Fantasy,

 

When you are going to have ongoing Embodied Language (EL) – instead of only a few, brief, haphazard moments of it – you are going to come out of and recover from all the fantasies, which you have believed in, while you were still  engaging in your Disembodied Language (DL).

 

EL is not some fantasy, but is about your reality. The reality of your EL shows, you have been describing and explaining your own behavior with DL incorrectly. With EL, you describe your experiences properly and satisfyingly, but with DL, you don’t even realize, your mechanical way of using language works against you. Since you remain unaware about how you effect yourself with your own DL, you, inadvertently, resort to fantasy, which has many emotional, intellectual,  spiritual, political, educational and professional components. Since you listen to yourself while you speak, your voice is in EL embodied. This is why your EL always only has positive outcomes.

 

Another way of saying – pun intended…I explain this later – is that with EL, you can be, who you are, as you experience yourself, because your language finally matches with your experience. In DL, this congruent connection isn’t missing, because you, as a speaker, are not listening to yourself. Moreover, with your DL, you are – whether you know it or not, whether you are aware of it or not, whether you admit it or not – always trying to be yourself and to have EL. By the way, this is why, no matter how stupid we behave, we always believe to be right. Surely, trying to have EL or trying to be yourself, is not the same as having EL and really being yourself.

 

EL doesn’t happen because we are trying, but because we let it happen. As long as you keep on demanding, repeating, intimidating, forcing, pushing, manipulating, avoiding, dominating, distracting or defending, with your language, you engage in DL, and you cannot be yourself. EL unfolds naturally and effortlessly and any sense of doer-ship is gone. However, the moment we, out of habit, engage in DL again, this sense of agency, re-appears or, at least, so it seems.

 

What happens is, our so-called return to DL, occurs, when we don’t speak. When we speak again, we verbalize, what appears to have been going on inside of us. Yet, with EL, we know that there is never any language inside of us, and, therefore, our sense, that we were having DL, while being silent, while not saying anything, is imaginary. We only realize this retrospectively, when we engage again in EL. Whenever people say: I think this or that…they don’t realize, they are only saying it. What we call thinking, is the wrong way in which we speak about language. That was the pun, I was before referring to.

 

If we don’t speak, write, listen or read, there is never any DL, that is, there cannot be any DL, inside of us. Of course, the same is true for EL, but with EL, we don’t have any problem with it, even though, we also imagine it – as positive private speech or covert self-talk – to happen inside us. You could say that imaginary inner EL is experienced as a pleasant daydream, but imaginary inner DL is felt as nightmare by day. Our belief in inner DL is uncomfortable, as it assumes, it effects our so-called mind, our thoughts, our experiences, our feelings or our being. While we are not speaking, listening, writing or reading, we imagine, that these inner concepts are accompanied by inner language, but in reality, they are merely our physiological sensations, which are without any language.

 

After we’ve had some EL, it is very clear to us, that we become quiet. What does it mean, to be quiet? It means, we can feel what we feel, without any language. It can be compared to waking up in the morning after a restful sleep. Initially, we are still a bit sleepy, thus, without any language, but as the day gets started, our preferred fantasy, our so-called mind, kicks into gear, while, unknowingly, we pretend to think. If we would take some time, to talk out loud with ourselves, about what we supposedly think, we would immediately notice – that is, if we listen to ourselves while we speak – that the fantasy of our thinking dissolves, as we are able of step out of all our stress, fear, tension, distraction, frustration, anger, jealousy, etc., etc, etc, etc.

 

It is only when we let ourselves know – as often as we want to, most likely, over and over again – language is always an overt phenomenon, that we can fully attend to our body, without imagining, we are engaging in language. Stated differently, our direct experience of who we are, is not a verbal phenomenon, but it only becomes a verbal phenomenon, when we either engage in DL or in EL. In DL, our verbal expression of who we appear to be is false and, consequently, giving us nothing but problems, but in EL, all our verbal descriptions of who we appear to be dissolve, because there is no inner language and, we can say or write everything we are capable of saying or writing and we feel satisfied and peaceful because of our this. Also, this – being without any language – is felt by us, each time before we begin to have EL, which indicates, that being without our mind or our so-called thinking, is our natural state, before, as well as after we have engaged in language.

 

Our EL illustrates, we are using our language consciously, that is, correctly, and, when we are done, there is no involvement whatsoever in any language anymore, as we are no longer fantasizing or obsessing about our involvement with words. This fantasy of our inner language, which we have called our thoughts, of course, also occurs during our sleep, in the form of disturbing dreams. During our dreams, our fantasy-language goes wild and is even stronger than during our waking state. Certainly, our dreams have as little meaning as our thoughts, because our inner language has never existed.

 

Naturally, our fantasy about inner language can only be dismantled during our waking state, by engaging in EL. What has been called thinking, should be replaced by talking. What has been called understanding, should be replaced by listening. Furthermore, our writing and reading should always be about speaking and listening. However, such writing – this writing – only can emerge from our participation in EL, and such reading only makes sense to those, who have engaged in EL. Currently, all writing and reading is grounded in DL, and in the continuation of the unintelligent fantasy that is called our mind.

 

Anyone with EL, will acknowledge, our common way of talking – DL – is fairytale fantasy. As we haven’t even acknowledged the importance of great difference between DL and EL, we engage, unknowingly, in DL, every day. Since DL creates nothing but conflicts and problems, we believe in the escapist-fantasy of our thinking, while we keep preventing ourselves from having EL. With DL, our life is a meaningless drag, as it is based on pure fantasy. Our DL-fantasy is always about happiness in the future, which never comes. EL is not about fantasy, as it reveals who we really are. You are a real person, but your DL doesn’t reflect that. Ongoing EL makes us a fully verbal, conscious human being, who realizes his or her Language Enlightenment (LE). Unlike any other enlightenment, LE is not some mystical fantasy. 

Go to You Tube maximuspeperkamp-hw8sw, to hear me read this writing with some comments. My other You Tube Maximus Peperkamp, will take a while (begin April) before I can post again, because I have exceeded my 50BG plan for this month...