Great,
It feels great,
to engage in Embodied Language (EL) and to have nothing to say, as I
acknowledge, I don’t want to say, what I have already said, as that
would be another episode of Disembodied Language (DL). Therefore, my energy is
regulated by how I deal with my language. I have as much energy as I do, because
I stay away from DL. Most of my behavior is about staying away from DL. My involvement
in EL, is only a small portion of the totality of my behavior.
I am able to
happily continue with my EL, because I recognize and, thus, actively avoid DL.
Moreover, my active avoidance behavior is,
proportionally, most of what I do. If I put a number on it, I would score my
active avoidance behavior somewhere around 85%. My approach behavior is only 10%
and my escape behavior is only 5%. In other words, I only approach what is
beneficial to me. My need to escape, is kept at a minimum, as I am very good at
avoiding danger.
The proportion
(85:10:5), is an important number, which illustrates, how I function in my life.
I don’t engage in and effortlessly avoid energy-draining DL, because I have
experienced and fully admitted, it doesn’t do me any good. I basically don’t
approach anything that is harmful to me and only come closer to people or circumstances,
that support who I am.
It feels
great, most of my attention, can naturally go to avoiding anything threatening.
This is possible, as I verbally pay attention, to everything that asks my
attention. I don’t believe there can be any language inside of me and having a
mind or thoughts is of no concern to me, but whatever catches my attention, is
verbally expressed by me, when I talk with myself.
It feels
great, to take time, to say out loud to myself, whatever I can’t say to others,
so that I can hear and feel exactly what it is. Most of what I am able to say
and would like to say, would get me trouble, if I said it. I know what that is
like and rather speak out loud with myself, as that protects and prevents me
from saying and approaching dangerous situations, from which I would later have
to escape. I have paid the price for carelessly saying, whatever I wanted to
say, and I feel great peace, now that this compulsion has been redirected, because
talking with myself really became more
important than talking with others.
Talking with
myself is my active avoidance behavior, which is needed to be able to continue
with my EL. I want to continue with my EL, because it feels great. EL is safe
and it always has beneficial consequences. I can’t begin to sum up the many positive
outcomes, I experience every day, which have made me aware about my priority: Language
Enlightenment (LE) is the theme of my life and I express it with my EL.
I have a
gong, which makes a wonderful resonant sound when I strike it. The sound is gone,
if I place three pins on it. The gong sounds muffled with the pins on it, but
when I take off these three pins, the gong’s original sound returns. This gong has
told me about my voice, which changes, due
to three habits. I lose my authentic sound, if I don’t listen to myself while I
speak. I wondered what made me forget, to listen to myself and came up with three
reasons.
I engage in
DL, every time I don’t listen to myself and when listening to others or others
listening to me, is more important than me listening to myself. I don’t listen
to myself while I speak, every time I get carried away by what I say. So,
firstly, verbal fixation makes me forget my sound and my experience of how I
say what I say. Secondly, there is always some kind of struggle for attention
in DL. Today, on the radio, someone said: attention is currency. However, the
attention I get in DL, is not the kind of attention I want. Such attention
feeds negative behavior. This struggle is often said to be inward and outward,
but this division between the so-called internal and the external environment –
which are, of course, merely verbal constructs – is created and maintained by our
DL. In EL, this tormenting division doesn’t occur. In EL, we experience a great
sense of oneness, which dissolves our common, verbal inner-outer fantasy. I
used to call the third pin, outward orientation, but it needs some more elaboration.
I would call the third pin today: concept-confusion. Just because we talk about
having a mind, doesn’t mean that it exists.
To
reiterate, there are three reasons, why I didn’t listen to the sound of my own
voice, while I speak: 1) I verbally fixate, 2) I struggle and 3) I am on guard because
I am fearful and, thus, I am drawn outward. This so-called being distracted by our
imaginary external environment, this being unconscious about our own verbal formulation
of our inner selves and also, our great fear of not being heard, is caused by DL, in which we fight and argue, to get each
other’s attention, but don’t give any attention to ourselves.
If we admit the,
as of yet, unacknowledged fact about DL – our usual way of talking – that
speakers always demand the listener’s attention, we realize how immature and
childish our usual way of dealing with our language is, in which speakers
always try to dominate, exploit and manipulate the listener. I love my own, but
also your EL, in which we can listen to ourselves and celebrate our LE
together. Indeed, EL is like having a great party in honor of who we are.
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