Chance,  

 

Would you give me a chance, to say something funny? Yes, it is up to you. Can you handle it, that things aren’t as bad, as you believe them to be? I can make you laugh. To me, it is no problem, but for you, real laughter never gets a chance. Yes, I like my own words. Certain words, I love so much, that I use them very often. I really don’t mind using them all the time, as it always makes me laugh. You can only have authentic laughter with your own language.

 

Will you laugh at your own words? No man was ever wise by chance. Look, you can keep blaming me, someone else, and, ultimately, yourself, for not being funny, but learning from your lack of laughter, that is, learning from your problems and confusion,  requires exploration, about why you prefer misery to be your life? Do you dare to laugh, about your answers, which weren’t true? When have you failed enough, so that, finally, you give laughter a chance?

 

These are all important questions, because certain requirements must be fulfilled before laughter can happen. For instance, you can’t miss the punchline. If you miss the punchline, you’re missing the whole joke and it isn’t any fun, if someone else explains it to you, why it was funny. Besides, you’re disturbing someone’s laughter, if you bother them and ask them: what did he say? That takes all the fun away.

 

You’ve had your chance to laugh, but you’ve missed it, over and over again. Apparently, you are just too lazy, to learn, to avoid, the dreadful circumstances, in which there cannot be any laughter. Obviously, you need to get out of these ghastly situations, but you don’t want to move. Is someone funny, when he or she lifts, carries and moves your heavy, awful,  horrible language, while you keep hanging on to it?

 

If you want to experience laughter, there are rules to be followed. If you don’t want to follow the rules, fine, but you’ll find your bed as you made it. Most likely, you’ve already decided I’m not funny, but you haven’t even given me the chance to explain myself. I know something about laughter, you don’t know. I  engage in Embodied Language (EL), that is why I can laugh all the way to the bank. And, I don’t wait for those, who are stuck in Disembodied Language (DL).  

 

You increase the probability of your laughter, if you seize your chance to speak your piece. However, it makes absolutely no sense, to continue with your DL. To laugh, you must stop your DL, it’s so simple. My chances of making you laugh are increased, if I laugh about myself, but what is the use of that, if you keep refusing to do that? I laugh about myself, not because I believe I’m funny, but because I have EL, therefore, I enjoy what I’m saying. My Language Enlightenment (LE) makes me funny as hell.  

 

I don’t believe myself to be funny, but I am funny and those, who believe themselves to be funny, don’t know, they have DL, as they want to be understood. I don’t want to be understood, since I understand myself. I want you to understand yourself, as this will give you the chance to laugh. People who want to be understood, are demanding. That is not a laughing matter. When a speaker dominates, intimidates, distracts and manipulates the listener and overwhelms him or her, with verbal diarrhea, we are dealing with the real reason, why peace never gets a chance and why human beings everywhere are in constant conflict with each other.

 

Yes, you must drop down your guard, to be able to laugh. I am not responsible, to make that happen. I just continue with my EL and my humor is not for you, if you hang on to your DL. Whatever you find funny, to me is disgusting and stupid. I don’t stand a chance with your thick wall, which is your defense and your fear to be here. I don’t cater to your DL, as I know, your inability to laugh cannot be overcome with more DL. I am vehemently against your phony laughter, as it signifies something is wrong with you.

 

You may start to feel sick and tired, while reading or hearing my words, but only someone’s EL gives you a chance to snap out of your DL. This isn’t humor as you know it. It would be funny, if you would agree with me. You know what I’m talking about. The fact, that you can’t laugh together with me about my EL, makes you feel something, you have been trying to avoid at all cost: you are wrong. Yes, I am right and you can’t stand it, although you’ve done everything in your ability to deny what I say, still, you feel I am right, because I am funny. My humor is upsetting, because you’re the one who is addicted to drama.

 

May be, while reading my texts, you will be taking a chance, to admit, for once, you were wrong, not to laugh? After reading this, you’ll be more aware that genuine laughter doesn’t come about by chance or dumb luck. With your unintelligent, dull, forceful, automatic DL, you never had a chance to pick up on this fact. Moreover, you’ve ruined your chance to have fun, because you’ve never paid attention to how you sound while you speak. Hearing yourself speak, gives you a chance to change your own life.   

 

Tremendous,

 

Nobody has written or spoken about this, but I am speaking and writing about it. Being a nobody, is of tremendous significance and those who know about it and can have Embodied Language (EL), have no problem with it, because it is the expression of our Language Enlightenment (LE). Everything that has been said and written about enlightenment before, was wrong, as it didn’t and couldn’t result in EL. So, while others consider us as unimportant, we view ourselves as very important, as only we address our LE with our EL. You, who read this, don’t know you engage in Disembodied Language (DL), as your   language makes you imagine you are somebody.  

  

I insist, it is empirically true, there is no me inside of me, who writes or says this. This whole business of fancying yourself being a somebody, of making up your mind – with your thoughts – is a result of your involvement in DL. There is no inner being, deeper self or eternal soul – who knows – but, there surely is your DL, which makes you believe in nonsense.

 

Hardly anyone wants to read this or hear this, but I read it, while I write it and I hear it, while I say it. The tremendous possibilities of EL are known to me, but you are, unknowingly, stuck with the limitations of your DL. Of course, you too have some sense, EL must exist and is necessary, but you are literally too full of yourself, to be able have it. Due to your DL, it never dawned on you, that moving beyond your conditioning or – as they like to say in scientific or academic circles – not being biased, requires you to be and talk like a nobody. Only those, who have EL, are able to leave their conditioning with DL behind.

  

In spite of all my problems, I have discovered how to continue my EL. Whether you believe me or not, the challenge of this discovery is still waiting for you, it doesn’t go away. I know, you postpone it and probably never get to it. This is why your life is such a tremendous mess. You can’t fool a nobody, as it is very clear to me, that you never do as you say. This difference between saying and doing, is because, for you, saying isn’t doing and the denial of your nature. Your LE, your happiness, your success, your health or your truth, cannot be expressed with your DL. As I feel very proud to be without any tribulations, my emptiness effortlessly expresses, every day, my LE.

 

Continuing with EL, means, I act on what I say and that is why I write so extensively about my EL and reap the fruits of making the right choices. I have felt so hesitant to write or say this, but my shame is gone, as it is really true: I only experience positive consequences of my actions. Why does anyone want to be or claim to be somebody so badly? I know why I wanted it, although claiming it, never worked for me: it is because we are ashamed of who we are.

 

My life wasn’t always this blissful. For a long time, I didn’t know what I wanted in my life. I was afraid, to miss out on something of tremendous importance, but I didn’t know what it was. Only just yesterday, I was still waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for my next failure. I failed, as I expected myself to fail, but now I succeed and witness millions of small things, which couldn’t happen, as long as I was still engaging in DL. I write this, because it is true and I like to read it. I know, that you, who reads this, have never been able to continue with your EL. Although, at some point, you might have kind of recognized it, you never trusted your natural way of dealing with your language, to carry you through your struggles.

 

You have never spoken, alone with yourself, in order to be able to hear your own voice. This is a big deal: the speaker, who him or herself is the listener, hears him or herself speak and recognizes his or her happy   sound. This tremendous event transforms you and what you say to yourself, with a voice of wellbeing, is your truth, your LE, which, from then on, will always be with you. And, this initiation into EL and LE, changes you from somebody into nobody. This is how you were born and this is how you will die. As a nobody, you experience and hear your eternity.

 

Coming home to oneself, always goes hand in hand with a verbal expression, which is utterly satisfying. EL truly is our own language, as there is no concern about what others might say about it. Others will say, about their own EL, it is equally nourishing and enlightening and that will be the new reality, we are creating with our authentic language. What hasn’t happened is happening with EL. When it does, we feel so blessed, as we are speaking power and love to our own truth, in stead of bullshit truth to the fake power of someone, who believes to be someone.

 

EL is a tremendous breakthrough. We embark on a new era of human behavior, in which it is possible to behave positively, effectively and consistently. For such a long time, we have suffered the consequences of undesirable behaviors, which are now understood, neutralized and dissolved, as we really have better things to do. EL makes us aware about what we are capable of, which is totally different from what we wanted to be, because we couldn’t be ourselves. It is such a joke, that being ourselves, is being a nobody.

 

When we get to do, what we are actually capable of,  we discard what we tried to be, as what we tried to be, was always a reaction, to not being able to be who we are, that is, to being a nobody. It is simple, yet – because we didn’t allow ourselves to have EL, to follow where it would lead us and to comprehend, how different this would be, from our usual DL – we are always in confusion, about who we are and what we want our language to be. With EL, however, we are perfectly satisfied being a nobody, as it allows us to do what we want to do and to live a peaceful life.   

 

In our house, we want things placed in a certain way. We want our table near the window, our TV in the corner, a bed against the wall, a couch in the middle. We like it to be clean, so we vacuum or dust things off, once in a while. However, when it comes to how we are dealing with our language, we never decide where we place anything. And, yes, we never do any cleaning. We do different things, in different places, in our house. There is a place, that is better than any other place, where we can speak with ourselves and hear our own reasoning. We have our own questions and our own answers, because we have our own EL.

 

The reason, nobody has ever written or spoken about EL –  in the way anyone would, if they knew, EL is the expression of our LE and of being a nobody – is because we are all afraid of death and the unknown. While people go out of their way, to prove to others, what a dare-devils they are, how important they are, how very special, skillful, knowledgeable, spiritual or kind they are, we refuse to engage in EL, as it signifies the end of our verbal shenanigans. There can be no EL, without first having stopped our DL. Supposedly, some people are wiser than others, but this was never the issue. The issue was, that they had their own language. I feel such a tremendous joy, to have found my own language. Reading my texts or listening to me, you can’t avoid the conclusion, that you don’t have your own language. Of course, you too have your own language, but you haven’t gotten to it yet. By admitting that, you will get to your own language and stop wasting time with what others have said or written. You have your own EL and by saying it, by hearing it, by writing it and by reading it, you will come into your own LE with your EL.        

 

Gravity,

 

We don’t realize the gravity of the situation, we are in, as human beings, with our usual way of dealing our language. There is a lot of talk about climate change, but no one wants to talks about the terrible circumstances we keep creating with our language. Our Disembodied Language (DL), is causing us, world-wide, so many problems, that it becomes more and more difficult to deny, that the enormous mess we find ourselves in, was, of course, created by how we talk. Although the tendency still is – as it has always been – to overrule the coercive DL with even more forceful DL, the fact is that our blunt DL is outdated and, in essence, on its deathbed.

 

Gravity keeps everything from floating around. If it wasn’t for gravity, life on earth wouldn’t be possible. When we speak of the gravity of someone’s voice,  we mean that their sound attracts or even demands our attention. The Latin word gravitas translates as weight. However, if someone has gravitas, his or her demeanor is characterized by a sense of substance,  importance, seriousness or dignity. Thus, someone’s gravitas makes us sit on the edge of our seat, to hear and pay close attention, to every single word that comes out of the mouth of some great speaker.

 

I use this word, gravity, in this writing, to make my case. I convey an extremely serious matter. Either we will discover and use our Embodied Language (EL) or our DL will be our demise. We have already moved very far on the path of self-destruction. Only the self-instruction of our EL can turn things around. Basically, our usual, mechanical, violent way of dealing with language, DL, creates a fictional reality. The center of gravity in DL, are the words that we say, but in EL, what we say only matters, because of how we say it. This doesn’t mean, we are trying to sound a certain way, because an embodied sound, is a natural, effortless, easy sound. The significance of our voice, in EL, makes it so, that we can say what we want to say, in the way that we want to say it. Moreover, our resonant sound creates balance, it straightens us out, makes us upright and aware.  

 

We say, that someone defies gravity, when he or she appears to be unaffected by the force of gravity. For instance, high wire trapeze artists seem to defy gravity. Also, magicians appear to defy gravity, by floating someone in midair unsupported. Of course, these acrobats only appear to defy gravity and the magician pulls off a great trick. This make-belief is also happening during DL, in which we all believe to have a mind and thoughts. When I engage in EL and say something, it is not because I think it. This belief, that we say what we think, derives from our DL, in which we cannot say what we want to say. Thus, we refer to something we couldn’t say, as something we think, but once we say what we want to say, in EL, we know for sure, that our thoughts don’t exist.

 

During EL, our so-called mind and our imaginary thoughts simply vanish, because our belief in having them disappears, the moment we say what we want to say and are capable of saying. We can accurately speak about all our feelings and experiences, but only if we engage in EL, not if we, as usual, engage in DL. We have never verified this truth, that we can speak about anything we like, in a satisfying manner, if we change the way we deal with language. In our dissociative DL, we neglect our language, because, presumably, the words of others are always more important than our own words, but in EL, what we say is more important than what any one else says.

 

In my view, which is afforded by EL, it is of utmost gravity, we stop making the person, who produces the language, more important, than the language itself. There is a big difference between these two, because with the former, our belief in who we are, seems to be more important, than what we actually are saying. The me, who speaks, sucks all the energy out of the room. People called this ego, but it is DL, because we merely imagine there is a self, inside of us, who does the talking, while, in reality, there is no such an inner entity. In other words, who we believe to be, is a merely verbal construct, which dominates everything else we are capable of saying and doing.

 

The word chair isn’t more important than the word table and the word me isn’t more important than the word you. All words are equally important and some words are not more important than others, as that would be a limitation of our freedom of speech. We can only speak freely, if there is no belief in an inner self, who does and edits the speaking. Surely,  there are no thoughts, as there is not and cannot be any language inside of us. Inside our body are only organs, blood, nerves, muscles, neurotransmitters and bones, so there is categorically no language to be found anywhere inside of us. Therefore, there is no mind, there cannot be a mind, but there is only language when we speak, listen, write or read.

 

People who take drugs, may believe they can fly, but gravity makes them crash to the ground. Something similar is happening with our pretentious DL, which always brings us negative consequences. We try to blame others for these consequences, while we ourselves have created these outcomes with our intoxicating DL. It is astonishing, that nobody has been able to reason from this obviously important scientific perspective – that there is no mind and that we don’t have any thoughts – yet, due to our conditioning history, this is the human condition.  

 

For a long time, people believed the earth was flat, but it wasn’t. Likewise, we have believed in a mind, but there never was a mind. What we call our mind or our thoughts is a product of our DL, in which we cannot say what we want to say, as we remain too busy with others, to be able to do that. In EL, we finally listen to and hear ourselves, while we speak. This process of listening to ourselves while we speak – in which we simultaneously speak and listen – makes it clear to us, that every time we say, I think this or that, we actually say this or that and there is no need to refer to any speaker or any listener, as the speaker and the listener are one, that is, the speaker and the listener, are simply two words, which aren’t more important than any of the other of the words we use. We are perfectly fine talking with and listening to ourselves, without referring to ourselves as the speaker or the listener. As a matter of fact, there occurs a great sense of liberation in EL, as we recognize, there is no inner speaker or self, who does the speaking and there is no inner listener or soul, who does deep or attentive listening. All of this nonsense is fabricated by our usual, fearful DL, in which we don’t listen to ourselves while we speak and stay preoccupied with whether others are listening to us or whether we are listening to others.

 

I know, it is spelled out in a rather tedious way, but I’m not trying to win a price with this essay. Indeed, in EL, there is no competition, as we are not fighting to get the listener’s attention, as we ourselves are that listener. As anyone who reads this, should be able to understand, everything I have explained is logically coherent and should already be common knowledge, in the same way, that we already know that the earth is round and meteoroids, which get to close to the earth, can be pulled toward the earth by its gravity. We haven’t been able to be truthful with our language, since our common way of using  language, DL, continues to insist, we have a mind, a self, a soul and a whole slew of falsehoods, which, in turn create the reality we live in. In effect, we live in the illusion, which is created by our own language.

 

When you switch from DL to EL, you will know that you have switched from DL to EL, because gravity has taken over and your get very self-conscious. It is inevitable, as your self-imposed verbal fabrication, will disappear instantly and effortlessly. With EL, we create a different reality, in which we are free from our language. EL makes us totally silent and capable of speaking with, what can best be described as, a sense of eternity. EL always expresses our Language Enlightenment (LE). What we, in DL, used to call our intelligence is, in EL, nothing else than the relaxing, joyful and energizing expression of our language. In EL we always use our intelligence, in that, we always do as we say. You could also say, that because of EL, we say things, by doing things. All our behaviors are coordinated by EL and we experience only positive consequences, as our successful behavior continues and doesn’t need to be stopped or changed. Water flows downwards, because of gravity and everything begins to settle, due to the flow of our EL, which always goes to whatever asks our attention, while our energy, keeps soaring higher and higher.           

Town,

 

People of this town should know, how fortunate they are, I am in their midst. Chico, California, could and should be known for the fact that Maximus Peperkamp, who attained Language Enlightenment (LE), lives there. There is nothing grandiose about stating this fact, which is written with my Embodied Language (EL). The world is in verbal darkness, as   everyone is conditioned to engage in Disembodied Language (DL). Even if people try to have EL, they end up having more DL, because they don’t know the difference between DL and EL. Chico could be known around the world, because it was here, that a new phase of mankind began. It already started, but you haven’t paid any attention to it yet. I don’t want this town to be declared a holy city, but I do want it to be known, that I am here and I have the solution to problems, we haven’t even been able to talk about, since we remained trapped by our DL.

 

I am a graduate of Butte College (BC) and California State University Chico (CSUC). These institutions play a big role in this small town. While pursuing my undergraduate degree, I have worked at Enloe Behavioral Health and at the Psychiatric Health Facility. I have accomplished a Master of Arts in Clinical Psychology and a Master of Science in Clinical Psychology and for many years I have taught classes in Psychology at Butte College. Obviously, I don’t have a very high opinion about education or psychiatry. Both fields don’t deliver, precisely due to the issue, which I address. The situation is critical.  

 

Although I was a successful instructor and organized various effective seminars for the faculty and made many attempts to reach people, I have always been treated with disdain and disrespect, when it comes to my views about DL, EL and LE. There has never been any recognition of the great importance of what I have discovered and informed my students about for all these years. Also, I withdrew from my Ph.D. study at Palo Alto University (PAU), to become a Psychologist, as it became painfully clear to me, that nobody in academia is really interested in EL.

 

A while ago, I contacted, by email, the Chico News and Review (CN&R), the local paper, to let them know about EL, but I didn’t receive any response. Only after I send another email, admonishing them for not even having the curtesy to answer my email, I received a message, stating they weren’t going to write anything about the importance of how we deal our language. As I write this, I am reminded, I even did a radio show at KZFR, which, if I correctly remember, was called the Science of Interaction. I am also reminded that, the head of the Marriage and Family Therapy (MFT) Program at CSUC, who interviewed me about why I wanted to become a therapist – at the time, I still believed, I was going to continue my education at CSUC – shocked, insulted  and hurt me, by repeatedly saying, that my interest in science was fascistic. Surely, I didn’t accept his authority and because of this incident, I decided to continue my education elsewhere. I never received an apology from CSUC, who still sends me invites to participate in their alumni activities. However, CSUC could still organize a symposium, in honor of my LE.

 

This small town in North California, could become known for the launch of a new perspective, on how we deal with each other and ourselves. Anyone who reads my blog – who will begin to speak with him or herself and listen to him or herself and act on what he or she is saying to him or herself – will know that what I say and write is irrefutable. As I have stated in the past, I deserve a Ph.D. for writing this blog, but, most importantly, this tiny town, which, like so  many big towns, is torn apart by politics, badly needs to acknowledge: more DL is not the solution.

 

I know what I am talking about and when I ask to be honored for my LE, I am making my LE available to everyone. Everyone benefits from knowing about EL, as it always expresses our LE. Yes, I want EL to be the talk of the town. It seems as if DL is the only game in town, but I let you know, this isn’t so. Since I know about EL and about LE, there is a new sheriff in town. I am not going anywhere, to the contrary, I am determined to run DL out of town. I will not be painting the town red, but I will definitely wake up this little sleepy town with my EL. Whether you are in town or out of town, you can always look me up,  talk with me and find out about what you didn’t know. With EL, you go all the way down town and you will know, there is more to your language, than how you use it.           

 

Not,

 

Everyone knows, there are certain things that you should not talk about, because it irrevocably leads to adverse consequences that you do not want. So we can – to avoid bad consequences – decide not to talk about things that could get us into trouble. It is one thing, however, to stop talking to others about those difficult issues, but it is quite another, to start talking to ourselves about what we do not want to or cannot talk about with others.

 

Talking out loud to ourselves, about what we cannot talk about with others, is the first step towards our Embodied Language (EL). When we first do that, we are amazed, aggrieved and hurt, that we can easily say anything to ourselves and we know very well, it should be possible to say it to others in exactly the same way, but we don't, because we don't want to break the usual pattern of expectations. We know from painful experiences, that talking to others as if talking to ourselves is not allowed. So, there is really nothing else we can do, than to tell ourselves about what we could not or did not want to share with others. When we realize, however, that our EL can hardly ever be shared with others, we will talk to ourselves in a different way than when we still cherish the hope, that others, who only know Disembodied Language (DL), would listen to us, in the same way as we have listened to ourselves. This understanding of how things really are allows us to let go of the other.

 

The understandable, obvious fact,

 that we are unable to talk 

to others in the same way

 that we can talk to ourselves, 

is accompanied by a sense

 of frustration, dissatisfaction

 and struggle we have about

 this. No matter what we 

do to get rid of that 

negative, nasty feeling, 

it doesn't ever go away. 

As long as we keep 

wanting that bad feeling 

to go away, it will never

 go away. When we talk

 about our negative 

experience, the word 

consciousness often comes

 up, as if these negative 

experiences could be avoided,

 if only we were finally 

aware of ourselves. They 

say: just look at it and 

suppose, the absence of 

that fantasized consciousness

 would cause us to have 

those bad experiences.

 

While it is never properly addressed in our so-called unconscious DL, it is really the case that everyone - so to speak unconsciously - struggles with exactly the same problem, which is therefore solvable for everyone, by simply having EL, instead of DL. However, moving on effortlessly with our own EL, never ever came about through prayer, meditation or magical, higher, all-encompassing, divine, everlasting, exceptional consciousness, but through verbal work, that is, determined, patient, attentive, goal-oriented and free speaking aloud to ourselves, about anything and everything, which we apparently were not allowed, which we supposedly couldn’t, didn’t dare to say or didn’t want to talk about with others or with ourselves.

 

Only when we, while talking aloud to ourselves, bring up for ourselves, what never came or could come to fruition, in the so-called conversation with others, only then can we begin to really experience what we have always experienced, but could not express in our own words and pace earlier. There is no escaping the fact that all of us, because of our hitherto undiscussed conditioning with DL, have been burdened with negative, but, most strikingly, also with positive experiences, about which we seemed to be unable to speak with others. So, if we continue to have EL, by talking to ourselves, there will be an interpretation and understanding of connections, we make with our language, between the causes and the consequences of all our behavior.

 

It is often said, we miss what is happening in the here and now, as we are too preoccupied with the past or the future. With EL, we can explain this very differently, because we can talk with EL about our DL and accept that, in spite of good intentions, any attempt to talk about DL with DL was doomed to fail. Thus, in EL we make known to ourselves and to each other the lawfulness of our behavior. The causes of our behavior always lie in our past and the consequences of our behaviors – which occur in the here and now – always lie in our future.

 

If we wonder, why others wouldn't listen to EL, our answer is short and sweet: they do, but they are in denial about it. They too hear EL, because that is what our ears are for, but they don’t talk about it.  So, with our ears, we always hear ourselves as well as each other. In the genesis of our language, when we begin to speak as nonverbal children, hearing ourselves, is still the same as hearing each other. However, as we develop our verbal behavior, speaking the same language becomes more and more important, but the innocent listening to the other, in the same way that we listen to ourselves, receives less and less attention, until it is, so to speak, completely out of our consciousness and seems to have disappeared. When, at long last, we let ourselves know – by talking with ourselves and by speaking in a listening manner – that we can only have EL with those, who, like us, can talk aloud with themselves, then we stop being busy with others, who only know DL and expect them to have EL with us. This releases the ecstatic energy in us, which makes us speak or write jubilantly, as I do here, about our Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

Niet,

 

Iedereen weet wel degelijk, dat er bepaalde dingen zijn, waarover je beter niet kunt praten, omdat het altijd onherroepelijk tot nadelige consequencies leidt, die je niet wilt hebben. We kunnen dus – om slechte gevolgen te voorkomen – besluiten om niet te spreken over zaken, die ons in de problemen zouden kunnen doen belanden. Het is echter een ding, om niet meer met anderen over die moeilijke kwesties te praten, maar het is iets totaal anders, om niet meer met onszelf te praten, over waar wij niet met anderen over willen of durven te praten.

 

Hardop met onszelf praten, over waar wij het niet met anderen kunnen hebben, is de eerste aanzet tot Belichaamde Taal (BT). Wanneer wij dat voor het eerst doen, dan zijn verbaasd, verongelijkt en gekwetst, dat wij alles tegen onszelf kunnen zeggen en heel goed weten, dat dit ook op precies dezelfde manier naar anderen gezegd zou moeten kunnen worden, maar we doen dit echter niet, omdat we het gebruikelijke verwachtings-patroon niet willen doorbreken. Wij weten vanuit pijnlijke ervaringen, dat het praten met anderen, alsof we met onszelf praten, niet is toegestaan. Er zit dus eigenlijk niets anders op, dan dat wij aan onszelf gaan vertellen, wat wij niet met anderen konden of wilden delen. Wanneer wij echter beseffen, dat onze BT nagenoeg nooit met anderen gedeeld kan worden, dan praten wij met onszelf op een andere manier, dan wanneer wij nog de hoop koesterden, dat anderen, die alleen Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) kennen, naar ons zouden gaan luisteren op dezelfde manier, zoals wij naar onszelf zijn gaan luisteren. Dit begrijpen van hoe het echt zit, maakt dat wij die ander los kunnen laten.    

 

Het begrijpbare, voor de hand-liggende feit, dat wij  niet in staat zijn, om met anderen te praten, op de manier zoals wij met onszelf kunnen praten, gaat  samen met een gevoel van frustratie, onvrede en strijd, dat wij hierover hebben. Wat wij ook doen, om dat negatieve, nare gevoel kwijt te raken, het gaat niet nooit echt weg. Zolang we blijven willen, dat dat nare gevoel weg gaat, gaat dat gevoel nooit weg. Als we over onze negatieve ervaring spreken, komt vaak het woord bewustzijn ter sprake, omdat we het doen voorkomen, alsof negatieve ervaringen kunnen worden voorkomen, indien wij maar eens eindelijk bewust zouden zijn van onszelf. Men zegt: kijk er maar naar en veronderstelt, dat afwezigheid van dat gefantaseerde bewustzijn er de oorzaak van zou zijn, dat wij slechte ervaringen zouden hebben.

 

Ook al komt het, in ons onbewuste OT, nooit op de juiste wijze ter sprake, toch is het zo, dat iedereen – ook al is het onbewust – worstelt met dezelfde problematiek, die voor iedereen oplosbaar zou zijn,  indien wij BT, in plaats van OT, zouden hebben. Het hebben van BT en het moeiteloos voortgaan met onze eigen BT, kwam nooit of te nimmer tot stand door een gebed, meditatie of een of ander magisch, hoger, alomvattend, godelijk en eeuwig-durend, uitzonderlijk bewustzijn, maar door vastberaden, uitvoerig, geduldig, heel aandachtig, doel-gericht en opgelucht hardop met onszelf te spreken, over van alles en nog wat, waar wij het niet met anderen over mochten, konden, durfden of wilden hebben.

 

Alleen wanneer wij, hardop met onszelf pratend, voor onszelf, ter sprake brengen, wat nooit aan bot kwam of kon komen, in het zogenaamde gesprek met anderen, alleen dan pas kunnen en beginnen wij echt te ervaren, wat wij altijd hebben ervaren, maar niet eerder onder woorden konden brengen. Er is geen ontkomen aan, dat wij allemaal, vanwege onze tot dusver nog onbesproken conditionering met OT, levenslang opgezadeld zijn geweest, met negatieve, maar ook juist met positieve ervaringen, waarover wij nog niet met anderen leken te kunnen spreken. Als wij dus voortdurend BT gaan hebben, dan vindt er, door het praten met onszelf, een invulling en begrijpen plaats van allerlei verbanden, die wij met onze eigen taal kunnen leggen tussen de oorzaken en de gevolgen van al onze gedragingen.

 

Er wordt vaak beweerd, dat we missen wat er in het hier en nu, in het zogenaamde moment, gebeurd, omdat we teveel bezig zijn met het verleden of met de toekomst. Vanuit BT kunnen wij hierover een andere uitleg geven, omdat wij het met BT over OT kunnen hebben en accepteren dat, ongeacht al onze goeie bedoelingen, iedere poging om met OT over OT te spreken, altijd tot mislukking gedoemd was. In BT maken wij aan onszelf en aan elkaar de wetmatigheid van ons gedrag kenbaar. De oorzaken van ons eigen gedrag, liggen altijd in ons verleden en de gevolgen van al onze gedragingen – in het hier en nu – liggen altijd in onze toekomst.

 

Indien wij ons afvragen, waarom anderen geen oren  zouden hebben voor BT, dan is ons antwoord kort en krachtig: ze hebben er wel oor voor, want daar zijn onze oren voor. Met onze oren kunnen wij dus zowel onszelf als elkaar horen. In het onstaan van onze taal, als wij als kind voor het eerst beginnen te spreken, is het horen van onszelf nog het zelfde als het horen van elkaar. Zodra wij echter ons verbale gedrag verder ontwikkelen, dan wordt het spreken van dezelfde taal van steeds groter belang, maar het onschuldige luisteren naar de ander op dezelfde wijze waarop wij luisteren naar onszelf, krijgt steeds minder onze aandacht, totdat het zogezegd geheel uit ons bewustzijn lijkt te zijn verdwenen. Wanneer wij uiteindelijk aan onszelf laten weten – doordat wij met onszelf praten en luisterend spreken – dat we alleen maar BT kunnen hebben met hen die, net als wij, met ook zichzelf kunnen praten, dan houden wij op, om van anderen, die alleen maar OT kennen, te verwachten, dat zij BT met ons gaan hebben. Er komt hierdoor een enorme extatische energie in ons vrij, die ons jubelend doet spreken en schrijven, zoals ik hier doe, over onzeTaal Verlichting (TV).  

 

Difference,

 

The difference between my writing and the writing of others is that my text, this text, comes from my ability to have Embodied Language (EL), while others can only write from Disembodied Language (DL), because they don't know the difference yet  between DL and EL. In DL everyone wants to be right, but in EL you are always right.

 

In DL we only pretend to talk with each other, but both the talking and the listening are acted. DL is, without anyone seeming to notice, the way we are used to dealing with each other and with ourselves. Naturally, this comes with all sorts of problems. What a huge difference it is to have EL. It is so interesting, pleasant and natural, because everyone is always right.

 

Because of our unconscious DL, we get endlessly stuck in the conflict over who is, supposedly, right. It comes back to competition, which is always, exclusively and alone, about who is in charge, who has the power or who is the strongest, richest, most cunning and most inhuman. And, we also remain trapped, in the self-image, in the verbal delusion that others have created of us and that we, in turn, with DL, have created of ourselves.

 

I'm not stuck with my words. The great difference between your language and my language, is that my voice produces the words which, to me, always show my freedom, even if everyone wants to deny or undo that freedom. It is curious, so many people are so eager to take away the freedom of others. But the helplessness of those who allow themselves to be led by others – which, in DL, is everyone - has nothing to do with freedom. Yes, when it comes to our DL, believe it or not, we are all in the same boat.

 

Whether you are an oppressor of others or a victim of the oppression of others, both of you are always just preserving DL. Simply put, DL is the language in which the speaker dominates and suppresses the listener, even though the listener is him or herself the speaker. So, in DL - whether we want to admit it or not - we are all, so to speak, in a constant conflict with ourselves. Having power, armies, prestige, fame, money, houses, yachts, planes, listeners, followers, admirers and speech-writers, which goes hand in hand with the oppression of others, never causes us to fearlessly, live our life from freedom.

 

Due to our automatic participation in DL, which was dictated by our conditioning, we remain paranoid all our lives, because there are always pirates on the horizon, ready to take from us, what we, with much  pain and effort, managed to get a hold of. Everyone clings, to their wet blanket, to DL. We desperately hang onto the meager, artificial, rubbish we own or believe to possess. Also, people fanatically believe in anything and everything, because they have never recognized the great difference between DL and EL.

 

In fact, all of life is a conversation. 

Since we haven't had EL yet, 

we can’t see it that way, but 

all depends on whether we

 can talk about it and, of 

course, how we talk about it. 

In other words, everything 

revolves around how we 

deal with our language. 

With DL, we cannot 

understand ourselves 

and gain a healthy 

perspective, that is 

why we are always 

compulsively trying 

to prove ourselves right, 

to others. There is, however, 

nothing to prove to 

ourselves, so talking to 

ourselves – which is 

the foundation of EL – 

is the only beginning 

of genuine communication.

Just as it was getting light, I was jogging in Upper Bidwell Park this morning, on a winding, rocky path. It's finally nice and cool again today. I listened to my gasps and, suddenly, it felt, as if my breath was talking to myself. I didn't say anything, but still I told myself, I was going up steeply, then running down and then over some flatter terrain again. Also, sometimes, I had to recover from all the effort and slow down again, but at other times, it seemed as if I was being carried by the wind.

 

I listened to the alternating sound of my footsteps. Because of the ever-changing terrain, my steps told an ancient history. Jumping over the rocks, I heard the wonderful story of this beautiful path, in which everything seemed to be contained. Even though I know that path, because I've jogged there before, it's different every time. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's unexpected and sometimes it's just as I remembered it. I always jog to the big basalt rocks, where I go for a swim. That last part, before I get there, goes down and down. It's such a nice thing, to jog downhill and to hold yourself back, that you don't go too fast.

 

Things were also different today, because there were some mosquitoes, who apparently could easily keep up with my not so fast pace. I felt their bites, thrashed around and quickened my speed, but they kept following me. I was only liberated after I dived into the wonderful water. I swam around and let the water wash over me, at the small waterfalls. My body slid along the rocks, as I swam to my favorite spot. My language is so pure in nature. It's such a relief to be there. I also did some Qi-Gong exercises and made slow, large circles with my hands and arms and this sacred place told me, it is really me, who is experiencing all this beauty and peace.

 

I am now home and sitting in the garden. We did some shopping and will eat pizza, in a short while.  It's Saturday and I have nothing else to do. The wind blows softly and a cooing pigeon lets me know, I'm going to take it easy today. I hear the wind chimes in the neighbor's yard, but know, I have nothing to do with what others believe or how they live. When I was young, I was very curious about that. I wanted to experience, how people live in other countries and cultures. I found out that, despite differences, we all really want the same thing. Everyone wants EL, because it means security, stability and fairness. EL makes such a difference. It is incomprehensible, we still haven't started to deal properly with our own language, as only that can save us from the inevitable downfall we are heading for with our DL.