Outburst,

 

My emotional outburst is – and has always been – to protect and liberate myself from anyone, who harms and disrespects me. I take everything very personal, because I don’t speak on behalf of any group. People blame me for, supposedly, making it personal. Even though I pay the price, I can’t help, I let them feel and know, they negatively affect me, because they don’t want to own up, to what they are doing. Surely, I don’t tolerate their ignorance about themselves and this is the story of my life.  

 

I am happy about my Embodied Language (EL), but   everyone is unconsciously engaged in Disembodied Language (DL) and doesn’t give a damn about me or my EL. I am sixty-five and four days old and I realize,  how fortunate I am, because I express my Language Enlightenment (LE) with my EL. For years, I was the victim, who begged to be accepted, but now, that I have come into my own, it is evident, I absolutely abhor everyone, who engages in brutal, dumb DL.

 

Any outburst of violence and hatred is the inevitable consequence of our mechanical involvement in DL. These escalations keep occurring, because we don’t act as individuals, but we believe, that we belong to some political, religious or ethnic group. All conflict and chaos, is created by group-behavior and not by individual behavior. Individual behavior is the only behavior, which creates real order and requires EL.  

 

When you explore the difference between your DL and your EL, you will experience an outburst of joy. With your EL, you will, for the first time, consciously,  express who you really are. Yes, this is an emotional matter, since you haven’t done that and you realize that. You will cry, laugh and experience great relief, when you begin to express your LE with your EL.

 

Actually, there is no such a thing, as an outburst of religious, political or ethnic animosity, but since we are all – due to our habitual stupid DL – trapped in what people call group-think, we imagine, we have a mind, which explodes, when our so-called identity is challenged by those, who behave different from us. With our DL, we can never talk appropriately about our fears and fantasies, which are created and maintained how we talk. Only with our EL, can we let go of the paranoid fabrications of our DL.

 

We are trying to hide ourselves in a group, but the reality of our individual lives is – although we have had a few, short-lived moments of it – we don’t know how to engage in EL, because we are stuck in a dissociative language, that is working against us, instead of for us. Yes, our inability to have EL and to  express the self-knowledge, happiness and peace of our LE, is felt, by each of us, as our personal failure.

 

Each time, we have EL together, we celebrate our LE and we experience an outburst of energy. Of course, this happens, because the energy, that was drained by our DL, comes running back to us. However, this can only occur, if we dare to be alone with ourselves and abandon the verbal constructs, which make the individual exploration of our language impossible. It is really true, your own verbal truth will set you free.

 

By bringing all your attention to speaking, listening, writing and reading – that is, by fully acknowledging your participation in overt language and, therefore, by rejecting the by DL-created false notion of inner language – you are going to experience an outburst of knowledge, because you will express, what you are capable of expressing and had always wanted to express, but you could never say it, hear it, write it or read it, as long as you were still engaged in DL.

 

Having another nasty hissy-fit is stupid, childish and utterly meaningless, because your temper-tantrum always involves the continuation of your insensitive, attention-demanding, energy-draining DL, however, if your outburst results in ongoing EL, then you will experience a mutation of who you believed yourself to be. You have permanently changed, because your EL immediately reveals your LE. Your DL-history may  still linger on for a while, but the transformation has already happened, because you have acknowledged the gigantic difference between your DL and EL.  

 

There is a lot of work to be done, because the way in which you deal with language, determines all of your other behavior. Your behavioral repertoire is self-defeating, as it is based on your involvement in DL. With EL, you are going to change, beyond what you had ever held possible. You will find yourself involved in an outburst of activity and experiments. With DL, you have been underperforming, as you didn’t have the energy to do well and to do what you wanted to. With EL you always have energy and to delight in that energy is your LE.