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Now that I have recognized that my Language Enlightenment (LE) could only be expressed by my ongoing Embodied Language (EL), my history with Disembodied Language (DL) recedes further and further into the background. Yesterday, I briefly spoke with someone, who noticed my accent and asked where I was from. I told him, I immigrated to the United States from the Netherlands in 1999. He  asked, if I still had family in Holland and if had been back and I said, I never felt the urge, as my life is happening here. He then spoke of his own family with whom he had disconnected, after his mother had died and he found out, he had two half-sisters from other men, than his long-ago deceased father. He had tried to stay in touch, but, apparently, there was no real contact. He let me know, it is okay to go our own way and not be worried about the family we grew up in. It was interesting, as he seemed to tell me this, to be able to say it to himself. I could hear, he was getting a little emotional, but he had said it correctly. We shared a genuine moment.

 

Whenever we disclose our authentic experience, we dissolve. The experience, whatever it may be, is what it is. There’s no one trying to be better than the other, trying to compete, by, presumably, being the owner or the cause of a more important, better experience. Thus, during EL, nobody is bragging, pretending, manipulating, hiding or rejecting. Of course, we have all experienced such instances of EL, but we never continued with it, as our ability to experience these precious moments, has always depended on the absence of the experiencer.

 

When we honestly communicate our experience, the experiencer dissolves in experiencing the expression of his or her experience. However, this is incorrect, as there really wasn’t any experiencer, in the first place. There never was an experiencer, as there was always only our experience, but our DL wouldn’t let us see it that way. Only with ongoing EL do we get clear on that. The continuation of our EL, which – when we begin to discover the difference between DL and EL – seems like an impossible task, is enhanced by our persistent attention for the fact, that there truly is no one inside of us, separate from our experience, who is having the experience. If one can stay with that, one experiences one’s LE, that is, one’s EL continues without any sense of identity.

 

Your EL happens by itself, as there is nobody, who is doing it. Whatever you do happens by itself, without someone, who does it. Thus, you speak, but there’s no speaker, you write, but there’s no writer, you walk, but there’s no walker or you sleep, but there’s no sleeper. This reality is only expressed by EL. You see, but there’s no seer, you understand, but there’s no one who understands, as there is no memory in the seeing or the understanding. Stated differently, you see everything afresh and this newness cannot be expressed by your DL, as in DL, you speak, see or understand from your history of conditioning. In EL, by contrast, you are free, you have temporarily stopped your history of conditioning, as you have stopped your DL. EL and DL are mutually exclusive, they never happen together. Initially, inevitably and annoyingly, you will still go back and forth between DL and EL, but eventually, your EL will continue.

 

After you have acknowledged, your conditioning history pulls you back into DL, you’ll notice, your increased awareness makes you want to stop your DL and engage in EL. Moreover, you realize, you are free from yourself in EL, for as long as you are able to stop your DL. And, as stated, you are, of course, not stopping your DL, nor were you having EL, as these fluctuations in your behavior happen because they could happen. With DL, there will always be a forceful, effortful unnaturalness in your behavior, which repeats and stays the same, as you don’t and can’t allow change to occur, but in EL, your behavior is fluid, as you know, there is no one, who behaves.

 

Only your EL can reveal the nature of your DL. There is, however, nobody to whom anything is revealed, as this is simply our common, incorrect, problematic way of talking about stuff. Although during EL, you will feel liberated from the experiencer, who falsely claimed your experience, this absence is continually overtaken by your DL, in which you imagine, you  return, as the experiencer of your experience and, therefore, you feel worried, stressed, agitated or confused again. Going back and forth, you’ll notice you are unconscious in DL, but conscious in EL.

 

The words you use are still the same, but you use your words differently in EL. In EL, you still say: I see, I taste or I remember, but there is no one who sees, there is no one who tastes, there is no entity, who remembers, as there is only seeing, tasting and remembering the truth, which was hidden in your language for so long. When we have EL together, we all agree, our profound understanding is possible, as  there is no you, who speaks, nor a me, who listens. As our experience is finally correctly expressed by our EL – even when it is occasionally still necessarily the experience of our history with DL – we feel that our body changes or, as we usually say, we let go of our identification with our experience, which is, of course, our identification with our body. We attain our LE, by verbally staying with the scientific fact that there is no behavior-controlling agent inside.