Need,

 

We never really talk about our need for humor. Yes, our need for humor is always somehow glossed over. You need to come closer to yourself. 

 

Presumably, it isn’t funny enough to address it, yet, it is precisely, because we don’t want talk about our need for humor, that we laugh as little as we do.

 

Supposedly, it is a lame subject to talk about, that we just want to have some fun, but we’ve got to start somewhere. Regarding laughter, there is a little need for discussion. You don’t need to tell any jokes.

 

Of course, our lack of humor is a great place to start, but everyone dreads it. The question arises: how do we even begin to consider the possibility, that we could be laughing? We feel as dead as a doornail.

 

I guess, it is merely a matter of being reminded of it. This kind of rubs our nose into the sad fact, that we don’t know how to laugh and have a good time. You have a need for practice and a need for a favor.

 

You haven’t laughed whole-heartedly for as long as you can remember, so being reminded of that, isn’t doing you any good. Such complaints aren’t helping either, because how are you going to get out of your laughter-hiatus, if you didn’t talk about it?

 

You want fun immediately, without first talking about your own obvious resistance to it, but that didn’t succeed and that is actually the reason, that you had forgotten about your laughter for so long.

 

It is painfully clear, you must talk about laughter first, but in a funny way, not in a serious way. You don’t want to get serious about laughter, but that is the point I’m making. You never took your need for laughter serious enough, to have more of it.

 

Yes, if anything, you need to get more serious, not less serious about laughter and about everything that might invite it, jump-start it, support it and enhance it. All I need you to do, is to let it happen.

 

Anything will do, so you basically can laugh about everything. Of course, there has to be something that you want to laugh about. Surely, you don’t find funny, what I find funny. I need you to have your own opinion about your laughter. In time of need, you must take the lead, proceed and then succeed.

 

You are even offended by what I find funny and you are so jealous with the laughter and the joy of others, because you have never even bothered to pay attention to your own sense of humor. And, you don’t need to think about it, but you need to just say it or write it, so you can hear it and read it.  

 

Let’s face it, the humor of others has always discouraged you from finding your own humor and from expressing what is funny to you. Your humor was never good enough and you already dismissed it, before you let yourself know. You don’t need to be distracted by the humor of others anymore.

 

This is why you considered yourself to be not funny and this is why you let other people be funny at your expense. Yes, it has never even occurred to you, that while you were laughing at others, you were always missing out on your own humor.

 

You didn’t even notice, as your humor never got your attention. How can you give it attention, if you don’t direct any energy to your own laughter? You are always so busy with other things, but not with your own humor? You need to proof to yourself that you can be funny, by making yourself laugh.

 

Of course, you need to figure out, how to catch a hold of your own humor. It seems impossible, to possess that so-called magic sense of humor, because although you are always talking about whether someone is catching the joke or not, this is not about catching, but about allowing, receiving, opening, exploring and throwing, as much as you can and seeing and hearing whatever sticks.  

 

Perhaps, it is the good old kitchen sink, that needs to be thrown, instead of again the child with the bath water? I’m just saying, I’m trying to put myself in your shoes and help you problem-solve. By the way, these shoes, you are wearing, are they actually yours or are you walking in someone else’s shoes?

 

Who is to decide for you what is funny? Perhaps, it didn’t make any sense, to wait for the other shoe to drop? Why are you trying to keep up with humor of others, but not with your own? There is no need to rush. Go slowly into your need for beginner's humor.

 

Yes, your humor will come, when you calm the fuck down. Just chill and say what you can say and begin to become funnier and funnier, by warming up, so to speak. You need to say it, to feel it. You need to gather more information about your favorite topic.

 

Preparation for humor is just as important, as the actual joke, because there can’t be any joke without it. Start with the beginning and go into what you haven’t said, instead of saying what you always say. You need to show up for your own performance and yes, you need to be here, in this funny atmosphere.

 

What you always say is boring and boring isn’t funny, but saying that, is a little bit funny, as it is true. You will be funny, when you say what is true. Repeating lies is not a laughing matter. You don’t need to abide by the rules. You have no need to lie to yourself. You don’t need special qualities, but you urgently need to tell yourself what is funny. You need to run from anyone, who doesn’t like your fun.