasty way of talking.

 

Regardless of what you supposedly have achieved in your life, you did not blossom. Your forceful DL does not impress me, as I have heard it, read it, and felt it, all before. The only thing which satisfies me is to engage in EL. I will continue to blossom, in my EL, even if you are too much of a coward, to talk and have EL with me. Your DL, like everybody’s DL, is absolutely disgusting, unintelligent, and false. I have no good words for it and I admit, I engage in DL myself, when I mention this to you or to anyone else. However, I do so deliberately, but you always do it unconsciously, reflexively, habitually. Moreover, I can easily do so, as I do not have to pretend, that I have EL, like you do.  

 

Certainly, it is a great tragedy, every human being is in the same predicament, as we all, unknowingly, engage mainly in DL. When we would finally get our priorities right, we would pay close attention to rare individuals like myself, who know how to maintain ongoing EL, because they are able to recognize the difference between DL and EL. These unique human beings let you know, there is nothing unique about your mechanical DL. Your uniqueness is obliterated by your usual way of dealing with language, which is conditioned by how others have talked with you. EL really makes you blossom, as it is about how you talk with yourself and how you are then able to talk with others, after you have talked with yourself.

 

In essence, in EL, there is no other. The so-called other is your belief, your perception, your memory, and your experience of who they are. Thus, in EL you always talk with yourself. You blossom, as you inevitably become aware about your nature, which is your Language Enlightenment (LE). What is the value of your so-called freedom of speech, if you do not even acknowledge the difference between your own DL and EL? Even in the name of freedom, you kept having more of the same, old, destructive DL.

 

The promise of EL is that you will blossom, that you will comfortably and confidently come into your own and that it will be clear and self-evident, who you are and have always been. LE is the ultimate unfolding of your psychological development and new, profound, joyful experiences keep occurring. I condemn your DL, but I do not put you down, as the time has come for you to blossom. I like to repeat that word, as your flowering has not yet happened and can never happen, if you keep busy with DL. To stop your DL, is a necessary preparation for your EL.  

 

As long as you still engage in DL, you are complicit in everything that is wrong. I do not care about your religion, your politics, your gender, your status, your culture, your ethnicity, your fame, your education, or your career, as none of these have ever resulted in EL, the way of talking in which we agree, that DL is tragic, stupid, disgusting, and horrific. You may not know that you engage in DL, every day, but I do. If you read these words out loud and listen to the sound of your own voice, I hope you will investigate, why do I say what I say, why do I write what I write?

 

I am not, like everyone else, giving you my opinion, but I share what you cannot hear or read anywhere else, as no one knows this. That I came to know the immense difference between our DL and EL is easily ignored. This used to matter a great deal to me, but it does not matter anymore, whether you explore what I say or not, because you will always be faced with the consequences of your refusal to consider what I say or of any other action or inaction. Even right now, whether you know it or not, accept it or not, or are aware of it or not, you experience these consequences. It could not be otherwise. Since you do not want to have any EL with me, I conclude, you must be having DL and wanting to continue with it.

 

It is as clear as day, you are part of the problem, as long as you justify your usual coercive way of talking as necessary, rational, smart, or sensible. What you and everyone else accept as our normal way of talking is a disaster, as we approve of, participate in and claim to be proud of violence. Yes, you read this correctly, also your DL is aggressive, ruthless, and arrogant. I am not going to do what you expect anyone to do, who talks with you. I am not praising you, accepting you, kissing your ass or allowing you to dominate me. As long as you have DL, you want to dominate me or others. I do not like it, I do not want it and let you know, with these words, you are not creating anything good in your life. Moreover, you support, enable, and believe in the falsehoods you keep spouting. You live in your illusion, but I can hear, see, and feel, you are angry, unfulfilled, demanding and stressed out. There is nothing about you, that makes me want to be with you, since your DL has made you insensitive for who you are and unconscious about the other way of talking, which I represent. Your EL is about nothing you expected.

 

Once you engage in EL, you will be saying these words, not because I made you say these words, but because you too can experience that EL has nothing to do with what you are used to. Let’s face it, you have only heard and read DL and it is to be expected that you interpret everything from your lengthy history of conditioning with DL. However, if you manage, even only a few moments, to engage in EL, you will joyfully, whole-heartedly and with a great sense of relief admit, that you speak in a new way. Yes, you will be rejuvenated and renewed by EL and the fact, that you are depressed, anxious, stressed, frustrated, scattered, and drained is the inevitable consequence of your almost permanent involvement in DL. I write ‘almost’, because there are still a few, brief, fleeing moments, in which even a person, as unhappy, confused, and conflicted as you, still can have a small glimpse of EL. After all, in EL you inadvertently express your natural wellbeing.

 

It was a long text, so you could dig deeper and get into what I am talking about. By reading this text out loud, you hear EL in the sound of your voice. If you would write about your response, you would like it so much, that you can continue writing (like I do), as your words keep coming and revealing the truth of your life. In EL, you talk with yourself. Your language is not happening to you, as if you cannot seem to be able to control the noise and chaos of your restless, troubled, so-called mind. In EL, there is no mind, as you know, there is only how you deal with your language. Due to your DL, you had never even considered how you dealt with your language.

 

Nothing great is created suddenly, any more than a bunch of grapes or a fig. If you tell me that you desire a fig. I answer you that there must be time. Let it first blossom, then bear fruit, then ripen.

     Epictetus