Yes,

 

Yes, someone who is able to express his Language Enlightenment (LE), with his Embodied Language (EL), would write or say something like this. If you would hear me, say this, your body would change, because of the sound of my voice and you would realize, you are enlightened too. However, you would still have to deal with your own Disembodied Language (DL), which can only be stopped by you. Listening to me, or reading these words, can give you an incentive, to stop your DL and contact me, to have EL with me.  

 

I love to challenge you in this writing. Why haven’t you contacted me? What is taking you so long? Why are all these other things so much more important? You know as well as I do, you are postponing, you are beating around the bush. You should talk with me and get an experience of EL. I remember, there was once this famous behaviorist, who had read my work and wanted to write and publish a paper with me. We talked with each other three times on skype and it was great. However, when we got into clarifying the outline for a scientific paper, he got impatient and irritated with me, as he was trying to listen to himself, but felt very frustrated, as he had admit, he only heard DL, but no EL. He was angry with me making him feel this way. I refused to take responsibility for how he was feeling. After all, he was just talking with himself and having all these negative experiences. How could I be responsible?

 

I just got back from a wonderful walk in Upper Bidwell Park. It is so nice, there is so much water in the creek. I felt so happy to see a rock full of ferns. I love to see everything come alive again because of the rain, as we have had such a long drought. The place where I go and swim, in the summer, was now  a roaring creek and the big rocks, which I used to sit on, were submerged in the strong current. I also met some wonderful people, who also appreciate nature and go out there on these muddy tracks for a walk, although the rain may come back anytime.

 

Nature is always waiting for us, to finally catch up with ourselves. To express our natural way of being, we have to pay attention to how we deal with our language. Do we, as we speak, listen to ourselves? If we do, we engage in EL, but if we don’t, we engage in DL. It is really not a big problem, that we engage in DL, because once we realize that we are doing this, DL changes into EL. The problem is, that we are unaware about the fact, we are engaging in DL all the time and miss out on what life could be like, if we would engage in EL. This awareness immediately effects everything we do and changes how we talk.

 

The question, how to change DL in EL is irrelevant, as acknowledging that we have DL instead of EL, is the only thing that matters. There is no need to feel guilty about having DL, as this will only prolong our participation in it. Just recognizing it, is sufficient to stop our DL. This rational approach to our DL is very effective, but our emotional reactions prevent us from stopping it. We become capable of stopping our DL, of stepping out of our conditioning history, by being down to earth about it, instead of being endlessly carried away by our emotional turmoil.

 

Please, read these words out loud, so you can hear your own sound, while you speak and can feel what it is, I am conveying to you with these words. I know you can have EL instead of DL and simply want you to try out what I suggest. Your speaking voice is not what you would like it to be in DL. When you notice that, your voice changes, effortlessly, all by itself, to how you would like to sound. And, once you engage in EL, you know you sound  different than when you engage in DL. Therefore, your ability to distinguish between your DL and EL, is of utmost importance.

 

I write this to you from my LE and my EL brings this  message to you. Surely, these two ways of dealing with language are real and being involved in one or the other makes a world of difference. During DL, your world appears, as if it is not created by you, but, presumably, by others, but in EL, you create your own world, how you want it to be. Indeed, in EL, you create and live in your own world. Certainly, your own world is totally natural and self-evident.  

 

Your EL shows, words come by themselves. They simply appear, as you listen to yourself, while you speak. Also, you really feel what you are writing, because you are aware about your language. If one word doesn’t fit, you change it, you adjust it or you change the sound of it. This modification happens by itself. You are not trying to sound friendly, calm or interested, but you sound conscious of what you are saying, as you only say what you want to say.

 

Alive,

 

There comes a time, you will read these words and regret, you have never taken the time to talk with me. Taking the time is not a matter of the clock, but of being deliberately verbal with yourself. Even if you never talk with me and only talk out loud with yourself, your Embodied Language (EL) would be  like mine. I don’t write this to make you feel guilty, but to let you know, that I am here now and that you should make use of me, while I am still alive. Unlike everyone, who engages in Disembodied Language (DL), we agree when we have EL, since we share with each other, what it is like to talk with ourselves.

 

EL is like art, because we create it, while we speak or write. When we hear or read it, we receive it like music or poetry. People get all ecstatic, hearing their favorite singer or band producing a song, which they know and like, because, presumably, these singers or performers, express something, which is also true for us. When it comes to talking and listening, however, we never get as passionate about our interaction, that we begin to cheer each other on, because we feel so very happy to understand ourselves and each other. We only do this, if we engage in EL, but not in DL.

What happens when you let your language go wherever it wants to go? First, of course, you spend quite some time giving attention to what needs attention and what could not get attention before. Eventually, everything that demanded attention has received so much attention, that, at some point, you will let it go, almost unnoticed. Suddenly you notice, you no longer respond as before. There is nothing that demands your attention and your language is created in a completely different way than before. You really feel that everything you say and write is now all yours. You can't get enough of it, because it's a beautiful journey, through a new dimension.

 

Recently, I overheard an interesting conversation about the various dimensions. To determine a place somewhere on earth, two dimensions are needed: the latitude and longitude. However, when we talk about the tenth floor of a building, three dimensions are needed: the aforementioned length and width, but also the height. Then, if we add to that, what's happening at a certain moment, on the tenth floor of that building, time is added or the fourth dimension. In mathematics, the dimensions of a space are the parameters that describe the elements of that space. So, in geometry, you have a point, a line, a plane or a shape. By the dimension of space, we mean, so to speak, the number of those parameters. In physics, which can also be considered as another dimension or branch of science, the dimension of a quantity is understood to mean the category to which that quantity belongs. Different dimensions are used in  physics than in mathematics, such as time, mass, temperature or speed. A dimension is a measurable quantity that cannot be broken down into a combination of other quantities. What often eludes everyone in this scientific story about dimensions is that we always deal with the dimension of our own language anyway. When this comes into focus, we can no longer ignore the fact that DL and EL are two very important, mutually exclusive, dimensions.

Albert Einstein stated in his theory of relativity, that it is not actually possible to speak of time and space as two separate entities, but that there would only exist one entity, namely spacetime, which encompasses all events in the past, present and future, contained in our universe. As a child, Einstein was quite late when he started talking, and what was remarkable was that he said everything twice. Until the age of seven, no matter what he said, he repeated every sentence he spoke, so he could hear himself. In other words, his manner of speaking, like behaviorist B.F. Skinner and myself, from the beginning, was different from other kids.

 

Einstein famously said that we cannot solve today's problems with the mindset that created them. In other words, we are not making any progress. as long as we keep having DL. It is true, that the way we talk to each other – and therefore to ourselves – results in us living in our usual violent, superficial, confused, meaningless, superstitious, unintelligent lives. The reality or dimension that we can create with EL never meets with the illusion we continue to create and maintain with our DL. When we have EL, we have awakened from the psychological, spiritual and scientific sleep of DL. EL is the only solution to the problems we created with our DL. Life without struggle is possible because of our Language Enlightenment (LE), which became audible, experienced and recognized due to our EL.

 

Wat gebeurt er wanneer je je taal laat gaan waar het heen wil gaan? Eerst ben je natuurlijk een behoorlijk tijdje bezig met het geven van aandacht aan wat de aandacht vraagt en wat nog niet eerder de aandacht kon krijgen. Alles wat aandacht vroeg, heeft op een gegeven moment zoveel aandacht gekregen, dat je het bijna ongemerkt los gaat laten. Ineens valt het je op dat je niet meer reageert zoals voorheen. Er is nu niets meer wat jou aandacht vraagt en je taal ontstaat nu op een hele andere manier dan voorheen. Je voelt echt, dat alles wat je zegt en schrijft helemaal van jou is. Je kunt je er geen genoeg van krijgen, want het is zo’n prachtige reis, door een nieuwe dimensie.

 

Laatst hoorde ik een heel interessant gesprek over de diverse dimensies. Om ergens op aarde een plaats te bepalen, zijn twee dimensies nodig: de geografische lengte en breedte. Wanneer we het echter hebben over de tiende verdieping van een gebouw, dan zijn er drie dimensies nodig: de eerder genoemde lengte en breedte, maar ook de hoogte. Als we dan daaraan toevoegen, wat er op een bepaald moment gebeurd, op de tiende verdieping van dat gebouw, dan wordt er tijd aan toegevoegd, dat is dan de vierde dimensie. In de wiskunde zijn de dimensies van een ruimte de parameters, waarmee een element van die ruimte wordt beschreven. Zo heb je in meetkunde, een punt, een lijn, een vlak en een vorm. Onder de dimensie van die ruimte zelf verstaan we dus, zogezegd, het aantal van die parameters. In de natuurkunde, wat als de wiskunde, ook kan worden beschouwd als een andere dimensie of tak van de wetenschap, wordt met de dimensie van een grootheid de categorie verstaan waartoe die grootheid behoort. Zo onderscheidt men in natuurkunde andere dimensies dan in wiskunde, zoals tijd, massa, temperatuur of snelheid. Een dimensie is een meetbare grootheid die niet kan worden ontbonden in een combinatie van andere grootheden. Wat vaak iedereen ontgaat in dit wetenschappelijke verhaal over dimensies, is dat wij,  hoe dan ook altijd te maken hebben met de dimensie van onze taal. Wanneer dit in focus komt, kunnen wij er niet langer meer omheen, dat Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) en Belichaamde Taal (BT) twee zeer belangrijke, mutually exclusieve, dimensies zijn.

 

Albert Einstein stelde in zijn relativiteits theorie, dat het eigenlijk niet mogelijk is om over tijd en ruimte als twee afzonderlijke entiteiten te spreken, maar dat er dus slechts een entiteit zou bestaan, namelijk de ruimtetijd, die alle gebeurtenissen in het verleden, heden en toekomst in ons heelal bevat. Als kind was Einstein tamelijk laat toen hij begon te praten en wat heel opmerkelijk was, was dat hij alles twee keer zei. Tot zijn zevende jaar, herhaalde hij, ongeacht wat hij zei, iedere zin die hij sprak, zodat hij zichzelf kon horen. Met andere woorden, zijn wijze van spreken, was net als de behaviorist B.F. Skinner en ikzelf, van meet af aan al, anders dan alle andere kinderen.

 

Een bekende uitspraak van Einstein is: we kunnen de problemen van vandaag de dag, niet oplossen met de mentaliteit die die problemen heeft veroorzaakt. Met andere woorden, we komen geen enkele stap verder.  zolang als we OT blijven hebben. Het is zonder meer waar, dat de wijze waarop wij met elkaar – en dus met onszelf – praten tot gevolg heeft, dat we leven op onze gebruikelijke geweldadige, oppervlakkige, verwarde, zinloze, bijgelovige, onintelligente manier. De realiteit of de dimensie, die we kunnen creeren met BT, ontmoet nooit de illusie, die we met OT blijven creeren en instand houden. Wanneer wij uiteindelijk BT gaan hebben, dan zijn wij ontwaakt uit de psychologische, spirituele, wetenschappelijke  slaap van onze OT. BT is de enige oplossing voor de problemen, die we met onze OT hebben gecreerd. Leven zonder strijd is mogelijk vanwege onze Taal Verlichting (TV), die hoorbaar werd met onze BT.    

 

Gurus,

 

In the past, I have been with and ferociously read about, a couple of so-called gurus or presumably self-realized individuals, because, like so many of you, I was seeking and searching. With all of them, I have found, that my assumed affiliation was always more about them, then about me. Indeed, often, I completely lost myself in their so-called work – which I was doing – as I was so enthralled with their verbalizations and strongly believed – as I was made to believe –  this was necessary, to supposedly drop my ego, get out of my mind, forget about my own language and go beyond words, to find my true self.

 

Still today, it is important to let myself know – by saying it out loud, so I can hear it in my own voice –  that I am, actually, a very sensitive, relaxed, calm and bright person. As I was, this morning, in my car on my way to my work, speaking out loud about this with myself, it also occurred to me, I need to allow myself, to feel this way and tell myself, it is needed for me, to say this out loud to myself, as often as I want to. In my history with Disembodied Language (DL), I have been, for a long time, easily, panicked, frustrated, stressed out, confused, fearful, upset, disappointed, distracted or disturbed, but now that I can have ongoing Embodied Language (EL), I find myself still getting used to, who I really am, who I have always been, but who, with DL, I couldn’t be.

 

The traumatizing, but also the positive effects of how I grew up, made me want to find the meaning of my life. I listened to many lectures, sat in many so-called satsangs, participated in therapy groups, seminars, rituals and meditations, in the hope to be able to transcend my struggle and pain, about not fitting in, being an outsider, someone who couldn’t believe what everyone believes, who defiantly and reactively refused to talk as others told him to.  

 

In retrospect, I understand, these days of longing and mourning, were times, in which I explored the many negative consequences of my own DL as well as the DL of others. I was always busier with the DL of others, than with my own DL, as I hadn’t yet made the distinction between my own DL and EL.

 

Like most people, I wanted to feel positive, but I  kept feeling negative. To acknowledge my own true feelings, seemed difficult and awkward, as I simply didn’t have the language for it. Moreover, in these so-called spiritual circles, language, and, therefore, reasoning itself, was always looked down on. I now know, I that had to stop being busy with the DL of others, so that I could finally attend to my own DL, to fully admit, accept and understand, that I was feeling hurt, rejected, lonely and betrayed. Surely, I was only able to become aware about my own DL, once I was able to talk about my own DL with my EL, that is, once I had found a different way of talking. Whether you know it or not, you too try to talk about your DL, but as long as you don’t know what your EL is and as long as you cannot continue with it, you inevitably will talk with your DL about your DL. This is what everybody does.

 

Once you have experienced and prolonged your own EL, you will know, with irrefutable certainty, like I do, that DL can never be talked about with DL and can only be talked about with your ongoing EL. The fact that we all, unknowingly, try to talk about our DL with DL, has catastrophic consequences. In other words, it is not only a matter for me, but also for you, to be able to say out loud to yourself: it is not only okay, what I feel, but also true, no matter how incredibly negative it is. Expressing your DL with your EL, allows you to accept and feel your anger, frustration, pain, despair and hopelessness.

 

Going back to when I didn’t know about my EL, as I had not yet discovered it, I can now understand why my previous self-help activities only provided temporary, never permanent, relief. It also never occurred to me back then, all my troubling feelings were maintained by how I talked, that is, by my own DL. Although I had discovered the DL-EL distinction, I couldn’t find anyone, who was as interested in it as I was. Nobody has ever spoken or written about ongoing EL. This is why nobody knows about the immense importance of this DL-EL distinction. I can’t emphasize this point enough. I have studied  many years and achieved an M.S and M.A. in clinical psychology, I worked for many years in different mental health positions and have taught psychology for many years at Butte College, but no teacher, therapist, psychologist or psychiatrist has ever truly acknowledged the scientific validity of the DL-EL distinction, because they all engage, every day, just like everyone else, in superstitious, irrational DL.

 

Only after having ongoing EL for quite a while, did it dawn on me, that stopping my own DL, by dealing with my history of conditioning, was only one step, but bringing more energy into my EL, was quite another. For all these years, I still didn’t know, I had to stop my own DL, I was still only trying to allow and express my negative experiences – but, without any attention for my own language. Such attention could, of course, only come from my EL. Although, I was also having some positive experiences, these preferable experiences were never connected with my interest in and passion for language, that is, with speaking, writing, writing and reading. My history with DL, like your history with DL, kept me basically nonverbal or illiterate about my negative as well as my positive experiences. Thus, it is not surprising, that this morning, in my car, on my way to work, I suddenly heard myself say it to myself, it is okay to feel and express my negative feelings, but now that I have done that, it is clear to me, these negative experiences were never really left behind, as long as I had not fully expressed my positive experiences.

 

When we talk about so-called repressed feelings or what Freud referred to as the unconscious, we are referring to stuff, we can, of course, in principle talk about, but, unless we give ourselves that chance, we don’t ever get a chance to talk about. Moreover, the supposedly bottled-up experiences, which have remained unexpressed verbally, are mainly negative experiences. However, once we have truly stopped our own DL, we can’t help, but realize, that we have always been holding back on our positive feelings.  

 

Once we are able to go on with the expression of our natural positive feelings, that is, once we allow ourselves, that we can – if we give ourselves the permission – have such nourishing experiences, we will notice, our negative feelings disappear and no longer re-emerge. Furthermore, if we have ongoing EL, we say to ourselves and hear ourselves say, we are not, we never were, what we believed ourselves to be with DL. Yes, I believed myself to be a failure, a nuisance, a problem, a burden and a stranger. However, with EL, I tell myself and really feel, I am a success, I am intelligent, as I am a blessing without a disguise and a friend to myself. By allowing – in the sound of my voice – who I am, all my words unite in my Language Enlightenment (LE) and I speak and write about my new verbal way of being. Rationally, I express my own LE, as there is no fear or pressure.

 

Moon,

 

I just discovered – because I looked it up – today it is full moon. I feel an increase of energy around the completion of this monthly cycle. Although I may use the same words, I am not repeating myself. My Embodied Language (EL) shows, I am new, every moment. Of course, you are new, every moment, as well, but what you say or write doesn’t reflect that.

 

You continuously engage in what I call Disembodied Language (DL), because your language prevents you from being yourself. If you would, like I do, embody your own language, you would find out, it really works for you, because you will notice, you are new, every moment. In effect, you will then discover your own Language Enlightenment (LE), which could only be expressed by your EL, but never by your DL.

 

Of course, I would like you to share my writings with others. Of course, I would love to be invited by you to come and speak about EL. Of course, you are not where I am with my EL. You cannot be, as you haven’t had any ongoing EL with yourself. All you can do, is read this text out loud and listen to your own voice and feel how you sound, so that you can finally begin to hear yourself. Also, if you invite me and let me talk, you can experience the change, which occurs in your body, because of how I sound.

 

Surely, it would be best, if you started talking with yourself, hear your own sound and notice how your experience of your body changes because of your own EL. It is so different from having DL. However, you will only start speaking with and listening to yourself while you speak, if you have understood why that is important. Understanding EL is the key to having more of it, by stopping your own DL.

 

Initially, as you will have your first taste of EL, it is an emotional event, as you finally can feel what you have always felt, but were never able to accurately express. In DL, we cannot talk properly about our own experiences, let alone about our emotions. In DL, we are constantly distracted and disconnected from our experiences, by what we say about them.

 

In the beginning, your EL is about healing from all the trauma, associated with your involvement in DL. You cry and laugh a lot, as you recognize, you can overcome everything, you have been holding onto with your DL. After you have healed from your history with DL, your EL allows you to get clear about your language. This is what we usually refer to as thinking, but no such covert activity is taking place, as you overtly speak, write, listen or read.

 

Only after you have accepted and understood why you were always so emotionally upset, your EL will be able to express your non-emotional logic, your own reasoning. As you can tell from my writing, I am very logical about DL, EL and LE, because I can be, enjoy to be and am proud to be. This is such a contrast with how I used to be. I stopped being the impulsive, reactive person, I use to be. My EL makes me have well-grounded opinions about everything. I am not the least burdened or preoccupied with any of my deliberations, as they are the building blocks of the reality, I keep on creating and maintaining.  

 

I am proud to say, that I live in my own world and I have absolutely no problem at all with the fact that you too create and live in your world. Moreover, I don’t try to get you into my world nor do I try to get into your world, as I know, that we will always only be able to live in our own creation. This is the very essence of our individuality. To be able to reason like this is divine. To me, other than our way of dealing with language, there is nothing sacred.  

 

If you disagree with me, that is why you can’t feel the bliss of my LE. Naturally, your disagreement is not with me, but with yourself. Surely, you too could experience your own LE with your EL, but to do that, you would first have to stop your own DL. Like everyone else with DL, you unknowingly want others to stop your DL, but that is never going to happen. No matter how much you succeed in dominating, exploiting or manipulating others, you have never been able to stop your DL in that way. Also, your accusations about what others have done to you, have never resulted in EL and have always perpetuated your DL. Only you can stop your DL and you will only do that, if you understand this fact.                  

 

Now,

 

What would happen, if you would read these words out loud and listen to your own voice? I don’t want you to imagine it. I am not hypothesizing and I am also not telling you what to do or what to say, but I am asking: what do you experience, when you listen to what you are able to say to yourself, right now?

 

Paying attention to your voice, while you verbalize, whatever you want to say or can say, to yourself, is an irrefutable, direct experience. The sound of your voice is now embodied and felt by you, because you finally listen to it. Moreover, it reaches your ears and has a marvelous effect on your nervous system.

 

Instantly and effortlessly, your way of dealing with your language transforms, the moment, that you produce the sound of your Embodied Language (EL). You know, you can only produce, enjoy and be conscious of your own authentic, resonant speaking sound, you have right now, because you listen to it.

 

Obviously, you have remained seemingly unable to hear the sound of your own wellbeing, because you  yourself have never even taken the time, to express it, identify it and actually listen to it. Most probably, you have never done, what you are doing right now. You are stuck with Disembodied Language (DL), as long as you don’t listen to yourself while you speak.

 

Certainly, the sound you hear – and the energy you feel, which expresses your self-nature – when you, as you do right now, listen while you speak, is not the sound, you usually have. Almost continuously, the tone of your own voice disturbs your nervous system. Moreover, what makes things even more complicated, is that you are not the only one.

 

The reason human beings still haven’t figured out how to have continuous EL instead of DL, is because nobody listens to him or herself, while everyone is only trying to get others to listen to them. In other words, in DL, we are struggling to get each other’s attention, but we never pay attention to ourselves.

 

The new perception, which inevitably reveals itself, now that you listen to yourself – while you speak –, is the expression of your Language Enlightenment (LE), in which you say or write, in your own words, what you want to say or write. Stated differently, in  EL, you express your LE, as you are now the master of your own language. Furthermore, your so-called mind dissolves, because you have stopped your DL.

 

I can say all of this, because I have EL and speak and write about my LE. Although you can now hear and experience, in your voice, that you can have EL too, to continue with your own EL, you must move away from my words and say to yourself, what you want to say to yourself, to hear yourself and to act on what you have told yourself. Also, as you reap the positive consequences of your own EL, you write to yourself, anything you like to read about yourself.

 

Now you know, that you have believed in all sorts of nonsense, because of your constant involvement in DL. Indeed, now that your DL has, temporarily, been  stopped, you gain a new awareness, in which your own use of language plays a much bigger role than it has ever had. You have now discovered, that EL is the door through which you can also attain your LE.   

 (This Dutch text is also available in Enligh below)

 

Opnieuw,

 

Alleen als alles helemaal misloopt, heeft men het er ineens over, om opnieuw te beginnen. Ook zeggen mensen, meestal met een gevoel van verslagenheid, dat ze helemaal terug naar af moeten, om zogezegd weer van voren af aan te kunnen beginnen. Het is raar maar waar, dat de zogenaamde vernieuwing voor verreweg de meeste mensen met mislukking te maken heeft. Wat iemand deed, liep op niets uit, het mocht allemaal niet baten. En, ook al maken we ons nog zo druk ergens over, het werkt gewoon niet en er zit eigenlijk niets anders op, om toe te geven, dat we geen stap verder zijn gekomen en dat we er zelfs nog slechter aan toe zijn dan voorheen. Het is weer het ouwe liedje en ook al nemen mensen zich voor om van hun fouten te leren, in werkelijkheid komt daar maar bitter weinig van terecht. Er was  een gevoel van te falen, want het was weer mislukt. Ook was er sprake van schaamte, dat een bepaald doel niet kon worden bereikt en dat er dus naar een ander of nieuw doel gestreefd diende te worden.

 

Het nieuwe, maar dan zonder drama, is iedereen vreemd. Toch is dat het enige echte nieuwe. Als we we dus voor de zoveelste keer de plank hebben misgeslagen en besluiten om – met het nieuwe jaar,  het nieuwe huwelijk, de nieuwe baan, de nieuwe aanplak-oogwimpers, de nieuwe I-Phone of met het nieuwe zogenaamde hogere doel – het de volgende keer anders of better te doen, dan doen we nooit of te nimmer dus iets nieuws. We houden onszelf en elkaar voor de gek. We praten over vernieuwing, maar we herhalen, op nog catastrophalere wijze, wat we al eerder deden. Het nieuwe, is niet iets wat ooit in onze gebruikelijk Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) tot z’n recht kan komen. Integendeel, elke keer, als we ons weer op sleeptouw hebben laten nemen en er heilig in geloven, dat het zogenaamde nieuwe vanaf nu zal gaan plaatsvinden, komen we bedrogen uit. 

 

Het komt niet in ons op, dat het nieuwe een andere wijze van praten vraagt, dan onze voorspelbare OT. Zonder Belichaamde Taal (BT) zeggen we nooit iets nieuws. Het toegeven, erkennen en accepteren, dat we altijd hetzelfde zeggen, is de enige wijze waarop wij daadwerkelijk ophouden met onze eigen OT en daardoor eindelijk eens iets nieuws kunnen zeggen. Als we iets nieuws zeggen, weten we altijd meteen dat het echt zo is. We lachen, omdat we zogezegd door de mand zijn gevallen, want er valt nooit iets te lachen met OT. We doen maar alsof we lachen, want ons zogenaamde lachen met OT is verkrampt en gemaakt. Echt lachen gebeurd alleen met BT en is altijd vernieuwend. Uiteraard, valt er niets nieuws te beleven, zolang we stompzinnig blijven lachen.

 

Zogenaamde humor pretendeert over iets nieuws te gaan, maar comedianten zijn suicidaal, verslaafd of depressief. Er wordt ook wel beweerd, dat we uit onze comfort-zone moeten komen, om het nieuwe te kunnen ervaren. Dit is volslagen flauwe kul. Het bevatten van het nieuwe, is een taal-gebeuren dat alleen tot stand kan komen, als we het ouwe op z’n plaats hebben gezet. Hoe doe we dat? Als we het gewoontegetrouw weer over het ouwe hebben, dan vergt onze stem heel veel aandacht. We worden allemaal doodmoe, indien we het ouwe beluisteren. Het nieuwe, daarentegen, geeft ons altijd energie. Belachelijk, eigenlijk, dat we dit nog steeds niet weten, want we doen allemaal alleen maar alsof we dit niet weten. Als we uiteindelijk BT gaan hebben, dan weten we wel degelijk, dat we altijd wisten wat het nieuwe was. We mochten echter in OT nooit zeggen, dat we het nieuwe kenden. Uitsluitend in BT, mogen we en kunnen we het uitvoerig hebben over het nieuwe, dat altijd de doortrapte, leugens van OT doorziet, aantoont en met klank beschrijft.

 

Als we BT hebben, dan beginnen we ieder moment opnieuw. Dat is onze Taal Verlichting (TV). Het nieuwe ontstaat voortdurend en we kunnen dus geen BT hebben, dat verder gaat dan een nieuw moment of een paar nieuwe momenten, als we het nieuwe niet verbalizeren en dus kenbaar maken. Andersgezegd, het nieuwe is ons vreemd, omdat wij het er nog nooit echt over hebben gehad. In plaast van het nieuwe te verworden, te bevatten en dus te belichamen, doen we alsof we opnieuw beginnen, terwijl onze taal niet is om aan te horen. Er is in BT nooit een opnieuw beginnen en daardoor is alles nieuw. Het lezen van deze tekst is natuurlijk iets nieuws. Als je het hardop aan anderen voor zou lezen, dan zouden de toehoorders kunnen beamen,  ook al werden deze woorden in je mond gelegd, het is nieuw, om precies te doen wat er wordt gezegd. 

Anew,

 

Only when everything goes completely wrong do people suddenly talk about starting over. People also say, usually with a sense of defeat, that they have to go all the way back to square one, so to speak, to start all over again. It is strange but true, that so-called innovation has to do with failure for the vast majority of people. What someone did came to naught, all to no avail. And, no matter how much we worry about something, it just doesn't work and there's really no other way, than to honestly admit that we haven't made any progress and that we're even worse off than before. It's old school again and even though people pretend to learn from their mistakes, in reality very little comes of it. There was a feeling of failure, because we did fail again. There was also shame, a certain goal could not be achieved and a different or new goal had to be strived for.

 

The new, but without the usual drama, is a strange phenomenon to everyone. Yet that is the only truly real new thing. If we have missed the mark for the umpteenth time and decide – with the new year, the new marriage, the new job, the new fake-eyelashes, the new I-Phone or the new higher purpose – this time we will do differently or better, then we will never ever do anything new. We fool ourselves and each other. We talk about innovation, but we repeat, even more catastrophically, what we did before. The new, is not something that can ever come into its own in our usual Disembodied Language (DL). Every time, when we have let ourselves be taken in tow again and firmly believe that the so-called new will take place from now on, we are disappointed.

 

It does not occur to us, the new requires a different way of talking than our predictable DL. Without Embodied Language (EL), we never say anything new. Admitting, acknowledging and accepting that we always say the same thing, is the only way we can actually stop with our own DL and finally say something new. When we say something new, we always know immediately that it is true. We're laughing, because we've fallen through the cracks, so to speak, because there's never anything to laugh about with DL. We just pretend to laugh, because our so-called laughter with DL is cramped and fabricated. Real laughter only happens with EL and is always innovative. There is nothing new to experience, as long as we keep laughing stupidly.

 

So-called humor pretends to be about something new, but all comedians are suicidal, addicted or depressed. It is also said, that we have to get out of our comfort zone to experience the new. This is complete bullshit. Embracing the new is a language event that can only come about when we have put the old in its place. And, how do we do that? When we go back to the old as usual, our voice demands a lot of attention. We all get tired, if we listen to the old. The new, on the other hand, always energizes us. Ridiculous, actually, that we still don't know this, because we're all just pretending we don't know. When we end up having EL, then we know that we always knew what was new. However, in DL we were never allowed to say that we knew the new. Exclusively in EL, may we and can we speak at length about the new, which always sees through, demonstrates, and describes with sound of our own voice the cunning, painful lies of DL. If we have ongoing EL, we'll start over every second. This is our Language Enlightenment (LE). The new is constantly emerging and so, we cannot have EL beyond a new moment or a only few new moments, if we do not verbalize and make known the new. In other words, the new is foreign to us, because we have never talked about it. Instead of becoming, comprehending and embodying the new, we pretend to start over, while our language is not to be heard. There is never any need for a new start in EL and everything is new. Reading this text is also something new. If you read it aloud to others, the audience would agree, even if these words were put in your mouth, it is new, to do exactly what is said.

 

Marbles,

 

Today, as nobody seemed to realize I was there, I felt so present. I remembered all those times, in the past, I didn’t feel seen or heard. I couldn’t stand it, back then, but now, it was a blissful opportunity, to be in a situation, that allowed me to disappear.

 

As a kid, I always made sure, I was nowhere to be found and to my recollection, nobody ever came looking for me. People quickly gave up on me, as I didn’t want to compete for anything, I didn’t want to have. However, I have always done my very best to get what I wanted, but only to discover, again and again, that I was wrong. Yet, I firmly believed, I wanted many different things. For the most part, I always managed to get what I wanted, but once I had achieved it, I felt disappointed, as it was not as enjoyable as I had hoped and I gave up on it again.

 

Often, I was told, I was ungrateful, to not continue with the chances I had been given, but, as far as I am concerned, I have always felt incredibly grateful  for what I got. Not surprisingly, I often felt guilty, for receiving so much, yet not being able to do anything with it. I felt undeserving, as it came to me so easy. However, the reality was, I always worked very hard for it, but somehow it never felt that way to me. 

 

I guess, I am used to working hard. I always felt that anything I wanted was within my reach, by putting my energy in it. Nevertheless, as I became older, it became more and more dissatisfying to attain what I, presumably, wanted, because each time, it turned out to be something I didn’t want, once I got it. I was afflicted with eternal dissatisfaction and came to a point, where I ran out of things that I wanted.

 

Why could I not have one profession, one goal, one path? I had been satisfied so often, but each time, I was having what I had worked for, I wanted it no more. I am reminded of playing marbles as a child. It was the biggest competition I have ever engaged in. All the kids of my neighborhood played marbles, everywhere. A gap in between the pavers on the sidewalk or a crack close to the wall, was the spot where our marbles would land. Kids were proudly and possessively carrying their bags full of marbles around. It was a fierce contest, which involved a lot of arguments and yelling about the rules.

 

We all knew the rules, but nobody knew where they had come from. The rules were often even adjusted to the particular spot, where we were playing, just before the game started or during the game, as certain disagreements had to first be settled. I liked it so much, I had become one of the best marble players. Our battles continued until the street lamps came on and we had to return our home for dinner.

 

One day, I beat all of the best players and I carried two big buckets full of marbles. Some marbles were ordinary and damaged, because they had been used so often, but others were brand new, colorful and special, they were worth ten times as much as the others. I won them all. As I came home, I looked at the buckets and immediately knew what I was going to do. The next day, I announced, that, after school, I would throw all my marbles on the street, in front of my house, as I didn’t want them anymore.

 

After school, I walked home together with a whole bunch of kids from our street. I went inside, to get the two buckets of marbles and when I came back out, it seemed as if many more kids had gathered for this unusual ceremony. However, none of my  former competitors, who had lost, were there, only those, who were not so good at playing marbles,  who had watched us play and see me win and win.

 

It was like some sort of scene from a Robin Hood movie. It felt, as if I had stolen all the marbles from the best players and I was now going to give them back to everyone, who had lost their marbles to them. Many of these players were sour losers and had cheated, as they intimidated the other kids, but I didn’t let that happen to me. I had won from all of them. I felt like some sort of hero, but my brother, tried to stop me and said that I was crazy. I emptied each bucket and hundreds of marbles bounced and rolled over the sidewalk, while fifteen kids were on hands and knees, picking up as many as they could.

 

Within minutes, the street was empty and everyone was gone, as if nothing had ever happened. I never played marbles after that, but I am sure, anyone who was there, remembers what a great happening it was. It felt so good to give them away. After I had discovered my Embodied Language (EL), I still, so to speak, wanted to give away all my marbles, but almost nobody seemed to want them. Those who come to me, they get a lot, as I have no one else to give to. Losers, who continue with Disembodied Language (DL), are unwilling to admit, that it is true: they have really lost all their marbles. I had such fun playing this game. Winning these beautiful marbles equals the accumulative effects of my ongoing EL, which resulted my recognition of my Language Enlightenment (LE), the game I like to play today.