Representatie,

 

De grootste leugen, in stand gehouden door onze gemeenschappelijke manier van praten – die de toon zet voor de manier waarop we met onze taal omgaan – is representatie, of, om het beknopter te zeggen, dat de ene persoon zogenaamd de stem van iemand anders kan zijn en zogenaamd het woord doet voor anderen. Dit is precies waar het individualisme wordt verlaten en hoe groepsaanhankelijkheid wordt gecreëerd, gehandhaafd en uitgebuit.

 

De taal zelf brengt het risico met zich mee dat we de beschrijving verwarren met het beschrevene. Het is duidelijk dat het woord appel niet de appel is. Ons onvermogen om de taal correct te gebruiken is echter niet zo eenvoudig als het zogenaamde zeggen waar het op staat. We laten ons meeslepen door wat we zeggen, omdat we geen aandacht besteden aan hoe we het zeggen. Met andere woorden: we spreken, maar we luisteren niet naar onszelf terwijl we spreken, omdat het vermoedelijk alleen van belang is of anderen naar ons luisteren. Om het probleem te overwinnen om anderen naar ons te laten luisteren, proberen we anderen te overtuigen, te beïnvloeden, te bekeren of te manipuleren.

 

Ontlichaamde Taal (OT) – of onze gebruikelijke manier van praten, waarbij de sprekers nooit echt naar zichzelf luisteren, omdat het hun doel is om anderen naar hen te laten luisteren – legt de nadruk op representatie en daarom zijn we eindeloos in gevecht met elkaar, over wiens geloof of theorie de werkelijkheid beter weergeeft. Strijd om aandacht is, niet verrassend, het belangrijkste kenmerk van OT. We proberen elkaar in OT te domineren en te controleren met onze verbale representatie of verhaal. Maar, door dit te doen, laten we onszelf in de steek, terwijl we onszelf en elkaar opofferen op het altaar van wat in de Bijbel wordt beschreven als het Gouden Kalf.

 

Onze terugkeer, naar wie we zijn, vereist onze Belichaamde Taal (BT), waarin we naar onszelf luisteren terwijl we spreken en daarom alleen voor onszelf spreken. Een dergelijke manier van praten vormt de basis voor een geheel andere manier om onze taal te gebruiken. In BT laten we ons niet meeslepen door wat we zeggen, omdat we graag naar onszelf luisteren en ons bewust zijn van hoe we zeggen, wat we zeggen en waarom we het zeggen. Bovendien wordt onze ervaring versterkt en verduidelijkt door onze taal. In BT zijn onze woorden niet – zoals dat zeker het geval is in OT – een gedissocieerde, onsamenhangende, vervormde representatie van onze ervaring, maar ze valideren onze ervaring.

 

Vanwege onze OT, die nooit goed werd begrepen en uitgelegd met onze BT, zitten alle mensen over de gehele wereld nog steeds vast in de hardnekkige overtuiging dat onze zogenaamde verklaring of representatie van onze realiteit belangrijker is dan de realiteit zelf. Als je plotseling een snaterend geluid hoort en omhoog kijkt in de blauwe lucht en een groep ganzen in V-formatie ziet overvliegen, weet je heel goed, dat het deze ganzen niets kan schelen wat jij zegt. Mensen in democratische samelevingen geloven graag dat het recht op vertegenwoordiging zich over de hele wereld gaan verspreiden, maar wat ongemerkt overal wordt gepropageerd is OT.

 

Hoewel er – alleen in westerse beschavingen – enige beweging in de richting van individualisme heeft plaatsgevonden, heeft de zogenaamde vrijheid van meningsuiting nooit geleid tot de erkenning van BT, die voorgoed een einde maakt aan de verwoestende massapsychosen, die worden veroorzaakt door de waan van representatie. Meer dan ooit hebben we BT nodig, de taal van het individualisme. Ik kan dit met zekerheid zeggen, aangezien ik 100% gelijk heb – en altijd heb gehad – in mijn beoordeling van wat OT en wat BT is. Met andere woorden: als je BT in plaats van OT wil hebben, zul je met mij moeten praten en ook naar mij moeten luisteren. Maar, ik vertegenwoordig BT niet en ik geef geen BT les, ook al heb ik het elke dag. Alleen door BT bij mij te hebben, kan en zal het duidelijk worden, dat representatie de ultieme vijand is van het individu en dat ben jij.

 

Hoewel het één ding is om het grote verschil tussen je OT en je BT te erkennen, is het iets heel anders om door te gaan met je eigen BT en om te beginnen te leven als een waardig individu en om OT in de vuilnisbak van de geschiedenis te gooien. Zelfs als het je maar één moment van BT lukt, is het je meteen duidelijk, dat doorgaan met je eigen BT iets heel  buitengewoons is, omdat iedereen onbewust bezig is met OT. Eén ervaring van jou BT is inderdaad genoeg om je leven voor altijd te veranderen en om te besluiten, hoe groot de uitdaging ook is, dat je door wilt gaan met je BT. De reden dat dit mogelijk is, is omdat je doorlopende BT geen representatie is van je Taal Verlichting (TV), maar het is je TV.

 

Representation,

 

The biggest lie, perpetuated by our common way of talking – which sets the stage for how we are dealing with our language – is representation or, to put it more succinctly, that one person, supposedly, can be the voice for someone else. This is exactly, where individualism is departed and how group adherence is created, maintained and exploited.

 

Language itself poses the risk, that we mistake the description for the described. Obviously, the word apple, is not the apple. However, our failure of using language correctly, isn’t as simple as calling a spade a spade. We get carried away by what we say, as we don’t pay attention to how we say it. In other words,  we speak, but we don’t listen to ourselves, while we speak, because, presumably, what matters only is if others are listening to us. To overcome the problem of getting others to listen to us, we try to persuade, influence, convert, convince or manipulate others.

 

Disembodied Language (DL) –  or, our usual way of talking, in which the speakers never really listen to themselves, as it is their objective, to get others to listen to them – emphasizes representation and we are, therefore, endlessly fighting with one another, about whose belief or theory better represents the reality. Struggle for attention, not surprisingly, is the main characteristic of DL. We try to dominate and control each other with our verbal representation or narrative. Yet, by doing so, we abandon ourselves, as we sacrifice ourselves and each other on the altar of what in Bible was described as the Golden Calf.

 

Our return, to who we are, requires our Embodied Language (EL), in which we listen to ourselves while we speak and, therefore, only speak for ourselves. Such a way of talking, sets the stage for an entirely different way of using our language. In EL, we aren’t carried away by what we say, as we enjoy listening to ourselves and are aware about how we say, what we say and why we say it. Moreover, our experience is enhanced and clarified by our language. In EL, our words are not – as they certainly are in DL – some dissociated, disconnected, distorted representation our experience, but they validate our experience.  

 

Due to our DL, which was never properly addressed by our EL, people around the world, are still stuck in the tenacious belief, that our so-called explanation or representation of our reality, is more important than reality itself. If you suddenly hear a chattering sound and look up in the blue sky and see geese fly over in V-formation, you know very well, that these geese don’t care about anything you say. People in democratic countries like to believe, that the right to representation is spreading around the world, but what keeps being propagated everywhere is DL.

 

While there has been some movement – only in Western civilizations – towards individualism, all of the so-called freedom of speech, never led to the establishment of EL, which permanently dissolves the devastating mass-psychoses, which are caused by the delusion of representation. More than ever, do we need EL, the language of individualism. I can say this with absolute authority, as I am – and have always been – 100% correct in my assessment of what is DL and what is EL. In other words, if we are going to have EL instead of DL, you will have to talk with and listen to me. I don’t represent or teach EL, but I have EL every day. Only by having EL with me, can and will it become clear, that representation is the ultimate enemy of the individual, which is you.

 

While it is one thing, to acknowledge the difference between your DL and your EL, it is quite another, to continue with your own EL and to begin to live like an individual and leave DL in the dust-bin of history. Even if you only succeed in having one moment of EL, it is immediately clear, that continuing with your own EL is something extra-ordinary, because everyone unconsciously engages in DL. Indeed, one instance of EL is enough to change your life forever and make you decide, no matter how great the challenge, you want to go on with EL. The reason this is possible, is because your ongoing EL isn’t a representation of your Language Enlightenment (LE), but it is your LE.  

 

Maximus,

 

I am Maximus and my name means something, which, only recently, I have come to fully accept. I am grateful, my father, gave me this name. It means the greatest. Several saints were called Maximus, including a seventh-century monk, theologian and scholar, known as Maximus the Confessor. I never knew Maximus is a typical name for a philosopher, a sage, a scholar or a theologian. I have discovered something really great, profound and beautiful.

 

My greatness isn’t arrogance, but it is my truth and ability to communicate who I am. If you get to know me, you will get to know yourself. Maximus equals self-knowledge, which is only acquired by Embodied Language (EL). I ridicule your pettiness for a reason, because I don’t even believe, that you have a mind. Without a mind, you can’t be called small-minded. Since you can’t talk in a meaningful way about your language and since you are only into small-talk, you engage in Disembodied Language (DL). You pretend, that your unintelligent, mechanical, effortful way of using language is important, but, in my opinion, it is utterly useless. Actually, your DL undermines you, but you are too much of a coward and too phony, to explore, why your craziness continues.

 

When I came to the United States, it struck me, that each time I said my name is Maximus, people would ask me: you go by Max? They immediately abbreviated my name. It happened so often, it used to piss me off. At some point, I got tired of insisting to be called Maximus, as it seems to be something of the superficial, superstitious American culture. I  was told repeatedly, that my attention for language is really deep, but, calling it deep is a defense to not get into it. Even when people miraculously become somewhat familiar with their EL – I taught many students about it – they still tend to minimize it, by considering it a theory, a concept, a perspective, a tool or a technique. Basically, people can’t stand EL, because it is too vast, too all-encompassing and too overwhelming. Surrender is the only way to come to know more about EL. I don’t want or need anyone to follow me, because EL is about expressing and following and acting on your own language.

 

My name has come to acquire a new meaning. To me, Maximus means authority. I am knowledgeable on what I speak and write about and people should have the respect, to listen to me and read my work with great care. My understanding is apparent and agreeing with me is instantaneously transformative. If you type my full name, Maximus Peperkamp, you can listen to my songs and talks about DL and EL, on my You Tube channel. Anyone, who takes time to listen to my songs or hear me speak, must wonder, how is it possible, that one person can have such a  variety of songs and is capable of saying what he says, with such certainty, clarity and authenticity?   

 

Many people have heard about Maximus Decimus Meridius from the movie, the Gladiator. Commodus – the emperor’s son, who kills his own father (Marcus Aurelius) – demands Maximus’s allegiance, but Maximus refuses and somehow manages to escape Commodus’s men. Later, after Maximus has entered the Colosseum, Commodus asks him “Why doesn’t the hero reveal himself and tell us all your real name?”, but Maximus replies” My name is Gladiator.” Commodus objects, because that’s not his name, but his role. Maximus then takes off his helmet and tells Commodus, who he really is. “My name is Maximus Decidius Meridus, commander of the armies of the North, General of the Felix Legions and loyal servant to the true emperor, Marcus Aurelius. Father of a murdered son. Husband to a murdered wife. And I will have my vengeance, in this life or the next.” If I look back, on where I have been and what I have done, I’ve also been a fighting for my freedom with my DL. However, I took off my helmet, by declaring myself enlightened. My Language Enlightenment (LE) isn’t vengeance, but liberation. I have put DL in its place: DL is on its death bed. Due to my allegiance to my EL, I am victorious and have become crystal clear about my LE.

 

With DL, we, unknowingly, conceal our identity, but with EL, we reveal and come to know who we really are. Those who refuse to talk with me or listen to me, aren’t ready yet to acknowledge who they are. Quite literally, they can’t say what they want to say. Of course, they too want to be who they are, but, as long as they don’t say it, they can’t be who they are. You can’t say who you are with DL and saying it with EL can only happen, once you have stopped your DL. It is said, seeing is believing, but – you may quote me on that – Maximus says: saying is believing, because only then, you can and will hear yourself.

 

Lastly, the Gluteus Maximus, commonly referred to as your butt, is a strong hip stabilizer. If the Gluteus Maximus is weak, trunk lurches backward (Gluteus Maximus Lurch) at heel-strike on weakened side to interrupt forward motion. The Gluteus Maximus, is the largest muscle of our body, without which we cannot stand or walk erectly. It is due to this muscle that humans, unlike other primates with flatter hips, are bipedal. The Gluteus Maximus plays a major role in walking. Walking and talking go well together and when we talk and walk together, we move physically in the same direction and are more likely to become  psychologically attuned to ourselves and each other.             

 

Lost,

 

Human beings have been lost – and will continue to be lost – as long as they don’t listen to their own voice, while they speak. It doesn’t matter what their ideology is or which belief is, presumably, better. We are hearing and seeing the inevitable consequences of our Disembodied Language (DL), in which talking with others, supposedly, is more important than talking with ourselves. It is impossible, to have any kind of positive feelings about others, if our usual way of talking doesn’t permit us, to express positive feelings about ourselves. Once we begin to listen to ourselves, while we speak with ourselves, we find out – to our own astonishment – that we don’t like our own tone of voice, because we sound negative.

 

We will only stop trying, to get others to listen to us and to, inadvertently engage in and perpetuate DL, when we, finally, begin to listen to ourselves. While we take our first steps with our Embodied Language (EL), we realize, with great relief and without any doubt, that all of mankind has been lost, due to our common, delusional, violent use of language. This is a matter of utmost urgency, as our DL sets the stage for all our other self-defeating behaviors. Moreover, our accepted, scripted, forceful, unconscious way of using language, pits us – as members of groups, we believe to belong to – against each other and breeds problems, hatred, conflicts, and, ultimately, wars.

 

When someone goes crazy, we say, that he or she has lost his or her mind, but we don’t acknowledge, there is no such a thing, as a mind. What is lost for the person, who experiences, what we call mental health issues, is language. Whether we know it or not, acknowledge it or not or are aware of it or not, we want to get rid of our dreadful DL, but we don’t know how to do this. We only know how to distract from our language, as DL can’t be talked about with  DL and can only be properly addressed with our EL.

 

We are used to – and we expect DL – the language of regret. We say, lost time cannot be replaced, but I say to you: nothing is lost and everything falls into place, once you have EL. Our obsession with time, is due to how we deal with language. Nobody seems to have time for anything, because their DL makes them ignore their own needs, but I always have time for what is important to me. Yes, I effortlessly acquire whatever I need and I am happy to be who I am. I feel very satisfied with and proud about what I have accomplished, because, with my ongoing EL, I have expressed my Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

DL is a lost cause, yet, everyone engages in it, every day, without knowing it. Human beings have been forever trying to dominate, manipulate, exploit and exterminate each other, since their language didn’t offer them any other option. As you keep trying to address DL with DL, you become more insidious. It is  clear to me, your convoluted talk about equality, doesn’t address or establish any EL. Your DL will have to be stopped first, before you can have EL.

 

I am reminded of a poem, I wrote many years ago. Of course, it was an early notion, that DL had to be

stopped first, before we could have any EL. So, what is lost, is DL, because with EL, we express and, thus, realize, our LE, our natural, effortless, peaceful self.

 

If you could be

Lost with me

Yes you

You are lost too

If we could sit

And truly admit

That we are lost

Where would we be

No more you

No more me

If we were lost

We would be free

 

In spite of all our science and technology, we don’t have any real understanding about the immense importance of the great difference between DL and EL. However, there are always individuals, who are less violent than others, who are more peaceful and more accommodating, but no matter how hard the softies have tried – it’s called Stockholm Syndrome, look it up – to please the hard-asses, DL was never properly addressed, as I do, on this blog, with my EL.

 

Although some people read my blog or listen to my songs and talks – about DL, EL and LE – on You Tube, I don’t get any responses. Nobody approaches me, to talk with me about EL and LE. Remarkably, while the whole world is going up in flames, I continue to calmly express my LE with me EL. I am not lost, like you, because your DL means nothing to me. Indeed, I am my own authority, as I am fully responsible for my own life. The bigger, the senseless chaos and the meaningless killing and conflict, which is created and maintained by your DL, the clearer is my EL, which expresses my true self, which I call my LE.         

 

Amazing,

 

It is truly amazing what happens, when you listen to yourself, while you speak. You never say, what you have said again. What you have said, is gone for good and there is no repetition, ever. Due to our usual way of talking, we deal with our language in the repetitive way we currently do. We commonly engage in Disembodied Language (DL), in which we don’t listen to ourselves and make it seem, as if this is how things will always continue to be. In effect, we are constantly defending against our natural way of using language – our Embodied Language (EL) – which, not surprisingly, happens only briefly, accidentally and unconsciously. We are so annoyed, stressed, frustrated and anxious, that our EL can’t continue, we want to forget about it completely.

 

We all hear and experience – each day – the world is falling apart, at an amazing rate. There is no other explanation for this tremendous decline, than with our EL, but since we have, unknowingly, given up on our EL, things spiral out of control and we seem to have no other choice, than to continue with our DL. However, our DL causes the chaos and conflict we witness and continuing with it makes things worse.

 

If a hammer is your only tool, everything starts to look like a nail. With your insensitive DL, you are but a fool, to believe, that your language is a tool. Surely, your language works against you, that is why you imagine you are stuck in your mind. Of course, language is a behavior and not a thing. It would be an amazing behavior, if you acquired EL, but it is a self-defeating behavior, if you continue business as usual with DL.

 

In DL, you use this word – amazing – so very often, because your sad reality is, that nothing is amazing. You falsely believe, you can change your reality, by repeating or singing certain words. This is what all people do, who practice so-called spirituality. Every American knows this famous hymn, Amazing Grace. It is no coincidence, the first line of this song goes like this: “Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now I’m found, was blind, but now I see.” If there is any truth to hearing a redeeming sound, it must have been a human being, but not god, who expressed some EL. Furthermore, it has nothing to do with being bling and then, being able to see, but with being psychologically deaf and then, being able to hear and act, as a genuine individual, on your own truth, with your own EL.   

 

Someone like me, who knows the great difference between DL and EL, is no longer surprised, when people – only for a few blissful moments – consider and explore their own EL, but then go on with their dreadful life, as if nothing happened. Paradoxically, once they find out, their ongoing EL expresses their  own Language Enlightenment (LE), they hastily and often apologetically withdraw from this enchanting experience of creating their own reality. Their justification for this is, they don’t succeed in sharing their EL and LE with others. They couldn’t cope with the undeniable fact, only they knew about it, while others, with DL, don’t want to know about it. They would feel discouraged, that their happy experience was only for them, as that would be unbearable. It is amazing, how someone could be so perceptive at one moment and clueless the next. They would say that about others, not realizing, they were actually projecting and always just talking about themselves.

 

Although I have known about my EL and my LE for many years, I still experience each day, the amazing reversal of all kinds of detrimental behaviors, which, obviously, were caused and maintained by my own DL. It is such immense relief to notice, that these unnatural behaviors stop by themselves and simply fall by the way side, although, like everyone else with DL, I too have struggled because of them for a long time. My fight is over. I experience the amazing grace, which is released by my EL. It is as true for me as it is for others, that because I couldn’t share my EL and LE – that is, my happiness – with them, I just couldn’t and didn’t believe it myself. If you go to my You Tube channel, you can hear me sing and speak about this and get a feel for your own EL and LE.          

 

Ending,

 

Today is the last day of October and the ending of a dreadful process, which has prevented happy things from happening. Although you may not realize this, your Disembodied Language (DL) has been officially put to rest, by me. The only way forward, for you, is with your own Embodied Language (EL). However, your unwillingness, to find out about EL, is your loss, because each of us can only benefit from our own EL. I can show you my EL and I am benefitted from it, but my sharing only matters, if you start to have your own EL. You don’t respond to my writing and you don’t contact me, because you want me or someone else to do, what you must do for yourself.

 

You want a silly story with a happy ending, because you tend to hang on to the illusion, that everything is going to be alright. However, nothing is going to be alright, as long as your DL continues. Things only will begin to improve, once you start to have some EL. And, even when you had some EL, you would still hesitate to end your DL, as you have been used to it your entire life. Ending your DL, implies a total transformation, from which you quickly shy away, because you have to create a whole new way of life.

 

Today, I was having my lunch, near a beautiful lake. I sat there, looking out, over the quiet water and was listening to the sound of birds. Suddenly, I heard the loud sound of a heavy motor-cycle, right behind me. I hoped the person, who arrived, would turn off his engine, but the noise continued. Next thing I know, a guy, dressed in black leather, wearing a German helmet, briskly walks up to me and hands me this little colorful card, which says: Jezus loves you. The moment I see what is on the card, I tell him to take it back and that I don’t want it. I asked him: why don’t you live your own life? He walked away saying: because I didn’t create my own life. Presumably, his life was created by god. Apparently, he wasn’t too sure about that belief, as he tried to convert me. I said to him, while he was sticking some of his cards between the bathroom door: you just don’t want to be responsible for creating your own life. He drove off fast, with an angry roaring sound, then, it was quiet again. I liked the ending of this little episode.  

 

In DL, misery follows you in a never-ending pursuit. I didn’t make it so, that DL has its inevitable negative consequences. Your ignorance about this fact makes you repeat your problems and keeps you hopelessly stuck. Language is the only way out, but, of course, not your usual, unconscious, insensitive DL. Your DL has to stop and only you can stop it, but since you don’t know, you can’t stop it, you believe you have to keep going with it. When you stop your own DL, you will know, you have made the ending of your DL possible.

 

There is a beginning and an ending to your DL, but with your EL, there is only a beginning. In effect, EL is always new. When you worry, that your world will be ending, you are absolutely right, it will come to an end, as your DL will end. Although your DL can come to an end and although you can have some EL, DL will certainly begin again, because you were conditioned to have DL, not EL. If you want to have EL, you have to acknowledge, every time your DL is ending and beginning again, only then EL happens.

 

When your DL is ending, you will stop defending, pretending, offending, spending or condescending.  I am strongly recommending the ending of your lack of attending. In DL, while you keep depending, you are descending into a quagmire trouble, but in EL, you are comprehending and ascending, to a higher level of befriending. With EL, you are amending, but in DL, you are overextending. I didn’t make this up.

 

At some point, all behavior is ending and nothing of what we were so upset, worried, stressed, fearful, angry or confused about, matters anymore. We can experience this stillness, this death, while we speak and have ongoing EL. The continuation of our EL, is our Language Enlightenment (LE), which makes us  die and let go of our language, while we are alive. The peace of LE is unimaginable, as it is real. Our LE is the ending of our suffering and it is a great joy, to continuously explore and express this with our EL.

 

As we, knowingly, skillfully and deliberately express our LE with our ongoing EL, our inferiority complex is ending, as it is no longer maintained by our DL. It is unknown to those, who don’t know yet about the great difference between DL and EL, that everyone with DL has feelings of inadequacy or unworthiness, which are, however, not caused by parenting styles, trauma, abuse, social pressure or lower status, but by how we mechanically use our language. Our DL will not be ending, because we want it to end, but because acknowledge it for what it really is, because we listen to ourselves and we hear the sound of our own voice.    

 

Rest,

 

I only have Embodied Language (EL), if my speaking or my writing, deepens my experience of rest. When I talk out loud with myself or write for myself – like I do on this blog – it is very apparent, this is the case. I can hear it, in the tone of my voice and I read it, in the words I have written. EL is always very satisfying.

 

My conditioning with Disembodied Language (DL), is different from everyone else, because I don’t deny it. Those, who don’t acknowledge and know the great difference between DL and EL, are ignorant about the fact, that they could also stop their DL and have EL. I am not. I neither care about my own DL nor about the DL of others. My EL lets all DL rest.

 

Although, initially, it felt like it – because I was used to the rush of my own DL – my EL doesn’t cause my rest, but it simply expresses my restfulness. In other words, only if I am calm, do I embody my language.  So, in the past, even while I was feeling peaceful, I couldn’t express it, as I didn’t have, like I do now, the language to express it. Stated differently, my DL never allowed me, to rest while I was speaking.

 

In DL, we never take a rest, as we are continuously hyped-up, stressed, anxious, frustrated, angry or confused. And, if we, seemingly, take a short break from our energy-draining DL, we habitually always do something – watch football, overeat, race cars, use drugs – to distract from our language. So, we never experience any rest in how we use language.

 

Of course, in spite of all the chaos and conflict, we experience every day, we still manage to have brief moments of rest, but these short-lived moments of relief, are unable to find their way into our way of talking, listening, writing and reading, because we, unconsciously, continue with our DL. And, even if we experience a little quiet time, by reading a book, this doesn’t translate in our own peaceful talking, listening or writing, about a serene use of language.

 

Our chronic lack of rest, during our common way of talking, sets the stage for unhealthy, compensatory behaviors, which facilitate an escape from our own negative feelings. Consequently, talking determines how we use language and in DL, we use language, to ignore our worn-out, unhappy experiences. It already starts early, while we learn to speak and it usually continues throughout our lives, until we die.

 

When someone dies, we say: may he or she rest in peace. Hilariously, it is the ultimate phrase of denial, to express a wish, which, presumably, is meant for the deceased, to be free from trouble and to have peace in death. However, death is the end of all our experiences and, therefore, it is only when someone dies, that we may suddenly experience a wake-up call about our own mortality. In effect, we don’t say our well-wishes for the deceased, but for ourselves.

 

In EL, we die, while we are still alive, to our previous way of using our language. Basically, we put our DL to rest. Moreover, we don’t die only once, because, unless we die, again and again, to our dreadful DL, each time it rears its ugly head, we will continue to create a restless life, that is full of conflict, violence and despair. And, each time we die, we are reborn in an experience of blissful rest, in which we speak and hear about our Language Enlightenment (LE).

 

With ongoing EL, we experience eternal rest and peace, because we have died to our conditioning history with DL. Finally, we can and we do express our rest, which, of course, is our wellbeing. Thus, our LE is expressed by our EL and nothing stops us from doing that, as we keep taking time, to talk out loud, alone, with ourselves, to listen to the sound our own voice, which expresses, who we really are.

 

Certainly, the phrase R.I.P. is only said to the living, to express condolences and sympathy, to the family and friends of the deceased. It is astonishing, that, as of yet, we are only capable of expressing our EL, when someone has died. Presumably, we comfort others, who experience the loss, with the illusion, that they may, at long last, rest in peace, especially if they have had many struggles in life. However, we all experience an unnatural existence, full of battle and effort with our DL. Perhaps, we only have a shot at acquiring our own EL, when we mourn the dead?

 

I am reminded of my dear father-in-law. At the time of his death, I was in the final stretch of my Ph.D. study in Psychology. I had completed all my course work and I was writing on my dissertation about loss (!), while accruing clinical hours as a therapist. My wife’s dad died after he was found to have brain cancer. By the time they discovered it, it had already metastasized. His beautiful death and the spreading of his ashes on the ocean, created a break from my arduous effort, to achieve that doctorate degree. It was a turning-point, because of which I suddenly realized, there was no rest anymore in my life. I was suffering so much and soon afterwards, I quit my graduate study. After I withdrew, we left the busy Bay Area again and returned back to Chico, where I became a psychology instructor for many years.

 

It is already a couple of years ago, I quit teaching psychology. Although I have, for all these years, known about my EL, I wasn’t experiencing the deep sense of rest, it has come to represent, at this point in my life. However, I am very sure, I don’t have an eternal soul, which doesn’t cease to exist after I die. Dying to our own DL, according to me, is much more important, than the death everyone creates such a  big fuzz about. We are all going to die, so why not try this possibility of EL and experience this rest and peace, while we come alive, while we speak?