Feeling,

 

How wonderful it is to be able to say and write what I want and to know and experience that what I have said and written honors my real feelings. There is such a wonderful outcome unfolding that continues to amaze me about how all of this apparently works.

 

Today I understand a still rather underexposed aspect of my Embodied Language (EL), about which I have not said or written much. It is about the vulnerable, precious fact that during EL we actually speak from our feelings. Oddly enough, speaking with feeling is a skill very few people seem to have.

 

In our usual feeling-deprived Disembodied Language (DL), we are only capable of pretending over and over again that we are speaking with real, true feelings and expressing our polite, fanatical, docile, obedient, obliging, impatient, easily distracted, so-called listeners, also only pretend that we are very frank, personal, straightforward, authentic and therefore sensitive, while everything is always merely acted.

 

Emotionally blocked, dissatisfied people have remained, to this day, deeply in awe of all sorts of self-righteous, supposedly passionate, attention-seeking celebrities, who can seemingly afford and even get paid big money to express their feelings , which, in turn, hit the very core, which we – the listeners as speakers - never seem to get to.

 

Others always seem more able to say it like it is or what it really is about, but because of our unconscious participation in DL, no one notices at all that all our celebrated, important personalities, show nothing of what they actually really feel, let alone that they could talk about it honestly. We are all preoccupied with DL without even realizing it, because we have no idea what it feels like to talk from our feelings.

 

In DL, we all involuntarily pretend that the way our emotions are spoken about is an issue that some are more gifted at than others. That is why we give up talking about our own feelings and leave it to well-spoken, educated, overwhelming, distraction-providing others. We pretend to appreciate the feelings which are expressed by others, when in reality nothing is said about how we feel ourselves.

 

We simply don't know how to communicate our real feelings verbally and look up to charismatic figures, who are only good at pretending to express their own feelings as well as ours. The only speaker who can express his feelings, is he or she who has EL. And, the only person who knows this and who, like me, can speak or write about this simply and intelligibly, is someone who has discovered his or her Language Enlightenment (LE) and who speaks about feelings in such a way that words clarify feelings, instead of suppressing them.

 

In DL, what we really experience - and thus feel - is completely lost, because weighty, profound, playful, meaningful, supposedly intelligent words are at the expense of what we really experience. It is obvious that what we say or write – the content – ​​is always seemingly more important than the way we say or write it, and as a result, our feelings come out in dribs and drabs, in a contrived way. Either it's all too obvious, or we pretend we don't care again and laugh like crazy, because it's all so fascinating and amusing.

 

Speaking with feeling is very rare. That's why even if we have a moment of EL, it can't last and show us what really matters to us and others. Cults always arise around speaking with feeling. We give it fancy names like spirituality, psychology, meditation or philosophy, but nothing we've done so far has led to the progress of EL. On the contrary, everything we claim to know has made us forget our feelings. There has always been a huge overestimation of what one knows and a huge underestimation of what we can feel and therefore what we mean.

 

From the foregoing it becomes clear that there has always been a conflict between what we say we know and what we still feel, because we cannot forget it. We still experience our emotions, even if we are unable to speak about them honestly and continuously. Our use of language is almost exclusively focused on struggle, because we try to cope with the continuation of negative emotions, while pretending to have positive feelings. There is an unavoidable reactivity going on with DL – and  thus with almost constantly experiencing negative emotions – that makes everyone defensive, reserved, anxious and fearful, or very extroverted, dominant, assertive, explosive or expressive.

 

Nobody knows about EL, in which we verbalize our feelings in a positive and balanced way. There is also a generally accepted notion that when someone is feeling emotional, it is always be about something negative, which is of course utter nonsense. On the other hand, our emotional nuance is something that is negated by all our superficiality and superstition. People often talk these days about what should or should not be said, but there is a great taboo on talking from our constantly changing emotional life.

 

EL is the language of our aliveness, in which we can stay in the flow of our positive feelings. However, as soon as someone shows anything of what he or she really feels – that is, in a positive sense – then others try to take it away, by immediately go over it with their insensitivity and it is made to appear, as if there must be some kind of competition going on between how we feel, because, subconsciously, because of our almost constant participation in DL, all of us feel deeply emotionally malnourished.